Introduction

[Erussell]

Not claming to be a bigger addict, maybe just a weaker individual??  I want to quit, I am quit, 6 days.  Might not be much but its something to me.

I won't be dipping today either, but I am seeing that I need some help.  I am not coping well at all.  I will seek some professional help tomorrow.  I dont think the asshole talk is gonna help much.  I have to talk to a doctor or something.  I cannot eat, I cannot sleep, I cannot drink coffee, I cannot drink beer.  So many triggers I am losing my mind.  If there are meds are something that will help me I have to see. 

I may not know what TO DO, but I know what NOT to do.  No dip for me today, I know it will not make this whirlwind go away, it is the cause of it.  Dont know how to PM and wouldnt know what to say.  Gotta go post roll.  Later.

Good, just get through today with no nicotine.

You're not going to like to hear this but to be quite honest, unless you doctor is a former user, he don't shut about quitting this. He will most likely give you a nicotine supplement, chantix, Wellbutrin, or some other aid.

You do not need this stuff. Maybe some melatonin or some other sleep aid, but that's it.

Just trust what we are telling you.

Bump for a reminder of what nicotine did to me and what I did to myself with nicotine.

I don't hate many things, there is almost no hate within me, BUT DAMN, I HATE ADDICTION, AND I HATE TOBACCO.

Thank God that time can heal most things. As I sit here today I feel so much more whole as a person.

It feels good to hit 200 today. However....................I know that I am but an infant in this quit. Maybe today I graduated kindergarden or preschool. That is how I look at it anyway. See you tomorrow boys and girls.

Ryan

Got2, been watching you sense my first day here. Watching you and learning from you has been one of the reasons i'm still here. I keep looking at the days your stacking up and that's some of my motivation. I live one day at a time, but do look forward to walking in that door at 200. If you don't mind, keep the place clean. I hear some of the members in your group like critters. They have really dirtied the place up around here. Darn them critters. Glad to be quit with you bro.

Congrats to you.

Now that I am over the shock of thinking that this was a cave speech I have to read dates closer, I am good. Yes Ryan I always like to read your posts you are an anchor here keep it up...qlf w you today

Nice Job Ryan.

Well Done Sir!!!

PS i never got my dry ice packed Walleye filets in the mail.

Thanks guys. I dig the milestone thing but on the other I realize it is just another +1.

Razd sorry about the walleye, lol, long gone. Guess youll have to come out here and fish with me sometime.

Trauma, sorry to give you a scare. Definately not a cave speech. If it were it would sound something like this

"so I hit 200 today right. So I decided that I will go out and buy me a big juicy can of Kodiac to celebrate. After all I just need to see if I still like the taste. Or better yet, maybe I will go have a cigar on the golfcourse with my father in law."

What do you think guys? Great idea huh?

Sorry Thor and Minnie I dont mean to pick on you, I just want to see if you can hear how stupid that sounds when it comes from someone else.

You wont ever see a cave speech from me. If I were to cave, you would simple never see me again. I would just vanish. This is the last hurrah for me and KTC my last hope. I have tried everything, everything that is, except brotherhood and accountability. And as it turns out brotherhood and accountability was all it took.

Thanks everyone.

Congrats Ryan on 200!!!! Proud to be part of this journey with you.

I agree me too x2 et c. You are one of my quit heroes Ryan congrates on the second floor! Quit on!

Congrats man!!! I appreciate all that you have done fr me. Your reaching out and words of wisdom have helped. Again well done on the 200!

[B-loMatt]

Not claming to be a bigger addict, maybe just a weaker individual??  I want to quit, I am quit, 6 days.  Might not be much but its something to me.

I won't be dipping today either, but I am seeing that I need some help.  I am not coping well at all.  I will seek some professional help tomorrow.  I dont think the asshole talk is gonna help much.  I have to talk to a doctor or something.  I cannot eat, I cannot sleep, I cannot drink coffee, I cannot drink beer.  So many triggers I am losing my mind.  If there are meds are something that will help me I have to see. 

I may not know what TO DO, but I know what NOT to do.  No dip for me today, I know it will not make this whirlwind go away, it is the cause of it.  Dont know how to PM and wouldnt know what to say.  Gotta go post roll.  Later.

Good, just get through today with no nicotine.

You're not going to like to hear this but to be quite honest, unless you doctor is a former user, he don't shut about quitting this. He will most likely give you a nicotine supplement, chantix, Wellbutrin, or some other aid.

You do not need this stuff. Maybe some melatonin or some other sleep aid, but that's it.

Just trust what we are telling you.

Bump for a reminder of what nicotine did to me and what I did to myself with nicotine.

I don't hate many things, there is almost no hate within me, BUT DAMN, I HATE ADDICTION, AND I HATE TOBACCO.

Thank God that time can heal most things. As I sit here today I feel so much more whole as a person.

It feels good to hit 200 today. However....................I know that I am but an infant in this quit. Maybe today I graduated kindergarden or preschool. That is how I look at it anyway. See you tomorrow boys and girls.

Ryan

Got2, been watching you sense my first day here. Watching you and learning from you has been one of the reasons i'm still here. I keep looking at the days your stacking up and that's some of my motivation. I live one day at a time, but do look forward to walking in that door at 200. If you don't mind, keep the place clean. I hear some of the members in your group like critters. They have really dirtied the place up around here. Darn them critters. Glad to be quit with you bro.

Congrats to you.

Now that I am over the shock of thinking that this was a cave speech I have to read dates closer, I am good. Yes Ryan I always like to read your posts you are an anchor here keep it up...qlf w you today

Nice Job Ryan.

Well Done Sir!!!

PS i never got my dry ice packed Walleye filets in the mail.

Thanks guys. I dig the milestone thing but on the other I realize it is just another +1.

Razd sorry about the walleye, lol, long gone. Guess youll have to come out here and fish with me sometime.

Trauma, sorry to give you a scare. Definately not a cave speech. If it were it would sound something like this

"so I hit 200 today right. So I decided that I will go out and buy me a big juicy can of Kodiac to celebrate. After all I just need to see if I still like the taste. Or better yet, maybe I will go have a cigar on the golfcourse with my father in law."

What do you think guys? Great idea huh?

Sorry Thor and Minnie I dont mean to pick on you, I just want to see if you can hear how stupid that sounds when it comes from someone else.

You wont ever see a cave speech from me. If I were to cave, you would simple never see me again. I would just vanish. This is the last hurrah for me and KTC my last hope. I have tried everything, everything that is, except brotherhood and accountability. And as it turns out brotherhood and accountability was all it took.

Thanks everyone.

Congrats Ryan on 200!!!! Proud to be part of this journey with you.

I agree me too x2 et c. You are one of my quit heroes Ryan congrates on the second floor! Quit on!

[jaynellie]

Not claming to be a bigger addict, maybe just a weaker individual??  I want to quit, I am quit, 6 days.  Might not be much but its something to me.

I won't be dipping today either, but I am seeing that I need some help.  I am not coping well at all.  I will seek some professional help tomorrow.  I dont think the asshole talk is gonna help much.  I have to talk to a doctor or something.  I cannot eat, I cannot sleep, I cannot drink coffee, I cannot drink beer.  So many triggers I am losing my mind.  If there are meds are something that will help me I have to see. 

I may not know what TO DO, but I know what NOT to do.  No dip for me today, I know it will not make this whirlwind go away, it is the cause of it.  Dont know how to PM and wouldnt know what to say.  Gotta go post roll.  Later.

Good, just get through today with no nicotine.

You're not going to like to hear this but to be quite honest, unless you doctor is a former user, he don't shut about quitting this. He will most likely give you a nicotine supplement, chantix, Wellbutrin, or some other aid.

You do not need this stuff. Maybe some melatonin or some other sleep aid, but that's it.

Just trust what we are telling you.

Bump for a reminder of what nicotine did to me and what I did to myself with nicotine.

I don't hate many things, there is almost no hate within me, BUT DAMN, I HATE ADDICTION, AND I HATE TOBACCO.

Thank God that time can heal most things. As I sit here today I feel so much more whole as a person.

It feels good to hit 200 today. However....................I know that I am but an infant in this quit. Maybe today I graduated kindergarden or preschool. That is how I look at it anyway. See you tomorrow boys and girls.

Ryan

Got2, been watching you sense my first day here. Watching you and learning from you has been one of the reasons i'm still here. I keep looking at the days your stacking up and that's some of my motivation. I live one day at a time, but do look forward to walking in that door at 200. If you don't mind, keep the place clean. I hear some of the members in your group like critters. They have really dirtied the place up around here. Darn them critters. Glad to be quit with you bro.

Congrats to you.

Now that I am over the shock of thinking that this was a cave speech I have to read dates closer, I am good. Yes Ryan I always like to read your posts you are an anchor here keep it up...qlf w you today

Nice Job Ryan.

Well Done Sir!!!

PS i never got my dry ice packed Walleye filets in the mail.

Thanks guys. I dig the milestone thing but on the other I realize it is just another +1.

Razd sorry about the walleye, lol, long gone. Guess youll have to come out here and fish with me sometime.

Trauma, sorry to give you a scare. Definately not a cave speech. If it were it would sound something like this

"so I hit 200 today right. So I decided that I will go out and buy me a big juicy can of Kodiac to celebrate. After all I just need to see if I still like the taste. Or better yet, maybe I will go have a cigar on the golfcourse with my father in law."

What do you think guys? Great idea huh?

Sorry Thor and Minnie I dont mean to pick on you, I just want to see if you can hear how stupid that sounds when it comes from someone else.

You wont ever see a cave speech from me. If I were to cave, you would simple never see me again. I would just vanish. This is the last hurrah for me and KTC my last hope. I have tried everything, everything that is, except brotherhood and accountability. And as it turns out brotherhood and accountability was all it took.

Thanks everyone.

Congrats Ryan on 200!!!! Proud to be part of this journey with you.

[Its_Got2Happen]

Not claming to be a bigger addict, maybe just a weaker individual??  I want to quit, I am quit, 6 days.  Might not be much but its something to me.

I won't be dipping today either, but I am seeing that I need some help.  I am not coping well at all.  I will seek some professional help tomorrow.  I dont think the asshole talk is gonna help much.  I have to talk to a doctor or something.  I cannot eat, I cannot sleep, I cannot drink coffee, I cannot drink beer.  So many triggers I am losing my mind.  If there are meds are something that will help me I have to see. 

I may not know what TO DO, but I know what NOT to do.  No dip for me today, I know it will not make this whirlwind go away, it is the cause of it.  Dont know how to PM and wouldnt know what to say.  Gotta go post roll.  Later.

Good, just get through today with no nicotine.

You're not going to like to hear this but to be quite honest, unless you doctor is a former user, he don't shut about quitting this. He will most likely give you a nicotine supplement, chantix, Wellbutrin, or some other aid.

You do not need this stuff. Maybe some melatonin or some other sleep aid, but that's it.

Just trust what we are telling you.

Bump for a reminder of what nicotine did to me and what I did to myself with nicotine.

I don't hate many things, there is almost no hate within me, BUT DAMN, I HATE ADDICTION, AND I HATE TOBACCO.

Thank God that time can heal most things. As I sit here today I feel so much more whole as a person.

It feels good to hit 200 today. However....................I know that I am but an infant in this quit. Maybe today I graduated kindergarden or preschool. That is how I look at it anyway. See you tomorrow boys and girls.

Ryan

Got2, been watching you sense my first day here. Watching you and learning from you has been one of the reasons i'm still here. I keep looking at the days your stacking up and that's some of my motivation. I live one day at a time, but do look forward to walking in that door at 200. If you don't mind, keep the place clean. I hear some of the members in your group like critters. They have really dirtied the place up around here. Darn them critters. Glad to be quit with you bro.

Congrats to you.

Now that I am over the shock of thinking that this was a cave speech I have to read dates closer, I am good. Yes Ryan I always like to read your posts you are an anchor here keep it up...qlf w you today

Nice Job Ryan.

Well Done Sir!!!

PS i never got my dry ice packed Walleye filets in the mail.

Thanks guys. I dig the milestone thing but on the other I realize it is just another +1.

Razd sorry about the walleye, lol, long gone. Guess youll have to come out here and fish with me sometime.

Trauma, sorry to give you a scare. Definately not a cave speech. If it were it would sound something like this

"so I hit 200 today right. So I decided that I will go out and buy me a big juicy can of Kodiac to celebrate. After all I just need to see if I still like the taste. Or better yet, maybe I will go have a cigar on the golfcourse with my father in law."

What do you think guys? Great idea huh?

Sorry Thor and Minnie I dont mean to pick on you, I just want to see if you can hear how stupid that sounds when it comes from someone else.

You wont ever see a cave speech from me. If I were to cave, you would simple never see me again. I would just vanish. This is the last hurrah for me and KTC my last hope. I have tried everything, everything that is, except brotherhood and accountability. And as it turns out brotherhood and accountability was all it took.

Thanks everyone.

[RAZD611]

Not claming to be a bigger addict, maybe just a weaker individual??  I want to quit, I am quit, 6 days.  Might not be much but its something to me.

I won't be dipping today either, but I am seeing that I need some help.  I am not coping well at all.  I will seek some professional help tomorrow.  I dont think the asshole talk is gonna help much.  I have to talk to a doctor or something.  I cannot eat, I cannot sleep, I cannot drink coffee, I cannot drink beer.  So many triggers I am losing my mind.  If there are meds are something that will help me I have to see. 

I may not know what TO DO, but I know what NOT to do.  No dip for me today, I know it will not make this whirlwind go away, it is the cause of it.  Dont know how to PM and wouldnt know what to say.  Gotta go post roll.  Later.

Good, just get through today with no nicotine.

You're not going to like to hear this but to be quite honest, unless you doctor is a former user, he don't shut about quitting this. He will most likely give you a nicotine supplement, chantix, Wellbutrin, or some other aid.

You do not need this stuff. Maybe some melatonin or some other sleep aid, but that's it.

Just trust what we are telling you.

Bump for a reminder of what nicotine did to me and what I did to myself with nicotine.

I don't hate many things, there is almost no hate within me, BUT DAMN, I HATE ADDICTION, AND I HATE TOBACCO.

Thank God that time can heal most things. As I sit here today I feel so much more whole as a person.

It feels good to hit 200 today. However....................I know that I am but an infant in this quit. Maybe today I graduated kindergarden or preschool. That is how I look at it anyway. See you tomorrow boys and girls.

Ryan

Got2, been watching you sense my first day here. Watching you and learning from you has been one of the reasons i'm still here. I keep looking at the days your stacking up and that's some of my motivation. I live one day at a time, but do look forward to walking in that door at 200. If you don't mind, keep the place clean. I hear some of the members in your group like critters. They have really dirtied the place up around here. Darn them critters. Glad to be quit with you bro.

Congrats to you.

Now that I am over the shock of thinking that this was a cave speech I have to read dates closer, I am good. Yes Ryan I always like to read your posts you are an anchor here keep it up...qlf w you today

Nice Job Ryan.

Well Done Sir!!!

PS i never got my dry ice packed Walleye filets in the mail.

[Spartanron]

Not claming to be a bigger addict, maybe just a weaker individual??  I want to quit, I am quit, 6 days.  Might not be much but its something to me.

I won't be dipping today either, but I am seeing that I need some help.  I am not coping well at all.  I will seek some professional help tomorrow.  I dont think the asshole talk is gonna help much.  I have to talk to a doctor or something.  I cannot eat, I cannot sleep, I cannot drink coffee, I cannot drink beer.  So many triggers I am losing my mind.  If there are meds are something that will help me I have to see. 

I may not know what TO DO, but I know what NOT to do.  No dip for me today, I know it will not make this whirlwind go away, it is the cause of it.  Dont know how to PM and wouldnt know what to say.  Gotta go post roll.  Later.

Good, just get through today with no nicotine.

You're not going to like to hear this but to be quite honest, unless you doctor is a former user, he don't shut about quitting this. He will most likely give you a nicotine supplement, chantix, Wellbutrin, or some other aid.

You do not need this stuff. Maybe some melatonin or some other sleep aid, but that's it.

Just trust what we are telling you.

Bump for a reminder of what nicotine did to me and what I did to myself with nicotine.

I don't hate many things, there is almost no hate within me, BUT DAMN, I HATE ADDICTION, AND I HATE TOBACCO.

Thank God that time can heal most things. As I sit here today I feel so much more whole as a person.

It feels good to hit 200 today. However....................I know that I am but an infant in this quit. Maybe today I graduated kindergarden or preschool. That is how I look at it anyway. See you tomorrow boys and girls.

Ryan

Got2, been watching you sense my first day here. Watching you and learning from you has been one of the reasons i'm still here. I keep looking at the days your stacking up and that's some of my motivation. I live one day at a time, but do look forward to walking in that door at 200. If you don't mind, keep the place clean. I hear some of the members in your group like critters. They have really dirtied the place up around here. Darn them critters. Glad to be quit with you bro.

Congrats to you.

Now that I am over the shock of thinking that this was a cave speech I have to read dates closer, I am good. Yes Ryan I always like to read your posts you are an anchor here keep it up...qlf w you today

Nice Job Ryan.

[traumagnet]

Not claming to be a bigger addict, maybe just a weaker individual??  I want to quit, I am quit, 6 days.  Might not be much but its something to me.

I won't be dipping today either, but I am seeing that I need some help.  I am not coping well at all.  I will seek some professional help tomorrow.  I dont think the asshole talk is gonna help much.  I have to talk to a doctor or something.  I cannot eat, I cannot sleep, I cannot drink coffee, I cannot drink beer.  So many triggers I am losing my mind.  If there are meds are something that will help me I have to see. 

I may not know what TO DO, but I know what NOT to do.  No dip for me today, I know it will not make this whirlwind go away, it is the cause of it.  Dont know how to PM and wouldnt know what to say.  Gotta go post roll.  Later.

Good, just get through today with no nicotine.

You're not going to like to hear this but to be quite honest, unless you doctor is a former user, he don't shut about quitting this. He will most likely give you a nicotine supplement, chantix, Wellbutrin, or some other aid.

You do not need this stuff. Maybe some melatonin or some other sleep aid, but that's it.

Just trust what we are telling you.

Bump for a reminder of what nicotine did to me and what I did to myself with nicotine.

I don't hate many things, there is almost no hate within me, BUT DAMN, I HATE ADDICTION, AND I HATE TOBACCO.

Thank God that time can heal most things. As I sit here today I feel so much more whole as a person.

It feels good to hit 200 today. However....................I know that I am but an infant in this quit. Maybe today I graduated kindergarden or preschool. That is how I look at it anyway. See you tomorrow boys and girls.

Ryan

Got2, been watching you sense my first day here. Watching you and learning from you has been one of the reasons i'm still here. I keep looking at the days your stacking up and that's some of my motivation. I live one day at a time, but do look forward to walking in that door at 200. If you don't mind, keep the place clean. I hear some of the members in your group like critters. They have really dirtied the place up around here. Darn them critters. Glad to be quit with you bro.

Congrats to you.

Now that I am over the shock of thinking that this was a cave speech I have to read dates closer, I am good. Yes Ryan I always like to read your posts you are an anchor here keep it up...qlf w you today

[omahaflyer]

Not claming to be a bigger addict, maybe just a weaker individual??  I want to quit, I am quit, 6 days.  Might not be much but its something to me.

I won't be dipping today either, but I am seeing that I need some help.  I am not coping well at all.  I will seek some professional help tomorrow.  I dont think the asshole talk is gonna help much.  I have to talk to a doctor or something.  I cannot eat, I cannot sleep, I cannot drink coffee, I cannot drink beer.  So many triggers I am losing my mind.  If there are meds are something that will help me I have to see. 

I may not know what TO DO, but I know what NOT to do.  No dip for me today, I know it will not make this whirlwind go away, it is the cause of it.  Dont know how to PM and wouldnt know what to say.  Gotta go post roll.  Later.

Good, just get through today with no nicotine.

You're not going to like to hear this but to be quite honest, unless you doctor is a former user, he don't shut about quitting this. He will most likely give you a nicotine supplement, chantix, Wellbutrin, or some other aid.

You do not need this stuff. Maybe some melatonin or some other sleep aid, but that's it.

Just trust what we are telling you.

Bump for a reminder of what nicotine did to me and what I did to myself with nicotine.

I don't hate many things, there is almost no hate within me, BUT DAMN, I HATE ADDICTION, AND I HATE TOBACCO.

Thank God that time can heal most things. As I sit here today I feel so much more whole as a person.

It feels good to hit 200 today. However....................I know that I am but an infant in this quit. Maybe today I graduated kindergarden or preschool. That is how I look at it anyway. See you tomorrow boys and girls.

Ryan

Got2, been watching you sense my first day here. Watching you and learning from you has been one of the reasons i'm still here. I keep looking at the days your stacking up and that's some of my motivation. I live one day at a time, but do look forward to walking in that door at 200. If you don't mind, keep the place clean. I hear some of the members in your group like critters. They have really dirtied the place up around here. Darn them critters. Glad to be quit with you bro.

Congrats to you.

[srans]

Not claming to be a bigger addict, maybe just a weaker individual??  I want to quit, I am quit, 6 days.  Might not be much but its something to me.

I won't be dipping today either, but I am seeing that I need some help.  I am not coping well at all.  I will seek some professional help tomorrow.  I dont think the asshole talk is gonna help much.  I have to talk to a doctor or something.  I cannot eat, I cannot sleep, I cannot drink coffee, I cannot drink beer.  So many triggers I am losing my mind.  If there are meds are something that will help me I have to see. 

I may not know what TO DO, but I know what NOT to do.  No dip for me today, I know it will not make this whirlwind go away, it is the cause of it.  Dont know how to PM and wouldnt know what to say.  Gotta go post roll.  Later.

Good, just get through today with no nicotine.

You're not going to like to hear this but to be quite honest, unless you doctor is a former user, he don't shut about quitting this. He will most likely give you a nicotine supplement, chantix, Wellbutrin, or some other aid.

You do not need this stuff. Maybe some melatonin or some other sleep aid, but that's it.

Just trust what we are telling you.

Bump for a reminder of what nicotine did to me and what I did to myself with nicotine.

I don't hate many things, there is almost no hate within me, BUT DAMN, I HATE ADDICTION, AND I HATE TOBACCO.

Thank God that time can heal most things. As I sit here today I feel so much more whole as a person.

It feels good to hit 200 today. However....................I know that I am but an infant in this quit. Maybe today I graduated kindergarden or preschool. That is how I look at it anyway. See you tomorrow boys and girls.

Ryan

Got2, been watching you sense my first day here. Watching you and learning from you has been one of the reasons i'm still here. I keep looking at the days your stacking up and that's some of my motivation. I live one day at a time, but do look forward to walking in that door at 200. If you don't mind, keep the place clean. I hear some of the members in your group like critters. They have really dirtied the place up around here. Darn them critters. Glad to be quit with you bro.

[Its_Got2Happen]

Not claming to be a bigger addict, maybe just a weaker individual??  I want to quit, I am quit, 6 days.  Might not be much but its something to me.

I won't be dipping today either, but I am seeing that I need some help.  I am not coping well at all.  I will seek some professional help tomorrow.  I dont think the asshole talk is gonna help much.  I have to talk to a doctor or something.  I cannot eat, I cannot sleep, I cannot drink coffee, I cannot drink beer.  So many triggers I am losing my mind.  If there are meds are something that will help me I have to see. 

I may not know what TO DO, but I know what NOT to do.  No dip for me today, I know it will not make this whirlwind go away, it is the cause of it.  Dont know how to PM and wouldnt know what to say.  Gotta go post roll.  Later.

Good, just get through today with no nicotine.

You're not going to like to hear this but to be quite honest, unless you doctor is a former user, he don't shut about quitting this. He will most likely give you a nicotine supplement, chantix, Wellbutrin, or some other aid.

You do not need this stuff. Maybe some melatonin or some other sleep aid, but that's it.

Just trust what we are telling you.

Bump for a reminder of what nicotine did to me and what I did to myself with nicotine.

I don't hate many things, there is almost no hate within me, BUT DAMN, I HATE ADDICTION, AND I HATE TOBACCO.

Thank God that time can heal most things. As I sit here today I feel so much more whole as a person.

It feels good to hit 200 today. However....................I know that I am but an infant in this quit. Maybe today I graduated kindergarden or preschool. That is how I look at it anyway. See you tomorrow boys and girls.

Ryan

[worktowin]

Congratulations Ryan. Proud to still be on the train with you!

[Nickald]

(early)
Congrats on 200!!!!

NICK

[Nickald]

Day 185, ahhh it feels so damn good.

Had another awesome first yesterday.  Took the boat out with the wife, kids and some friends yesterday.  Spent all morning pulling the kids around on the tube and then spent most of afternoon knee deep at the sandbar drinking beer with friends.  In my former life this was primetime dip time.  No mas!!  It feels great to no longer be a slave.  It feels great to be in control.  It feels great to be committed.  It feels great to know I made a promise at 530am that morning.  It feels great to know that I am a man of my word.  I had some cravings though, not gonna lie.  But I never entertained the thought.  It was just mildly annoying.  My quit was in no danger at all, but damn it pisses me off that I still even think about it.

That is the bitch about addiction, I dont think it ever goes away.  Some screwed up part of me will probably always say, "a dip would be great right now".  Two seconds is all it takes to blow a quit if you are not mentally prepared.  Blaaaah, puke, yuck!!  Hell no it wouldn't be great, not ever.  Thank God we were given the ability to rational.  Two seconds of rational thought is all it takes to remind myself why I quit.  NEVER FORGET DAY ONE FOLKS, best damn advice I have ever seen on this sight.

I hope you have a safe and fun Independence day.  Stay quit!!

Ryan

Darnit ryan, there you go again. I was really hoping by day 185 the craves would be gone totally and I would never think about the poison again. Whatever, no matter, i'll keep posting and winning with you every damn day.

Glad to see your enjoying life without the poison. I've been enjoying life as well without the poison. The poison had us so screwed up, didn't it?? I still can't believe all the lies I believed. I remember a day not long ago when I couldn't see that life was better without it. Me and you are now proving that so wrong. I'm glad to be walking this journey with you brother.

Awesome to be free.. But you still have to embrace patience.. when I had your numbers 185ish, I was still thinking about dip occasionally. In my 200's the dip thoughts lessened even more, but I had 2 funks.. around 220's, and around 280's.. Once I hit the third floor the skies really parted for me. I truly believe this is where I really started feeling good. Dip thoughts now? none... It's no longer a substance to me, but just a bad word... Keep plugging along, you're doing great, and proud to see you enjoying your life without the shackles..peace

I still occasionally have days where I "crave" and want a chew like a mofo and I'm pushing 500 days. Those days are rare, sometimes it happens a couple days in a row.

Then I remember that I'm free and don't use or need to use that shit ever again. I stuck that poison in my body for 22+ years. I've only been quit for 1.5. I assume my brain still has some rewiring to do.

That's why I'm still here posting roll every day. I take that crap off the table every morning.

That sounds like a good time you had. I know the feelings you describe well. The shit is still lurking in the back of my mind and has to pop into my thoughts now and again. But like you said a couple of seconds of rational thought sends it away. Have a great 4th of July today. I am goingto take my son fishing today and I think it may turn in to swimming because he will not stay out of the water.

NICK

[Kubrick]

Day 185, ahhh it feels so damn good.

Had another awesome first yesterday.  Took the boat out with the wife, kids and some friends yesterday.  Spent all morning pulling the kids around on the tube and then spent most of afternoon knee deep at the sandbar drinking beer with friends.  In my former life this was primetime dip time.  No mas!!  It feels great to no longer be a slave.  It feels great to be in control.  It feels great to be committed.  It feels great to know I made a promise at 530am that morning.  It feels great to know that I am a man of my word.  I had some cravings though, not gonna lie.  But I never entertained the thought.  It was just mildly annoying.  My quit was in no danger at all, but damn it pisses me off that I still even think about it.

That is the bitch about addiction, I dont think it ever goes away.  Some screwed up part of me will probably always say, "a dip would be great right now".  Two seconds is all it takes to blow a quit if you are not mentally prepared.  Blaaaah, puke, yuck!!  Hell no it wouldn't be great, not ever.  Thank God we were given the ability to rational.  Two seconds of rational thought is all it takes to remind myself why I quit.  NEVER FORGET DAY ONE FOLKS, best damn advice I have ever seen on this sight.

I hope you have a safe and fun Independence day.  Stay quit!!

Ryan

Darnit ryan, there you go again. I was really hoping by day 185 the craves would be gone totally and I would never think about the poison again. Whatever, no matter, i'll keep posting and winning with you every damn day.

Glad to see your enjoying life without the poison. I've been enjoying life as well without the poison. The poison had us so screwed up, didn't it?? I still can't believe all the lies I believed. I remember a day not long ago when I couldn't see that life was better without it. Me and you are now proving that so wrong. I'm glad to be walking this journey with you brother.

Awesome to be free.. But you still have to embrace patience.. when I had your numbers 185ish, I was still thinking about dip occasionally. In my 200's the dip thoughts lessened even more, but I had 2 funks.. around 220's, and around 280's.. Once I hit the third floor the skies really parted for me. I truly believe this is where I really started feeling good. Dip thoughts now? none... It's no longer a substance to me, but just a bad word... Keep plugging along, you're doing great, and proud to see you enjoying your life without the shackles..peace

I still occasionally have days where I "crave" and want a chew like a mofo and I'm pushing 500 days. Those days are rare, sometimes it happens a couple days in a row.

Then I remember that I'm free and don't use or need to use that shit ever again. I stuck that poison in my body for 22+ years. I've only been quit for 1.5. I assume my brain still has some rewiring to do.

That's why I'm still here posting roll every day. I take that crap off the table every morning.

[kana]

Day 185, ahhh it feels so damn good.

Had another awesome first yesterday.  Took the boat out with the wife, kids and some friends yesterday.  Spent all morning pulling the kids around on the tube and then spent most of afternoon knee deep at the sandbar drinking beer with friends.  In my former life this was primetime dip time.  No mas!!  It feels great to no longer be a slave.  It feels great to be in control.  It feels great to be committed.  It feels great to know I made a promise at 530am that morning.  It feels great to know that I am a man of my word.  I had some cravings though, not gonna lie.  But I never entertained the thought.  It was just mildly annoying.  My quit was in no danger at all, but damn it pisses me off that I still even think about it.

That is the bitch about addiction, I dont think it ever goes away.  Some screwed up part of me will probably always say, "a dip would be great right now".  Two seconds is all it takes to blow a quit if you are not mentally prepared.  Blaaaah, puke, yuck!!  Hell no it wouldn't be great, not ever.  Thank God we were given the ability to rational.  Two seconds of rational thought is all it takes to remind myself why I quit.  NEVER FORGET DAY ONE FOLKS, best damn advice I have ever seen on this sight.

I hope you have a safe and fun Independence day.  Stay quit!!

Ryan

Darnit ryan, there you go again. I was really hoping by day 185 the craves would be gone totally and I would never think about the poison again. Whatever, no matter, i'll keep posting and winning with you every damn day.

Glad to see your enjoying life without the poison. I've been enjoying life as well without the poison. The poison had us so screwed up, didn't it?? I still can't believe all the lies I believed. I remember a day not long ago when I couldn't see that life was better without it. Me and you are now proving that so wrong. I'm glad to be walking this journey with you brother.

Awesome to be free.. But you still have to embrace patience.. when I had your numbers 185ish, I was still thinking about dip occasionally. In my 200's the dip thoughts lessened even more, but I had 2 funks.. around 220's, and around 280's.. Once I hit the third floor the skies really parted for me. I truly believe this is where I really started feeling good. Dip thoughts now? none... It's no longer a substance to me, but just a bad word... Keep plugging along, you're doing great, and proud to see you enjoying your life without the shackles..peace