Proud to say I will be a quitter

[SirDerek]

Day 576

ok here is a different kind of dip dream.

So vivid as standing in line at the checkout, not sure which store but looking around behind the counter. Seeing the cigarettes and all. Looking through noticing the dip....

seeing the cope and saying..."well the price has gone up"

and looking further seeing smokey mountain, jakes and others, saying "good to see they have the alternatives"

coming back to the crap,, seeing one at an extra low price, saying "wow now that I could go for....."

Ending up paying for the stuff I was getting (groceries), and getting to the car. Looking at myself in the rearview mirror " WTF was that. Why the hell was I comparison shopping for something I never had the intention of buying.".

man just another screwed up dream. but only a dream

[kana]

What is your word worth?

Well been a few weeks since I posted last and with all the happenings in my life and the drama on the site I had to put a few thoughts on this down.

We start on the site here hopefully just continuing something that we have in the basis of ourselves, and that is when we give our word, we should uphold it. Now we all have done it in the past with our addiction where we went against this fiber and either did not try as hard as we should have to quit, or we ninjaÂ’d around. Well that is the past.

I can remember one of my first days of college where we had to sign an Honor Code Pledge. Guess what this was?  A promise made with your word that you would not cheat. And what did it entail? It meant to keep your word and not cheat. The results if you did ranged from failure to expulsion.

Then I came across this site, and found that one of the basic pillars was to give that word each day to remain quit. I felt like I needed that as it would get me back to the person I once was where I would make a pledge and keep it. As a reminder to myself, I selected a name and an avatar that would represent the qualities that I wanted to follow to the heart. And in the subsequent 327 days, I have kept my word each and every day, but better yet I have honored that word.

So what is my word worth? WellÂ…

•   I could tally it with the over $1,000 that I have saved, but it is so much more than that.

•   I could say that by quitting my blood pressure is now very close to the normal range for a person of my age (135/85), instead of being through the roof high (160/100), but it is so much more than that.

•   I could say how much time wise it has saved me from the points of keeping separate from my loved ones as I dipped or had to run out to the store, but again it is so much more

All of these and there are so much more I could list, but for me, the biggest worth is above and beyond all of that. It is the fact that I did make those promises with my word each day, and I HONORED IT EACH AND EVERY DAY.

And to this I am a much better person inside that I was at this time last year.

I will sum the worth up with one wordÂ…..priceless.

so fitting again, don't you think.

Damn Sir Derek! As always inspirational and topical. Especially in relation to current happeningss in our March class. You totally get what honour and commitment embody. We all are stronger quitters because of you. You have shown me how to make an apprentice suit of armour for myself. Thanks!

Well said. Very timely.

Spoken like a true scout!

Never gets old.

a man takes 2 things to the grave, his ass  his word.. quit with you everyday..

[Evil_Won]

What is your word worth?

Well been a few weeks since I posted last and with all the happenings in my life and the drama on the site I had to put a few thoughts on this down.

We start on the site here hopefully just continuing something that we have in the basis of ourselves, and that is when we give our word, we should uphold it. Now we all have done it in the past with our addiction where we went against this fiber and either did not try as hard as we should have to quit, or we ninjaÂ’d around. Well that is the past.

I can remember one of my first days of college where we had to sign an Honor Code Pledge. Guess what this was?  A promise made with your word that you would not cheat. And what did it entail? It meant to keep your word and not cheat. The results if you did ranged from failure to expulsion.

Then I came across this site, and found that one of the basic pillars was to give that word each day to remain quit. I felt like I needed that as it would get me back to the person I once was where I would make a pledge and keep it. As a reminder to myself, I selected a name and an avatar that would represent the qualities that I wanted to follow to the heart. And in the subsequent 327 days, I have kept my word each and every day, but better yet I have honored that word.

So what is my word worth? WellÂ…

•   I could tally it with the over $1,000 that I have saved, but it is so much more than that.

•   I could say that by quitting my blood pressure is now very close to the normal range for a person of my age (135/85), instead of being through the roof high (160/100), but it is so much more than that.

•   I could say how much time wise it has saved me from the points of keeping separate from my loved ones as I dipped or had to run out to the store, but again it is so much more

All of these and there are so much more I could list, but for me, the biggest worth is above and beyond all of that. It is the fact that I did make those promises with my word each day, and I HONORED IT EACH AND EVERY DAY.

And to this I am a much better person inside that I was at this time last year.

I will sum the worth up with one wordÂ…..priceless.

so fitting again, don't you think.

Damn Sir Derek! As always inspirational and topical. Especially in relation to current happeningss in our March class. You totally get what honour and commitment embody. We all are stronger quitters because of you. You have shown me how to make an apprentice suit of armour for myself. Thanks!

Well said. Very timely.

Spoken like a true scout!

Never gets old.

[Wt57]

What is your word worth?

Well been a few weeks since I posted last and with all the happenings in my life and the drama on the site I had to put a few thoughts on this down.

We start on the site here hopefully just continuing something that we have in the basis of ourselves, and that is when we give our word, we should uphold it. Now we all have done it in the past with our addiction where we went against this fiber and either did not try as hard as we should have to quit, or we ninjaÂ’d around. Well that is the past.

I can remember one of my first days of college where we had to sign an Honor Code Pledge. Guess what this was?  A promise made with your word that you would not cheat. And what did it entail? It meant to keep your word and not cheat. The results if you did ranged from failure to expulsion.

Then I came across this site, and found that one of the basic pillars was to give that word each day to remain quit. I felt like I needed that as it would get me back to the person I once was where I would make a pledge and keep it. As a reminder to myself, I selected a name and an avatar that would represent the qualities that I wanted to follow to the heart. And in the subsequent 327 days, I have kept my word each and every day, but better yet I have honored that word.

So what is my word worth? WellÂ…

•   I could tally it with the over $1,000 that I have saved, but it is so much more than that.

•   I could say that by quitting my blood pressure is now very close to the normal range for a person of my age (135/85), instead of being through the roof high (160/100), but it is so much more than that.

•   I could say how much time wise it has saved me from the points of keeping separate from my loved ones as I dipped or had to run out to the store, but again it is so much more

All of these and there are so much more I could list, but for me, the biggest worth is above and beyond all of that. It is the fact that I did make those promises with my word each day, and I HONORED IT EACH AND EVERY DAY.

And to this I am a much better person inside that I was at this time last year.

I will sum the worth up with one wordÂ…..priceless.

so fitting again, don't you think.

Damn Sir Derek! As always inspirational and topical. Especially in relation to current happeningss in our March class. You totally get what honour and commitment embody. We all are stronger quitters because of you. You have shown me how to make an apprentice suit of armour for myself. Thanks!

Well said. Very timely.

Spoken like a true scout!

[worktowin]

What is your word worth?

Well been a few weeks since I posted last and with all the happenings in my life and the drama on the site I had to put a few thoughts on this down.

We start on the site here hopefully just continuing something that we have in the basis of ourselves, and that is when we give our word, we should uphold it. Now we all have done it in the past with our addiction where we went against this fiber and either did not try as hard as we should have to quit, or we ninjaÂ’d around. Well that is the past.

I can remember one of my first days of college where we had to sign an Honor Code Pledge. Guess what this was?  A promise made with your word that you would not cheat. And what did it entail? It meant to keep your word and not cheat. The results if you did ranged from failure to expulsion.

Then I came across this site, and found that one of the basic pillars was to give that word each day to remain quit. I felt like I needed that as it would get me back to the person I once was where I would make a pledge and keep it. As a reminder to myself, I selected a name and an avatar that would represent the qualities that I wanted to follow to the heart. And in the subsequent 327 days, I have kept my word each and every day, but better yet I have honored that word.

So what is my word worth? WellÂ…

•   I could tally it with the over $1,000 that I have saved, but it is so much more than that.

•   I could say that by quitting my blood pressure is now very close to the normal range for a person of my age (135/85), instead of being through the roof high (160/100), but it is so much more than that.

•   I could say how much time wise it has saved me from the points of keeping separate from my loved ones as I dipped or had to run out to the store, but again it is so much more

All of these and there are so much more I could list, but for me, the biggest worth is above and beyond all of that. It is the fact that I did make those promises with my word each day, and I HONORED IT EACH AND EVERY DAY.

And to this I am a much better person inside that I was at this time last year.

I will sum the worth up with one wordÂ…..priceless.

so fitting again, don't you think.

Damn Sir Derek! As always inspirational and topical. Especially in relation to current happeningss in our March class. You totally get what honour and commitment embody. We all are stronger quitters because of you. You have shown me how to make an apprentice suit of armour for myself. Thanks!

Well said. Very timely.

[rdad]

What is your word worth?

Well been a few weeks since I posted last and with all the happenings in my life and the drama on the site I had to put a few thoughts on this down.

We start on the site here hopefully just continuing something that we have in the basis of ourselves, and that is when we give our word, we should uphold it. Now we all have done it in the past with our addiction where we went against this fiber and either did not try as hard as we should have to quit, or we ninjaÂ’d around. Well that is the past.

I can remember one of my first days of college where we had to sign an Honor Code Pledge. Guess what this was?  A promise made with your word that you would not cheat. And what did it entail? It meant to keep your word and not cheat. The results if you did ranged from failure to expulsion.

Then I came across this site, and found that one of the basic pillars was to give that word each day to remain quit. I felt like I needed that as it would get me back to the person I once was where I would make a pledge and keep it. As a reminder to myself, I selected a name and an avatar that would represent the qualities that I wanted to follow to the heart. And in the subsequent 327 days, I have kept my word each and every day, but better yet I have honored that word.

So what is my word worth? WellÂ…

•   I could tally it with the over $1,000 that I have saved, but it is so much more than that.

•   I could say that by quitting my blood pressure is now very close to the normal range for a person of my age (135/85), instead of being through the roof high (160/100), but it is so much more than that.

•   I could say how much time wise it has saved me from the points of keeping separate from my loved ones as I dipped or had to run out to the store, but again it is so much more

All of these and there are so much more I could list, but for me, the biggest worth is above and beyond all of that. It is the fact that I did make those promises with my word each day, and I HONORED IT EACH AND EVERY DAY.

And to this I am a much better person inside that I was at this time last year.

I will sum the worth up with one wordÂ…..priceless.

so fitting again, don't you think.

Damn Sir Derek! As always inspirational and topical. Especially in relation to current happeningss in our March class. You totally get what honour and commitment embody. We all are stronger quitters because of you. You have shown me how to make an apprentice suit of armour for myself. Thanks!

[SirDerek]

What is your word worth?

Well been a few weeks since I posted last and with all the happenings in my life and the drama on the site I had to put a few thoughts on this down.

We start on the site here hopefully just continuing something that we have in the basis of ourselves, and that is when we give our word, we should uphold it. Now we all have done it in the past with our addiction where we went against this fiber and either did not try as hard as we should have to quit, or we ninjaÂ’d around. Well that is the past.

I can remember one of my first days of college where we had to sign an Honor Code Pledge. Guess what this was? A promise made with your word that you would not cheat. And what did it entail? It meant to keep your word and not cheat. The results if you did ranged from failure to expulsion.

Then I came across this site, and found that one of the basic pillars was to give that word each day to remain quit. I felt like I needed that as it would get me back to the person I once was where I would make a pledge and keep it. As a reminder to myself, I selected a name and an avatar that would represent the qualities that I wanted to follow to the heart. And in the subsequent 327 days, I have kept my word each and every day, but better yet I have honored that word.

So what is my word worth? WellÂ…

•   I could tally it with the over $1,000 that I have saved, but it is so much more than that.

•   I could say that by quitting my blood pressure is now very close to the normal range for a person of my age (135/85), instead of being through the roof high (160/100), but it is so much more than that.

•   I could say how much time wise it has saved me from the points of keeping separate from my loved ones as I dipped or had to run out to the store, but again it is so much more

All of these and there are so much more I could list, but for me, the biggest worth is above and beyond all of that. It is the fact that I did make those promises with my word each day, and I HONORED IT EACH AND EVERY DAY.

And to this I am a much better person inside that I was at this time last year.

I will sum the worth up with one wordÂ…..priceless.

so fitting again, don't you think.

[Wt57]

Thanks all for the words below,

now if Clarence would be able to  show me as I need it as did this yesterday again

think I am just going to curl up under my armor for a few more days, as it has crossed my mind a time or two of why not go back to poisoning myself....but am not there yet....

Yet??? You better not get "there".

Hopefully while you are under your armor, you pull your fucking head out of your ass.

You're just gonna throw all the hard work and struggles you went through down the drain? You think if you go back to the can your life will be BETTER???

You want to go through all this AGAIN, or are you just gonna turn your back on all of us, walk away, and return to a life where banging the can is priority #1.

You're a bad ass quitter who has inspired many on this site. You have much to be proud of and are an example for many of the young guys. Don't fuck it up by giving into thougts of the posion making you feel better.

It won't. And you know that. If you didn't know that, you would not be here today.

You are better than this, and I know you will not get "there".

Thanks Diesel, and thanks Pinched.

Well had a total meltdown yesterday in front of the wife and older son. I guess I had hit the rock bottom and just let it out for 15-20 minutes

And you know I do feel a lot better now. This site with the encouragement not only for quitting but also in the other aspects of life really touches me. Thank you for the brotherhood that has been extended to me.

I will continue to pay it forward, I will continue to make friends and family here.

And Merry Christmas to everyone, and as Tiny Tim proclaimed "God bless us, every one".

Atta boy!!!

Tis the season for meltdowns!!!! Just had one with the wife who wants to adopt an epileptic pug dog with a lazy eye. $400??!!! Fucking nuts

As I suspected you know your shit and that nic solves nothing. Just adds to the problem.

Merry Christmas to you and your family!!!

Yep, we've all been there! It's when you have the meltdown and keep it locked up inside that no one can offer a hand. Throwing in a dip, jumping off the bridge or whatever your messed up mind conceive that's not the answer. Just like all the other times it will pass. Under your armor is a good place.
Side note for diesel; look on the bright side the mutt has both nuts!

Fucking nuts

[Marcusaurelius]

Derek,

Thanks for being a friend, you have helped my life and gave me inspiration in more ways than you can imagine. When ever I have a bad day or am feeling down I know if I hang out in chat you will show up and in the inconsistent world of our quits you are the one thing I can count on being there everytime. I wish you and your family a wonderful holiday and thank you for everything you have done for me in the past 288 days I look for to celebrating many milestones in my quit with you help. God Bless.

[Diesel2112]

Thanks all for the words below,

now if Clarence would be able to  show me as I need it as did this yesterday again

think I am just going to curl up under my armor for a few more days, as it has crossed my mind a time or two of why not go back to poisoning myself....but am not there yet....

Yet??? You better not get "there".

Hopefully while you are under your armor, you pull your fucking head out of your ass.

You're just gonna throw all the hard work and struggles you went through down the drain? You think if you go back to the can your life will be BETTER???

You want to go through all this AGAIN, or are you just gonna turn your back on all of us, walk away, and return to a life where banging the can is priority #1.

You're a bad ass quitter who has inspired many on this site. You have much to be proud of and are an example for many of the young guys. Don't fuck it up by giving into thougts of the posion making you feel better.

It won't. And you know that. If you didn't know that, you would not be here today.

You are better than this, and I know you will not get "there".

Thanks Diesel, and thanks Pinched.

Well had a total meltdown yesterday in front of the wife and older son. I guess I had hit the rock bottom and just let it out for 15-20 minutes

And you know I do feel a lot better now. This site with the encouragement not only for quitting but also in the other aspects of life really touches me. Thank you for the brotherhood that has been extended to me.

I will continue to pay it forward, I will continue to make friends and family here.

And Merry Christmas to everyone, and as Tiny Tim proclaimed "God bless us, every one".

Atta boy!!!

Tis the season for meltdowns!!!! Just had one with the wife who wants to adopt an epileptic pug dog with a lazy eye. $400??!!! Fucking nuts

As I suspected you know your shit and that nic solves nothing. Just adds to the problem.

Merry Christmas to you and your family!!!

[SirDerek]

Thanks all for the words below,

now if Clarence would be able to  show me as I need it as did this yesterday again

think I am just going to curl up under my armor for a few more days, as it has crossed my mind a time or two of why not go back to poisoning myself....but am not there yet....

Yet??? You better not get "there".

Hopefully while you are under your armor, you pull your fucking head out of your ass.

You're just gonna throw all the hard work and struggles you went through down the drain? You think if you go back to the can your life will be BETTER???

You want to go through all this AGAIN, or are you just gonna turn your back on all of us, walk away, and return to a life where banging the can is priority #1.

You're a bad ass quitter who has inspired many on this site. You have much to be proud of and are an example for many of the young guys. Don't fuck it up by giving into thougts of the posion making you feel better.

It won't. And you know that. If you didn't know that, you would not be here today.

You are better than this, and I know you will not get "there".

Thanks Diesel, and thanks Pinched.

Well had a total meltdown yesterday in front of the wife and older son. I guess I had hit the rock bottom and just let it out for 15-20 minutes

And you know I do feel a lot better now. This site with the encouragement not only for quitting but also in the other aspects of life really touches me. Thank you for the brotherhood that has been extended to me.

I will continue to pay it forward, I will continue to make friends and family here.

And Merry Christmas to everyone, and as Tiny Tim proclaimed "God bless us, every one".

[Diesel2112]

Thanks all for the words below,

now if Clarence would be able to show me as I need it as did this yesterday again

think I am just going to curl up under my armor for a few more days, as it has crossed my mind a time or two of why not go back to poisoning myself....but am not there yet....

Yet??? You better not get "there".

Hopefully while you are under your armor, you pull your fucking head out of your ass.

You're just gonna throw all the hard work and struggles you went through down the drain? You think if you go back to the can your life will be BETTER???

You want to go through all this AGAIN, or are you just gonna turn your back on all of us, walk away, and return to a life where banging the can is priority #1.

You're a bad ass quitter who has inspired many on this site. You have much to be proud of and are an example for many of the young guys. Don't fuck it up by giving into thougts of the posion making you feel better.

It won't. And you know that. If you didn't know that, you would not be here today.

You are better than this, and I know you will not get "there".

[Pinched]

Thanks all for the words below,

now if Clarence would be able to show me as I need it as did this yesterday again

think I am just going to curl up under my armor for a few more days, as it has crossed my mind a time or two of why not go back to poisoning myself....but am not there yet....

Why not?
1 you already posted roll
2 you have proven you don't need that little weed
3 you want to watch your family grow old
4 you like having a lower jaw to kiss your wife with
5 you have a lot of accomplishments in 2013, don't kill that trend
6 your teeth are whiter now
7 your breath does not smell like a litter box
8 you at not hiding an addiction
9 you continue to save money
10 you are a great part of KTC
11 you don't want to face the suck again
12 you deserve to stay quit for another Christmas

Now move along, you got this, as this too will pass. You do not need the weed!

[SirDerek]

Thanks all for the words below,

now if Clarence would be able to show me as I need it as did this yesterday again

think I am just going to curl up under my armor for a few more days, as it has crossed my mind a time or two of why not go back to poisoning myself....but am not there yet....

[SirDerek]

I read a post today that I cannot put any reply in words that would make any sense of a situation other than my thoughts and prayers are there for this person and family.

And I do believe that there are Angels Among Us and hope they continue to watch over us at this time of year.