With all the comings and goings with quitters lately.. Has some in turmoil about how to feel about it all I think. Some know exactly how to feel and deal with it, some, really donÂ’t. Just because you like a quitter/person and what they stand for, doesnÂ’t mean you canÂ’t be really pissed if he/she leaves. Our feelings are just that, OUR feelings. So if I offend you because I am upset or state my mind about someone you admire, so be it, it's my cloud. Most likely I admired them as well.
All we have here is our word.
When I look to someone for support or friendship and accountability. I look for some sort of stability. How stable are addicts, really? Not very, generally, BUT, there is still that sense of character with many of us. I look for that. I FIND it in more than you'd think. There are some amazing humans here. If I don't get it, or if a close brother or sister fails me, it stings, it stings HARD. By fail, I mean they don't stand to their word, they don't stand to their conviction, they don't stand to what they said they were going to do! It hits me hard. Sure, many of us don't, but if I'm connected to youÂ….and you fall shortÂ…..I'm going to feel it, hate it, grieve. My frustrations come from caring, not hatred. Many times I'll "bite my tongue" instead of making another part of my "family" upset for saying what I feel. But I'll tell you this, if my heart is ever hurt because of you.... rest assured I have love for you.
