After reading some of the comments on this board, I feel like a weakling. I’ve attempted to quit several times, none have been successful and the longest one period lasted was about 30 days. One bit of bad news and I crumbled. Back to square one. It’s easier to push through the suck some days, and others seem to last forever.
That 30 day period was almost 3 years ago now. I kept telling myself, okay, todays the day, but that day went on for about 3 or 4 hours, and then I’d find myself at the convenient store getting another tin.
One thing I remember, is the first few days were the worst, and after about 7 days it was just like living in a funk. I wasn’t really driven, I felt little joy, and it seemed like every day was the same. I wanted to quit several times, but after 30 days and just a blah existence didn’t have me too excited.
After reading the amount of time it takes to get back to “normal” and everyone that has 100 days plus saying it gets better, I am ready to start again.
I’m on day 3 now, no more tins of Snus, but the day started out with the cold sweats, headache, lack of concentration and rage at every little thing. So I dug out some nicotine gum that expired back in 2018 and chewed on some of that. I know this is frowned upon and I don’t feel good about it. But I can see some light at the end of the tunnel. I don’t plan on using the nic gum as a crutch for long, but for today it helped. I don’t even know if it really worked or was just a placebo.
We will see what tomorrow brings.
I want to be healthy and I want to do more with my life. I don’t want to be pinned down by a need for nicotine.
