Proud to say I will be a quitter

[jhaenel23]

Day 2 – 0 – 0

Well I really never thought I would get this far, but guess what, I have.'oh yeah'

The support from the site, the veterans, the now newer quitters and from my Oct12 madmen and madwomen have made it such that it has given me the strength to get here.

A score of 200 to nothing. That is where this is standing. Yes that score is rising quicker and quicker. Yes the feelings are getting so much better and better as any feeling from the nic bitch is getting further and further apart. Yes I still hear her, but she is becoming so quiet it is almost like background noise. And Yes this is going to be one case where I do not care but I am going to run this score up as high as it will go and not worry about what the other side thinks.

Lately been seeing those groups hit 100 and like ours have some people drift away from the site. 'finger point' I can say right now that is not me. I need to provide my word each morning to you all. That gives me the strength needed as I honor my word. I really do not know what I would do if I ever had to break my word especially to those who I have come to know and consider as a part of my family.

And I understand that I am still a work in progress. Yes 200 days may seem long, but compared to 23 years of poisoning myself, I will continue to work at it. So or you new guy, give it time, things will and do get better, but masterpieces take time to build (in my case re-build). And in time I see my life so much better than what it had been.

Thanks for listening to just ‘plain’ Derek and give me a yell if you need any help as I am not going anywhere anytime soon. :ph43r:

'boob' 'boob' 'boob' Hell Yeah!!!!

[SirDerek]

Day 2 – 0 – 0

Well I really never thought I would get this far, but guess what, I have.'oh yeah'

The support from the site, the veterans, the now newer quitters and from my Oct12 madmen and madwomen have made it such that it has given me the strength to get here.

A score of 200 to nothing. That is where this is standing. Yes that score is rising quicker and quicker. Yes the feelings are getting so much better and better as any feeling from the nic bitch is getting further and further apart. Yes I still hear her, but she is becoming so quiet it is almost like background noise. And Yes this is going to be one case where I do not care but I am going to run this score up as high as it will go and not worry about what the other side thinks.

Lately been seeing those groups hit 100 and like ours have some people drift away from the site. 'finger point' I can say right now that is not me. I need to provide my word each morning to you all. That gives me the strength needed as I honor my word. I really do not know what I would do if I ever had to break my word especially to those who I have come to know and consider as a part of my family.

And I understand that I am still a work in progress. Yes 200 days may seem long, but compared to 23 years of poisoning myself, I will continue to work at it. So or you new guy, give it time, things will and do get better, but masterpieces take time to build (in my case re-build). And in time I see my life so much better than what it had been.

Thanks for listening to just ‘plain’ Derek and give me a yell if you need any help as I am not going anywhere anytime soon. :ph43r:

[MikeWC]

Congrats SD, and well said. Thanks for sharing that.

[lcwb96]

Congrats on 6 months Derek. Keep it going.

[mfkuss]

Congrat's Derek!! Awesome Job! You are an inspiration to us all!

[cbird65]

Congrats on the 6 months friend.  That is awesome. Be proud. Enjoy your day.

Nice work, SD.

Continued success D~ protect it every damn day!!

[G]

Congrats on the 6 months friend. That is awesome. Be proud. Enjoy your day.

Nice work, SD.

[loot]

Congrats on the 6 months friend. That is awesome. Be proud. Enjoy your day.

[SirDerek]

Day 183 - Can say officially 6 months on New Year's Eve

I truely never thought I would get this far. Been through alot: the suck, the doldrums, the blah's and humbugs, the funks. Have fought through more this year with this than I have done in my previous 23 years of dipping. I have finally grown up to experience these things as a confident adult.

This site has taught me so much.
---I never would have believe that there were so many of us, as well as so many of us who are just about identical to each other for all that we have done.
---I would never have thought of reaching out to strangers who I had only seen typing on a screen, and now I cannot even think of not hearing your voice on the other end of the phone or seeing your text message as we both get through this together.
---I now know what to expect and to do when any type of craving may hit me, wich have been really faint lately and further apart.
---I have learned to keep an even keel and not let my emotions rule the day, except for the week before Christmas where I was a mess.
--- At the toughest I have learned to take it day by day and not to look into the future other than to waking up the next day and looking forward to giving my word to stay quit.

In all, just the fact that this site has helped me to get and stay quit, I cannot thank it enough.

KTC I wish you a Prosperous New Year. 'party2'

[SirDerek]

Day 178 – Tis the season….
Ok, need to pen this down for myself where hopefully some others can help learn too, though now past the day of Christmas.

This was the first Christmas that I have been nicotine free in my adult life, 24 years ago, I was 17 when I had been clean last (damn it still shocks and disgusts me when I say that). I am not sure whether the stress of the season, or this fact of not knowing how I would react, really had me deep in depression the last week to 10 days. I also used quite a bit more of the fake stuff than I had been in the past 2 months, so must have had some hidden/subconscious cravings there. I do have to say though I had no feelings of running to the store and dropping a turd into my lip.

I do say that during this time I did spend a little more time on the site here, I drank the water, exercised moreÂ…..used all the information that I had learned early on in my quit to help keep me quit.

Then there were just the kind words from the Oct12 Madmen and Madwomen whether by text, in the thread or in live chat that helped during these days. I wanted to repeat it here as you all are a special group, and there will be no way in the hot spot that I will let you down and give in to the nic bitch.

I can now scream to the world, I AM QUIT TODAY. And my plan is to wake in the morning and make that promise again.

Merry Christmas KTC, you beautiful site.

[Adigg]

Day 169 -

had to note this as the math geek in me liked alot. This sort of fits into a KTC Math:

via Scowick: 1 Problem + Nicotene = 2 Problems

Loved it, and with thinking of more got one of those Math word problems:

Question: If a person wakes at 6 am traveling at 1 m/sec from his bed, how long should it be until he posts his word, and then subequently how long does said person stay quit?

Answer: Within 1 hour of waking to post and that leaves a remainder of 23 hours, including sleep time, for that person to remain quit.

Never Again For Any Reason

To stick with you math theme here is a proof:

1. To chew you need time and money therefore:

chew = time x money

2. Time is money, therefore:

Time = Money

3. Therefore:

Chew = Money x Money = Money^2 (Money squared)

4. Money is the root of all problems

Money = \I Problems (\I = Square root, this forum doesnÂ’t recognize the square root symbol)

5. Therefore:

Chew = (\IProblems)^2

We all know that the square root and the squared cancel each other out, therefore:

6. Chew = Problems

It's tough to type in on the screen, I encourage you to right it down and see for yourself. The proof is in the math!!!!

[SirDerek]

Day 169 -

had to note this as the math geek in me liked alot. This sort of fits into a KTC Math:

via Scowick: 1 Problem + Nicotene = 2 Problems

Loved it, and with thinking of more got one of those Math word problems:

Question: If a person wakes at 6 am traveling at 1 m/sec from his bed, how long should it be until he posts his word, and then subequently how long does said person stay quit?

Answer: Within 1 hour of waking to post and that leaves a remainder of 23 hours, including sleep time, for that person to remain quit.

Never Again For Any Reason

[mich 34]

On Day 166:

I gotta say, I think I wear quit very well.....At least my wife thinks so

Case in point....just yesterday in the kitchen, after a cute little kiss, she said, "I like being able to give you a kiss anytime I want."

It may sound sappy, but what a true benefit for getting the crap out of my life and giving me the tools, (brothers and sisters included....HA), to take my life back

thank you again KTC

Amen SD,
It's sappy, but hey it's what we've been missing when we had that cat shit in our mouths.
I'll take sappy any day over dipping!
Good to be QUIT with you Brother! 'bang head'

You know what I like? Going with my wife to the grocery store. For years when she asked if I wanted to go, I'd always say "no." I think you know why...

Good stuff Derek. QLAFM.

speaking of the grocery store, if any of you have shared a store with me and reached back for an item on the shelf and got a handful of used dip, sorry! how messed up!! I hear you sirD, it's good to be quit.

[per034]

On Day 166:

I gotta say, I think I wear quit very well.....At least my wife thinks so

Case in point....just yesterday in the kitchen, after a cute little kiss, she said, "I like being able to give you a kiss anytime I want."

It may sound sappy, but what a true benefit for getting the crap out of my life and giving me the tools, (brothers and sisters included....HA), to take my life back

thank you again KTC

Amen SD,
It's sappy, but hey it's what we've been missing when we had that cat shit in our mouths.
I'll take sappy any day over dipping!
Good to be QUIT with you Brother! 'bang head'

You know what I like? Going with my wife to the grocery store. For years when she asked if I wanted to go, I'd always say "no." I think you know why...

Good stuff Derek. QLAFM.

[30isEnuff]

On Day 166:

I gotta say, I think I wear quit very well.....At least my wife thinks so

Case in point....just yesterday in the kitchen, after a cute little kiss, she said, "I like being able to give you a kiss anytime I want."

It may sound sappy, but what a true benefit for getting the crap out of my life and giving me the tools, (brothers and sisters included....HA), to take my life back

thank you again KTC

Amen SD,
It's sappy, but hey it's what we've been missing when we had that cat shit in our mouths.
I'll take sappy any day over dipping!
Good to be QUIT with you Brother! 'bang head'