Hi guys. Thanks for the site! Can be tough finding people going through the same thing. Comforting that others are going through the same stuff I am as well.
A little about me: I starting dipping here and there in high school only on the weekends. Whatever we could get our hands on to be "cool". My regular dipping habit started as a freshman in college. Since then (12 years ago), I have been a regular dipper ranging from 1/2 tin per day to 1 tin per day. Almost exclusively Grizzly Wintergreen Pouches. I never thought much about it because "its only pouches" and "I can quite when I want". I never even considered quitting until about 3 years ago when I first started to notice basic side effects: teeth starting to yellow, sore gums, occasional bleeding from the dip and over brushing to compensate, etc. Then I met the girl of my dreams, got engaged, and quitting become a serious priority.
Little did I know, quitting is freaking hard! I first "quit" last year around Sept. 1. Made it about 100 days. Went through the "fog" and got through it. Things were going fine until the holidays rolled around. Friend offered me a pouch while drinking, accepted, then bam right back it.
Now I am 38 days into my current quit. The initial phase, "fog", etc. was much easier. I went through it not that long ago, so I knew what was coming. This time, though, my anxiety is through the roof, especially about the dreaded c-word. I seem to look at every little spec of anything in my mouth countless times throughout the day. Just can't get my mind off of it. Then you search on the internet and you see the worst pictures imaginable. Anybody else go through this?
