Fuck. That seems to be the overall word that seems to circle around, and around, and around in my mind. It's there because I'm wrong and I've spent 2 days defending an idea-- a perspective that I thought was right in the beginning but seems after reading research, testimonials, postings, and responses on this site-- seems inexperienced. I've argued, thought, argued, fought, and argued and no one's stance on the matter ever changed. The scary thing about those who won't compromise their belief for a "better way", or a newer way is that they don't make excuses either. I figure that's a pretty good way to live. I also figure that this site is full of nicotine free, violently angry (sometimes) people who are trying to make a perpetual change in their life. One that wouldn't need to be made if dipping wasn't so damn convenient, and so damn temporarily effective. So, starting right now at 6:40 pm I'm nicotine free. No gum, no nothing. I AM sick of the excuses and you guys just sat there while I basically ripped into everything you've accomplished, everything you've gone through and just kept on. I guess this is my roll call for the day ( I still can't say I totally get how to do that yet) and another one will be in tomorrow morning around 8:30am). After roughly 10 years, 4 months and five pieces of nicotine gum I'm out.
---See you boys in the mornin'.