Day 1 of the long Road

[A-Aron]

Day 26

Feeling pretty complacent right now and idk why. I can’t say it’s fog really because I don’t feel clouded or anything. I started work late last week, and so far it’s kept me pretty busy. I’m still super committed to my quit and staying good on my promise to my April group, but I haven't felt like being on here near as much talking to people. Idk, maybe it’s just the shock of being back at work on a set schedule or something that’s got me in a funk. Hell, even Steve texted me asking if I’m okay lately, haven’t really been myself. Who knows but hopefully this shit goes by soon enough, tired of this feeling of not wanting to talk to my brothers and sisters in quit.

[Bug Guy]

trying to quit dip in the military is like trying not to suck dick in the Navy, it’s hard.

Awww, it wasn't so bad.

And you still haven't quit Athan! 

[Athan]

trying to quit dip in the military is like trying not to suck dick in the Navy, it’s hard.

Awww, it wasn't so bad.

[A-Aron]

23 days down...I finally started back at work today, and lemme tell you, trying to quit dip in the military is like trying not to suck dick in the Navy, it’s hard. Everywhere I look somebody had a dip in, and it’s like fuck man, I don’t wanna think about it. Now, this doesn’t mean I’m craving a dip, or wanting to cave, just noticing more things and just how many people dip. I still find it repulsing time want to dip again and I haven’t been having dip dreams or cravings lately, so I’m doing just fine. But , it’s the constant reminder that’s hurting me. Idk, the rambles are strong tonight, lots of random thoughts on the brain.

[Keith0617]

Hey all,
Time for another life update and quit update! Well, today marks 21 days quit...feels like a lifetime ago since I started this journey on day 1. I’m by no means saying this is stupid easy or I’m good to go, but it’s getting easier. Everyday feels like a breath of fresh air and it’s wonderful to feel the way I do. I just wish I could finish getting over this stupid flu. Work has finally kicked up for me a bit so I’m keeping myself busy, so that helps.


Now, I never like getting personal, but because I’m quit, I need my thoughts laid out so I can focus. My wife and I found out that she’s pregnant a few days ago, and I want to be happy, but I’m scared. This will be baby #4, our last, but because of what happened to the last pregnancy, I’m worried. What happens if it happens again? I don’t know, but what I do now, I won’t have to turn to the can to make it through. I won’t have to scrape the bottom of that horrible green colored tin for that last pinch wondering when my next fix will be. I’m not sure how I’ll handle this, but If I can make it through my grandfathers passing, if this goes horrible again, I can make it through this. Now, by no means am I wishing or hoping the pregnancy goes bad again, I’m just worried, scared, and trying to prepare myself for the worst, but hope for the best. Anyway, that’s all for today. Thanks to everyone for the support so far, it’s been amazing being here. Proud to quit with you all today!

"ONE DAY AT A TIME" Make it the best day possible. Yesterday is no more. Tomorrow is not ours yet. All we have is this moment. Love her, support her and look for the good in all things. You've got this! Whatever happens, chew won't fix it.

You can do this. Focus ODAAT. I can relate to the pregnancy issue as my wife and I had to deal with an issue. But we also ended up with a great son with our next pregnancy. If you focus on anything too long you can make it negative. Celebrate life - your achievements. Be it the pregnancy, being nic free for another day, having a great family - take time to smile. It will be ok. Feel free to pm me if you want to chat. Enjoy today, worry about what you can control, and never forget that one problem + nicotine equals 2 problems.

[olcpo]

Hey all,
Time for another life update and quit update! Well, today marks 21 days quit...feels like a lifetime ago since I started this journey on day 1. I’m by no means saying this is stupid easy or I’m good to go, but it’s getting easier. Everyday feels like a breath of fresh air and it’s wonderful to feel the way I do. I just wish I could finish getting over this stupid flu. Work has finally kicked up for me a bit so I’m keeping myself busy, so that helps.


Now, I never like getting personal, but because I’m quit, I need my thoughts laid out so I can focus. My wife and I found out that she’s pregnant a few days ago, and I want to be happy, but I’m scared. This will be baby #4, our last, but because of what happened to the last pregnancy, I’m worried. What happens if it happens again? I don’t know, but what I do now, I won’t have to turn to the can to make it through. I won’t have to scrape the bottom of that horrible green colored tin for that last pinch wondering when my next fix will be. I’m not sure how I’ll handle this, but If I can make it through my grandfathers passing, if this goes horrible again, I can make it through this. Now, by no means am I wishing or hoping the pregnancy goes bad again, I’m just worried, scared, and trying to prepare myself for the worst, but hope for the best. Anyway, that’s all for today. Thanks to everyone for the support so far, it’s been amazing being here. Proud to quit with you all today!

"ONE DAY AT A TIME" Make it the best day possible. Yesterday is no more. Tomorrow is not ours yet. All we have is this moment. Love her, support her and look for the good in all things. You've got this! Whatever happens, chew won't fix it.

[A-Aron]

Hey all,
Time for another life update and quit update! Well, today marks 21 days quit...feels like a lifetime ago since I started this journey on day 1. I’m by no means saying this is stupid easy or I’m good to go, but it’s getting easier. Everyday feels like a breath of fresh air and it’s wonderful to feel the way I do. I just wish I could finish getting over this stupid flu. Work has finally kicked up for me a bit so I’m keeping myself busy, so that helps.


Now, I never like getting personal, but because I’m quit, I need my thoughts laid out so I can focus. My wife and I found out that she’s pregnant a few days ago, and I want to be happy, but I’m scared. This will be baby #4, our last, but because of what happened to the last pregnancy, I’m worried. What happens if it happens again? I don’t know, but what I do now, I won’t have to turn to the can to make it through. I won’t have to scrape the bottom of that horrible green colored tin for that last pinch wondering when my next fix will be. I’m not sure how I’ll handle this, but If I can make it through my grandfathers passing, if this goes horrible again, I can make it through this. Now, by no means am I wishing or hoping the pregnancy goes bad again, I’m just worried, scared, and trying to prepare myself for the worst, but hope for the best. Anyway, that’s all for today. Thanks to everyone for the support so far, it’s been amazing being here. Proud to quit with you all today!

[A-Aron]

Day 18 has officially begun. This journey has proven to be one tough son of a bitch. I’ve had some good days, and I’ve had some bad days. So hard to keep my anger under control some days, still learning to harness the random rage. Wife is finally starting to truly support my quit and proud of how invested in this page I am. These last few days have been tough though, been sick since Thursday. Me and the oldest child got sick together, been kicking our asses too. Well, that’s all I really have for today.

[Bug Guy]

God bless you Mr. Austin, the world was a better place with you in it. Be free now and fly high with the angels of heaven.

[Keith0617]

RIP Mr. Austin

Thank you for all the years of service.

[Skolvikings]

RIP Mr. Austin and thank you for your service.

God bless, your work is done.

[chris2alaska]

Rest In Peace Master Sargent.

You will be missed

[Athan]

Ain't got the words A-Aron.

[A-Aron]

Taken from the official obituary for anyone to read:


 
Sumter, SC…Howard James “Jim” Austin, age 71, passed away on Tuesday, January 14, 2020, surrounded by family at his home, after a long battle with cancer.

Born March 14, 1948, in Omaha, NE, to the late Howard James Austin Sr. and Evelyn Cecilia Austin.  Raised and educated in Plattsmouth, NE, high school class of 1966.  In 1967 he enlisted in the Air Force to start a distinguished career in Law Enforcement.  Retiring November 1987 as a Security Police Master Sergeant.  Jim continued his career in Sumter, retiring November 2011 as a Lieutenant with the Sumter County Sheriff’s Office.

Jim is survived by his loving wife, Margaret "Maggie" Austin; two sons, Howard J. "Howie" Austin III and Douglas L. Austin and his wife Kathy, both of Sumter; two daughters, Erin C. Austin of Sumter and Shannon C. Vanderhoef and her husband Mike of Travis AFB, CA; two granddaughters, Andrea Austin and Ashtyn Austin of Pueblo, CO; one grandson, Michael Austin of Sumter and a very special son and daughter-in-law, Nathan and Sharon Williams of MD.

A memorial service will be held on Saturday, January 18, 2020 at 5:00 pm in the Bullock Funeral Home Chapel with Steve Shugart officiating.  Final honors will follow the service provided by the Shaw AFB Honor Guard and the Sumter County Sheriff’s Department Honor Guard.

[A-Aron]

So, I’ve done some self reflecting today. I’ve been thinking back on the words my dad passed along to me from my grandfather. I’ve been worried since yesterday about trying to make it back home to at least be with the family, but they said no. Grandpa was retired AirForce, so he knows the struggles of moving constantly and the financial struggles that come with the Military moving us. He would rather me spend time with my wife and kids since I was gone for 2 years and not stress, than try to figure out a way home and stress about money/driving 9 hours home. It’s amazing to me that even in his final battle with cancer, he’s still thinking more about me and my family than himself. Once I can get a copy of his obituary, I want to post it for everyone to see the man he was/will always be. RIP grandpa, I’ll always love you and cherish the asswhoopings lmao. I can’t say that this didn’t hit my resolve to stay quit today or yesterday, but I do feel more strengthened in my resolve to remain quit. I’ve gone 2 weeks without dip, without nicotine, and I feel great. I don’t think he would be happy to know his death caused a relapse for me, and for that, I’ve got to keep going. Thank you all for the kind words and thoughts so far, It truly means more than you know.

Your grandfather sounds like an incredible man. I'm sure he will be missed but there is no doubt he will continue to live on in your heart. Prayers for comfort in your time of loss and sadness. Proud to be quit with you today.

Sorry for your loss. Thoughts and prayers coming your way. Proud to be quit with you today.

Your Grandpa can now look down on you with pride as you continue your journey to freedom from nicotine.  He sounds like an amazing man and a great Grandfather.  Prayers be with you and your family.

Thank you for the kind words Chris. I definitely am proud to continue to carry on his legacy, and definitely am glad he'll be watching me.