Day 112 and still in the funk.
I promise myself that I will not dip today.
Can’t wait for the funk to pass so I can get some resemblance of what my life should be like. Not a depressed and anxious little pussy. Fuck this shit sucks.
Glad to be quit with you all.
Sorry, man. I know that means next to nothing coming from some rando dude on the internet who you don't know, will never know, and never meet.
BUT... the knowledge you're not alone has far more weight than you would think. Anxiety and depression are an absolute bitch. You get stuck in your mind loop and it's hard to bust out. Concerning anxiety, one of the most amazing things I've ever heard from a medical professional was this: "Anxiety is a thinking problem about a thinking problem". Chew on that as you will.
All that to say... there is light you're heading toward. With ya today, bro.
AJ... 3,820