New Quitter

[Pinched]

Day 170 - 12/29/13
Yesterday evening I met with STLHoosier form January 2014 group for a couple of beers after work. Awesome guy, works in the same industry as I do now and we know a lot of the same people. That is now 2 January 2014 quitters (one of these days I will meet a fellow Duck Fip too).

Went home and got a call from my mother. She had her consultation with her Surgeon and regarding her positive test result for breast cancer. She is scheduled for a double mastectomy in January. After the seriousness bomb was dropped I paused for a moment before saying..."Well mom the good news is that you are old, dad passed away in November of 2012 so you have no real need for breasts anyway now". She went form a somber whoa is me attitude to laughing a little, then she reminded me that I was an asshole (as if that was ever in question).

This morning I got up and did a 9.5 mile run, it was 12 degrees outside and I have icicles in my beard, I haven't run for at least a week so it felt great. While on the run my New Year's resolution came to me, every day I am going to write a note to each one of my kids in a notebook for a year, to let them know why I am thankful that they came into my life.

I missed the birth of child one and two and I will be damned if they will only have physical things to remember me by when it is my time to go. I realized that last week when I erupted it didn't only impact my oldest son but the whole fam damily.

2014 has the promise of being a great year and I plan on making some lemonade out of all these damned lemons. It might not be the sweetest batch ever but I will make it, drink it and share it.

Happy New Years eve to all of you, be safe this evening and be thankful,

Pinched

[B-loMatt]

Day 168 - 12/29/13
Well this was certainly an interesting holiday season. I am quit, will stay quit today and that is the best fucking news I can share. If not for texts from some badass quitters and my posting roll daily I do not think I could share that same news.

Christmas was great, enjoyed watching my kids open gifts, loved building presents and eating great food, all without a nasty ass dip in my mouth. However, the day after was like a nuclear fallout...my 11 year old decided that he was in a bad mood and made he mistake of starting in on me. While we argued his mother decided to interject without knowing the origin, and all of that caused the time bomb in my head o explode.

I erupted into a flurry of wanting o hit something and instead decided to pak a bag and head for the farm. I spent the next day shooting turkeys, clay pigeons and various other things. I wound up having to fixa hole in the barn roof from something crashing through it, perhaps aUFO because no one had a clue what happened. Then on the eve of that night I get a phone all informing me that my mother outback test results and was confirmed to have breast cancer.

I sat on the porch of the farmhouse staing out towards the pond reflecting when I determined that I need a pinch. After a search of my pockets and truck I determined that I did not have any SM or Hooch on me. No seeds, no hot tamales or red hots...fuck me running!

After a trip into town (one hour drive) I found som hot tamales, and survived. I decided that night to drive home and arrived at about 0230. I woke my son to apologize to him for my eruption. Although he was in the wrong I was way wrong for allowing the old me to come out in front of him. See beak in the day young Pinched was always first to fight and last o talk, and I let that dickhead back out. I nev laid a hand on anyone, I didn't even punch through a wall, but I contemplated all of those options.

I spent the next day (yesterday) finishing some bookcases I started over three months ago. Finished and installed them, then added accent lighting, I got to say it all looks damn good too. Wile doing that I came o the realization that I fucked up but maintained control. The old me would have hit the wall, packed a dip, then drank at least a six pack while I drove to the farm. I did none of those. Yes I lathed up things with all in the house and I think it may have been a good thing for them to get the see the old side of me, I am not a big guy by any means but when in a rage can move mountains. My son learned my hot button and a am fairly certain he is not owing to stomp on that mine again.

His mother on the other hand knew about that button, knows the cause and effect, we too are now good. She now is completely clear that judgement can not be made or passed in font of youth without a proper investigation and trial.

Today, I feel as the funk has passed. The advice from KTC, the knowledge that other quitters noticed that i wasn't quite myself and the fact that some were actually concerned all made me feel better.

Life continues to happen, and my resolve to stay. Quit is stronger because of it. I refuse to lose so again FUCK YOU TOBACCO!

Pinched

Damn good stuff here Pinched. If the rage is coming get out the house... I am envious that you have a farm to retreat to, but good choices made by you. No cave, no punching walls (hurts if you hit a stud and then you just have to fix it), no hitting people, and you went and shot things that are o.k. to shoot... Got your self together and then set things straight with the family. Top it all off by finishing a project you started months ago... You better finish all your projects or the wife may push the button to see if it works again!

[Pinched]

Day 168 - 12/29/13
Well this was certainly an interesting holiday season. I am quit, will stay quit today and that is the best fucking news I can share. If not for texts from some badass quitters and my posting roll daily I do not think I could share that same news.

Christmas was great, enjoyed watching my kids open gifts, loved building presents and eating great food, all without a nasty ass dip in my mouth. However, the day after was like a nuclear fallout...my 11 year old decided that he was in a bad mood and made he mistake of starting in on me. While we argued his mother decided to interject without knowing the origin, and all of that caused the time bomb in my head o explode.

I erupted into a flurry of wanting o hit something and instead decided to pak a bag and head for the farm. I spent the next day shooting turkeys, clay pigeons and various other things. I wound up having to fixa hole in the barn roof from something crashing through it, perhaps aUFO because no one had a clue what happened. Then on the eve of that night I get a phone all informing me that my mother outback test results and was confirmed to have breast cancer.

I sat on the porch of the farmhouse staing out towards the pond reflecting when I determined that I need a pinch. After a search of my pockets and truck I determined that I did not have any SM or Hooch on me. No seeds, no hot tamales or red hots...fuck me running!

After a trip into town (one hour drive) I found som hot tamales, and survived. I decided that night to drive home and arrived at about 0230. I woke my son to apologize to him for my eruption. Although he was in the wrong I was way wrong for allowing the old me to come out in front of him. See beak in the day young Pinched was always first to fight and last o talk, and I let that dickhead back out. I nev laid a hand on anyone, I didn't even punch through a wall, but I contemplated all of those options.

I spent the next day (yesterday) finishing some bookcases I started over three months ago. Finished and installed them, then added accent lighting, I got to say it all looks damn good too. Wile doing that I came o the realization that I fucked up but maintained control. The old me would have hit the wall, packed a dip, then drank at least a six pack while I drove to the farm. I did none of those. Yes I lathed up things with all in the house and I think it may have been a good thing for them to get the see the old side of me, I am not a big guy by any means but when in a rage can move mountains. My son learned my hot button and a am fairly certain he is not owing to stomp on that mine again.

His mother on the other hand knew about that button, knows the cause and effect, we too are now good. She now is completely clear that judgement can not be made or passed in font of youth without a proper investigation and trial.

Today, I feel as the funk has passed. The advice from KTC, the knowledge that other quitters noticed that i wasn't quite myself and the fact that some were actually concerned all made me feel better.

Life continues to happen, and my resolve to stay. Quit is stronger because of it. I refuse to lose so again FUCK YOU TOBACCO!

Pinched

[traumagnet]

Pinched, it was a real honor to meet you in person yesterday. My respect has grown exponentially after spending some time swapping stories and philosophies, and I already admired the level of leadership and support you provide here.

Anyone who gets a chance to meet a fellow quitter should do so. It means a lot to get to know the person behind the name.  Meeting in person peels back a layer and deepens the supportive and accounability relationship, deepens the brotherhood.  You look the guy in the eyes who will be kicking your a** if you need it, and offerring you a hand if you stumble and reach out. It really takes it to another level.

Proud to be quit with this man, and glad he's in my corner!

He touched me in my naughty place when I met him..... ;)

SHHHH he told me not to tell...

[ParadigmDawg]

Pinched, it was a real honor to meet you in person yesterday. My respect has grown exponentially after spending some time swapping stories and philosophies, and I already admired the level of leadership and support you provide here.

Anyone who gets a chance to meet a fellow quitter should do so. It means a lot to get to know the person behind the name. Meeting in person peels back a layer and deepens the supportive and accounability relationship, deepens the brotherhood. You look the guy in the eyes who will be kicking your a** if you need it, and offerring you a hand if you stumble and reach out. It really takes it to another level.

Proud to be quit with this man, and glad he's in my corner!

He touched me in my naughty place when I met him..... ;)

[brettlees]

Pinched, it was a real honor to meet you in person yesterday. My respect has grown exponentially after spending some time swapping stories and philosophies, and I already admired the level of leadership and support you provide here.

Anyone who gets a chance to meet a fellow quitter should do so. It means a lot to get to know the person behind the name. Meeting in person peels back a layer and deepens the supportive and accounability relationship, deepens the brotherhood. You look the guy in the eyes who will be kicking your a** if you need it, and offerring you a hand if you stumble and reach out. It really takes it to another level.

Proud to be quit with this man, and glad he's in my corner!

[Kdip]

Day 157 - 12/18/13
Damn this has been a killer week.  Over the weekend we got 10" of snow preceded by freezing rain.  Sunday I headed for Detroit, then drove to Ann Arbor (beautiful town BTW).  Attended a meeting on Monday that went for 10 hours, 10 hours of hearing people talk about building design but yet not doing enough work to issue drawings.

Tuesday morning I headed back to Detroit to jump on a plane to Phoenix.  Then drove from Phoenix to Scottsdale.  Attended a meeting with a client of a client, now they want to be one of m y client's too.  Great guys, fantastic buildings.  OMG, the women in Scottsdale are fucking amazing, either sexy like models or built like porn stars.

Tuesday night headed to Denver, arrived at hotel around 12:30 AM.  Damn long day.  Today I have a deliverable to complete for a client, then network with people.  Thursday I head for Sarasota and then finally will be headed home on Saturday. 

Great time to travel, especially when Santa has some last minute shopping to do.  No matter how much it can suck to travel like this, I am quit.  I gave my word and that means a lot to me, plus the nasty dip fucking stinks.

Again FUN (Fuck You Nicotine) and QFQQ,

Pinched

What no pictures of the hotties in Scottsdale! Travel safe brother and I quit with you today!

QFQQ

Talk about hot Arizona women with out pictures to back it up is pretty lame! :P Sounds like my trip last week. Safe travels and proud to be quit with you today Pinch!!!

[Jlud007]

Day 157 - 12/18/13
Damn this has been a killer week. Over the weekend we got 10" of snow preceded by freezing rain. Sunday I headed for Detroit, then drove to Ann Arbor (beautiful town BTW). Attended a meeting on Monday that went for 10 hours, 10 hours of hearing people talk about building design but yet not doing enough work to issue drawings.

Tuesday morning I headed back to Detroit to jump on a plane to Phoenix. Then drove from Phoenix to Scottsdale. Attended a meeting with a client of a client, now they want to be one of m y client's too. Great guys, fantastic buildings. OMG, the women in Scottsdale are fucking amazing, either sexy like models or built like porn stars.

Tuesday night headed to Denver, arrived at hotel around 12:30 AM. Damn long day. Today I have a deliverable to complete for a client, then network with people. Thursday I head for Sarasota and then finally will be headed home on Saturday.

Great time to travel, especially when Santa has some last minute shopping to do. No matter how much it can suck to travel like this, I am quit. I gave my word and that means a lot to me, plus the nasty dip fucking stinks.

Again FUN (Fuck You Nicotine) and QFQQ,

Pinched

What no pictures of the hotties in Scottsdale! Travel safe brother and I quit with you today!

QFQQ

[tarpon17]

Day 150 - 12/11/13

Las of today I have officially been nicotine free for 150 days.  However, I almost totally fucked it up and I want to share that with all, so no one ever makes the mistake I almost did.  I was at a construction tradeshow and was discussing with someone else my quit and how proud I was of it.  He asked if I ever used any fake dip, and yeah I have, but not much recently as my need for it has faded.  Then he offered me a pinch of this Elicit fake dip that he had, it was cinnamon flavored and smelled great.  I packed the tin with one quick monkey can slap, making sure one finger is loose to announce the coming of the pinch...Dumbass habit.  Just when I open tin he mentions that is has nicotine in it.  I immediately put the lid on, and said nope, not for me.

I was furious because I almost stepped on my dick with fake dip, then I went onto the site from my phone and read the review about the stuff.  Without reading previously I figured well it is "OK" right.  Then I learned that sure enough that company makes, full, half and none for dosages of nicotine.  So buyer beware, do not become complacent and think well it is a tobacco alternative...I am a male and seldom read first, I also would drive around for a hundred miles before ever asking for directions.

That was four days ago, and I a, pissed still.  I could just see it, I don't get dip dreams but this caused a flash in my head.  Holy FUCK, I think I actually heard my phone ringing off the hook from quitters calling to offer a boot to flatten my ass!

None the less I made it unscathed, just tested.  I remain quit and will continue to post with every group and proclaim my freedom of choice.  After the coaching from Some of the KTC veterans, I have made myself milestones along the Path and they are at every 50 days.  This is in effort to keep me from becoming complacent, complacency and belief of being cured has caused many a cave here.  I read Sir Derek's thought on the why for that and I agree, but one thing I also have going is my hate of losing, so agin FU Nic Bitch, I don't need you in my life.

Ooh, that is most certainly almost being "pinched" for sure. Didn't your mama ever teach you not to take "e-cans" from '"strangers"????? Thank God they told you it had nicotine in it..... way to stay quit pinched!

wow, the rage I had at day 150 would have been stellar for that situation! Sounds like we should a quitters meet in Scottsdale. I need some dry air......

[Pinched]

Day 157 - 12/18/13
Damn this has been a killer week. Over the weekend we got 10" of snow preceded by freezing rain. Sunday I headed for Detroit, then drove to Ann Arbor (beautiful town BTW). Attended a meeting on Monday that went for 10 hours, 10 hours of hearing people talk about building design but yet not doing enough work to issue drawings.

Tuesday morning I headed back to Detroit to jump on a plane to Phoenix. Then drove from Phoenix to Scottsdale. Attended a meeting with a client of a client, now they want to be one of m y client's too. Great guys, fantastic buildings. OMG, the women in Scottsdale are fucking amazing, either sexy like models or built like porn stars.

Tuesday night headed to Denver, arrived at hotel around 12:30 AM. Damn long day. Today I have a deliverable to complete for a client, then network with people. Thursday I head for Sarasota and then finally will be headed home on Saturday.

Great time to travel, especially when Santa has some last minute shopping to do. No matter how much it can suck to travel like this, I am quit. I gave my word and that means a lot to me, plus the nasty dip fucking stinks.

Again FUN (Fuck You Nicotine) and QFQQ,

Pinched

[Mogul]

OK, that one I'm filing under "good shit to know". How many of us would have fallen for that??? Many I would presume. Thanks Pinched. That is a great lesson.

mogul

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

That was a doosh trick from that dude. Lucky he told you first I would have had to beat him senseless if I would have pissed away all my days for a day1. You are lucky he told you before you put it in your mouth. my phone would have been ringing in the evidence locker while I was waiting to see the judge. That story makes me angry its just like the cocksuckers that intentionally try to get you to dip when you have had a few beers...COCKS.

Proud of you Pinched I think the dishonor is with that dude not you. I thank you for telling us about this story I never heard of the shit. What the hell  will they think of next half crack half heroin

I am specifically sharing it because it is on our website under smokeless alternatives, so without getting into the details you would think oh yeah that shit is safe...no worries, because I found out and I am still quit, I fucking came unglued though.

Newbies, be careful if you decide to order any of that shit though...check the right box, as I logged into their site last night to learn more about it myself.

Thanks for sharing that pinched. I needed to read that so bad. Even though I am only on day 19 I am really starting to feel better and am knocking craves back pretty quickly now. But this really got my attention that even though I might think everything is great, my fucking addiction is always lurking. I guess the word I need to keep in mind is VIGILANCE. Thanks Man.

Way to hang tough Pinched. I'd cross that dirty fuck off my xmas card list. And then maybe piss in his gatorade bottle.

[rdad]

That was a doosh trick from that dude. Lucky he told you first I would have had to beat him senseless if I would have pissed away all my days for a day1. You are lucky he told you before you put it in your mouth. my phone would have been ringing in the evidence locker while I was waiting to see the judge. That story makes me angry its just like the cocksuckers that intentionally try to get you to dip when you have had a few beers...COCKS.

Proud of you Pinched I think the dishonor is with that dude not you. I thank you for telling us about this story I never heard of the shit. What the hell  will they think of next half crack half heroin

I am specifically sharing it because it is on our website under smokeless alternatives, so without getting into the details you would think oh yeah that shit is safe...no worries, because I found out and I am still quit, I fucking came unglued though.

Newbies, be careful if you decide to order any of that shit though...check the right box, as I logged into their site last night to learn more about it myself.

Thanks for sharing that pinched. I needed to read that so bad. Even though I am only on day 19 I am really starting to feel better and am knocking craves back pretty quickly now. But this really got my attention that even though I might think everything is great, my fucking addiction is always lurking. I guess the word I need to keep in mind is VIGILANCE. Thanks Man.

[Pinched]

That was a doosh trick from that dude. Lucky he told you first I would have had to beat him senseless if I would have pissed away all my days for a day1. You are lucky he told you before you put it in your mouth. my phone would have been ringing in the evidence locker while I was waiting to see the judge. That story makes me angry its just like the cocksuckers that intentionally try to get you to dip when you have had a few beers...COCKS.

Proud of you Pinched I think the dishonor is with that dude not you. I thank you for telling us about this story I never heard of the shit. What the hell will they think of next half crack half heroin

I am specifically sharing it because it is on our website under smokeless alternatives, so without getting into the details you would think oh yeah that shit is safe...no worries, because I found out and I am still quit, I fucking came unglued though.

Newbies, be careful if you decide to order any of that shit though...check the right box, as I logged into their site last night to learn more about it myself.

[traumagnet]

That was a doosh trick from that dude. Lucky he told you first I would have had to beat him senseless if I would have pissed away all my days for a day1. You are lucky he told you before you put it in your mouth. my phone would have been ringing in the evidence locker while I was waiting to see the judge. That story makes me angry its just like the cocksuckers that intentionally try to get you to dip when you have had a few beers...COCKS.

Proud of you Pinched I think the dishonor is with that dude not you. I thank you for telling us about this story I never heard of the shit. What the hell will they think of next half crack half heroin