Hi,
Ive been dipping since 2006, non-stop. I go through about two sleeves a week. Ive tried quitting on a couple of occasions, but always end with the "worst five minutes of my life."
Im actually sitting here reading all these terrible stories of people that didnt quit and what happened to them, while im dipping and it scares me. Of course ive heard the stories; everyone has, but i guess its one of those things you dont believe until its to late.
I found this site after searching google for "how to quit chewing tobacco," and after reading through a ton of posts ive decided to give quitting another chance. My biggest problem before was not having...no, not wanting... to burden family and friends with supporting me.
I just bought two more cans after work (i work second, 3-11pm). Ive only been home a few hours and one can is just about cleaned out. Just last week I told everyone "this is my last can" but after a long hot week in a factory all i wanted was a cold beer and a pinch.
I read on one post to not drink excessively while trying...while quitting, but that pretty much sums up my saturday nights. Its going to be even worse trying to quit two things. I usually use a pinch to cut myself off from the bottle...
Sorry this is so long, just realized im ranting. I want to quit more than anything, but then there is this voice, or this feeling in the back of my head telling me I dont want to quit. I can tell myself 100 times over that ive got to quit, but i just cant find the strength or the willpower to actually take that first step.
If you've read this far, thank you for listening. Im half asleep at the moment and come morning...later... I know im going to wake up and reach for my can. hopefully I will remember to check here before I do. Goodnight...