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Re: Kybo from 1-13-18
« Reply #164 on: January 16, 2020, 11:37:05 AM »
Day 740

I have been working on some annual reports this morning and I finally decided to take a little break and browse the KTC website a little.  I stumbled on this gem that I posted on my intro way back before I had even been quit for 100 days.  I was doing some serious soul searching back in those early days and I often found it very therapeutic to write some of it down.  I have since deleted some of those early entries to reduce the clutter, but I did keep some of the ones that I thought might someday be relevant to my future self.

In light of some of the discussions I have seen here and there over the last few weeks I am going to bump this entry from March 2018 up to the top. 

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Nothing to see in today's post. Just a few ramblings from my sleep deprived mind.

There has been a lot of really deep discussions on various forums at KTC over the last few days. I am talking about the good stuff that makes you look deep in your soul and think about who you are, what you are doing, and where you want to go. One of the topics that I have seen discussed in a few different places are variations of the theme “why KTC works or what KTC means to me.” At first glance these two things may seem completely different, but I would argue they are one and the same for most of the addicts using KTC to strengthen their quit.

As I lay wide awake last night staring at the ceiling and thinking about all the words of wisdom I have garnered from KTC in the last couple months, I found myself thinking about why KTC works for me. And I just kept coming back to one of my favorite quotes. I have never thought about this quote before from an addict’s perspective, but after last night I will probably never think of it in any other way again.

“Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it."  George Santayana

Perhaps George Santayana was a recovering addict himself. It sure sounds like he knew a thing or two about the subject. I can't tell you how many times I have failed in my attempts to quit in the past because I let myself forget just how addicted I am to the nicotine bitch.

George Santayana (1863-1952) was a Spanish born American author and philosopher. It is believed the above quote originated with George, but I have seen some sources that think the quote pre dates George by a few years. For me, it doesn’t really matter who said it first. The words of wisdom contained in the quote should be something memorized by every single addict that is working on recovery. Because when you truly see those words for what they are, you will understand those eleven words are actually a map that will guide any and all recovering addicts to the elusive treasure we all seek. And that treasure is none other than freedom from the chains of addiction.

So, why does KTC work and what does KTC mean to me?

Whether you use KTC to post and ghost roll every day or you fully engorge yourself with gallons and gallons of the kool aid, the successful recovering addict is using KTC to remember their past. They may not consciously realize what they are doing, but they are keeping their addiction front and center in their thoughts every time they visit KTC. By doing this, they are lessening the chance they will repeat their past failures. The daily ritual of visiting KTC keeps us from forgetting that we are addicts. It stops complacency dead in her tracks. And thus it keeps us from falling back down the rabbit hole we call addiction. For some people, simply visiting and posting roll every day is enough. Others may need to interact a little more. And still others may need to completely submerge themselves in the refreshing waters of brotherhood. Every one of us is different and every one of us is the same. Some need the phone calls and the accountability, others just need a safe place to read and reflect.

KTC may mean different things to different people. But, it also means the same thing to all of us. I will never forget where I have been, and I will never forget why I left. That is the pledge I silently make to myself every morning when I post roll call in April ‘18. Because I know if I ever let myself forget that I am an addict I will soon find myself on my proverbial knees again suckling at the teat of Big Tobacco.

I will never let myself forget because I do not want to repeat my past.
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Re: Kybo
« Reply #163 on: January 10, 2020, 07:47:10 AM »
Just rolled into northern Wisconsin for a few days of ice fishing.  The ice is looking a little thin!
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It was all good.  There were a couple vehicles that went thru the ice in the area while we were there, but we never had any problems.  Of course, we didn't drive our truck out onto the ice.  Most places we went had at least 3" of good ice with 4"-8" of slushy/cloudy ice on top of it.  We found some places that had 8" of good ice and we found other places that still had open water.  You just had to be smart about it.  That was our first visit to Rhinelander and we thoroughly enjoyed the community.  We caught a little bit of everything, but nothing to get overly excited about.  We are already talking about going back next winter.

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Re: Kybo
« Reply #162 on: January 02, 2020, 08:39:10 PM »
Just rolled into northern Wisconsin for a few days of ice fishing.  The ice is looking a little thin!
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Re: Kybo
« Reply #161 on: January 02, 2020, 01:16:01 AM »
Just rolled into northern Wisconsin for a few days of ice fishing.  The ice is looking a little thin!
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Re: Kybo
« Reply #160 on: January 01, 2020, 11:01:40 PM »
Just rolled into northern Wisconsin for a few days of ice fishing.  The ice is looking a little thin! 
"No regrets, that's my motto. That and everybody Wang Chung tonight."
"That's what's great about the outdoors, you know. It's one giant toilet."
"i thought I could stay at the party forever, it don't work that way, cause that shit will kill ya" -- Stevie Ray Vaughan

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Re: Kybo
« Reply #159 on: December 27, 2019, 09:32:31 AM »
Here are a couple informative links I stumbled on today when I was looking for something else.  Some of you "lurkers" that haven't made the decision to quit might want to check them out.  This is the kind of information I was looking for on the web when I finally decided to change my life for the better.  Today is day 720 days free for me after chewing for 35 years.  If I can quit so can you.  It did take a few months but I definitely feel better than I have in decades. 

https://www.deltadental.com/us/en/protect-my-smile/overall-health/smokeless-tobacco.html

https://www.cancer.org/healthy/stay-away-from-tobacco/guide-quitting-smoking/staying-tobacco-free-after-you-quit-smoking.html
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Re: Kybo
« Reply #158 on: December 08, 2019, 12:39:59 AM »
You are a pillar in April and I am blessed to be able to call you my brother.

7 handy looks damn good on you!!!
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Re: Kybo
« Reply #157 on: December 07, 2019, 06:19:36 AM »
Seven. Hundred. Days.
I've rediscovered my love for reading and hope you have too.
Congratulations my man. Thanks for being part of the context of my quit!
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Re: Kybo
« Reply #156 on: August 28, 2019, 07:58:26 PM »
Six Hundy Eve......

You are a damn fine quitter KYBO, thank you for being a huge part of April.

Congrats my brother!!
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Re: Kybo
« Reply #155 on: August 05, 2019, 04:32:53 PM »
"I hope you find a thousand reasons to quit today" Rawls
"I can't quit for you. I will quit with you" Ready
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"No regrets, that's my motto. That and everybody Wang Chung tonight."
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Re: Kybo
« Reply #152 on: August 03, 2019, 08:10:44 AM »
"I hope you find a thousand reasons to quit today" Rawls
"I can't quit for you. I will quit with you" Ready
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"In the Navy we had morning muster. You never miss muster. You better be dead if you miss. If you are dying, you should have started crawling earlier, no excuse." Olcpo

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Re: Kybo
« Reply #151 on: July 24, 2019, 07:35:38 AM »
Day 564

I am heading waaaaayyyyy into the bush tomorrow.  No internet, no cell coverage, and no electricity.  I am getting dropped off miles away from the nearest road by a float plane for a week of rest and relaxation on a remote lake in the middle of Nowhere, Ontario. 

I will be completely off the grid until at least August, 2nd.  If the weather is shitty on the 2nd the planes may not be able to fly to come pick us up.  That actually happened to us back in 2006.  We were stuck in the middle of nowhere for an extra day and a half because there was a massive storm that basically just pitched a tent right on top of us for three days.

I just wanted to throw it out there so that everyone would know why I suddenly disappeared.  There is no danger of us caving because we aren't taking any tobacco products of any kind with us on the trip.  And there won't be a store within 20 miles of us once we get dropped off..

I will be back and posting roll on August 2nd or 3rd depending on the weather.

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Re: Kybo
« Reply #150 on: May 29, 2019, 03:22:19 PM »
Day 508

I am heading north on Friday and will be in the bush by Saturday morning.  I know the area pretty well and should have cell coverage in a few places unless something has changed since last year.  So, I will be posting and ghosting for about a week and a half.  And I might be a little late posting roll on a few days if I have to search for a signal.   

Stay frosty, my friends!

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