Gum Grafts - I've had 5!

[Bean]

Gooch - All I can tell you is that it sounds like you've got the hang of it!!! You're doing it right for sure, brother!!! Never go back...NEVER.

You're beating the Nic Bitch one day at a time...in fact, it sounds like you're beating all of your addictions one day at a time. You're a fucking heroic bad-ass quitter!!! I'm pumped about what you're doing.

There are no short-cuts. It doesn't matter who you are, where you're from, what you did before now. The only thing that matters is what you are right now...and you, my brother, are quit!!!

Everybody has to go through the shit you're dealing with right now to earn their freedom. Really take note of how much it sucks. Cherish the feeling of earning your freedom. I used to get in my truck and yell too. Every cuss word I could think of and a bunch of other shit that didn't come out right...you know, really garbled strange rage cussing.

As far as your GF goes...go easy on her. Addiction isn't her fault. So what if she is late? Unless you're a dog, you can't lick your own balls. So, you might want to be a little nicer because she can, right?

It will get better...I don't remember how long it took for "normal" sleep to return. I want to say that it was maybe a couple of months or so. Exercise and then a Tylenol PM sorta worked for me. And even then I still had terrible nights every once in a while.

STAY STRONG BROTHER!!! IT GETS BETTER!!!

[Mthomas3824]

Thinking is your first problem. The more you think, the more you will be able to justify taking a dip....or a drink.

I'm sad...take a dip/drink
I'm happy ..take a dip/drink
I'm excited ..take a dip/drink
I'm tired ..take a dip/drink
Girlfriend is pissing me off ..take a dip/drink (what planet are you from ...every chick on this earth is always late. It's what they do) If you are into CW listen to Brad Paisley song Waitin on a Women. Nails it.
etc
etc
etc
Using any outside event to justify an action is horseshit.

Is it really worth it ? You tell me. Why did you quit in the first place ? What did you expect when you quit ...dancing around listening to harp music ? You thought after 9 days you would be quit for good without having to fight for it ?

Why doesn't everybody quit ? Because it is fucking hard. If it was easy, there wouldn't be the need for this site.....or nic patches, or hypnosis, acupuncture, self help tapes or whatever else the fuck people get scammed into buying because they can't quit on their own.

Do you think you are unique ? That nobody else on this site has gone through exactly what you are going through now ? How did they make it through ? They gritted their teeth and moved forward. They talked to someone on the site....they went for a run...they hit the heavy bag...they rubbed one out....whatever it takes.

I crave everyday and it pisses me off everyday. Rage all you like. Nothing wrong with that....but don't go looking for an excuse to cave.

I carumba10!

Nice response and post. I like it.

[Jesserobz]

Gooch, no exuse is good enough to cave in to a craving. We all crave. We all suffer through the pain, short fuzes, sleeping disorder, etc. we just can't give in, NO SURRENDER!!! Own this freedom, it is yours don't let that nic bitch take it back from you.

[carumba10]

Thinking is your first problem. The more you think, the more you will be able to justify taking a dip....or a drink.

I'm sad...take a dip/drink
I'm happy ..take a dip/drink
I'm excited ..take a dip/drink
I'm tired ..take a dip/drink
Girlfriend is pissing me off ..take a dip/drink (what planet are you from ...every chick on this earth is always late. It's what they do) If you are into CW listen to Brad Paisley song Waitin on a Women. Nails it.
etc
etc
etc
Using any outside event to justify an action is horseshit.

Is it really worth it ? You tell me. Why did you quit in the first place ? What did you expect when you quit ...dancing around listening to harp music ? You thought after 9 days you would be quit for good without having to fight for it ?

Why doesn't everybody quit ? Because it is fucking hard. If it was easy, there wouldn't be the need for this site.....or nic patches, or hypnosis, acupuncture, self help tapes or whatever else the fuck people get scammed into buying because they can't quit on their own.

Do you think you are unique ? That nobody else on this site has gone through exactly what you are going through now ? How did they make it through ? They gritted their teeth and moved forward. They talked to someone on the site....they went for a run...they hit the heavy bag...they rubbed one out....whatever it takes.

I crave everyday and it pisses me off everyday. Rage all you like. Nothing wrong with that....but don't go looking for an excuse to cave.

[mikegooch]

I need some help today... I thought day 5 was bad! Day 8 was a nightmare! I guess I have been maybe sleeping 3 to 4 hours a night.  it's pretty shitty sleep.. even with melatonin and some other sleep aids. Yesterday I had to spend quite a bit of time in my truck driving. I had about a 2 hour road trip, each way.. The entire fucking time I was fighting sleep! I was so sleepy.. I would yell and sing and roll the window down.. roll it up.. stick my head out the window.. the entire trip was a struggle to stay awake.. I knew that if only I had some dip... all this would go away.. well I did not cave! I get home last night.. my girlfriend came over she was suppose to be here at 7.. she was late of course and I let her fucking have it! (she is always late, last night just chapped my ass more than usual).. so we got into pretty much a knock down! This morning after about 3 or 4 hours of shitty sleep I am here.. thinking is it really worth it?? I am getting depressed.. I am very tired.. if i get to the point if I really think I am going to drink over this.. I will dip! If i drink all bets are off for me in life in general!  I will be doing much more than dipping. Dip will be the least of my worries if I start drinking again after 9 years.. I need some real experience..strength..  hope today.. not this "be a man horse shit!" I am a fucking man..  I have manned up showed up and fought more days in my life than you can imagine..

[mikegooch]

Is this adding to the thread.. I was told to stop making new topics just ad to old posts! So let me know if this is right. This is not the easiest OS to figure out lads.. That may be part of the plan! Anyway Day 5!!! Holy Shit! B-I-T-C-H!! THis was my hardest day so far.. I fell like i've been in a boxing match with the Champ all damn day! At every turn.. BAM!! Been pretty much a constant strggle! At no time did the thought of caving enter my head. The thought of getting my ass here to post some bullshit did though! That and atomic bombs..  truthfully I really did not want to dip! It stopped working a long time ago! and it it will never work again.. thanks for the QUIT today boys... you gave it to me..

[Mike B]

bigbamadan I dont know who Mike A is.


Mike B

[bigbamadan]

Gooch,

For the first few days I was pretty certain you had a sandy vagina an would not pass mustard here.

Well I was wrong.

You keep doing what you are doing. It aint easy. There is no quick fix. But I think it's pretty clear there is a boat on fire. Don't be a douche and run to it with a bucket of water and some nails.

You got this. Keep doing exactly what you are doing now (except for opening new threads in intro....just keep posting to your original). One day at a time it can be done.

Holler at any point when you need help/support. I guarantee there will be many a quitter there ready to help.


P.S. Mike B...does MikeA know you are here??

[Mike B]

I am with you gooch I am not giving up titties either.

[Ready]

I was just being.. there... I guess a live human being free on the earth!

Grab hold, never let go.

[mikegooch]

Before dark i was in the field looking at my cows with my dog Cash... I realized I was not freaking out over a dip! Wasn't chewing a wad of gum.. sucking on a blow pop a piece of candy.. no fake dip.. I was just being.. there... I guess a live human being free on the earth! I also realized that most of my life I have been addicted to something.. most times multiples of somethings.. The one constant has always been tobacco.. My dad let me get a pack of Work Horse when i was 6 years old.. at Christmas.. He thought I'd get sick and that's be the end of it.. I did get sick.. a lot.. but i kept on forcing it in there until I was hooked.. by 12 i am sure I was a full blown addict.. and have been addicted for the last 32 years.. tobacco was really the first and the last.. the real gateway drug into a lot of other shit too.. tobacco and tittys have been the main addictions for the past 9 years.. I don't give a damn what ya'll say.. I'm not giving up tits! Gooch

[Buddy Mac]

Thanks fellas.. Today it is!!

Nice Gooch, Check your inbox. Use my number anytime you need.

[mikegooch]

Thanks fellas.. Today it is!!

[pavetheway]

Keep rollin Gooch.......don't give up. Check your inbox (1).

[G]

I've burnt the ship today fellas... if you don't know that story say so and I'll post it.. Has to do with Napolean and a bunch of soldiers and them fighting their ass off to live.. O hell. I'll tell you now.. Nappy.. pulled his army up to an island.. unload the troops.. then he set the ship on fire..burnt it to a crisp right into the ocean!  He told his boys they were outnumbered 4 to 1.. and the only way off the island was to fight their way off the island!  Have you burnt your ship girls??  I told every body I knew today that I have quit dipping for good ( and meant it)..  Some of them has seen this over and over  over...  Not this time!  I AM QUIT!!  I love me some quittys!  Gooch

Burning the boat is a good thing indeed. However, at this point do not focus upon never dipping again. Your one and only goal at this point is to not dip today. Tomorrow morning you wake up and make your promise again. Then your only goal is to keep that promise.

Where you are now well it's going to be hard for a while. So hard that the concept of forever can start to put cracks in a new quit.

Today. That's all you need to worry about. Cause you sure as hell aint goin to make forever if you can't make today.

Yes, love the attitude, but it's okay to focus on quitting for today right now. In fact, it's probably better to only focus on what you can control....TODAY. There'll be plenty of time to wax philosophically about forever later.