I have been quit now for 60 days and I must say, I love it. The freedom from nicotine is great. I wrote an intro not long after I quit but feel the need to update what is going on with my quit.
I quit out of Fear. I developed unusual spots on my upper lip and it scared me. I had some scares before but this was different. For the first time in over 30 years, it got my attention. This shit is actually killing me. I have a wonderful family and a good life and I'm freaking poisoning my body every single day. Every dip was like playing Russian Roulette with a can.
An oral surgeon remove 5 hard areas from my lip last week and was confident that it was nothing to worry about. The pathology report will be back any day now to confirm. Chances are everything is good and I walk away with just the scare of my life. The good news....my eyes were opened to the harm I was causing myself. I am nicotine free forever. Thanks KTC.
Don't get me wrong. The fear in my heart didn't make quitting easy. I still struggled (and still do) just like everyone else. The difference for me is when I struggle I look in the mirror and see this big blue swollen lip and think "Go to Hell Cope". I have too much to live for. My advise to those of you not taking this serious.....the next dip may be the bullet in the chamber. I'm not willing to take that chance anymore. If people would REALLY BELIEVE tobacco was killing them....I mean REALLY BELIEVE it.....they would flush the shit now.
Day 60 but I haven't really proven anything yet....but I will. I Quit.