The Batdad Chronicles

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Batdad

Yesterday (day 44) was the first day I felt "normal" since my quit. I had some strong craves, but I saw a glimmer of life beyond nicotine. After work my gal and I had some errands to run. Spent an couple hours in the car and had nice conversation and minimal craves. It was nice not packing a dip and spitting it out right before the door of the store. We went out to dinner and sat and talked afterwards... I was never a ninja dipper, I was always public about it. But I didn't need to run off to the bathroom to spit out my dip when the meal showed up, and I didn't need to pack one after the meal and wonder if I could find a spitter or if I was gutting it. All I had to do was engage her in conversation. The focus was amazing, I wasn't worried about the next fix... I was, for the first time, enjoying time with the gal I love.

On the way home chew came up, she said "if you ever make me go through that bullshit from the first few weeks of you quitting again, I will kill you" roflmao And I'm pretty sure she meant it. I humbly apologized and told her all I can promise is one day at a time, and I never want you or I to go through that again.

Today I realize I have a long way to go in this journey, and the only way I can get there is one day at a time. It really renewed my quit.

Quit on!!
[spoiler=signature stuff]Leonidas nickname is Dyson because he he sucks like a cracked out meth whore - Candoit

Could I quit without KTC? Probably. Let's say it's 99.9% yes, I could quit without KTC. That 0.1% risk of failure isn't worth it to me. That 0.1% is enough to keep me here, long into the future, just to be sure.-srains918

Not sure who Batdad is, but he keeps coming up as an asshole =P so he can be an asshole if it helps others quit lmao. BTW who is batdad? I'm newer so it might be something I am missing. -evillen

With all the craziness swirling around us, it's nice to have certain constants that we can always count on, like Batdad is an asshole. -Rewire

Quitters I have had the honor to meet
Viking, MNxEngineer, PMILS, Weedsta, Natro, Jenahen, Bucky, Palpatine, Gassy, JohninSLP, DonkeyMN, ReWire, Clemte, Wepdoc
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RDB

Congrats on a month quit. You are killing it.

Thumblewort

30 days is badassery, keep killing it!
Some of my fondest and clearest memories are peeing in places that aren't bathrooms.

DJF5858

Welcome to KTC. As of today I have been quit 91 days. You have a great attitude, one day at a time.....It will get better but there will be rough days. That's why we are here to help each other. Make sure you post roll EDD, not doing that in the beginning is my biggest regret. But my fellow quitters gave me the kick in the ass I needed and it worked. Wouldn't be here without the Feb COQ. Quit on and embrace the suck....
Quit Date: 11/4/16
HOF Date: 2/12/17

Batdad

Wow... 30 Day's quit!! When I started this journey I didn't know if it would last a day, a week or just an hour. Day one of my quit I chose to skip chewing for the day, just to see if I could do it. What a pain, sweaty, irritable, anxiety, and the cravings were out of control!!

I never want to go through that again! As I sit 30 days in I still have cravings and am still irritable... But more important, I am still Nic free.
[spoiler=signature stuff]Leonidas nickname is Dyson because he he sucks like a cracked out meth whore - Candoit

Could I quit without KTC? Probably. Let's say it's 99.9% yes, I could quit without KTC. That 0.1% risk of failure isn't worth it to me. That 0.1% is enough to keep me here, long into the future, just to be sure.-srains918

Not sure who Batdad is, but he keeps coming up as an asshole =P so he can be an asshole if it helps others quit lmao. BTW who is batdad? I'm newer so it might be something I am missing. -evillen

With all the craziness swirling around us, it's nice to have certain constants that we can always count on, like Batdad is an asshole. -Rewire

Quitters I have had the honor to meet
Viking, MNxEngineer, PMILS, Weedsta, Natro, Jenahen, Bucky, Palpatine, Gassy, JohninSLP, DonkeyMN, ReWire, Clemte, Wepdoc
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Batdad

Thanks all. It really means a lot. The cravings are still brutal. But they don't tend to last as long. It nice having the support, knowing so many are and have fought the same battle.
[spoiler=signature stuff]Leonidas nickname is Dyson because he he sucks like a cracked out meth whore - Candoit

Could I quit without KTC? Probably. Let's say it's 99.9% yes, I could quit without KTC. That 0.1% risk of failure isn't worth it to me. That 0.1% is enough to keep me here, long into the future, just to be sure.-srains918

Not sure who Batdad is, but he keeps coming up as an asshole =P so he can be an asshole if it helps others quit lmao. BTW who is batdad? I'm newer so it might be something I am missing. -evillen

With all the craziness swirling around us, it's nice to have certain constants that we can always count on, like Batdad is an asshole. -Rewire

Quitters I have had the honor to meet
Viking, MNxEngineer, PMILS, Weedsta, Natro, Jenahen, Bucky, Palpatine, Gassy, JohninSLP, DonkeyMN, ReWire, Clemte, Wepdoc
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ChristopherJ

Welcome batdad! You made a great decision to quit and to do it here! We all know what you are going through. Don't be afraid to lean on us. That was the biggest hurdle for me. I always thought I could do things by myself. (Including quitting). Boy was I wrong and I am not ashamed to admit it. Make your daily promise bat, and have some digits for the times when the cravings seem irresistible. CJ
Don't be afraid.  You are not alone.

Frobozz

Quote from: Bean
Quote from: Frobozz
Quote from: batdad911No, not that batdad....

Anyway... I have let nicotine control my life for far to long. I picked up my first tin when I was 15 and never looked back, that was over 25 years ago. I started smoking when I was 16, because it's just another way to feed that ugly monster. 2 years ago I quit smoking, it smelled bad and wasn't social like it used to be and honestly I don't miss it.

I have been slowly cutting down on my dipping for a bit. Then on Monday I was getting ready to go to bed and took the last dip from the tin. I got up Tuesday morning and it was so cold I didn't want to stop to pick up more. So I challenged myself to make it the work day without one, and I did. Then I went on a 3 hour road trip to drop my kids off to their mother, once again I challenged myself to not dip the whole way. When I got home I challenged myself again. So now I'm on day 3 of challenging myself not to dip.

The cravings suck... As all of you know. I have gum, sunflower seeds, mints and shredded beef jerky, and it still sucks.

So I choose to embrace the suck and continue to challenge myself one day at a time!
Welcome to the board. My name is Jim; my quit date is 11/11/2016.

I must say, I like your attitude. Your challenges will become all the easier by this time next week. Posting roll in your home group will prove useful in keeping quit. Why, you ask? Because without this accountability, relapsing (what we call 'caving') increases exponentially. There have been a few occasions in my own quit where posting roll that morning was the only thing that kept me from caving.

There is one pressing point - nicotine addiction never dies; it merely becomes dormant. In other words, we remain addicts, even after the cravings die off entirely. In essence, we are on lifetime parole from Nicotine Prison. The only term for that parole is that we never use nicotine ever again, period. Just one hit of nicotine revokes that parole and sends us back to the dungeon.

That should be it for now. Be well.
^^^^^^ Totally agree. But "never again" and "quitting forever" are big statements. So big, in fact, that new quits can get defeated just by the thought of those. So, that's why POSTING ROLL has nothing to do with "never again" or "quitting forever."

Nicotine addiction is a big problem. So you gotta cut it down to size if you're going to have a chance at controlling it. All we are promising when we post roll is that we won't use nicotine TODAY. I don't plan on starting dipping again tomorrow, next week or next year. But I never said I won't. All we promise each other is that we will make it through TODAY without nicotine. And anybody can make it one short-ass day, right?

ONE DAY AT A TIME is how we control addiction. We'll deal with tomorrow, next week, next month, year...whatever...the same way too. We'll post roll and give our word that come hell or high water we will not break it. Our word is our bond. You have my word. And I guaran-fucking-tee you I'm going to keep it.

Posting roll one day at a time and keeping your word. That's all you got to do.
We surely agree on ODAAT. The beauty behind this is that it's always today; when tomorrow comes, it'll still be today, only then. So that works out to 'never again' taken in bite-size form.

That part I mentioned about being on parole for life from NicoPrison really is true. The price of this freedom is staying nicotine-clean, period. For example, I'm going through a rough spot in life which is making me crave a can right now. The reason as to my abstinence is because I posted roll and I keep my word. I will have to find another way of dealing with my frustrations. Even if - the gods forbid - I did cave, I'd still have the frustrations to deal with. So I might as well just chill out and find another way of dealing with what I'm feeling.

So...I post roll. I'll post roll for as long as roll exists. I'll help other members gain and keep their parole from NicoPrison. But...I won't use tobacco.

Bean

Quote from: Frobozz
Quote from: batdad911No, not that batdad....

Anyway... I have let nicotine control my life for far to long. I picked up my first tin when I was 15 and never looked back, that was over 25 years ago. I started smoking when I was 16, because it's just another way to feed that ugly monster. 2 years ago I quit smoking, it smelled bad and wasn't social like it used to be and honestly I don't miss it.

I have been slowly cutting down on my dipping for a bit. Then on Monday I was getting ready to go to bed and took the last dip from the tin. I got up Tuesday morning and it was so cold I didn't want to stop to pick up more. So I challenged myself to make it the work day without one, and I did. Then I went on a 3 hour road trip to drop my kids off to their mother, once again I challenged myself to not dip the whole way. When I got home I challenged myself again. So now I'm on day 3 of challenging myself not to dip.

The cravings suck... As all of you know. I have gum, sunflower seeds, mints and shredded beef jerky, and it still sucks.

So I choose to embrace the suck and continue to challenge myself one day at a time!
Welcome to the board. My name is Jim; my quit date is 11/11/2016.

I must say, I like your attitude. Your challenges will become all the easier by this time next week. Posting roll in your home group will prove useful in keeping quit. Why, you ask? Because without this accountability, relapsing (what we call 'caving') increases exponentially. There have been a few occasions in my own quit where posting roll that morning was the only thing that kept me from caving.

There is one pressing point - nicotine addiction never dies; it merely becomes dormant. In other words, we remain addicts, even after the cravings die off entirely. In essence, we are on lifetime parole from Nicotine Prison. The only term for that parole is that we never use nicotine ever again, period. Just one hit of nicotine revokes that parole and sends us back to the dungeon.

That should be it for now. Be well.
^^^^^^ Totally agree. But "never again" and "quitting forever" are big statements. So big, in fact, that new quits can get defeated just by the thought of those. So, that's why POSTING ROLL has nothing to do with "never again" or "quitting forever."

Nicotine addiction is a big problem. So you gotta cut it down to size if you're going to have a chance at controlling it. All we are promising when we post roll is that we won't use nicotine TODAY. I don't plan on starting dipping again tomorrow, next week or next year. But I never said I won't. All we promise each other is that we will make it through TODAY without nicotine. And anybody can make it one short-ass day, right?

ONE DAY AT A TIME is how we control addiction. We'll deal with tomorrow, next week, next month, year...whatever...the same way too. We'll post roll and give our word that come hell or high water we will not break it. Our word is our bond. You have my word. And I guaran-fucking-tee you I'm going to keep it.

Posting roll one day at a time and keeping your word. That's all you got to do.

Frobozz

Quote from: batdad911No, not that batdad....

Anyway... I have let nicotine control my life for far to long. I picked up my first tin when I was 15 and never looked back, that was over 25 years ago. I started smoking when I was 16, because it's just another way to feed that ugly monster. 2 years ago I quit smoking, it smelled bad and wasn't social like it used to be and honestly I don't miss it.

I have been slowly cutting down on my dipping for a bit. Then on Monday I was getting ready to go to bed and took the last dip from the tin. I got up Tuesday morning and it was so cold I didn't want to stop to pick up more. So I challenged myself to make it the work day without one, and I did. Then I went on a 3 hour road trip to drop my kids off to their mother, once again I challenged myself to not dip the whole way. When I got home I challenged myself again. So now I'm on day 3 of challenging myself not to dip.

The cravings suck... As all of you know. I have gum, sunflower seeds, mints and shredded beef jerky, and it still sucks.

So I choose to embrace the suck and continue to challenge myself one day at a time!
Welcome to the board. My name is Jim; my quit date is 11/11/2016.

I must say, I like your attitude. Your challenges will become all the easier by this time next week. Posting roll in your home group will prove useful in keeping quit. Why, you ask? Because without this accountability, relapsing (what we call 'caving') increases exponentially. There have been a few occasions in my own quit where posting roll that morning was the only thing that kept me from caving.

There is one pressing point - nicotine addiction never dies; it merely becomes dormant. In other words, we remain addicts, even after the cravings die off entirely. In essence, we are on lifetime parole from Nicotine Prison. The only term for that parole is that we never use nicotine ever again, period. Just one hit of nicotine revokes that parole and sends us back to the dungeon.

That should be it for now. Be well.

RDB

You have the mechanics of a quit figured out.

You have the roll post figured out.

There's not much left to say, other than follow through with your daily challenge Every Damn Day. Post roll early Every Damn Day. Keep your promise Every Damn Day.

Get to know the guys in April, and reach out when things get challenging. Don't be afraid to ask for help.

You've got this if you refuse to cave.

Check your PM box in the upper right corner of your screen for a message from me.

Batdad

No, not that batdad....

Anyway... I have let nicotine control my life for far to long. I picked up my first tin when I was 15 and never looked back, that was over 25 years ago. I started smoking when I was 16, because it's just another way to feed that ugly monster. 2 years ago I quit smoking, it smelled bad and wasn't social like it used to be and honestly I don't miss it.

I have been slowly cutting down on my dipping for a bit. Then on Monday I was getting ready to go to bed and took the last dip from the tin. I got up Tuesday morning and it was so cold I didn't want to stop to pick up more. So I challenged myself to make it the work day without one, and I did. Then I went on a 3 hour road trip to drop my kids off to their mother, once again I challenged myself to not dip the whole way. When I got home I challenged myself again. So now I'm on day 3 of challenging myself not to dip.

The cravings suck... As all of you know. I have gum, sunflower seeds, mints and shredded beef jerky, and it still sucks.

So I choose to embrace the suck and continue to challenge myself one day at a time!
[spoiler=signature stuff]Leonidas nickname is Dyson because he he sucks like a cracked out meth whore - Candoit

Could I quit without KTC? Probably. Let's say it's 99.9% yes, I could quit without KTC. That 0.1% risk of failure isn't worth it to me. That 0.1% is enough to keep me here, long into the future, just to be sure.-srains918

Not sure who Batdad is, but he keeps coming up as an asshole =P so he can be an asshole if it helps others quit lmao. BTW who is batdad? I'm newer so it might be something I am missing. -evillen

With all the craziness swirling around us, it's nice to have certain constants that we can always count on, like Batdad is an asshole. -Rewire

Quitters I have had the honor to meet
Viking, MNxEngineer, PMILS, Weedsta, Natro, Jenahen, Bucky, Palpatine, Gassy, JohninSLP, DonkeyMN, ReWire, Clemte, Wepdoc
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Athan

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happy birthday.......OLD MAN!
When I grow up mommy, I wanna be an ASSHOLE like my hero BATDAD!!
SLAP!  WAAAAAAAAAAAA! :'(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASSHOLE!
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Batdad

Quote from: Peter Gibbons on September 18, 2018, 03:05:43 PM
Quote from: Batdad on September 17, 2018, 10:28:04 PM
Day 623.... my previous posts to my introduction can be found here.

https://www.tapatalk.com/groups/qs_xtreme/introductions-t11711.html

I don’t feel like I want to pull all that information here... but I do know that I want to remember it always.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASSHOLE!

Thanks Brother!!
[spoiler=signature stuff]Leonidas nickname is Dyson because he he sucks like a cracked out meth whore - Candoit

Could I quit without KTC? Probably. Let's say it's 99.9% yes, I could quit without KTC. That 0.1% risk of failure isn't worth it to me. That 0.1% is enough to keep me here, long into the future, just to be sure.-srains918

Not sure who Batdad is, but he keeps coming up as an asshole =P so he can be an asshole if it helps others quit lmao. BTW who is batdad? I'm newer so it might be something I am missing. -evillen

With all the craziness swirling around us, it's nice to have certain constants that we can always count on, like Batdad is an asshole. -Rewire

Quitters I have had the honor to meet
Viking, MNxEngineer, PMILS, Weedsta, Natro, Jenahen, Bucky, Palpatine, Gassy, JohninSLP, DonkeyMN, ReWire, Clemte, Wepdoc
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Peter Gibbons

Quote from: Batdad on September 17, 2018, 10:28:04 PM
Day 623.... my previous posts to my introduction can be found here.

https://www.tapatalk.com/groups/qs_xtreme/introductions-t11711.html

I don’t feel like I want to pull all that information here... but I do know that I want to remember it always.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASSHOLE!