I don't know if this is the place to rant or if I'm cutting into any ongoing conversations but I'm having a rough day.
This is my day 5 today. I felt foggy and sh*tty all day.
I used to dip when I was stressed out and today really tested me.
My house was broken into and my car was stolen early this morning. With just the way I've been feeling over the past five days dealing with the quit (disgruntled, angry, stressed, craving), you couldn't have picked a worst time for something like this to happen.
I thought about dipping a lot today. It's driving me nuts. I won't do it though. I came onto the KoC.org a couple times throughout the day and read some articles and posts and that really helped get me past the urge. Thanks for the inspiration everyone, thanks for giving me a reason not to go back to dipping.
That sucks about your house getting broken in to and your car stolen. I'm truly sorry to hear that.
Gotta ask yourself though, would your house NOT have been broken into if you were still dipping? Nope. Would your car still be here? Nope. If you loaded your lip, would your house magically be normal again and your car suddenly reappear? Nope.
Today would still have sucked, it just would have sucked while you sucked on some poison.
I used to think dip relieved stress. That was a lie. The only thing dip relieved was nicotine withdrawal. It just seemed to relieve stress because when I was stressed, that urge for nicotine magnified 1,000 times over. When I put in a dip, I would say "Ahhhhh" but that wasn't reliefe from the stressful situation, it was relief that I filled my brains need for nicotine. When I spit my dip out , all my problems were still there and needed to be dealt with. Nicotine filled NO voids in my life. It created them.
The body knows how to deal with stress without the help of nicotine. Unfortunately for us nic addicts we got lost along the way and were tricked into thinking we couldn't "deal" without our nic crutch.
It is possible to lose that crutch and "deal" again. I and many here are living proof of that.
It's just going to take awhile. Getting through days like today without your crutch, is one hell of step in the right direction. I know it sucked but It was a victory. Keep stringing victories together and things will get progressively easier.
This site can help you tremendously. Are you posting role? Have you started an intro page? Have you jumped into chat? Their are a lot of people here who can help you. Use them.
Keep grinding. You got this. You need anything, hit me up any time.
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