First and foremost, Killthecan.org is the shizzzniz!!
It's crazy how when I was a kid I would break my moms cigs and spit in the many brass spittoons that were throughout the house at an early age. It wasn't long until I was smoking and chewing daily before I was old enough to drive a car.... legally anyway. I fell in love with Copenhagen long before I stole a pinch from my Dad, and when my brother and I were in full swing which started my Freshman year of H.S. and my mom would wake us up yelling, " get that shit out of your mouth!" Apparently we liked it so much we just fell asleep with it.....LOL.....Hell, I was chewing from sun up to sun down then and have been for the past 20 years. I've taken a few years off here and there and smoked or basically switched from one to the other. And before long I was doing both at the same time daily.
I quit all tobacco 3 years ago from taking Chantix and it lasted for about 8 months I guess before I started up smoking and chewing. Chantix works and it works well but for me personally it effected my brain chemistry in a way that was unpleasing.
So, the past 4 days of no nicotine have been a first for me in my lifetime because I actually just quit. Hmmm, go figure.
But it's important to note that I gave up the cigarettes 5 months ago first and intentionally knew that the best and only way for me not to smoke was to just chew and so it was and here 5 months later I knew that I had the smoking whipped and have for some time but the thought of not having my best friend Copenhagen with me was the most terrifying thought I've contended with in my life time. Well, other than having my face cut off and ultimately dying and leaving my sons bastards.
But they go hand in hand and I think most of us would agree. The dilema..... knowing what was at risk, I would live my life in fear and allow my fear to drive my addiction and repeat the cycle each morning and all day into the night. All the while knowing i was killing myself and being selfish.
So, how did I outsmart myself........well
I've had a supply of Smoky Mountain wintergreen chew but I wish I had some of the Hooch Spitfire dip. Nothing better than feeling that burn of a fresh dip and the Spitfire gives it to you like that first chew did. In case you didn't realize......I love to chew, I remember chewing licorice in round cans in the early 80's ( like 4 years old) and also chewing Jerky snuff until I started chewing the real stuff. So I've been filling my lip up my whole life and... I don't want to stop spitting, I enjoy it damn it....8-)
So for the past 4 days I wake up as normal and put a dip of "tobacco and nicotine" free snuff in. I've had one in all day, as usual for the most part.
And waking up each morning posting roll call and proud that I have quit and holding myself accountable to you, my brothers and sister :). It hasn't been as bad as having a hangover, not as bad as getting a tattoo, And other than the fog for the first couple of days, I'm kicking the shit out of the biiiiiiatch!!
Pride cometh before the fall and I know that I'm only seconds away from losing my quit but this is one fight that isn't worth losing knowing that I can still chew fake chew..LOL....love life and set a positive example for my peers and my family....I think this time I've outsmarted myself! But, I thank KillTheCan.org for being here because without the support of those who reached out to me initially and the overall site, I'm not sure if I would have 4 days under my belt. In fact, I doubt it.
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