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Offline Moondawggy

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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #30 on: February 01, 2012, 12:43:00 PM »
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Day 12. I don't use patches, I don't use gum. I don't use fake stuff. I use mints currently and had to quit Jerky because it was getting stuck in my fucked up gums.

I quit cold turkey. This is my 1st and only attempt at quitting.

I post roll, every day. It's getting better, but is it ok? fuck no.

I'm pissed the fuck off, but what you need to realize is that I've spent my whole life pissed off, so I know how to direct it. Focus it. I'm pissed that something exists like nicotine. I'm pissed at nicotine. I'm pissed that I can't think of being on my boat without thinking about dip or cigarettes, or a cigar, or whatever for the rest of my gd life because I'm an addict. I'm pissed that it even enters my fucking head when I have thoughts of fishing, hunting, recording, going to the beach, partying, walking the dog, what the fuck ever.

I swear to God, if someone says "focus on today, because tomorrow never comes" I'm going to puke. If tomorrow never comes, and every day is like today, then fuck today and tomorrow for that matter, whether she comes or not.

I can't even think right now so I'm cutting this off. Fuck nicotine. This is awful.
Quit your bitching. You did this to yourself. You deserve every miserable fucking second you are going through.

Man up and take it.

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This is what i'm talking about.

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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #29 on: February 01, 2012, 12:40:00 PM »
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Day 12. I don't use patches, I don't use gum. I don't use fake stuff. I use mints currently and had to quit Jerky because it was getting stuck in my fucked up gums.

I quit cold turkey. This is my 1st and only attempt at quitting.

I post roll, every day. It's getting better, but is it ok? fuck no.

I'm pissed the fuck off, but what you need to realize is that I've spent my whole life pissed off, so I know how to direct it. Focus it. I'm pissed that something exists like nicotine. I'm pissed at nicotine. I'm pissed that I can't think of being on my boat without thinking about dip or cigarettes, or a cigar, or whatever for the rest of my gd life because I'm an addict. I'm pissed that it even enters my fucking head when I have thoughts of fishing, hunting, recording, going to the beach, partying, walking the dog, what the fuck ever.

I swear to God, if someone says "focus on today, because tomorrow never comes" I'm going to puke. If tomorrow never comes, and every day is like today, then fuck today and tomorrow for that matter, whether she comes or not.

I can't even think right now so I'm cutting this off. Fuck nicotine. This is awful.
Quit your bitching. You did this to yourself. You deserve every miserable fucking second you are going through.

Man up and take it.

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What is your major malfunction?!?!?!?!

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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #28 on: February 01, 2012, 12:37:00 PM »
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I swear to God, if someone says "focus on today, because tomorrow never comes" I'm going to puke. If tomorrow never comes, and every day is like today, then fuck today and tomorrow for that matter, whether she comes or not.
Ahhh, here's your problem, dawggy. Every day is not like today! I can guarantee that down the road somewhere you will hit a day where you'll be hunting or fishing or recording or whatever and you will not think about dip. Somewhere down the road you will laugh in derision at the nic bitch because she no longer has a hold on you. But you can't get there unless you focus on today. Go ahead, puke! But that's the way it is.

What you're experiencing are the initial rages of quitting and that's a good sign. You're on your way. It's time to tighten your belt, grow some balls, and keep quitting.

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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #27 on: February 01, 2012, 12:16:00 PM »
Day 12. I don't use patches, I don't use gum. I don't use fake stuff. I use mints currently and had to quit Jerky because it was getting stuck in my fucked up gums.

I quit cold turkey. This is my 1st and only attempt at quitting.

I post roll, every day. It's getting better, but is it ok? fuck no.

I'm pissed the fuck off, but what you need to realize is that I've spent my whole life pissed off, so I know how to direct it. Focus it. I'm pissed that something exists like nicotine. I'm pissed at nicotine. I'm pissed that I can't think of being on my boat without thinking about dip or cigarettes, or a cigar, or whatever for the rest of my gd life because I'm an addict. I'm pissed that it even enters my fucking head when I have thoughts of fishing, hunting, recording, going to the beach, partying, walking the dog, what the fuck ever.

I swear to God, if someone says "focus on today, because tomorrow never comes" I'm going to puke. If tomorrow never comes, and every day is like today, then fuck today and tomorrow for that matter, whether she comes or not.

I can't even think right now so I'm cutting this off. Fuck nicotine. This is awful.
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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #26 on: January 31, 2012, 03:18:00 PM »
Day 11. Craves aren't as bad as they were, but my already short fuse is merely a fiber at this point.

Staying away from all open flame.

Rock at it.

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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #25 on: January 30, 2012, 12:39:00 PM »
Day 10, powered through this morning like it was nothing.

Set up a savings account to auto withdraw every Friday the amount I was spending on lip turd per week.

I call it "Dip Withdrawals."

It will be cool to watch that grow instead of wondering if cancer is growing in my gd face.

Rock on Quitters!

Special thanks to Coach Steve for enduring my late night nic fit Saturday night. I was literally out of my mind. HA.
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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #24 on: January 30, 2012, 10:29:00 AM »
Keep strong Moon! You are doing great......One day at a time.

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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #23 on: January 29, 2012, 07:37:00 PM »
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Day 8 was especially challenging. I didn't care for it at all.

Today, day 9, has been better. Got some mints, that seemed to help. Stayed busy, wondering what I'll spend the money I save on... probably a Martin... D 28 or something. Maybe a Neve 1073... who knows. Let's just get there.
Great job! :)

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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #22 on: January 29, 2012, 07:23:00 PM »
Great job moondawg...it is going to get even better!

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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #21 on: January 29, 2012, 07:07:00 PM »
Day 8 was especially challenging. I didn't care for it at all.

Today, day 9, has been better. Got some mints, that seemed to help. Stayed busy, wondering what I'll spend the money I save on... probably a Martin... D 28 or something. Maybe a Neve 1073... who knows. Let's just get there.
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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #20 on: January 28, 2012, 10:13:00 AM »
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8 days. Each passing day brings with it more strength to fight the craves.

I'm getting faaaaaaaaaaat.

Rock n roll.
Nice work Moonie. That's the spirit. You are getting strong. There will come a time when the crave will just reinforce that you are badass. You can do this.

The weight gain seems to happen to a lot of folks. There is no reason you can't fight this off. I know you are overcoming the pain of withdrawal both physically and mentally. Why not add some exercise to your arsenal? Get a crave? Go for a walk. Hit the gym. Hell, you can burn 400 to 800 calories an hour having sex. Do that. Do something to get the blood moving. Scrutinize that diet as well. Its so easy to jam chips or crappy snacks in your hole. Make the decision to make good decisions. Just like you did with quitting. Reinforce the great act of quitting by giving some additional respect to your body. Give it a healthy reboot.

PS. One more thing. The exercise and diet changes will also help your sleep. Getting good sleep helps keep us in a rational mind set. Allows us to continue to make sound decisions. And it feeds itself. You get enough sleep, the next day you have more energy and motivation to exercise. BOOM. Before you know it, a whole new pattern evolves. A solid healthy one.

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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #19 on: January 28, 2012, 10:00:00 AM »
8 days. Each passing day brings with it more strength to fight the craves.

I'm getting faaaaaaaaaaat.

Rock n roll.
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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #18 on: January 26, 2012, 04:13:00 PM »
Day 6 mother muchachos. Grizkill, Dippshit, Carpy, Tarp, Brotherofnomosko, Whitenite, Grinder, and everyone else that I've talked to over in chat... I'm glad to have met yall.

1 week tomorrow!
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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #17 on: January 25, 2012, 05:23:00 PM »
I have got you by 5 days, no worries it gets better each day. Stay strong today...

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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #16 on: January 25, 2012, 03:58:00 PM »
Day 5 and making some friends on the site. There are some great people here.

Thanks to all!
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