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Offline 30isEnuff

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Re: My good cave
« Reply #429 on: February 07, 2014, 06:33:00 AM »
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Well, well, well, I got another reminder today of what my use of nicotine left me.  I spent time today in the dentist chair today having yet another root canal.  I have lost 10 teeth either partially or completely, gum grafts, empty holes, crowns and implants.  I'm sure that I'm not done with my dental problems.  It's good to have these problems as a reminder of what I gave up and it is also good to have problems that are repairable rather than suffer the loss of my face, jaw, throat or stomach. 
Dip cost me so much more than the 10's of thousands of dollars for cans it has cost me 10's of thousands of dollars in dental bills.  There is another cost that was even greater than all these dollars.  That damn can of poison cost me the experience of sharing my daughter growing up.  I can't bring that back but I can enjoy and share with her as her children grow up.  These empty spaces in my gums where teeth should be are a daily reminder that I will not dip today but rather reach out and spend time with my family.

UST 'Finger'
I know it's hard to forget the past, but we can forgive ourselves and give our families everything we have now. Quit always with you!
'Finger' UST indeed. A big F.U. to the Douche Bags in the local, state, and national US govt. during my lifetime (If I could figure out that nicotine is a zero positive/ infinitely negative addiction than so should our government, but it is still legal due to the revenue it brings in from the taxes levied against the nicotine junkies). Thanks for all you do here Wt57, You helped get me on the KTC path early in my quit, and have helped so many people here!
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Re: My good cave
« Reply #428 on: February 06, 2014, 11:45:00 PM »
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Well, well, well, I got another reminder today of what my use of nicotine left me.  I spent time today in the dentist chair today having yet another root canal.  I have lost 10 teeth either partially or completely, gum grafts, empty holes, crowns and implants.  I'm sure that I'm not done with my dental problems.  It's good to have these problems as a reminder of what I gave up and it is also good to have problems that are repairable rather than suffer the loss of my face, jaw, throat or stomach. 
Dip cost me so much more than the 10's of thousands of dollars for cans it has cost me 10's of thousands of dollars in dental bills.  There is another cost that was even greater than all these dollars.  That damn can of poison cost me the experience of sharing my daughter growing up.  I can't bring that back but I can enjoy and share with her as her children grow up.  These empty spaces in my gums where teeth should be are a daily reminder that I will not dip today but rather reach out and spend time with my family.

UST 'Finger'
I know it's hard to forget the past, but we can forgive ourselves and give our families everything we have now. Quit always with you!
'Finger' UST indeed. A big F.U. to the Douche Bags in the local, state, and national US govt. during my lifetime (If I could figure out that nicotine is a zero positive/ infinitely negative addiction than so should our government, but it is still legal due to the revenue it brings in from the taxes levied against the nicotine junkies). Thanks for all you do here Wt57, You helped get me on the KTC path early in my quit, and have helped so many people here!
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Re: My good cave
« Reply #427 on: February 06, 2014, 10:47:00 PM »
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Well, well, well, I got another reminder today of what my use of nicotine left me. I spent time today in the dentist chair today having yet another root canal. I have lost 10 teeth either partially or completely, gum grafts, empty holes, crowns and implants. I'm sure that I'm not done with my dental problems. It's good to have these problems as a reminder of what I gave up and it is also good to have problems that are repairable rather than suffer the loss of my face, jaw, throat or stomach.
Dip cost me so much more than the 10's of thousands of dollars for cans it has cost me 10's of thousands of dollars in dental bills. There is another cost that was even greater than all these dollars. That damn can of poison cost me the experience of sharing my daughter growing up. I can't bring that back but I can enjoy and share with her as her children grow up. These empty spaces in my gums where teeth should be are a daily reminder that I will not dip today but rather reach out and spend time with my family.

UST 'Finger'
I know it's hard to forget the past, but we can forgive ourselves and give our families everything we have now. Quit always with you!
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Re: My good cave
« Reply #426 on: February 06, 2014, 09:13:00 PM »
Well, well, well, I got another reminder today of what my use of nicotine left me. I spent time today in the dentist chair today having yet another root canal. I have lost 10 teeth either partially or completely, gum grafts, empty holes, crowns and implants. I'm sure that I'm not done with my dental problems. It's good to have these problems as a reminder of what I gave up and it is also good to have problems that are repairable rather than suffer the loss of my face, jaw, throat or stomach.
Dip cost me so much more than the 10's of thousands of dollars for cans it has cost me 10's of thousands of dollars in dental bills. There is another cost that was even greater than all these dollars. That damn can of poison cost me the experience of sharing my daughter growing up. I can't bring that back but I can enjoy and share with her as her children grow up. These empty spaces in my gums where teeth should be are a daily reminder that I will not dip today but rather reach out and spend time with my family.

UST 'Finger'
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Re: My good cave
« Reply #425 on: January 24, 2014, 09:44:00 AM »
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I went through every stupid justification in my mind for just one.
This is an excellent reminder that the fight is never over. Thanks for sharing!
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Re: My good cave
« Reply #424 on: January 24, 2014, 09:44:00 AM »
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Today caught me a little off guard.  I posted late, I'd been busy doing some work on the house and just hadn't got online.  Stopped to eat and posted day 663.  After lunch I was doing some backhoe work and BAM!!! that bitch hit me with constant craving all afternoon.  I went through every stupid justification in my mind for just one.  At first I was very depressed that I was dealing with the bitch, but then I remembered the suck of pre HOF and was glad that in my complacency I was given this reminder.  How many cavers have we seen come crawling back after they let their guard down.  Posting roll, having occasional craving and even dip dreams are just a few ways to keep my addiction and vulnerability fresh in  my mind so I will not only embrace the suck of quitting but I'm embracing the joy of being quit and the reminders of my past.  I hate that shit and what I let it steal from me.
Enjoying being quit with You Today.
Awesome post!
Way to keep your tools sharp WT! You won't be caving today.
Good job brother way to smack the bitch right back!

I know I keep having recurring dip dreams and really aint liking it!

I keep thinking of all the tough days I have went thru and how I'm not alone then it kicks it back but dam those dreams are so vivid!

Quit on brother and always remember I/we are all here for you!

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Re: My good cave
« Reply #423 on: January 24, 2014, 08:43:00 AM »
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Today caught me a little off guard.  I posted late, I'd been busy doing some work on the house and just hadn't got online.  Stopped to eat and posted day 663.  After lunch I was doing some backhoe work and BAM!!! that bitch hit me with constant craving all afternoon.  I went through every stupid justification in my mind for just one.  At first I was very depressed that I was dealing with the bitch, but then I remembered the suck of pre HOF and was glad that in my complacency I was given this reminder.  How many cavers have we seen come crawling back after they let their guard down.  Posting roll, having occasional craving and even dip dreams are just a few ways to keep my addiction and vulnerability fresh in  my mind so I will not only embrace the suck of quitting but I'm embracing the joy of being quit and the reminders of my past.  I hate that shit and what I let it steal from me.
Enjoying being quit with You Today.
Awesome post!
Way to keep your tools sharp WT! You won't be caving today.
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Re: My good cave
« Reply #422 on: January 24, 2014, 06:24:00 AM »
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Today caught me a little off guard. I posted late, I'd been busy doing some work on the house and just hadn't got online. Stopped to eat and posted day 663. After lunch I was doing some backhoe work and BAM!!! that bitch hit me with constant craving all afternoon. I went through every stupid justification in my mind for just one. At first I was very depressed that I was dealing with the bitch, but then I remembered the suck of pre HOF and was glad that in my complacency I was given this reminder. How many cavers have we seen come crawling back after they let their guard down. Posting roll, having occasional craving and even dip dreams are just a few ways to keep my addiction and vulnerability fresh in my mind so I will not only embrace the suck of quitting but I'm embracing the joy of being quit and the reminders of my past. I hate that shit and what I let it steal from me.
Enjoying being quit with You Today.
Awesome post!
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Re: My good cave
« Reply #421 on: January 24, 2014, 01:46:00 AM »
Today caught me a little off guard. I posted late, I'd been busy doing some work on the house and just hadn't got online. Stopped to eat and posted day 663. After lunch I was doing some backhoe work and BAM!!! that bitch hit me with constant craving all afternoon. I went through every stupid justification in my mind for just one. At first I was very depressed that I was dealing with the bitch, but then I remembered the suck of pre HOF and was glad that in my complacency I was given this reminder. How many cavers have we seen come crawling back after they let their guard down. Posting roll, having occasional craving and even dip dreams are just a few ways to keep my addiction and vulnerability fresh in my mind so I will not only embrace the suck of quitting but I'm embracing the joy of being quit and the reminders of my past. I hate that shit and what I let it steal from me.
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Re: My good cave
« Reply #420 on: January 06, 2014, 06:23:00 PM »
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Quote from: 30isEnuff
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I let my guard down, I decided just one was acceptable, that I had proven my strength against nicotine.  The next thing I knew (almost instantly) I had a whole upper lip full of dip hiding it from my wife and everyone else.  How embarrassed I was to let anyone who knew my journey.  At one point I panicked, not because I was afraid of being caught but rather I misplaced my can and I panicked because I couldn't get my fix!  I am glad to let you know this was my dip dream on day 646. 
I haven't had a dip dream in a very long time but this one woke me from my complacency.  Unlike past dreams I hated, I'm glad to have this reminder of the power of my addiction.  I'm still quit and have made my promise for today so I know I'm safe today!
The bitch is trying to sneak in his bed at midnight. Finger in her eye, knee to her groin. Way to go!
I hate those freaking dreams.

They usually involve me fucking up everything in my life as well (cheating on wife, stealing shit, etc).
Proud of YOU WT! :)
Decades of dipping. 600+ is still an accomplishment but the ratio is that we are very young in our freedom.

The nic bitch is still checking on us to find a crack in our wall. Glad you're still solid. Quit every day with the Farmer in Idaho.
Hang tough WT. Don't let a silly dream get to you.

Although I do wake up in tears when I was just about to give Kate Upton the best 4 inches of her life, but right before penetration occurs...I wake up. I try to go back to sleep and "re-dream" it, but it never fucking works.

Fml
I was about to say something but now am shaken by the vision of Diesel's dream

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Re: My good cave
« Reply #419 on: January 06, 2014, 05:41:00 PM »
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I let my guard down, I decided just one was acceptable, that I had proven my strength against nicotine.  The next thing I knew (almost instantly) I had a whole upper lip full of dip hiding it from my wife and everyone else.  How embarrassed I was to let anyone who knew my journey.  At one point I panicked, not because I was afraid of being caught but rather I misplaced my can and I panicked because I couldn't get my fix!  I am glad to let you know this was my dip dream on day 646. 
I haven't had a dip dream in a very long time but this one woke me from my complacency.  Unlike past dreams I hated, I'm glad to have this reminder of the power of my addiction.  I'm still quit and have made my promise for today so I know I'm safe today!
The bitch is trying to sneak in his bed at midnight. Finger in her eye, knee to her groin. Way to go!
I hate those freaking dreams.

They usually involve me fucking up everything in my life as well (cheating on wife, stealing shit, etc).
Proud of YOU WT! :)
Decades of dipping. 600+ is still an accomplishment but the ratio is that we are very young in our freedom.

The nic bitch is still checking on us to find a crack in our wall. Glad you're still solid. Quit every day with the Farmer in Idaho.
Hang tough WT. Don't let a silly dream get to you.

Although I do wake up in tears when I was just about to give Kate Upton the best 4 inches of her life, but right before penetration occurs...I wake up. I try to go back to sleep and "re-dream" it, but it never fucking works.

Fml
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Re: My good cave
« Reply #418 on: January 06, 2014, 05:29:00 PM »
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Quote from: Wt57
I let my guard down, I decided just one was acceptable, that I had proven my strength against nicotine.  The next thing I knew (almost instantly) I had a whole upper lip full of dip hiding it from my wife and everyone else.  How embarrassed I was to let anyone who knew my journey.  At one point I panicked, not because I was afraid of being caught but rather I misplaced my can and I panicked because I couldn't get my fix!  I am glad to let you know this was my dip dream on day 646. 
I haven't had a dip dream in a very long time but this one woke me from my complacency.  Unlike past dreams I hated, I'm glad to have this reminder of the power of my addiction.  I'm still quit and have made my promise for today so I know I'm safe today!
The bitch is trying to sneak in his bed at midnight. Finger in her eye, knee to her groin. Way to go!
I hate those freaking dreams.

They usually involve me fucking up everything in my life as well (cheating on wife, stealing shit, etc).
Proud of YOU WT! :)
Decades of dipping. 600+ is still an accomplishment but the ratio is that we are very young in our freedom.

The nic bitch is still checking on us to find a crack in our wall. Glad you're still solid. Quit every day with the Farmer in Idaho.
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Re: My good cave
« Reply #417 on: January 06, 2014, 05:10:00 PM »
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Quote from: Wt57
I let my guard down, I decided just one was acceptable, that I had proven my strength against nicotine.  The next thing I knew (almost instantly) I had a whole upper lip full of dip hiding it from my wife and everyone else.  How embarrassed I was to let anyone who knew my journey.  At one point I panicked, not because I was afraid of being caught but rather I misplaced my can and I panicked because I couldn't get my fix!  I am glad to let you know this was my dip dream on day 646. 
I haven't had a dip dream in a very long time but this one woke me from my complacency.  Unlike past dreams I hated, I'm glad to have this reminder of the power of my addiction.  I'm still quit and have made my promise for today so I know I'm safe today!
The bitch is trying to sneak in his bed at midnight. Finger in her eye, knee to her groin. Way to go!
I hate those freaking dreams.

They usually involve me fucking up everything in my life as well (cheating on wife, stealing shit, etc).
Proud of YOU WT! :)
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Re: My good cave
« Reply #416 on: January 06, 2014, 12:45:00 PM »
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I let my guard down, I decided just one was acceptable, that I had proven my strength against nicotine.  The next thing I knew (almost instantly) I had a whole upper lip full of dip hiding it from my wife and everyone else.  How embarrassed I was to let anyone who knew my journey.  At one point I panicked, not because I was afraid of being caught but rather I misplaced my can and I panicked because I couldn't get my fix!  I am glad to let you know this was my dip dream on day 646. 
I haven't had a dip dream in a very long time but this one woke me from my complacency.  Unlike past dreams I hated, I'm glad to have this reminder of the power of my addiction.  I'm still quit and have made my promise for today so I know I'm safe today!
The bitch is trying to sneak in his bed at midnight. Finger in her eye, knee to her groin. Way to go!
I hate those freaking dreams.

They usually involve me fucking up everything in my life as well (cheating on wife, stealing shit, etc).
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Re: My good cave
« Reply #415 on: January 06, 2014, 12:42:00 PM »
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I let my guard down, I decided just one was acceptable, that I had proven my strength against nicotine. The next thing I knew (almost instantly) I had a whole upper lip full of dip hiding it from my wife and everyone else. How embarrassed I was to let anyone who knew my journey. At one point I panicked, not because I was afraid of being caught but rather I misplaced my can and I panicked because I couldn't get my fix! I am glad to let you know this was my dip dream on day 646.
I haven't had a dip dream in a very long time but this one woke me from my complacency. Unlike past dreams I hated, I'm glad to have this reminder of the power of my addiction.  I'm still quit and have made my promise for today so I know I'm safe today!
The bitch is trying to sneak in his bed at midnight. Finger in her eye, knee to her groin. Way to go!
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