300 days... I remember early in this journey looking down and seeing those 300+ days in the support section and thinking "Wow, if I could only make it there' and here I am. This feels like such a big milestone.
The first 100 was spent getting myself and April to board that train. A good part of the next 100 was spent celebrating June's accomplishments. This last 100, well it's been all about me. I woke up yesterday feeling a bit more quit than usual. I've had ups and downs in this journey. But it took until the 290's before I had my first days of "Hey, I didnÂ’t think of dip all day" The craves are still there, and it serves as a constant reminder of how deep this addiction is. Every new adventure without dip is a crave, but also a victory.
I have also spent the last 30 days without alcohol. Again, a new adventure without dip. I feel like I am finding better ways to cope. I'm not nearly as quick to anger. And I'm not eating or drinking my troubles away, I'm facing them head on! In fact, some of them just get ignored because I'm not looking for a reason to feed my vices. Dare I say, at 40 plus years old, I am actually acting like a grown-up? None of these things change or get better over night. But working on something every day, one day at a time, you can achieve amazing things.
After 300 days, I can look at myself in the mirror and honestly be glad I have quit tobacco. I look at people with 14, 70, 120 days quit and I feel your pain. I feel it so deep, that I never want to go through it again. I know if I were to cave now, I would never be able to quit again. I know IÂ’m not cured, and I know there are plenty more challenges ahead, I also know that I am ready to face them One Day at a Time. Thanks again to all who have helped me get here. Way to many to mention! And that is a good thing!
