I can't put you on the spreadsheet until you satisfy these quitters thirst for knowledge. Give some thought to your answers man and we will welcome you to October.
Okay I'm going to take another stab at these three questions. I'm having to do this while driving and using Siri to dictate it so who knows how it will go.
Question number one. What happened? I travel for a living and I was alone on the road with an extra day with nothing to do. I got bored and I went and bought a can.
Question number two: Why did I choose to cave and take a deuce? I think this is a dip maybe? and why did I bail on everybody supporting me in the May 2013 class or something like that?
Last time I tried this I really did not understand what this website was about. I just thought that you went and posted roll to keep yourself accountable. Couple of guys gave me their phone numbers but I just did not feel comfortable calling strangers basically I really just wasn't that committed to what y'all do here. I realize now how important community and brotherhood is in this difficult journey. Both getting support from others as well as offering my support to others that are fighting this addiction.
Question number three: what am I going to do different this time to make sure I don't Cave?
Basically I'm going to be way more connected and involved in this process. I learned a valuable lesson last night in chat which by the way I could not get to work last time but it's working now. Anyway, last night while I was waiting on my wife to go to sleep so I could leave and go buy snuff I came on here to see if anything else had been said. I went into chat and started whining like a little wimp about how people on here were treating me and how I wasn't being supported blah blah blah blah blah basically I was feening for a dip and acting like a jackass. Several guys in chat wore my ass out for about an hour. At first I thought they were just being jerks but then I began to realize those guys were fighting for me and my quit. I also realized that because of them I did not cave last night. I did not go and buy snuff. So big shout out and thanks to bronc, Lours, and P 23 for last night. What I learned from this that I completely missed last time was the immeasurable value of support from others here. Going into chat last night saved my quit. I will continue going to chat as well as making any other connections I can. I got a phone number from a guy last night that I have been texting today. I can already tell how helpful that is going to be. I also realize now how vigilant you have to be about your quit. Not hoping I will make it. Not dreaming that it will really happen but being absolutely determined to make it happen. And that is what I am going to do.
Sorry I had to do this via Siri on my iPhone but I had no choice today. I apologize if the grammar and punctuation sucks. Anyway, I hope this answers the questions sufficiently and and opens the door for me to be in the October 2014 class.
