Hidden habit

[stillbrewing]

600 days ago I finally decided I needed help with my habit addiction. 
Completely pissed that I had gotten myself hooked so deep…again. I mean, I had gotten through for many days completely on my own numerous times. Why would I keep going back?

Well, because willpower is not enough.

 Willpower only lasts for as long as we continue to care.

 As soon as I started posting roll here, I also started taking note of the qualities of people who’ve continued to post into the hundreds and thousands of days… what is it that makes them stay strong?

 I now believe that “strength” is shown through ...taking ownership… realizing the freedom to choose what to do with what happens.
We can’t change our pasts (damn it!) but we can choose to do better and be better now.

 I hope you quit today…right now.
And if you already have, I hope you keep going today. I hope you feel that freedom. One day at a time. No matter how it feels, there is a day ahead that is worth it.

Congrats @ankape. Keep kicking butt ODAAT. Proud to quit with you.

Congrats on that new floor, Kaper!    Proud to quit with you EDD!

You are awesome!  Proud to quit with you one day at a time!

This is what a badass quitter looks like!

Ankape you rock. Now we need a new emoji of you on a dirt bike doing wheelie. Thanks Annie and PTBQW!!!!

Keep killing the QUIT!
Always PTBQWY!

[Thefranks5]

600 days ago I finally decided I needed help with my habit addiction. 
Completely pissed that I had gotten myself hooked so deep…again. I mean, I had gotten through for many days completely on my own numerous times. Why would I keep going back?

Well, because willpower is not enough.

 Willpower only lasts for as long as we continue to care.

 As soon as I started posting roll here, I also started taking note of the qualities of people who’ve continued to post into the hundreds and thousands of days… what is it that makes them stay strong?

 I now believe that “strength” is shown through ...taking ownership… realizing the freedom to choose what to do with what happens.
We can’t change our pasts (damn it!) but we can choose to do better and be better now.

 I hope you quit today…right now.
And if you already have, I hope you keep going today. I hope you feel that freedom. One day at a time. No matter how it feels, there is a day ahead that is worth it.

Congrats @ankape. Keep kicking butt ODAAT. Proud to quit with you.

Congrats on that new floor, Kaper!    Proud to quit with you EDD!

You are awesome!  Proud to quit with you one day at a time!

This is what a badass quitter looks like!

Ankape you rock. Now we need a new emoji of you on a dirt bike doing wheelie. Thanks Annie and PTBQW!!!!

[69franx]

600 days ago I finally decided I needed help with my habit addiction. 
Completely pissed that I had gotten myself hooked so deep…again. I mean, I had gotten through for many days completely on my own numerous times. Why would I keep going back?

Well, because willpower is not enough.

 Willpower only lasts for as long as we continue to care.

 As soon as I started posting roll here, I also started taking note of the qualities of people who’ve continued to post into the hundreds and thousands of days… what is it that makes them stay strong?

 I now believe that “strength” is shown through ...taking ownership… realizing the freedom to choose what to do with what happens.
We can’t change our pasts (damn it!) but we can choose to do better and be better now.

 I hope you quit today…right now.
And if you already have, I hope you keep going today. I hope you feel that freedom. One day at a time. No matter how it feels, there is a day ahead that is worth it.

Congrats @ankape. Keep kicking butt ODAAT. Proud to quit with you.

Congrats on that new floor, Kaper!    Proud to quit with you EDD!

You are awesome!  Proud to quit with you one day at a time!

This is what a badass quitter looks like!

[oldschool]

600 days ago I finally decided I needed help with my habit addiction. 
Completely pissed that I had gotten myself hooked so deep…again. I mean, I had gotten through for many days completely on my own numerous times. Why would I keep going back?

Well, because willpower is not enough.

 Willpower only lasts for as long as we continue to care.

 As soon as I started posting roll here, I also started taking note of the qualities of people who’ve continued to post into the hundreds and thousands of days… what is it that makes them stay strong?

 I now believe that “strength” is shown through ...taking ownership… realizing the freedom to choose what to do with what happens.
We can’t change our pasts (damn it!) but we can choose to do better and be better now.

 I hope you quit today…right now.
And if you already have, I hope you keep going today. I hope you feel that freedom. One day at a time. No matter how it feels, there is a day ahead that is worth it.

Congrats @ankape. Keep kicking butt ODAAT. Proud to quit with you.

Congrats on that new floor, Kaper!    Proud to quit with you EDD!

You are awesome!  Proud to quit with you one day at a time!

[FLLipOut]

600 days ago I finally decided I needed help with my habit addiction. 
Completely pissed that I had gotten myself hooked so deep…again. I mean, I had gotten through for many days completely on my own numerous times. Why would I keep going back?

Well, because willpower is not enough.

 Willpower only lasts for as long as we continue to care.

 As soon as I started posting roll here, I also started taking note of the qualities of people who’ve continued to post into the hundreds and thousands of days… what is it that makes them stay strong?

 I now believe that “strength” is shown through ...taking ownership… realizing the freedom to choose what to do with what happens.
We can’t change our pasts (damn it!) but we can choose to do better and be better now.

 I hope you quit today…right now.
And if you already have, I hope you keep going today. I hope you feel that freedom. One day at a time. No matter how it feels, there is a day ahead that is worth it.

Congrats @ankape. Keep kicking butt ODAAT. Proud to quit with you.

Congrats on that new floor, Kaper!    Proud to quit with you EDD!

[Keith0617]

600 days ago I finally decided I needed help with my habit addiction. 
Completely pissed that I had gotten myself hooked so deep…again. I mean, I had gotten through for many days completely on my own numerous times. Why would I keep going back?

Well, because willpower is not enough.

 Willpower only lasts for as long as we continue to care.

 As soon as I started posting roll here, I also started taking note of the qualities of people who’ve continued to post into the hundreds and thousands of days… what is it that makes them stay strong?

 I now believe that “strength” is shown through ...taking ownership… realizing the freedom to choose what to do with what happens.
We can’t change our pasts (damn it!) but we can choose to do better and be better now.

 I hope you quit today…right now.
And if you already have, I hope you keep going today. I hope you feel that freedom. One day at a time. No matter how it feels, there is a day ahead that is worth it.

Congrats @ankape. Keep kicking butt ODAAT. Proud to quit with you.

[ankape]

600 days ago I finally decided I needed help with my habit addiction. 
Completely pissed that I had gotten myself hooked so deep…again. I mean, I had gotten through for many days completely on my own numerous times. Why would I keep going back?

Well, because willpower is not enough.

 Willpower only lasts for as long as we continue to care.

 As soon as I started posting roll here, I also started taking note of the qualities of people who’ve continued to post into the hundreds and thousands of days… what is it that makes them stay strong?

 I now believe that “strength” is shown through ...taking ownership… realizing the freedom to choose what to do with what happens.
We can’t change our pasts (damn it!) but we can choose to do better and be better now.

 I hope you quit today…right now.
And if you already have, I hope you keep going today. I hope you feel that freedom. One day at a time. No matter how it feels, there is a day ahead that is worth it.
 

[EXBEARHAG]

     Day 434
   I had never felt some of these things...at times the anxiety, or whatever it is, has felt overwhelming and exhausting. Time after time I tried to find a “reason” why I felt that way. But, I’m finally realizing it’s a part of me… it’s just a part I never felt before. A part of me that I kept in submission with addictions. Most of us were just kids when we began to flood our bodies with chemicals. And we dealt with a lot of things in the time between. I challenge you to challenge your thinking.
"We can not solve our problems with the same level of thinking that created them." —Albert Einstein

       Even though the waves of anxiety still come, I am learning I don’t have to fear or dwell or even fix. I can embrace it...because my nervous system is finally working as it should have been all my life. Now, I know I can learn to handle things in healthy ways… and that is truly empowering.

      This, isn’t just stopping the use of a chemical, for me - it is a process of peeling off the layers of guilt and shame that I have stacked on and intertwined through the stages of life...it is about forgiving myself ... learning to value myself...breaking the cycle of lying, hiding, pushing people away...even pushing God away.

      I am so thankful for this journey, thankful for renewed Faith, thankful to you all who have been a part of it, because …I know... I never would have forced myself to see how deep these roots are without you all. Life is good. Holdin the line. Pressin on. Better person every day. Love you guys. Thank you.
   

Profound as usual Kaper.  You often describe how I'm feeling and where I'm at better than I can.  As you know, my experience has been similar.  I love where your head is here.  I'm on board!!  I've changed my behavior.  Now it's time to accept the new me...which, has always been, just ME. 

Holding the line with you my friend

~HAG

[ankape]

     Day 434
   I had never felt some of these things...at times the anxiety, or whatever it is, has felt overwhelming and exhausting. Time after time I tried to find a “reason” why I felt that way. But, I’m finally realizing it’s a part of me… it’s just a part I never felt before. A part of me that I kept in submission with addictions. Most of us were just kids when we began to flood our bodies with chemicals. And we dealt with a lot of things in the time between. I challenge you to challenge your thinking.
"We can not solve our problems with the same level of thinking that created them." —Albert Einstein

       Even though the waves of anxiety still come, I am learning I don’t have to fear or dwell or even fix. I can embrace it...because my nervous system is finally working as it should have been all my life. Now, I know I can learn to handle things in healthy ways… and that is truly empowering.

      This, isn’t just stopping the use of a chemical, for me - it is a process of peeling off the layers of guilt and shame that I have stacked on and intertwined through the stages of life...it is about forgiving myself ... learning to value myself...breaking the cycle of lying, hiding, pushing people away...even pushing God away.

      I am so thankful for this journey, thankful for renewed Faith, thankful to you all who have been a part of it, because …I know... I never would have forced myself to see how deep these roots are without you all. Life is good. Holdin the line. Pressin on. Better person every day. Love you guys. Thank you.
     

[Keith0617]

Day 365

Last night I read a story to my kids about some amazing, heroic rescues. Later, I started reflecting on the efforts...the sacrifices some humans will make to save others, without question. Whether it is many or one, often or rare, whether it is seen or unseen, loudly, quietly, quickly, arduously, however. All are so valuable. This place, this community, and the REAL people behind these screens- save lives...and improve lives...if we choose to allow it.

Humbled. I wish I could start over with the knowledge I’ve gained this year. Knowledge about myself, others and about life in general.  Easy? Definitely not. Regrets?...for sure, but...gotta move forward and appreciate regrets as proof of growth. Worth it? YES!

This experience has improved my life in ways I never could have imagined at this time last year. When I joined, I had two people in my life who knew about my battle with addiction. This year has given me the confidence to open up to friends and family. That was extremely hard at first, I felt so guilty about it, but it has actually healed relationships I didn’t even realize were lacking. This year I get to celebrate with my family and friends! I can’t even express how huge that is for me.
I came here to quit nicotine, but I have to admit- it’s deeper than I realized.
Quitting works one day at a time and so does living.

Congrats @ankape !!!  One year is an amazing feat.  Keep slaying the bitch.

Love this post.  Congrats ankape!   

It's so much more.
If we look, we find it.
Great post.
Congrats on the 1 trip around the sun. I'll be back tomorrow to celebrate your quitversary. Roflmao

Excellent post brother. Thanks for sharing, and congratulations. It keeps getting better from here.

Love the post. Keep doing you!!

[worktowin]

Day 365

Last night I read a story to my kids about some amazing, heroic rescues. Later, I started reflecting on the efforts...the sacrifices some humans will make to save others, without question. Whether it is many or one, often or rare, whether it is seen or unseen, loudly, quietly, quickly, arduously, however. All are so valuable. This place, this community, and the REAL people behind these screens- save lives...and improve lives...if we choose to allow it.

Humbled. I wish I could start over with the knowledge I’ve gained this year. Knowledge about myself, others and about life in general.  Easy? Definitely not. Regrets?...for sure, but...gotta move forward and appreciate regrets as proof of growth. Worth it? YES!

This experience has improved my life in ways I never could have imagined at this time last year. When I joined, I had two people in my life who knew about my battle with addiction. This year has given me the confidence to open up to friends and family. That was extremely hard at first, I felt so guilty about it, but it has actually healed relationships I didn’t even realize were lacking. This year I get to celebrate with my family and friends! I can’t even express how huge that is for me.
I came here to quit nicotine, but I have to admit- it’s deeper than I realized.
Quitting works one day at a time and so does living.

Congrats @ankape !!!  One year is an amazing feat.  Keep slaying the bitch.

Love this post.  Congrats ankape!   

It's so much more.
If we look, we find it.
Great post.
Congrats on the 1 trip around the sun. I'll be back tomorrow to celebrate your quitversary. Roflmao

Excellent post brother. Thanks for sharing, and congratulations. It keeps getting better from here.

[ChickDip]

Day 365

Last night I read a story to my kids about some amazing, heroic rescues. Later, I started reflecting on the efforts...the sacrifices some humans will make to save others, without question. Whether it is many or one, often or rare, whether it is seen or unseen, loudly, quietly, quickly, arduously, however. All are so valuable. This place, this community, and the REAL people behind these screens- save lives...and improve lives...if we choose to allow it.

Humbled. I wish I could start over with the knowledge I’ve gained this year. Knowledge about myself, others and about life in general.  Easy? Definitely not. Regrets?...for sure, but...gotta move forward and appreciate regrets as proof of growth. Worth it? YES!

This experience has improved my life in ways I never could have imagined at this time last year. When I joined, I had two people in my life who knew about my battle with addiction. This year has given me the confidence to open up to friends and family. That was extremely hard at first, I felt so guilty about it, but it has actually healed relationships I didn’t even realize were lacking. This year I get to celebrate with my family and friends! I can’t even express how huge that is for me.
I came here to quit nicotine, but I have to admit- it’s deeper than I realized.
Quitting works one day at a time and so does living.

Congrats @ankape !!!  One year is an amazing feat.  Keep slaying the bitch.

Love this post.  Congrats ankape!   

It's so much more.
If we look, we find it.
Great post.
Congrats on the 1 trip around the sun. I'll be back tomorrow to celebrate your quitversary. Roflmao

[EXBEARHAG]

Day 365

Last night I read a story to my kids about some amazing, heroic rescues. Later, I started reflecting on the efforts...the sacrifices some humans will make to save others, without question. Whether it is many or one, often or rare, whether it is seen or unseen, loudly, quietly, quickly, arduously, however. All are so valuable. This place, this community, and the REAL people behind these screens- save lives...and improve lives...if we choose to allow it.

Humbled. I wish I could start over with the knowledge I’ve gained this year. Knowledge about myself, others and about life in general.  Easy? Definitely not. Regrets?...for sure, but...gotta move forward and appreciate regrets as proof of growth. Worth it? YES!

This experience has improved my life in ways I never could have imagined at this time last year. When I joined, I had two people in my life who knew about my battle with addiction. This year has given me the confidence to open up to friends and family. That was extremely hard at first, I felt so guilty about it, but it has actually healed relationships I didn’t even realize were lacking. This year I get to celebrate with my family and friends! I can’t even express how huge that is for me.
I came here to quit nicotine, but I have to admit- it’s deeper than I realized.
Quitting works one day at a time and so does living.

Although you are exactly 101 days behind me in quit, you are years ahead of me in quit inspiration.  Your last line, "Quitting works one day at a time and so does living", is an absolute truism and something that I need to remind myself of on a daily basis.  As always, your perspective is spot on and timely.  You keep going Girl. 

[69franx]

Congratulations on one year free!

[Athan]

Day 365

Last night I read a story to my kids about some amazing, heroic rescues. Later, I started reflecting on the efforts...the sacrifices some humans will make to save others, without question. Whether it is many or one, often or rare, whether it is seen or unseen, loudly, quietly, quickly, arduously, however. All are so valuable. This place, this community, and the REAL people behind these screens- save lives...and improve lives...if we choose to allow it.

Humbled. I wish I could start over with the knowledge I’ve gained this year. Knowledge about myself, others and about life in general.  Easy? Definitely not. Regrets?...for sure, but...gotta move forward and appreciate regrets as proof of growth. Worth it? YES!

This experience has improved my life in ways I never could have imagined at this time last year. When I joined, I had two people in my life who knew about my battle with addiction. This year has given me the confidence to open up to friends and family. That was extremely hard at first, I felt so guilty about it, but it has actually healed relationships I didn’t even realize were lacking. This year I get to celebrate with my family and friends! I can’t even express how huge that is for me.
I came here to quit nicotine, but I have to admit- it’s deeper than I realized.
Quitting works one day at a time and so does living.

I labored through a valley of tears for a treasure I wanted to see,
Lo and behold, when my journey was through, the treasure I found was me.