Introduction

[dipweasel]

4 AM here.  Just awakened by a shitty nicotine dream.  It is the 2nd one of my quit.  This time it didnt even involve dip.  I was on the golf course and having a big crave.  I suddenly remembered that I had a bunch of 4mg nicotine lozenges in my truck.  So at the turn I run out to the truck and pop one in.  As I sucked on it I started to panic thinking that this might tempt me to buy a can on the way home.  Fearing that I might "cave" it was hard to concentrate on golf, then I realized I there is no might cave, I just did "cave".  Woke up on a cold sweat and turned on the computer. 

I am about to go out to my truck right now and shit can $50 worth of Nicorette bullshit.  I forgot that I even had it, but I guess the nic bitch didnt.  That whore works alot of angles while looking for a quit to devour.

Day 41 here WTF, still tormented sometimes.  This addiction is a nasty beast.  Guess I ought to go post role.

Take that $50 of bullshit and flush it down the shitter. Then your next dream will be of you going toilet diving for it and once your head hits the water you will wake up. Don't do what I did at my buddies the other night and go "upper deck" with it either.

whattchu talkin about Diesel?......................... better not be upperdecking nic gum.

It wasn't nic gum, but shit nonetheless....

Ha! That's my boy! Quit with you! I actually woke up out of a dream where I was smoking and so ashamed I lost my quit. Woke up, smiled and told that bitch that was the closest she could get - a dream.

[Diesel2112]

4 AM here.  Just awakened by a shitty nicotine dream.  It is the 2nd one of my quit.  This time it didnt even involve dip.  I was on the golf course and having a big crave.  I suddenly remembered that I had a bunch of 4mg nicotine lozenges in my truck.  So at the turn I run out to the truck and pop one in.  As I sucked on it I started to panic thinking that this might tempt me to buy a can on the way home.  Fearing that I might "cave" it was hard to concentrate on golf, then I realized I there is no might cave, I just did "cave".  Woke up on a cold sweat and turned on the computer. 

I am about to go out to my truck right now and shit can $50 worth of Nicorette bullshit.  I forgot that I even had it, but I guess the nic bitch didnt.  That whore works alot of angles while looking for a quit to devour.

Day 41 here WTF, still tormented sometimes.  This addiction is a nasty beast.  Guess I ought to go post role.

Take that $50 of bullshit and flush it down the shitter. Then your next dream will be of you going toilet diving for it and once your head hits the water you will wake up. Don't do what I did at my buddies the other night and go "upper deck" with it either.

whattchu talkin about Diesel?......................... better not be upperdecking nic gum.

It wasn't nic gum, but shit nonetheless....

[Skoal Monster]

4 AM here.  Just awakened by a shitty nicotine dream.  It is the 2nd one of my quit.  This time it didnt even involve dip.  I was on the golf course and having a big crave.  I suddenly remembered that I had a bunch of 4mg nicotine lozenges in my truck.  So at the turn I run out to the truck and pop one in.  As I sucked on it I started to panic thinking that this might tempt me to buy a can on the way home.  Fearing that I might "cave" it was hard to concentrate on golf, then I realized I there is no might cave, I just did "cave".  Woke up on a cold sweat and turned on the computer. 

I am about to go out to my truck right now and shit can $50 worth of Nicorette bullshit.  I forgot that I even had it, but I guess the nic bitch didnt.  That whore works alot of angles while looking for a quit to devour.

Day 41 here WTF, still tormented sometimes.  This addiction is a nasty beast.  Guess I ought to go post role.

Take that $50 of bullshit and flush it down the shitter. Then your next dream will be of you going toilet diving for it and once your head hits the water you will wake up. Don't do what I did at my buddies the other night and go "upper deck" with it either.

whattchu talkin about Diesel?......................... better not be upperdecking nic gum.

[Diesel2112]

4 AM here. Just awakened by a shitty nicotine dream. It is the 2nd one of my quit. This time it didnt even involve dip. I was on the golf course and having a big crave. I suddenly remembered that I had a bunch of 4mg nicotine lozenges in my truck. So at the turn I run out to the truck and pop one in. As I sucked on it I started to panic thinking that this might tempt me to buy a can on the way home. Fearing that I might "cave" it was hard to concentrate on golf, then I realized I there is no might cave, I just did "cave". Woke up on a cold sweat and turned on the computer.

I am about to go out to my truck right now and shit can $50 worth of Nicorette bullshit. I forgot that I even had it, but I guess the nic bitch didnt. That whore works alot of angles while looking for a quit to devour.

Day 41 here WTF, still tormented sometimes. This addiction is a nasty beast. Guess I ought to go post role.

Take that $50 of bullshit and flush it down the shitter. Then your next dream will be of you going toilet diving for it and once your head hits the water you will wake up. Don't do what I did at my buddies the other night and go "upper deck" with it either.

[Its_Got2Happen]

4 AM here. Just awakened by a shitty nicotine dream. It is the 2nd one of my quit. This time it didnt even involve dip. I was on the golf course and having a big crave. I suddenly remembered that I had a bunch of 4mg nicotine lozenges in my truck. So at the turn I run out to the truck and pop one in. As I sucked on it I started to panic thinking that this might tempt me to buy a can on the way home. Fearing that I might "cave" it was hard to concentrate on golf, then I realized I there is no might cave, I just did "cave". Woke up on a cold sweat and turned on the computer.

I am about to go out to my truck right now and shit can $50 worth of Nicorette bullshit. I forgot that I even had it, but I guess the nic bitch didnt. That whore works alot of angles while looking for a quit to devour.

Day 41 here WTF, still tormented sometimes. This addiction is a nasty beast. Guess I ought to go post role.

[CleanFuel]

I dont know how I missed that "100 benefits" link for the last 40 days, but thank you skoal monster.  That is some good shit.

I am pretty excited about day 40 today.  For the 1st time in my history of quitting I actually feel a little bit of pride.  When it comes to the hold that dip has on my life, sorrow, guilt and anger have been my primary emotions for a long time.  I know in the grand scope of things 40 days aint shit, but dammit it is a good start, and I am doing it the KTC way.  No cutting down, no NRT, no bullshit!!!  Just drinking Kool Aid and arming myself with knowledge and support. 

This site is bad ass.  And so are the quitters on it.

You are kicking ass brother! You should feel some pride, heck, a lot of pride because you are doing what many haven't been able to yet but don't let your gaurd down even for a second. Proud to be quit with you today.

Oh boy.....now I have some big ol' quit wood....

POW....

G2H......YOU ARE THE VOICE and a BADASS quitter!!!!!

but as mentioned, the bitch is lurking.....waiting....waiting for your weak moment....are you in a "fuck it" kind of mood? feeling anxiety? those are the 2 situations the bitch likes the best and she will pounce......

Quit with you today

[bigwhitebeast]

I dont know how I missed that "100 benefits" link for the last 40 days, but thank you skoal monster. That is some good shit.

I am pretty excited about day 40 today. For the 1st time in my history of quitting I actually feel a little bit of pride. When it comes to the hold that dip has on my life, sorrow, guilt and anger have been my primary emotions for a long time. I know in the grand scope of things 40 days aint shit, but dammit it is a good start, and I am doing it the KTC way. No cutting down, no NRT, no bullshit!!! Just drinking Kool Aid and arming myself with knowledge and support.

This site is bad ass. And so are the quitters on it.

You are kicking ass brother! You should feel some pride, heck, a lot of pride because you are doing what many haven't been able to yet but don't let your gaurd down even for a second. Proud to be quit with you today.

[Its_Got2Happen]

I dont know how I missed that "100 benefits" link for the last 40 days, but thank you skoal monster. That is some good shit.

I am pretty excited about day 40 today. For the 1st time in my history of quitting I actually feel a little bit of pride. When it comes to the hold that dip has on my life, sorrow, guilt and anger have been my primary emotions for a long time. I know in the grand scope of things 40 days aint shit, but dammit it is a good start, and I am doing it the KTC way. No cutting down, no NRT, no bullshit!!! Just drinking Kool Aid and arming myself with knowledge and support.

This site is bad ass. And so are the quitters on it.

[Diesel2112]

Day 36,

I am still troubled that I couldnt answer the question of the day yesterday. "what has been the best thing about the quit?".

The truth is quitting has completely sucked. Day in and day out it has sucked. It is sometimes hard to think of anything good about it. Despite that, I still quit. I quit with all of you.

While it is hard yet, to focus on the positive aspects of being quit, I am fully aware of the EVIL and all of the negative aspects of USING. I remain focused on that, and that is still what drives this quit.

This morning I am 100% positive about 2 things. 1. I will NOT use nicotine today. and 2. I could NOT have made it this far in this quit without the resources on this site and the quitters I have met along the way.

Keep quitting quitters.

Ryan

Easy Cowgirl. 36 days is awesome and you have come further than you realize but you are still in the early stages. Like the other guys said, your quit isn't going to "take off" for a little bit yet, but you are close.

Do not get down on yourself.
Do not feel you should be "cured" by now, or that every day will be easy. It won't be.
Do not feel sorry for yourself.
Do not mope.
Do not compare your quit to others, each quit is unique.

DO realize that 36 days is fucking AWESOME
Do keep active on this site
Do listen to others
Do keep posting your "thoughts" in your intro
Do keep posting role and your "keep chugging along" attitude
Do realize you are on the right path
Do realize you have come a long way.
Do believe me that the freedom you will soon feel, is beyond fucking belief
Do look forward to that. Quit for today but do look forward to the better days ahead.

Recently I did this and I almost fucking cried...I took a huge step back, realized everything I have been through, thought about all the tools I had acquired, all the connections I had made on this site, all the hurdles I had cleared, all the triggers I had beat, all the bullshit I crawled through.

And I realized something for the first time. I will never chew again. I quit for each day, but it hit me like a ton of bricks...I CAN actually go the rest of my life without chew. I always THOUGHT that, but I'm not sure I truly BELIEVED it until recently, when I beat back one of the biggest hurdles of my quit.

It's like when you take a new job. At first you think, "fuck, this job is hard as hell. I will never be comfortable and figure everything out. This SUCKS. Maybe I should have stayed at my old job..." Then as time passes and you learn from your boss, your co workers, you put in extra hours, you get a promotion maybe, you step back and realize..."Dude, why did I think this job was so hard? I can do most of it with my hands tied behind my back, and I can handle any odd bullshit that is thrown my way, because I've seen just about everything". This is how I feel about my quit right now.

But I know just like my job, if I start to slack, fuck around, call in sick a bunch of days, don't keep updated on new processes or training, etc...that I will be fucked and eventually fired. So just like quitting you always have to keep you guard up.

This is the way I see it anyway. You or others may think I'm a crazy fuck, but just know that things WILL GET BETTER. Your fighting the good fight, and you will be victorious and the rewards will be sweeter than apple pie.

Hey Ryan, it will be ok man. First listen to Diesel, he knows his shit. Second the question of the day isn't a test. Nobody is going to grade you or laugh at you (unless that is what you want to happen, that is usually pretty obvious.) 36 days (37 now) is amazing and there are a lot more where those came from.

It does get better, for me somewhere in the 40's is when I started having a shift in my thinking. Somewhere around my 30's someone asked the question "would you use again if the world was going to end and you knew about it?" In the 30's my answer was FUCK YEA! about 45 days in is where my answer started to change to something like well maybe if.... If you ask me now the answer is FUCK NO! There are stages to this whole quitting thing, some of it yes you are just going to have to put your head down and muscle through it, but then maybe for 5 or 10 minutes you wont think about dipping, you may not realize it until later in the day but there will be those little moments that start this journey. The time will grow, your quit will grow and pretty soon those minutes turn into hours and then days.

It will get better, don't put too much thought into trivial things like the question of the day. I am proud of you and what you have accomplished. Keep your head down and push through this. I know your resolve is awesome and you will be rewarded for that. Let me know if you need anything.

James

Here are 100 things to be thankful for

http://www.killthecan.org/facts/100benefits.asp

Thank you all for the words of encouragement. I cannot tell you how timely these responses were for me. I dont understand why but the last several days have been a struggle. I wish so much that I did not miss nicotine. I feel guilty that I miss it. I know that is just a deadly trap to have feelings that like. I know that I need to replace that longing with anger. I have to stop giving this drug so much glory and so much credit. I guess I am just thinking outloud and being honest with you all. I know this is all mental crap at this point. I know that this mind game must be fought daily and these feeling beaten back daily.

The wisdom and the experience that I hear in your words makes me certain that better days are ahead. I will keep marching down this road of quit, and I will keep trying not to look back. Sometimes I just march down this road blindly following all of you, trusting that you are going in the right direction. I want to be where you are. I know you can help me get there. You have already helped me beyond belief.

Dont know how I can thank you. I supported some new quitters, (both day 5), offered some encouragement. Checking in on them daily, kind of you guys do for me. Hopefully that is how I thank you, just paying it forward.

Mega proud to be quit with you all.

Shit, Ryan, even at 514 days answering that question is pretty tough. There are so many good things that I could put down about the best thing of being quit. I personally think that question is a disservice as I feel like if I were to say one thing I'd be completely leaving out something else.

My first month here was horrible. I was a complete mess for almost that entire time. Then slowly but surely things started to get better and I started to see the light. I finally started to believe the people who kept on telling me that it'd get better, but I'd have to give it time. I never thought that day would come and they were just playing a cruel joke on me. But I can assure you and say that trust us, better things and days are going to come.

You've been quit 36 days. That is an awesome fucking accomplishment. Any day quit is awesome no matter how good or shitty you feel. You're not killing yourself nor are you a slave anymore. I like you know 100% that if it were not for this site, my girl, and whomever else is supporting me I would not have made it this far and I'd be right back out there stuffing my lip on my way to picking up cancer or dying.

Whatever you have to focus on to remain quit, keep reminding yourself of that. While that may be the reason now, in 10 days it could be something completely different. Something more positive or more negative. It's hard to say and everybody's individual quit is different. But just keep coming back posting roll and staying involved in the site. That's all you can do. Don't get yourself down with how far you've come.

If you ever need anything or just want to shoot the shit. PM me. We can text, talk or just email back and forth on here. No matter what time of the day it is and as long as I'm not in class or busy doing something I will be here for you. Always remember that.

Keep up the good work my friend!
Scott

As soon as you believe you are not giving up anything pleasurable, but instead are freeing yourself from something terrible, it will all start to click.

I know you hear/read the words but that doesn't make you BELIEVE it. I know I didn't despite hearing it a ton. Nobody can make you do that nor tell you WHEN it will happen.

Keep racking up days, clearing hurdles, and whatever else it takes to say quit. The payoff will come.

[Timeless117]

Day 36,

I am still troubled that I couldnt answer the question of the day yesterday. "what has been the best thing about the quit?".

The truth is quitting has completely sucked. Day in and day out it has sucked. It is sometimes hard to think of anything good about it. Despite that, I still quit. I quit with all of you.

While it is hard yet, to focus on the positive aspects of being quit, I am fully aware of the EVIL and all of the negative aspects of USING. I remain focused on that, and that is still what drives this quit.

This morning I am 100% positive about 2 things. 1. I will NOT use nicotine today. and 2. I could NOT have made it this far in this quit without the resources on this site and the quitters I have met along the way.

Keep quitting quitters.

Ryan

Easy Cowgirl. 36 days is awesome and you have come further than you realize but you are still in the early stages. Like the other guys said, your quit isn't going to "take off" for a little bit yet, but you are close.

Do not get down on yourself.
Do not feel you should be "cured" by now, or that every day will be easy. It won't be.
Do not feel sorry for yourself.
Do not mope.
Do not compare your quit to others, each quit is unique.

DO realize that 36 days is fucking AWESOME
Do keep active on this site
Do listen to others
Do keep posting your "thoughts" in your intro
Do keep posting role and your "keep chugging along" attitude
Do realize you are on the right path
Do realize you have come a long way.
Do believe me that the freedom you will soon feel, is beyond fucking belief
Do look forward to that. Quit for today but do look forward to the better days ahead.

Recently I did this and I almost fucking cried...I took a huge step back, realized everything I have been through, thought about all the tools I had acquired, all the connections I had made on this site, all the hurdles I had cleared, all the triggers I had beat, all the bullshit I crawled through.

And I realized something for the first time. I will never chew again. I quit for each day, but it hit me like a ton of bricks...I CAN actually go the rest of my life without chew. I always THOUGHT that, but I'm not sure I truly BELIEVED it until recently, when I beat back one of the biggest hurdles of my quit.

It's like when you take a new job. At first you think, "fuck, this job is hard as hell. I will never be comfortable and figure everything out. This SUCKS. Maybe I should have stayed at my old job..." Then as time passes and you learn from your boss, your co workers, you put in extra hours, you get a promotion maybe, you step back and realize..."Dude, why did I think this job was so hard? I can do most of it with my hands tied behind my back, and I can handle any odd bullshit that is thrown my way, because I've seen just about everything". This is how I feel about my quit right now.

But I know just like my job, if I start to slack, fuck around, call in sick a bunch of days, don't keep updated on new processes or training, etc...that I will be fucked and eventually fired. So just like quitting you always have to keep you guard up.

This is the way I see it anyway. You or others may think I'm a crazy fuck, but just know that things WILL GET BETTER. Your fighting the good fight, and you will be victorious and the rewards will be sweeter than apple pie.

Hey Ryan, it will be ok man. First listen to Diesel, he knows his shit. Second the question of the day isn't a test. Nobody is going to grade you or laugh at you (unless that is what you want to happen, that is usually pretty obvious.) 36 days (37 now) is amazing and there are a lot more where those came from.

It does get better, for me somewhere in the 40's is when I started having a shift in my thinking. Somewhere around my 30's someone asked the question "would you use again if the world was going to end and you knew about it?" In the 30's my answer was FUCK YEA! about 45 days in is where my answer started to change to something like well maybe if.... If you ask me now the answer is FUCK NO! There are stages to this whole quitting thing, some of it yes you are just going to have to put your head down and muscle through it, but then maybe for 5 or 10 minutes you wont think about dipping, you may not realize it until later in the day but there will be those little moments that start this journey. The time will grow, your quit will grow and pretty soon those minutes turn into hours and then days.

It will get better, don't put too much thought into trivial things like the question of the day. I am proud of you and what you have accomplished. Keep your head down and push through this. I know your resolve is awesome and you will be rewarded for that. Let me know if you need anything.

James

Here are 100 things to be thankful for

http://www.killthecan.org/facts/100benefits.asp

Thank you all for the words of encouragement. I cannot tell you how timely these responses were for me. I dont understand why but the last several days have been a struggle. I wish so much that I did not miss nicotine. I feel guilty that I miss it. I know that is just a deadly trap to have feelings that like. I know that I need to replace that longing with anger. I have to stop giving this drug so much glory and so much credit. I guess I am just thinking outloud and being honest with you all. I know this is all mental crap at this point. I know that this mind game must be fought daily and these feeling beaten back daily.

The wisdom and the experience that I hear in your words makes me certain that better days are ahead. I will keep marching down this road of quit, and I will keep trying not to look back. Sometimes I just march down this road blindly following all of you, trusting that you are going in the right direction. I want to be where you are. I know you can help me get there. You have already helped me beyond belief.

Dont know how I can thank you. I supported some new quitters, (both day 5), offered some encouragement. Checking in on them daily, kind of you guys do for me. Hopefully that is how I thank you, just paying it forward.

Mega proud to be quit with you all.

Shit, Ryan, even at 514 days answering that question is pretty tough. There are so many good things that I could put down about the best thing of being quit. I personally think that question is a disservice as I feel like if I were to say one thing I'd be completely leaving out something else.

My first month here was horrible. I was a complete mess for almost that entire time. Then slowly but surely things started to get better and I started to see the light. I finally started to believe the people who kept on telling me that it'd get better, but I'd have to give it time. I never thought that day would come and they were just playing a cruel joke on me. But I can assure you and say that trust us, better things and days are going to come.

You've been quit 36 days. That is an awesome fucking accomplishment. Any day quit is awesome no matter how good or shitty you feel. You're not killing yourself nor are you a slave anymore. I like you know 100% that if it were not for this site, my girl, and whomever else is supporting me I would not have made it this far and I'd be right back out there stuffing my lip on my way to picking up cancer or dying.

Whatever you have to focus on to remain quit, keep reminding yourself of that. While that may be the reason now, in 10 days it could be something completely different. Something more positive or more negative. It's hard to say and everybody's individual quit is different. But just keep coming back posting roll and staying involved in the site. That's all you can do. Don't get yourself down with how far you've come.

If you ever need anything or just want to shoot the shit. PM me. We can text, talk or just email back and forth on here. No matter what time of the day it is and as long as I'm not in class or busy doing something I will be here for you. Always remember that.

Keep up the good work my friend!
Scott

[Its_Got2Happen]

Day 36,

I am still troubled that I couldnt answer the question of the day yesterday. "what has been the best thing about the quit?".

The truth is quitting has completely sucked. Day in and day out it has sucked. It is sometimes hard to think of anything good about it. Despite that, I still quit. I quit with all of you.

While it is hard yet, to focus on the positive aspects of being quit, I am fully aware of the EVIL and all of the negative aspects of USING. I remain focused on that, and that is still what drives this quit.

This morning I am 100% positive about 2 things. 1. I will NOT use nicotine today. and 2. I could NOT have made it this far in this quit without the resources on this site and the quitters I have met along the way.

Keep quitting quitters.

Ryan

Easy Cowgirl. 36 days is awesome and you have come further than you realize but you are still in the early stages. Like the other guys said, your quit isn't going to "take off" for a little bit yet, but you are close.

Do not get down on yourself.
Do not feel you should be "cured" by now, or that every day will be easy. It won't be.
Do not feel sorry for yourself.
Do not mope.
Do not compare your quit to others, each quit is unique.

DO realize that 36 days is fucking AWESOME
Do keep active on this site
Do listen to others
Do keep posting your "thoughts" in your intro
Do keep posting role and your "keep chugging along" attitude
Do realize you are on the right path
Do realize you have come a long way.
Do believe me that the freedom you will soon feel, is beyond fucking belief
Do look forward to that. Quit for today but do look forward to the better days ahead.

Recently I did this and I almost fucking cried...I took a huge step back, realized everything I have been through, thought about all the tools I had acquired, all the connections I had made on this site, all the hurdles I had cleared, all the triggers I had beat, all the bullshit I crawled through.

And I realized something for the first time. I will never chew again. I quit for each day, but it hit me like a ton of bricks...I CAN actually go the rest of my life without chew. I always THOUGHT that, but I'm not sure I truly BELIEVED it until recently, when I beat back one of the biggest hurdles of my quit.

It's like when you take a new job. At first you think, "fuck, this job is hard as hell. I will never be comfortable and figure everything out. This SUCKS. Maybe I should have stayed at my old job..." Then as time passes and you learn from your boss, your co workers, you put in extra hours, you get a promotion maybe, you step back and realize..."Dude, why did I think this job was so hard? I can do most of it with my hands tied behind my back, and I can handle any odd bullshit that is thrown my way, because I've seen just about everything". This is how I feel about my quit right now.

But I know just like my job, if I start to slack, fuck around, call in sick a bunch of days, don't keep updated on new processes or training, etc...that I will be fucked and eventually fired. So just like quitting you always have to keep you guard up.

This is the way I see it anyway. You or others may think I'm a crazy fuck, but just know that things WILL GET BETTER. Your fighting the good fight, and you will be victorious and the rewards will be sweeter than apple pie.

Hey Ryan, it will be ok man. First listen to Diesel, he knows his shit. Second the question of the day isn't a test. Nobody is going to grade you or laugh at you (unless that is what you want to happen, that is usually pretty obvious.) 36 days (37 now) is amazing and there are a lot more where those came from.

It does get better, for me somewhere in the 40's is when I started having a shift in my thinking. Somewhere around my 30's someone asked the question "would you use again if the world was going to end and you knew about it?" In the 30's my answer was FUCK YEA! about 45 days in is where my answer started to change to something like well maybe if.... If you ask me now the answer is FUCK NO! There are stages to this whole quitting thing, some of it yes you are just going to have to put your head down and muscle through it, but then maybe for 5 or 10 minutes you wont think about dipping, you may not realize it until later in the day but there will be those little moments that start this journey. The time will grow, your quit will grow and pretty soon those minutes turn into hours and then days.

It will get better, don't put too much thought into trivial things like the question of the day. I am proud of you and what you have accomplished. Keep your head down and push through this. I know your resolve is awesome and you will be rewarded for that. Let me know if you need anything.

James

Here are 100 things to be thankful for

http://www.killthecan.org/facts/100benefits.asp

Thank you all for the words of encouragement. I cannot tell you how timely these responses were for me. I dont understand why but the last several days have been a struggle. I wish so much that I did not miss nicotine. I feel guilty that I miss it. I know that is just a deadly trap to have feelings that like. I know that I need to replace that longing with anger. I have to stop giving this drug so much glory and so much credit. I guess I am just thinking outloud and being honest with you all. I know this is all mental crap at this point. I know that this mind game must be fought daily and these feeling beaten back daily.

The wisdom and the experience that I hear in your words makes me certain that better days are ahead. I will keep marching down this road of quit, and I will keep trying not to look back. Sometimes I just march down this road blindly following all of you, trusting that you are going in the right direction. I want to be where you are. I know you can help me get there. You have already helped me beyond belief.

Dont know how I can thank you. I supported some new quitters, (both day 5), offered some encouragement. Checking in on them daily, kind of you guys do for me. Hopefully that is how I thank you, just paying it forward.

Mega proud to be quit with you all.

[Skoal Monster]

Day 36,

I am still troubled that I couldnt answer the question of the day yesterday. "what has been the best thing about the quit?".

The truth is quitting has completely sucked. Day in and day out it has sucked. It is sometimes hard to think of anything good about it. Despite that, I still quit. I quit with all of you.

While it is hard yet, to focus on the positive aspects of being quit, I am fully aware of the EVIL and all of the negative aspects of USING. I remain focused on that, and that is still what drives this quit.

This morning I am 100% positive about 2 things. 1. I will NOT use nicotine today. and 2. I could NOT have made it this far in this quit without the resources on this site and the quitters I have met along the way.

Keep quitting quitters.

Ryan

Easy Cowgirl. 36 days is awesome and you have come further than you realize but you are still in the early stages. Like the other guys said, your quit isn't going to "take off" for a little bit yet, but you are close.

Do not get down on yourself.
Do not feel you should be "cured" by now, or that every day will be easy. It won't be.
Do not feel sorry for yourself.
Do not mope.
Do not compare your quit to others, each quit is unique.

DO realize that 36 days is fucking AWESOME
Do keep active on this site
Do listen to others
Do keep posting your "thoughts" in your intro
Do keep posting role and your "keep chugging along" attitude
Do realize you are on the right path
Do realize you have come a long way.
Do believe me that the freedom you will soon feel, is beyond fucking belief
Do look forward to that. Quit for today but do look forward to the better days ahead.

Recently I did this and I almost fucking cried...I took a huge step back, realized everything I have been through, thought about all the tools I had acquired, all the connections I had made on this site, all the hurdles I had cleared, all the triggers I had beat, all the bullshit I crawled through.

And I realized something for the first time. I will never chew again. I quit for each day, but it hit me like a ton of bricks...I CAN actually go the rest of my life without chew. I always THOUGHT that, but I'm not sure I truly BELIEVED it until recently, when I beat back one of the biggest hurdles of my quit.

It's like when you take a new job. At first you think, "fuck, this job is hard as hell. I will never be comfortable and figure everything out. This SUCKS. Maybe I should have stayed at my old job..." Then as time passes and you learn from your boss, your co workers, you put in extra hours, you get a promotion maybe, you step back and realize..."Dude, why did I think this job was so hard? I can do most of it with my hands tied behind my back, and I can handle any odd bullshit that is thrown my way, because I've seen just about everything". This is how I feel about my quit right now.

But I know just like my job, if I start to slack, fuck around, call in sick a bunch of days, don't keep updated on new processes or training, etc...that I will be fucked and eventually fired. So just like quitting you always have to keep you guard up.

This is the way I see it anyway. You or others may think I'm a crazy fuck, but just know that things WILL GET BETTER. Your fighting the good fight, and you will be victorious and the rewards will be sweeter than apple pie.

Hey Ryan, it will be ok man. First listen to Diesel, he knows his shit. Second the question of the day isn't a test. Nobody is going to grade you or laugh at you (unless that is what you want to happen, that is usually pretty obvious.) 36 days (37 now) is amazing and there are a lot more where those came from.

It does get better, for me somewhere in the 40's is when I started having a shift in my thinking. Somewhere around my 30's someone asked the question "would you use again if the world was going to end and you knew about it?" In the 30's my answer was FUCK YEA! about 45 days in is where my answer started to change to something like well maybe if.... If you ask me now the answer is FUCK NO! There are stages to this whole quitting thing, some of it yes you are just going to have to put your head down and muscle through it, but then maybe for 5 or 10 minutes you wont think about dipping, you may not realize it until later in the day but there will be those little moments that start this journey. The time will grow, your quit will grow and pretty soon those minutes turn into hours and then days.

It will get better, don't put too much thought into trivial things like the question of the day. I am proud of you and what you have accomplished. Keep your head down and push through this. I know your resolve is awesome and you will be rewarded for that. Let me know if you need anything.

James

Here are 100 things to be thankful for

http://www.killthecan.org/facts/100benefits.asp

[jbradley]

Day 36,

I am still troubled that I couldnt answer the question of the day yesterday. "what has been the best thing about the quit?".

The truth is quitting has completely sucked. Day in and day out it has sucked. It is sometimes hard to think of anything good about it. Despite that, I still quit. I quit with all of you.

While it is hard yet, to focus on the positive aspects of being quit, I am fully aware of the EVIL and all of the negative aspects of USING. I remain focused on that, and that is still what drives this quit.

This morning I am 100% positive about 2 things. 1. I will NOT use nicotine today. and 2. I could NOT have made it this far in this quit without the resources on this site and the quitters I have met along the way.

Keep quitting quitters.

Ryan

Easy Cowgirl. 36 days is awesome and you have come further than you realize but you are still in the early stages. Like the other guys said, your quit isn't going to "take off" for a little bit yet, but you are close.

Do not get down on yourself.
Do not feel you should be "cured" by now, or that every day will be easy. It won't be.
Do not feel sorry for yourself.
Do not mope.
Do not compare your quit to others, each quit is unique.

DO realize that 36 days is fucking AWESOME
Do keep active on this site
Do listen to others
Do keep posting your "thoughts" in your intro
Do keep posting role and your "keep chugging along" attitude
Do realize you are on the right path
Do realize you have come a long way.
Do believe me that the freedom you will soon feel, is beyond fucking belief
Do look forward to that. Quit for today but do look forward to the better days ahead.

Recently I did this and I almost fucking cried...I took a huge step back, realized everything I have been through, thought about all the tools I had acquired, all the connections I had made on this site, all the hurdles I had cleared, all the triggers I had beat, all the bullshit I crawled through.

And I realized something for the first time. I will never chew again. I quit for each day, but it hit me like a ton of bricks...I CAN actually go the rest of my life without chew. I always THOUGHT that, but I'm not sure I truly BELIEVED it until recently, when I beat back one of the biggest hurdles of my quit.

It's like when you take a new job. At first you think, "fuck, this job is hard as hell. I will never be comfortable and figure everything out. This SUCKS. Maybe I should have stayed at my old job..." Then as time passes and you learn from your boss, your co workers, you put in extra hours, you get a promotion maybe, you step back and realize..."Dude, why did I think this job was so hard? I can do most of it with my hands tied behind my back, and I can handle any odd bullshit that is thrown my way, because I've seen just about everything". This is how I feel about my quit right now.

But I know just like my job, if I start to slack, fuck around, call in sick a bunch of days, don't keep updated on new processes or training, etc...that I will be fucked and eventually fired. So just like quitting you always have to keep you guard up.

This is the way I see it anyway. You or others may think I'm a crazy fuck, but just know that things WILL GET BETTER. Your fighting the good fight, and you will be victorious and the rewards will be sweeter than apple pie.

Hey Ryan, it will be ok man. First listen to Diesel, he knows his shit. Second the question of the day isn't a test. Nobody is going to grade you or laugh at you (unless that is what you want to happen, that is usually pretty obvious.) 36 days (37 now) is amazing and there are a lot more where those came from.

It does get better, for me somewhere in the 40's is when I started having a shift in my thinking. Somewhere around my 30's someone asked the question "would you use again if the world was going to end and you knew about it?" In the 30's my answer was FUCK YEA! about 45 days in is where my answer started to change to something like well maybe if.... If you ask me now the answer is FUCK NO! There are stages to this whole quitting thing, some of it yes you are just going to have to put your head down and muscle through it, but then maybe for 5 or 10 minutes you wont think about dipping, you may not realize it until later in the day but there will be those little moments that start this journey. The time will grow, your quit will grow and pretty soon those minutes turn into hours and then days.

It will get better, don't put too much thought into trivial things like the question of the day. I am proud of you and what you have accomplished. Keep your head down and push through this. I know your resolve is awesome and you will be rewarded for that. Let me know if you need anything.

James

[Diesel2112]

Day 36,

I am still troubled that I couldnt answer the question of the day yesterday. "what has been the best thing about the quit?".

The truth is quitting has completely sucked. Day in and day out it has sucked. It is sometimes hard to think of anything good about it. Despite that, I still quit. I quit with all of you.

While it is hard yet, to focus on the positive aspects of being quit, I am fully aware of the EVIL and all of the negative aspects of USING. I remain focused on that, and that is still what drives this quit.

This morning I am 100% positive about 2 things. 1. I will NOT use nicotine today. and 2. I could NOT have made it this far in this quit without the resources on this site and the quitters I have met along the way.

Keep quitting quitters.

Ryan

Easy Cowgirl. 36 days is awesome and you have come further than you realize but you are still in the early stages. Like the other guys said, your quit isn't going to "take off" for a little bit yet, but you are close.

Do not get down on yourself.
Do not feel you should be "cured" by now, or that every day will be easy. It won't be.
Do not feel sorry for yourself.
Do not mope.
Do not compare your quit to others, each quit is unique.

DO realize that 36 days is fucking AWESOME
Do keep active on this site
Do listen to others
Do keep posting your "thoughts" in your intro
Do keep posting role and your "keep chugging along" attitude
Do realize you are on the right path
Do realize you have come a long way.
Do believe me that the freedom you will soon feel, is beyond fucking belief
Do look forward to that. Quit for today but do look forward to the better days ahead.

Recently I did this and I almost fucking cried...I took a huge step back, realized everything I have been through, thought about all the tools I had acquired, all the connections I had made on this site, all the hurdles I had cleared, all the triggers I had beat, all the bullshit I crawled through.

And I realized something for the first time. I will never chew again. I quit for each day, but it hit me like a ton of bricks...I CAN actually go the rest of my life without chew. I always THOUGHT that, but I'm not sure I truly BELIEVED it until recently, when I beat back one of the biggest hurdles of my quit.

It's like when you take a new job. At first you think, "fuck, this job is hard as hell. I will never be comfortable and figure everything out. This SUCKS. Maybe I should have stayed at my old job..." Then as time passes and you learn from your boss, your co workers, you put in extra hours, you get a promotion maybe, you step back and realize..."Dude, why did I think this job was so hard? I can do most of it with my hands tied behind my back, and I can handle any odd bullshit that is thrown my way, because I've seen just about everything". This is how I feel about my quit right now.

But I know just like my job, if I start to slack, fuck around, call in sick a bunch of days, don't keep updated on new processes or training, etc...that I will be fucked and eventually fired. So just like quitting you always have to keep you guard up.

This is the way I see it anyway. You or others may think I'm a crazy fuck, but just know that things WILL GET BETTER. Your fighting the good fight, and you will be victorious and the rewards will be sweeter than apple pie.

[Scowick65]

Day 36,

I am still troubled that I couldnt answer the question of the day yesterday. "what has been the best thing about the quit?".

The truth is quitting has completely sucked. Day in and day out it has sucked. It is sometimes hard to think of anything good about it. Despite that, I still quit. I quit with all of you.

While it is hard yet, to focus on the positive aspects of being quit, I am fully aware of the EVIL and all of the negative aspects of USING. I remain focused on that, and that is still what drives this quit.

This morning I am 100% positive about 2 things. 1. I will NOT use nicotine today. and 2. I could NOT have made it this far in this quit without the resources on this site and the quitters I have met along the way.

Keep quitting quitters.

Ryan

You are going to have down days. It's ok. To feel that way.

Go ahead and take a look down at you last post you made a couple of days ago. Plenty of good reasons listed there, and there'!s of reasons more as well. You see, these "bad" days seem so bad because our bodies are still adjusting. How many days had you been using? Did you think everything would be roses after 36 days? Does it really matter?

I am 587 days quit today. 50-60 of those have probably been rough days, while the rest feel fucking fantastic. That's OK. You know why? Most of those 50-60 days occurred in the first 100. As you get along, the bad days should get less frequent and the good days more frequent.

You can do this.

I'm very proud of you. 36 days is awesome.

The tall peaks and deep valleys will soon be gentle, rolling meadows.

Trust me.

It will absolutely get better. The first 30 days was a whirlwind for me. My gums tasted like copper and what's left of my hair follicles tingled. I remember just getting over that feeling that I forgot the trusty tin of death at the house and almost panicking 3 weeks in. It was all I could do to post up and stay busy. A couple gents stayed with me, pushed and pulled me through. Soon, the self centered egomaniac gave way to self aware peacefulness and I started to discover that the rest of this motley crew was in the same boat.
Nicole is a sneaky little vixen. She will whisper sweet nothings in your ear and try to fill your head with doubt. You are more powerful then that. You hold your destiny in your hands. You are a man of your word. You've proven it 36 times and today is no different.

I am at 788. Honestly, I would go through all of the shit all over again to have and enjoy the freedom I now possess. I did not begin to really start to get "there" until day 120 to 150. Have faith. In time a new normal shall appear. The body will adjust. The psyche will adjust. You will gradually and often unnoticeably reinvent what it is to be you. You shall be restored one day at a time.