Days 27-28 and start of 29 (8.12.13)
Spent Friday night and Saturday morning cabin camping with a bunch of Boy Scouts. This was a really cool reenactment cabin/fort for a Lewis Clark exploration outpost. This meant wood beds (yes wood frame bunk beds with solid wood slats then a straw mat) and the cabins were period with logs and grout walls. That part of the experience was great.
The suck...the other 4 adult leaders were all Nicotine addicts. The group was composed of 4 former military and only one smoker. Evening one was fine; no urges and I even preached why they should quit and pointed out what kind of example they were setting. Saturday morning however was the shittiest day of my quit. Thank God that I posted up my Quit plan on Friday though because it reminded me constantly.
Saturday I get up in a dark cabin lit by one candle...mill around trying to find my shoes so I can sneak off to the latrine. searching with weary eyes and no light I stumbled across a can of Kodiak, no biggie move to another area...then I find a can of Copenhagen Long Cut; damn did my brain become weak...Just one pinch my mind wondered.
I immediately put it back, found my shoes. Hit the latrine and then my truck. Thank goodness I had put my gym bag in there because I was going to train outside with some new USMC Recruits later on Saturday. I changed into my shorts and t-shirt, laced up my shoes and ran. It was 0345 and I ran for 2 miles then completed 50 push ups, then ran a little over a mile and found a playground where I did 50 pull-ups. I finally redirected my run back to camp.
When I returned non of the adult leaders were yet awake. So I quietly snuck into the cabin grabbed my rucksack and headed for the solar shower. I felt good knowing that I QUIT. However, I felt like shit because my mind almost let me and all of you down. Returning from my shower I decided to help my fellow scouters.
I took some post-it notes from my truck and wrote I quit with you in all caps on the notes and signed them. Then I found every can I could; wrapped electrical tape around the sides and posted the note on top.
I believe that one of them is now on his route to quitting because he smiled and threw his worm dirt in the trash. One of the boys form the group hearing about my early morning escapade has started discussions with me about his Eagle project. He wants to start a program for people quitting a Nicotine addiction. If nothing else perhaps that will make more people want to QUIT for themselves.
None the less this is day 29, I am still quit and now more pissed because I myself (the hardass as I have been referred to) almost succumbed in a moment of weakness. I QUIT WITH ALL OF YOU and I promise to start QUIT today.
QFQQ,
Pinched