Dave,
You'll either decide to quit, or you won't. Nodody gets free of the Nic Bitch without a fight. You CAN do it. But your post sounds like you're not up for the fight...yet. Come back when you are. In the meantime, search tongue and jaw cancer, feeding tubes, etc.
We WANT you to post roll with us. We WANT you to be quit. I'm pumped that you found this site. Click on the "Welcome Center" link above and start reading. Come back when you're good and pissed off at the product that WILL disfigure and kill you. Come back when you're ready to save yourself.