12/1/14 - Day 505
Over 500 days ago I quit here using the KTC method. Since my quit some monumental life has happened along the way. Also, some quit supporters have come and gone (some because they went to a new sandbox, others because they just took their own leap). Though I wish I could have them all here at KTC to continue to guide me but also to guide newbies as well. I have gone through the stages of trying to quit, being the smartest quitter there is and to just being quit showing support for those in need and responding when I have something to add. Other quitters may choose to use words against others or voice their opinions, after all this is America and many men fought for your ability to have your own opinion, so feel free to voice it, just keep the slander to a minimum.
I have also suffered life in terms of major family arguments, shoulder surgery, ruptured eardrum, instability in marriage (which is all shored up now), loss of family and friends and now distance from my family so I can help shore up a project in Denver. So I leave my beautiful wife and three kids alone for two weeks at a time only to see them for 40 hours each other weekend. Then I trudge to Denver to help a very emotionally unstable group of people try to complete a construction project. No matter what good I do here, none of these individuals are moving on to the next project. No matter how I give direction, someone get their feelings hurt. Apparently my training prior to this desensitized me, as I stand among them telling them all that SAD is not a construction feeling. If any of you have to deal with this kind of people I recommend the book "toxic co-workers", really nails the behaviors and helps you identify how to talk to this kind of people.
While I deal with this I still fight off cravings from time to time. They are not nearly as often but they are strong as hell when they are here. A quick set of burpees and they go away just fine. Then I reflect on how fucked up my brain is that it still allows the nic bitch to whisper into my ear. Life will go on though, I remain quit and I myself do not see my going adrift from KTC because I need it still; I need to reassurance and accountability. Those who have left still get my support daily via a text, that won't change either because they helped me find the path.