Day 71- Been a while, Life happens. I am Quit. Faced many triggers and have come through clean. Still WUPP'in and will continue. ODAAT still in the moment, wary, watching. Reading the intro's and musings of those early in their quit is a great reminder, Never Again.
Boot camp was the toughest 9+ weeks of my life, I thought. 26 years later I retired and had plenty of "tough" times mixed in. 71 days, I have just made it out of boot camp with the rest of life ahead. I came out of boot camp thinking I had it all figured out and knew everything. I got humbled in a heartbeat and learned more in the few weeks that followed than all previous. My point... I feel good, really Quit, But life says keep your head down, your ass covered and ready for the next shoe that WILL drop. I am enjoying and reveling in the freedom of Quit, Grateful to be clean, healing. I am also voraciously guarding my Quit. Not allowing anything to encroach. ODAAT. WUPP.
If you are reading this and still sucking on DEATH...THINK, Please! You can be rid of IT. Spit it out, look at it, wait for one minute, now go for five minutes. Yeah? An hour...another hour? You are going to feel like crap, but you feel like crap now because you know you are killing yourself one dip at a time. Go rinse your mouth out, brush your teeth, get busy occupy your brain. Think about a chew? look at the time, how long has it been? Wait another 5 minutes...A day? Read about what to expect on this site, be ready for it, know and celebrate each symptom, Nicotine will throw it all at you, but you are beating it or nic wouldn't be throwing craves, fogs, shakes, rage, _______ at you. You got it beat at this point. You used to reward yourself with a mouthful of Cancer Death, Take a break, you deserve it, have another shot of Death. Now you can reward yourself with another day of Quit/Freedom/Life.
Post your word to KTC at the start, Day one. One Day At A Time. Give your Word, Be accountable to Brother and Sister addicts, propping each other up against Nicotine, Standing tall together. Rant and Rave here. Learn. Read. Be QUIT