my intro

[Derk40]

What happened?

I caved. I’m that guy. I bought and smoked a cigarette. I hate cigarettes, always have.  I allowed myself to give in to my weakness, ignoring all that I want and all I’ve learned here.  I embraced nicotine slavery. 

Why did it happen?

I wish I could understand that moment more clearly, because I knew I wasn’t going to enjoy it.  I knew it wouldn’t fill any holes in my life. I don’t want to make any excuses, so the only “why” I can give is that I didn’t take this seriously: myself, all of you, and the program. 

What are you going to do differently?

Before I post roll again, I need to bring my wife into the equation. I was what you call a “ninja dipper” and have hidden my addiction from everyone except you folks, including my wife.  I need to tell my wife and get her in my corner.  I need to rebuild my life based on honesty, integrity, character and accountability.  I do know these definitions, but obviously fail miserably in the application.
When I do post again, I will begin by getting phone numbers.  I spoke with CBird65 less than an hour after my cave post, and just speaking with an actual person made the concept of KTC accountability more real to me.
I want this quit, and I will work for it.

I am happy to give more info and answer any questions.

Thank you CBird65 and Jake Frawley for reaching out to me. I don't deserve your grace, but I will earn back your trust.

Better choice then leaving.... So when are you going to tell your wife and post roll again? I'm interested because I am going to watch for it. I'm more interested in seeing you here and fighting then not here and dying!

I will tell her tomorrow. We have a lot of guests coming tonight, so not the best idea. Thx

OK I expect to see you again!

Jake impressive. Way to hold him accountable! I sure hope he tells his wife. Being honest in losses and victory is stepping us all closer to successes.

Surrender is a fail.

KTC is just a proving and testing ground for becoming successful in life.

We may be addicts but I believe that if we stay away from the kryptonite, our intelligence and creative genius is revealed.

I would like for you to think about and answer the why question again.

How exactly did you let yourself "buy a pack of cigarettes" against your better judgement? Obviously, you knew what the right choice was. Why didn't you reach out for help?

My quit is very important to me and every person in my life knows about it (even the people that had "no idea". Get her involved.

You know exactly where I stand on this - you pissed on this site and everyone here-

You need to get your house in order - do it - but DO NOT come back here and try that half assed sh*t again.

Said it before ... EVERY DAMN DAY

Own it or be owned

jrod... I am 7 days into the fight and far be it from me to offer advice. I just want to pass on one of my favorite quotes which I use from time to time.

"Once you've decided, don't delay. The best is the enemy of the good... a good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan next week." (Gen. George S. Patton Jr.)

Looking forward to seeing you back in the fight!

[cbird65]

What happened?

I caved. I’m that guy. I bought and smoked a cigarette. I hate cigarettes, always have.  I allowed myself to give in to my weakness, ignoring all that I want and all I’ve learned here.  I embraced nicotine slavery. 

Why did it happen?

I wish I could understand that moment more clearly, because I knew I wasn’t going to enjoy it.  I knew it wouldn’t fill any holes in my life. I don’t want to make any excuses, so the only “why” I can give is that I didn’t take this seriously: myself, all of you, and the program. 

What are you going to do differently?

Before I post roll again, I need to bring my wife into the equation. I was what you call a “ninja dipper” and have hidden my addiction from everyone except you folks, including my wife.  I need to tell my wife and get her in my corner.  I need to rebuild my life based on honesty, integrity, character and accountability.  I do know these definitions, but obviously fail miserably in the application.
When I do post again, I will begin by getting phone numbers.  I spoke with CBird65 less than an hour after my cave post, and just speaking with an actual person made the concept of KTC accountability more real to me.
I want this quit, and I will work for it.

I am happy to give more info and answer any questions.

Thank you CBird65 and Jake Frawley for reaching out to me. I don't deserve your grace, but I will earn back your trust.

Better choice then leaving.... So when are you going to tell your wife and post roll again? I'm interested because I am going to watch for it. I'm more interested in seeing you here and fighting then not here and dying!

I will tell her tomorrow. We have a lot of guests coming tonight, so not the best idea. Thx

OK I expect to see you again!

Jake impressive. Way to hold him accountable! I sure hope he tells his wife. Being honest in losses and victory is stepping us all closer to successes.

Surrender is a fail.

KTC is just a proving and testing ground for becoming successful in life.

We may be addicts but I believe that if we stay away from the kryptonite, our intelligence and creative genius is revealed.

I would like for you to think about and answer the why question again.

How exactly did you let yourself "buy a pack of cigarettes" against your better judgement? Obviously, you knew what the right choice was. Why didn't you reach out for help?

My quit is very important to me and every person in my life knows about it (even the people that had "no idea". Get her involved.

You know exactly where I stand on this - you pissed on this site and everyone here-

You need to get your house in order - do it - but DO NOT come back here and try that half assed sh*t again.

Said it before ... EVERY DAMN DAY

Own it or be owned

[wastepanel]

What happened?

I caved. I’m that guy. I bought and smoked a cigarette. I hate cigarettes, always have.  I allowed myself to give in to my weakness, ignoring all that I want and all I’ve learned here.  I embraced nicotine slavery. 

Why did it happen?

I wish I could understand that moment more clearly, because I knew I wasn’t going to enjoy it.  I knew it wouldn’t fill any holes in my life. I don’t want to make any excuses, so the only “why” I can give is that I didn’t take this seriously: myself, all of you, and the program. 

What are you going to do differently?

Before I post roll again, I need to bring my wife into the equation. I was what you call a “ninja dipper” and have hidden my addiction from everyone except you folks, including my wife.  I need to tell my wife and get her in my corner.  I need to rebuild my life based on honesty, integrity, character and accountability.  I do know these definitions, but obviously fail miserably in the application.
When I do post again, I will begin by getting phone numbers.  I spoke with CBird65 less than an hour after my cave post, and just speaking with an actual person made the concept of KTC accountability more real to me.
I want this quit, and I will work for it.

I am happy to give more info and answer any questions.

Thank you CBird65 and Jake Frawley for reaching out to me. I don't deserve your grace, but I will earn back your trust.

Better choice then leaving.... So when are you going to tell your wife and post roll again? I'm interested because I am going to watch for it. I'm more interested in seeing you here and fighting then not here and dying!

I will tell her tomorrow. We have a lot of guests coming tonight, so not the best idea. Thx

OK I expect to see you again!

Jake impressive. Way to hold him accountable! I sure hope he tells his wife. Being honest in losses and victory is stepping us all closer to successes.

Surrender is a fail.

KTC is just a proving and testing ground for becoming successful in life.

We may be addicts but I believe that if we stay away from the kryptonite, our intelligence and creative genius is revealed.

I would like for you to think about and answer the why question again.

How exactly did you let yourself "buy a pack of cigarettes" against your better judgement? Obviously, you knew what the right choice was. Why didn't you reach out for help?

My quit is very important to me and every person in my life knows about it (even the people that had "no idea". Get her involved.

[srans]

Will be looking for you tomorrow :ph43r:

Jrod, We want to see you succeed, but We can't succeed for you. There will be times when your going to feel the tempter again. The poison knows you better than you do. Look at yourself. You were a dipper, not a smoker. WTF! Your answers seemed sincere, but the poison doesn't care about them answers. It could care less. Right now the poison knows it can have you back and it won't even take much persuading.

Do I think you can do this,,, YES!!!! I know you can do this. Why,, Because I did it. Jake did it. Cbird did it. What do we do different to keep us quit??

WE POST ROLL AND KEEP OUR WORD, NO MATTER WHAT!! AS CBIRD WOULD PUT IT,,, EVERY DAMN DAY!!!! No big secret here. Post roll, keep your word. I sent you a pm with my number. Use the numbers bro. Your right, it make a difference talking to someone. It makes all the difference in the world. Calling someone will most likely save your LIFE!!

[RAZD611]

Will be looking for you tomorrow :ph43r:

[Mthomas3824]

What happened?

I caved. I’m that guy. I bought and smoked a cigarette. I hate cigarettes, always have.  I allowed myself to give in to my weakness, ignoring all that I want and all I’ve learned here.  I embraced nicotine slavery. 

Why did it happen?

I wish I could understand that moment more clearly, because I knew I wasn’t going to enjoy it.  I knew it wouldn’t fill any holes in my life. I don’t want to make any excuses, so the only “why” I can give is that I didn’t take this seriously: myself, all of you, and the program. 

What are you going to do differently?

Before I post roll again, I need to bring my wife into the equation. I was what you call a “ninja dipper” and have hidden my addiction from everyone except you folks, including my wife.  I need to tell my wife and get her in my corner.  I need to rebuild my life based on honesty, integrity, character and accountability.  I do know these definitions, but obviously fail miserably in the application.
When I do post again, I will begin by getting phone numbers.  I spoke with CBird65 less than an hour after my cave post, and just speaking with an actual person made the concept of KTC accountability more real to me.
I want this quit, and I will work for it.

I am happy to give more info and answer any questions.

Thank you CBird65 and Jake Frawley for reaching out to me. I don't deserve your grace, but I will earn back your trust.

Better choice then leaving.... So when are you going to tell your wife and post roll again? I'm interested because I am going to watch for it. I'm more interested in seeing you here and fighting then not here and dying!

I will tell her tomorrow. We have a lot of guests coming tonight, so not the best idea. Thx

OK I expect to see you again!

Jake impressive. Way to hold him accountable! I sure hope he tells his wife. Being honest in losses and victory is stepping us all closer to successes.

Surrender is a fail.

KTC is just a proving and testing ground for becoming successful in life.

We may be addicts but I believe that if we stay away from the kryptonite, our intelligence and creative genius is revealed.

[jake frawley]

What happened?

I caved. I’m that guy. I bought and smoked a cigarette. I hate cigarettes, always have.  I allowed myself to give in to my weakness, ignoring all that I want and all I’ve learned here.  I embraced nicotine slavery. 

Why did it happen?

I wish I could understand that moment more clearly, because I knew I wasn’t going to enjoy it.  I knew it wouldn’t fill any holes in my life. I don’t want to make any excuses, so the only “why” I can give is that I didn’t take this seriously: myself, all of you, and the program. 

What are you going to do differently?

Before I post roll again, I need to bring my wife into the equation. I was what you call a “ninja dipper” and have hidden my addiction from everyone except you folks, including my wife.  I need to tell my wife and get her in my corner.  I need to rebuild my life based on honesty, integrity, character and accountability.  I do know these definitions, but obviously fail miserably in the application.
When I do post again, I will begin by getting phone numbers.  I spoke with CBird65 less than an hour after my cave post, and just speaking with an actual person made the concept of KTC accountability more real to me.
I want this quit, and I will work for it.

I am happy to give more info and answer any questions.

Thank you CBird65 and Jake Frawley for reaching out to me. I don't deserve your grace, but I will earn back your trust.

Better choice then leaving.... So when are you going to tell your wife and post roll again? I'm interested because I am going to watch for it. I'm more interested in seeing you here and fighting then not here and dying!

I will tell her tomorrow. We have a lot of guests coming tonight, so not the best idea. Thx

OK I expect to see you again!

[jrod]

What happened?

I caved. I’m that guy. I bought and smoked a cigarette. I hate cigarettes, always have.  I allowed myself to give in to my weakness, ignoring all that I want and all I’ve learned here.  I embraced nicotine slavery. 

Why did it happen?

I wish I could understand that moment more clearly, because I knew I wasn’t going to enjoy it.  I knew it wouldn’t fill any holes in my life. I don’t want to make any excuses, so the only “why” I can give is that I didn’t take this seriously: myself, all of you, and the program. 

What are you going to do differently?

Before I post roll again, I need to bring my wife into the equation. I was what you call a “ninja dipper” and have hidden my addiction from everyone except you folks, including my wife.  I need to tell my wife and get her in my corner.  I need to rebuild my life based on honesty, integrity, character and accountability.  I do know these definitions, but obviously fail miserably in the application.
When I do post again, I will begin by getting phone numbers.  I spoke with CBird65 less than an hour after my cave post, and just speaking with an actual person made the concept of KTC accountability more real to me.
I want this quit, and I will work for it.

I am happy to give more info and answer any questions.

Thank you CBird65 and Jake Frawley for reaching out to me. I don't deserve your grace, but I will earn back your trust.

Better choice then leaving.... So when are you going to tell your wife and post roll again? I'm interested because I am going to watch for it. I'm more interested in seeing you here and fighting then not here and dying!

I will tell her tomorrow. We have a lot of guests coming tonight, so not the best idea. Thx

[jake frawley]

What happened?

I caved. IÂ’m that guy. I bought and smoked a cigarette. I hate cigarettes, always have. I allowed myself to give in to my weakness, ignoring all that I want and all IÂ’ve learned here. I embraced nicotine slavery.

Why did it happen?

I wish I could understand that moment more clearly, because I knew I wasn’t going to enjoy it. I knew it wouldn’t fill any holes in my life. I don’t want to make any excuses, so the only “why” I can give is that I didn’t take this seriously: myself, all of you, and the program.

What are you going to do differently?

Before I post roll again, I need to bring my wife into the equation. I was what you call a “ninja dipper” and have hidden my addiction from everyone except you folks, including my wife. I need to tell my wife and get her in my corner. I need to rebuild my life based on honesty, integrity, character and accountability. I do know these definitions, but obviously fail miserably in the application.
When I do post again, I will begin by getting phone numbers. I spoke with CBird65 less than an hour after my cave post, and just speaking with an actual person made the concept of KTC accountability more real to me.
I want this quit, and I will work for it.

I am happy to give more info and answer any questions.

Thank you CBird65 and Jake Frawley for reaching out to me. I don't deserve your grace, but I will earn back your trust.

Better choice then leaving.... So when are you going to tell your wife and post roll again? I'm interested because I am going to watch for it. I'm more interested in seeing you here and fighting then not here and dying!

[jrod]

What happened?

I caved. IÂ’m that guy. I bought and smoked a cigarette. I hate cigarettes, always have. I allowed myself to give in to my weakness, ignoring all that I want and all IÂ’ve learned here. I embraced nicotine slavery.

Why did it happen?

I wish I could understand that moment more clearly, because I knew I wasn’t going to enjoy it. I knew it wouldn’t fill any holes in my life. I don’t want to make any excuses, so the only “why” I can give is that I didn’t take this seriously: myself, all of you, and the program.

What are you going to do differently?

Before I post roll again, I need to bring my wife into the equation. I was what you call a “ninja dipper” and have hidden my addiction from everyone except you folks, including my wife. I need to tell my wife and get her in my corner. I need to rebuild my life based on honesty, integrity, character and accountability. I do know these definitions, but obviously fail miserably in the application.
When I do post again, I will begin by getting phone numbers. I spoke with CBird65 less than an hour after my cave post, and just speaking with an actual person made the concept of KTC accountability more real to me.
I want this quit, and I will work for it.

I am happy to give more info and answer any questions.

Thank you CBird65 and Jake Frawley for reaching out to me. I don't deserve your grace, but I will earn back your trust.

[jake frawley]

Farewell everybody.  I suck.  Here’s a little story that should piss you all off.

Last night I bought a pack of cigarettes.  I told myself “don’t buy it” then I did.  I told myself “cigarettes aren’t the same as dip” although I knew full well that nic is nic.  I got home and told myself “jump into chat, they’ll talk you down” but I didn’t.  I didn’t want to.  I pulled out the cig and said “think about all the guys that have been supporting you” but I didn’t care.  I forced you all out of my mind.  I lit that smoke and said “I don’t even like this.”  I took a long deep puff, then another.  Then I flew into a tearful rage, smashed the cig, tore apart the pack and went to bed.

This morning I posted roll.  Day5.  Bullshit.

So I’m leaving.  I feel fucking wretched about the whole thing, but I’m going to have to wear it.

I’ve unposted my roll.  I’ll log in once this weekend to read and accept whatever mail you all want to send.  I deserve whatever you throw at me, so don’t hold back (KKLJINC).

Sorry guys, for letting you down and for wasting the investment you made in me.

jrod day1

Are you planning on running away with your tails between you legs -- get real -
Yes you are going to catch hell for post day 5 when you just admitted to the lie.
If you don't respect yourself and the quitters who are supposed to have your back then you really don't have any business being here.

You want to sulk or be quit - make your mind up and do it

OWN IT or be OWNED!!!

Before you come back please go to Websters and look up the definitions of Integrity, Character, and Accountability.

When you do come back, make sure and leave your little pink panties at home.

This is the perfect illistration of what a planned cave looks like....

" I told myself “don’t buy it” then I did. I told myself “cigarettes aren’t the same as dip” although I knew full well that nic is nic. I got home and told myself “jump into chat, they’ll talk you down” but I didn’t. I didn’t want to. I pulled out the cig and said “think about all the guys that have been supporting you” but I didn’t care. I forced you all out of my mind. I lit that smoke and said “I don’t even like this.” I took a long deep puff, then another ".

So you cave and then you decide to leave and throw in the towel? We do not accept half assed attempts but we do accept people who cave and come back when they man up to what they did and move on with integrity! So far you are not only showing that you lack integrity, but you are also acting like a little girl by running away and pretending that it is because you broke our trust. Leaving the site and then relapsing fully will only prove that you want death. Here there is life and support! I know cause I caved once! Yes you will get your ass handed to you, but if you are a man about it, you can move on and redeem yourself and save your life! Do not leave and act like it is because you have dishonored the site. Many have in the past and many more will in the future. If you leave it is because you WANT to be a slave. If you value your life, let your balls drop and man up here! Answer the questions and post roll for real!

What happened?

Why did it happen?

What are you going to do differently?

Don't throw it all away!

JRIZZLE has this as his signature! This is something for you to think about!

"We all want progress, but if you're on the wrong road, progress means doing an about-turn and walking back to the right road; in that case, the man who turns back soonest is the most progressive."

And that is JAKE being nice!

I just sent you a message

[jake frawley]

Farewell everybody.  I suck.  Here’s a little story that should piss you all off.

Last night I bought a pack of cigarettes.  I told myself “don’t buy it” then I did.  I told myself “cigarettes aren’t the same as dip” although I knew full well that nic is nic.  I got home and told myself “jump into chat, they’ll talk you down” but I didn’t.  I didn’t want to.  I pulled out the cig and said “think about all the guys that have been supporting you” but I didn’t care.  I forced you all out of my mind.  I lit that smoke and said “I don’t even like this.”  I took a long deep puff, then another.  Then I flew into a tearful rage, smashed the cig, tore apart the pack and went to bed.

This morning I posted roll.  Day5.  Bullshit.

So I’m leaving.  I feel fucking wretched about the whole thing, but I’m going to have to wear it.

I’ve unposted my roll.  I’ll log in once this weekend to read and accept whatever mail you all want to send.  I deserve whatever you throw at me, so don’t hold back (KKLJINC).

Sorry guys, for letting you down and for wasting the investment you made in me.

jrod day1

Are you planning on running away with your tails between you legs -- get real -
Yes you are going to catch hell for post day 5 when you just admitted to the lie.
If you don't respect yourself and the quitters who are supposed to have your back then you really don't have any business being here.

You want to sulk or be quit - make your mind up and do it

OWN IT or be OWNED!!!

Before you come back please go to Websters and look up the definitions of Integrity, Character, and Accountability.

When you do come back, make sure and leave your little pink panties at home.

This is the perfect illistration of what a planned cave looks like....

" I told myself “don’t buy it” then I did. I told myself “cigarettes aren’t the same as dip” although I knew full well that nic is nic. I got home and told myself “jump into chat, they’ll talk you down” but I didn’t. I didn’t want to. I pulled out the cig and said “think about all the guys that have been supporting you” but I didn’t care. I forced you all out of my mind. I lit that smoke and said “I don’t even like this.” I took a long deep puff, then another ".

So you cave and then you decide to leave and throw in the towel? We do not accept half assed attempts but we do accept people who cave and come back when they man up to what they did and move on with integrity! So far you are not only showing that you lack integrity, but you are also acting like a little girl by running away and pretending that it is because you broke our trust. Leaving the site and then relapsing fully will only prove that you want death. Here there is life and support! I know cause I caved once! Yes you will get your ass handed to you, but if you are a man about it, you can move on and redeem yourself and save your life! Do not leave and act like it is because you have dishonored the site. Many have in the past and many more will in the future. If you leave it is because you WANT to be a slave. If you value your life, let your balls drop and man up here! Answer the questions and post roll for real!

What happened?

Why did it happen?

What are you going to do differently?

Don't throw it all away!

JRIZZLE has this as his signature! This is something for you to think about!

"We all want progress, but if you're on the wrong road, progress means doing an about-turn and walking back to the right road; in that case, the man who turns back soonest is the most progressive."

And that is JAKE being nice!

[srans]

Farewell everybody.  I suck.  Here’s a little story that should piss you all off.

Last night I bought a pack of cigarettes.  I told myself “don’t buy it” then I did.  I told myself “cigarettes aren’t the same as dip” although I knew full well that nic is nic.  I got home and told myself “jump into chat, they’ll talk you down” but I didn’t.  I didn’t want to.  I pulled out the cig and said “think about all the guys that have been supporting you” but I didn’t care.  I forced you all out of my mind.  I lit that smoke and said “I don’t even like this.”  I took a long deep puff, then another.  Then I flew into a tearful rage, smashed the cig, tore apart the pack and went to bed.

This morning I posted roll.  Day5.  Bullshit.

So I’m leaving.  I feel fucking wretched about the whole thing, but I’m going to have to wear it.

I’ve unposted my roll.  I’ll log in once this weekend to read and accept whatever mail you all want to send.  I deserve whatever you throw at me, so don’t hold back (KKLJINC).

Sorry guys, for letting you down and for wasting the investment you made in me.

jrod day1

Are you planning on running away with your tails between you legs -- get real -
Yes you are going to catch hell for post day 5 when you just admitted to the lie.
If you don't respect yourself and the quitters who are supposed to have your back then you really don't have any business being here.

You want to sulk or be quit - make your mind up and do it

OWN IT or be OWNED!!!

Before you come back please go to Websters and look up the definitions of Integrity, Character, and Accountability.

When you do come back, make sure and leave your little pink panties at home.

I just read through this intro. I'm surprised you made it as long as you did.

I, thank you. Seeing your slavery to the poison has made my quit stronger. I'm so glad I'm not you. I once was a slave to a poison that did absolutely nothing for me but take. Took my money while stripping me of my integrity and dignity. I'm so glad I'm not you. Thanks for the memories. My quit is stronger because of your weekness.

[jake frawley]

Farewell everybody.  I suck.  Here’s a little story that should piss you all off.

Last night I bought a pack of cigarettes.  I told myself “don’t buy it” then I did.  I told myself “cigarettes aren’t the same as dip” although I knew full well that nic is nic.  I got home and told myself “jump into chat, they’ll talk you down” but I didn’t.  I didn’t want to.  I pulled out the cig and said “think about all the guys that have been supporting you” but I didn’t care.  I forced you all out of my mind.  I lit that smoke and said “I don’t even like this.”  I took a long deep puff, then another.  Then I flew into a tearful rage, smashed the cig, tore apart the pack and went to bed.

This morning I posted roll.  Day5.  Bullshit.

So I’m leaving.  I feel fucking wretched about the whole thing, but I’m going to have to wear it.

I’ve unposted my roll.  I’ll log in once this weekend to read and accept whatever mail you all want to send.  I deserve whatever you throw at me, so don’t hold back (KKLJINC).

Sorry guys, for letting you down and for wasting the investment you made in me.

jrod day1

Are you planning on running away with your tails between you legs -- get real -
Yes you are going to catch hell for post day 5 when you just admitted to the lie.
If you don't respect yourself and the quitters who are supposed to have your back then you really don't have any business being here.

You want to sulk or be quit - make your mind up and do it

OWN IT or be OWNED!!!

Before you come back please go to Websters and look up the definitions of Integrity, Character, and Accountability.

When you do come back, make sure and leave your little pink panties at home.

This is the perfect illistration of what a planned cave looks like....

" I told myself “don’t buy it” then I did. I told myself “cigarettes aren’t the same as dip” although I knew full well that nic is nic. I got home and told myself “jump into chat, they’ll talk you down” but I didn’t. I didn’t want to. I pulled out the cig and said “think about all the guys that have been supporting you” but I didn’t care. I forced you all out of my mind. I lit that smoke and said “I don’t even like this.” I took a long deep puff, then another ".

So you cave and then you decide to leave and throw in the towel? We do not accept half assed attempts but we do accept people who cave and come back when they man up to what they did and move on with integrity! So far you are not only showing that you lack integrity, but you are also acting like a little girl by running away and pretending that it is because you broke our trust. Leaving the site and then relapsing fully will only prove that you want death. Here there is life and support! I know cause I caved once! Yes you will get your ass handed to you, but if you are a man about it, you can move on and redeem yourself and save your life! Do not leave and act like it is because you have dishonored the site. Many have in the past and many more will in the future. If you leave it is because you WANT to be a slave. If you value your life, let your balls drop and man up here! Answer the questions and post roll for real!

What happened?

Why did it happen?

What are you going to do differently?

Don't throw it all away!

JRIZZLE has this as his signature! This is something for you to think about!

"We all want progress, but if you're on the wrong road, progress means doing an about-turn and walking back to the right road; in that case, the man who turns back soonest is the most progressive."

[Scowick65]

Farewell everybody.  I suck.  Here’s a little story that should piss you all off.

Last night I bought a pack of cigarettes.  I told myself “don’t buy it” then I did.  I told myself “cigarettes aren’t the same as dip” although I knew full well that nic is nic.  I got home and told myself “jump into chat, they’ll talk you down” but I didn’t.  I didn’t want to.  I pulled out the cig and said “think about all the guys that have been supporting you” but I didn’t care.  I forced you all out of my mind.  I lit that smoke and said “I don’t even like this.”  I took a long deep puff, then another.  Then I flew into a tearful rage, smashed the cig, tore apart the pack and went to bed.

This morning I posted roll.  Day5.  Bullshit.

So I’m leaving.  I feel fucking wretched about the whole thing, but I’m going to have to wear it.

I’ve unposted my roll.  I’ll log in once this weekend to read and accept whatever mail you all want to send.  I deserve whatever you throw at me, so don’t hold back (KKLJINC).

Sorry guys, for letting you down and for wasting the investment you made in me.

jrod day1

Are you planning on running away with your tails between you legs -- get real -
Yes you are going to catch hell for post day 5 when you just admitted to the lie.
If you don't respect yourself and the quitters who are supposed to have your back then you really don't have any business being here.

You want to sulk or be quit - make your mind up and do it

OWN IT or be OWNED!!!

Before you come back please go to Websters and look up the definitions of Integrity, Character, and Accountability.

When you do come back, make sure and leave your little pink panties at home.

This is the perfect illistration of what a planned cave looks like....

" I told myself “don’t buy it” then I did. I told myself “cigarettes aren’t the same as dip” although I knew full well that nic is nic. I got home and told myself “jump into chat, they’ll talk you down” but I didn’t. I didn’t want to. I pulled out the cig and said “think about all the guys that have been supporting you” but I didn’t care. I forced you all out of my mind. I lit that smoke and said “I don’t even like this.” I took a long deep puff, then another ".