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Offline PMac

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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #15 on: January 25, 2012, 12:21:00 AM »
Embrace how bad it sucks to start a quit if for no other reason than you don't ever want to have to do it again. If that is the only thing that keeps you quit for the next few days or weeks then that is enough.


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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #14 on: January 24, 2012, 12:06:00 PM »
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Thanks guys, really. Today is day 4. I am posting roll and doing so has already at least diverted my first thought of the day. Instead of dip, I think of this place and the guys that post roll with me.

I will buy into these methods. I thought that after a few days, it would get easier. I see that it doesn't, and I'm glad that we are here for each other.

I'm proud of myself for making this decision. I will stay quit. Keep fucking yelling at me! FUCK DIP.

Congrats on 100 days man. Great work. I look forward to my 100 day post.
You're right! The first days of quitting suck; there's no other way to describe it. It is important that you remember these days, perhaps even keep a journal, to remind you of what it was like as you progress. You NEVER want to go back to feeling like this.

The neat thing is that you don't need to. Quit one day at a time, and even one moment at a time, and you will soon be celebrating and enjoying your freedom.

There's no turning back . . . .

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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #13 on: January 24, 2012, 11:57:00 AM »
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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #12 on: January 24, 2012, 11:38:00 AM »
Moondawggy-

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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #11 on: January 24, 2012, 10:48:00 AM »
Thanks guys, really. Today is day 4. I am posting roll and doing so has already at least diverted my first thought of the day. Instead of dip, I think of this place and the guys that post roll with me.

I will buy into these methods. I thought that after a few days, it would get easier. I see that it doesn't, and I'm glad that we are here for each other.

I'm proud of myself for making this decision. I will stay quit. Keep fucking yelling at me! FUCK DIP.

Congrats on 100 days man. Great work. I look forward to my 100 day post.
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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #10 on: January 24, 2012, 07:39:00 AM »
Great choice Moonie. Though a few things that I would suggest.

Like "Mick the Great" (grats on the hunnie bro) mentioned below the terms hope, wish, luck, try, cave are for candy asses. Set your path and then execute it. Be the man you want to be.

And like the others mentioned, those pleasant memories of finger banging Miss Wintergreen was bullshit. That shit was trying to kill you daily. You get that? Some fucker in a high rise was making a living off of packaging poison in a can. You were being lied to. Those pleasant memories were constructed to keep you paying for death. So leave those memories at the door. This is your fucking enemy. Our enemy. You are not alone.

Lastly, yes you can remove yourself from trigger situations. All of them? No. But start reinforcing the things you used to do when not using. Reinforce that those times are the real you and that's the fucker we want to pull away from the addict. Get some separation and those other times will start to get easier.

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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #9 on: January 23, 2012, 11:06:00 PM »
Dawg, I just posted 100 days today. When I joined this site I did it half ass as I was really on my own. As the days past and the more I read on this site, the more Kool Aid I drank, the more I bought into this. You need to read as much as you can on this site. Unless you are unemployed and surf the web all day, it will take you several weeks/months to read what you need to read, all the while the information you are reading will make you stronger in your quit. There will be many thoughts/temptations/cravings you will have. I still get them at 100 days...not nearly as many. You will see how everyone on this site has gone or is going through the same shit. We all did everything with a dip. Now, everything is new. I am glad to be quit with you. PM me with anything you need.

P.S. I am surprised you haven't be castrated for saying "I hope that I'm able to put this behihnd me". We do not hope here. We do or we don't. Those that stay...do.

PSS: This was just recently posted from Bean, a member for:

"500 days...HOLY SHIT that feels good to say!!! The real credit goes to the folks on this site. I owe my life to each one of you. Whether you are just starting out or if you were one of the vets when I was crawling the walls and not sleeping at night...my 500 days is attributable to you.

I was hopeless 500 days ago. I'd quit many times before...always failed. The ONLY thing I have done differently this time is to use this site...posting roll, learning about nic addiction from people who know and have been there and are beating it one day at a time.

So, if you're considering quitting - today is the day. You can do it. Take the first step. This site works!

If you're a newbie...keep fighting, it gets better. The fog will lift.

If you're a vet...stay strong and stay quit.

But most of all, no matter what you are, if you're on this site - THANK YOU! "


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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #8 on: January 23, 2012, 12:07:00 PM »
Quitting dip is one of the hardest things in life you'll ever do but it will be the most rewarding one. As you have seen in 3 days it will definitely be a wild ride but after day 3 the nicotine is gone from your body and its all a mind game from here. Stock up on stuff like chewing gum, sunflower seeds, mint dip... whatever to keep in your mouth instead of dip. Don't drink alcohol. You'll also probably gain some weight but don't worry about that. Most importantly stay connected here to the site. You have the will power inside of you to beat this bitch. You just need to focus on this quit and make it happen.
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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #7 on: January 23, 2012, 12:00:00 PM »
Do you know what else sucks? Cancer. Do you know what sucks more than that, dying.
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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #6 on: January 23, 2012, 11:58:00 AM »
Quote from: Leahy16
You can do this moomdawg. I must warn you though, the comment you made, "I don't want to quit, as I love it..." is a dangerous mindset. If you keep thinking that way you will convince yourself at some point, day 21 or day 50 or day 101, that you've "proved" you can quit and that you want to go back to the can for "a little while" or "just one more". That thinking will kill you.

You have to stop romanticizing nicotine. I'm guessing you've decided to quit for a number of reasons. Focus on those reasons: I'm tired of lying to myself and my family, I'm tired of being embarrassed, I'm tired of dip spit, wondering if I have enough dip, where's my can, kids spilling it, shit in my teeth, .....there's hundreds of reasons. Those reasons need to be stronger than the "I love it" comment or you are doomed.

We've all been there. We know what you're going through. We also know that you CAN do this. We do it every day.

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Good point, and well received.

Thanks for the reply.
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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #5 on: January 23, 2012, 11:47:00 AM »
Cool. I found it. Thanks!
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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #4 on: January 23, 2012, 11:44:00 AM »
You can do this moomdawg. I must warn you though, the comment you made, "I don't want to quit, as I love it..." is a dangerous mindset. If you keep thinking that way you will convince yourself at some point, day 21 or day 50 or day 101, that you've "proved" you can quit and that you want to go back to the can for "a little while" or "just one more". That thinking will kill you.

You have to stop romanticizing nicotine. I'm guessing you've decided to quit for a number of reasons. Focus on those reasons: I'm tired of lying to myself and my family, I'm tired of being embarrassed, I'm tired of dip spit, wondering if I have enough dip, where's my can, kids spilling it, shit in my teeth, .....there's hundreds of reasons. Those reasons need to be stronger than the "I love it" comment or you are doomed.

We've all been there. We know what you're going through. We also know that you CAN do this. We do it every day.

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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #3 on: January 23, 2012, 11:24:00 AM »
GREAT CHOICE. I hate to leave you with a link, but I've got to run. One of the moderators will send you a message to your Inbox (upper right corner) with instructions.

http://www.killthecan.org/community/welcome.asp

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Re: Hi, this sucks.
« Reply #2 on: January 23, 2012, 10:59:00 AM »
What is posting roll? Where do I do that? I want to be a part of this group.
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Hi, this sucks.
« on: January 23, 2012, 10:45:00 AM »
I came across this board a while ago when researching dip alternatives. I was under the assumption that I was more enamoured with the feeling, and the juice than I was addicted to nicotine. Oh holy crap was I wrong.

I decided to quit because I've been dipping since I was 13. I'm 31 now. I don't want to quit, as I love it, but facts are facts. If I was to set a goal to get cancer, how would I do it? I would make sure some sort of carcinogen was in constant contact with some soft tissue for a long period of time. Pretty much guaranteed results.

I'm currently on day 3 of a cold turkey stop. Day one was pretty rough. I was surprised at the tricks my brain would play on me. I was irritable, and in a haze that I can't really describe. Day two was slightly better, but not much. Day 3 is much better, but still... to be honest, I feel like I've lost a good friend or something. It's sort of like getting dumped! But you can't go get another girl in this scenario. It's like getting dumped, then neutered.

I suppose the hardest part of this is that you can't really remove yourself from things that trigger you to dip when you dip while doing every dang thing. I find myself looking forward to bedtime as when I'm asleep is the only time I don't want a dip.

The good news is that after days 1 and 2, it seems possible. Day one was not nice. I don't want to say it was hell or something. I've seen some poor souls come off of heroin and even alcohol that have it pretty rough. But there was a disconnect that was uncomfortable. I think that's a fair and accurate way to perspectively describe it. For those fearing day one, as I was for so long, it is possible.

I hope that I'm able to put this behihnd me. I'm glad to be here, and look forward to meeting some new friends on this board.

Skoal wintergreen, 1 can/day, 18 years.
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