For whatever reason, yesterday and today have been really tough. The cravings have been really persistent. Actually, the worst cravings since I started my quit.
I work in an office with 15 people and 5 smoke and 4 dip, so nic is all around me. They all know I'm quit, so they leave me alone, but for whatever reason, the last couple of days, I see their cans, see them dipping, and I start feeling craves.
I even found my self thinking that I could get away with just one ... can you fucking believe that? I am a damn nicotine addict, and I sat there thinking that I could have just one dip. Yeah, right. I'm really pissed off at myself for even thinking about it.
The good news is that I'm quit. But I am sure dissipointed that, after the hell of the past 17 days, I could actually sit in my office and even allow the thought that I can get away with just one enter my head. I knew I'd have cravings and I know I'll have more of them in the future, but I guess I thought my brain was past debating that "one more is ok." Obviously not.