Typed this up in January 16' to a rather "famous caver Bsarno" but, I felt that even if it doesn't help him, It helped me and hopefully others:
Do you have any idea how hard 100% is? I can tell you right now, you are not 100% committed. If you were "100%" then you would have thought out an diligantly answered the 3 questions!
Do you even understand why we ask the 3 questions? Do you understand that, in reality, the answers are not for us, but for you. The 3 questions, are legitimately important to all of us. In fact, successful quitters answer those 3 questions. They either answer them after failing themselves and their brothers and sisters on KTC or for those of us who succeed on our first go around on KTC, we answer those to ourselves before ever joining.
Matter of fact, to make my point stronger, allow me to give you my answers.
1. What happened? Well I said for the millionth time, I am going to quit. But, because I am a punk ass bitch, I went my usual 24 hours before saying fuck it and grabbing another can from the gas station.
2. Why did it happen? It happened because I am not capable of beating this addiction on my own. I recognize I am an addict and I would prefer to keep my brain happy and die sooner rather than suffer through hell, though I am at fault for the hell I must suffer to beat this addiction.
3. What am I going to do differently this time? This time I am going to join a site called Kill The Can. They use an accountibilty system via a roll call to quit. There is almost 30,000 quitters on that site, and I wil be able to get advice on how to keep going from them. I am going to see how active I can be on the site, because I think that can and will help me quit.
This time, I am gonna get the massive amount of seeds, gum, mints, toothpicks, and whatever else I can jam in my mouth to quit. I am going to exercise when I can to help deal with my rage.
DRINK THE FUCKING KOOL AID!
B71
114 Days of Success and I am not stopping now, because I can honestly and openly admit that some of the hardest days have been the last 7.
Stay Active, Stay Quit