day 3, still hurt

[jrws]

Thanks for your post on the August group's board today. I appreciate hearing people say what doesn't always get through: that we each need help, we can not do it alone, and some of us are really serious about it.

Everything else is static - and sometimes you gotta risk adding a little more to call that out. I hope everyone reads what you said.

- Jaron

[Scowick65]

:)

[lhelms12]

Congrats Steve... what an accomplishment! Keep it up!

[Wedge]

Been a while since someone opened this door....but now it's time.


Congrats on 100 Steve.

[rgross298]

I am at war with these pricks that are profiting off tobacco.  They want addicts to give in.  Well fuck them and their terrorist organization.  I am at war and I choose freedom. 

Everyone's personal war is just that.  Thanks for listening to me and I apologize if I was out of line.  I just despise tobacco.  I really think it is a dirty, evil industry.

The Quit is strong with this one. Love the anger. Not a fucking chance of you going back.

Also, for those of you playing the home game, when you get into this mindset, you don't mind saying or thinking that you will NEVER have another dip again. There is no love left, only hatred.

This is where you need to be. Mthomas, it has been a pleasure watching your quit evolve. You are a badass quitter in my book.

LOVE THIS SHIT!!!!

Stay strong.

[Suck-It]

The whole notion of a trophy can has me really fucked up.  I would have quit a day earlier than I did but I still had half a can in my house...had to clean it out before I could quit.  I do not understand the thinking of a trophy can - seems really fucking stupid.  Someone please explain to me the thinking behind this one  'help'

I didn't really have a trophy can, but I did not plan my quit, I just woke up the morning of 3/24 and decided not to dip anymore. I still had 3/4 of a can that I kept around that day "just in case". After several hours of not dipping, I remembered this site that I had actually created an account on back in January. So I logged on and posted roll, made an intro post. I flushed that can later on, it might have been the next day, I can't actually remember.

Pretty much the same for me. Wasn't planning on quitting, but woke up on 3/23 and quit. Still had 1.5 tins in the kitchen so I threw them out.

Ok everyone calm down. Ill flush it. no big deal. I understand

Way to go Steve!

We all get a little excitable around here sometimes. But only because we love you. In a strictly non-gay way.

Speak for your "non-gay" self...
In all seriousness great job! The more bridges you can burn in your quit he better, and keeping that shit around is playing with fire.

'chew2' 'chew2' 'chew2'

Steve for what its worth....I read this and you made my day. I calmed the fuck down and am just glad one battle has another victory for the quit team. That nic cunt seemed to be waging war on me and quitters and it has pissed me off.

I keep getting direct mail coupons for Grizzly? I never signed up for anything. I chewed Skoal. Some how, some way, the marketers found me...even when I was in the closet and a ninja dipper.

She wont go away, but it grinds my gears that she is so persistent. Even quit the bitch finds me. My kids put the mailer on the fridge and thought I was dipping again.

When I'm not guilty and wrongly accused....Oh I want to fight! I am at war with these pricks that are profiting off tobacco. They want addicts to give in. Well fuck them and their terrorist organization. I am at war and I choose freedom.

Everyone's personal war is just that. Thanks for listening to me and I apologize if I was out of line. I just despise tobacco. I really think it is a dirty, evil industry. Still when you threw the can out, I felt a Uintiy in our resolve so thank you for doing that.

Steve - Day 53-55 if I had a trophy can laying around I might have cracked it open. Tough ass craves at day 55 and thank God I have this site to keep me accountable. My point is, you will encounter some tough times later on. Early it is physically miserable but the quit is somewhat exciting and a new challenge. Later, the craves are tough and the funk's are miserable. Embrace the Suck will get you through. Remember that you caused this and it is you who will have to push through it. You can do it and real glad to hear you threw away that trophy can. Get rid of every temptation that is close to you because there will definitely be times when your resolve will be seriously challenged. When you think your quit is going good and it is easy sailing - bam, you are nailed with some serious craves. Be ready for the Funk's!!!

[Mthomas3824]

The whole notion of a trophy can has me really fucked up.  I would have quit a day earlier than I did but I still had half a can in my house...had to clean it out before I could quit.  I do not understand the thinking of a trophy can - seems really fucking stupid.  Someone please explain to me the thinking behind this one  'help'

I didn't really have a trophy can, but I did not plan my quit, I just woke up the morning of 3/24 and decided not to dip anymore. I still had 3/4 of a can that I kept around that day "just in case". After several hours of not dipping, I remembered this site that I had actually created an account on back in January. So I logged on and posted roll, made an intro post. I flushed that can later on, it might have been the next day, I can't actually remember.

Pretty much the same for me. Wasn't planning on quitting, but woke up on 3/23 and quit. Still had 1.5 tins in the kitchen so I threw them out.

Ok everyone calm down. Ill flush it. no big deal. I understand

Way to go Steve!

We all get a little excitable around here sometimes. But only because we love you. In a strictly non-gay way.

Speak for your "non-gay" self...
In all seriousness great job! The more bridges you can burn in your quit he better, and keeping that shit around is playing with fire.

'chew2' 'chew2' 'chew2'

Steve for what its worth....I read this and you made my day. I calmed the fuck down and am just glad one battle has another victory for the quit team. That nic cunt seemed to be waging war on me and quitters and it has pissed me off.

I keep getting direct mail coupons for Grizzly? I never signed up for anything. I chewed Skoal. Some how, some way, the marketers found me...even when I was in the closet and a ninja dipper.

She wont go away, but it grinds my gears that she is so persistent. Even quit the bitch finds me. My kids put the mailer on the fridge and thought I was dipping again.

When I'm not guilty and wrongly accused....Oh I want to fight! I am at war with these pricks that are profiting off tobacco. They want addicts to give in. Well fuck them and their terrorist organization. I am at war and I choose freedom.

Everyone's personal war is just that. Thanks for listening to me and I apologize if I was out of line. I just despise tobacco. I really think it is a dirty, evil industry. Still when you threw the can out, I felt a Uintiy in our resolve so thank you for doing that.

[luby]

The whole notion of a trophy can has me really fucked up.  I would have quit a day earlier than I did but I still had half a can in my house...had to clean it out before I could quit.  I do not understand the thinking of a trophy can - seems really fucking stupid.  Someone please explain to me the thinking behind this one  'help'

I didn't really have a trophy can, but I did not plan my quit, I just woke up the morning of 3/24 and decided not to dip anymore. I still had 3/4 of a can that I kept around that day "just in case". After several hours of not dipping, I remembered this site that I had actually created an account on back in January. So I logged on and posted roll, made an intro post. I flushed that can later on, it might have been the next day, I can't actually remember.

Pretty much the same for me. Wasn't planning on quitting, but woke up on 3/23 and quit. Still had 1.5 tins in the kitchen so I threw them out.

Ok everyone calm down. Ill flush it. no big deal. I understand

Way to go Steve!

We all get a little excitable around here sometimes. But only because we love you. In a strictly non-gay way.

Speak for your "non-gay" self...
In all seriousness great job! The more bridges you can burn in your quit he better, and keeping that shit around is playing with fire.

[rangy96]

The whole notion of a trophy can has me really fucked up.  I would have quit a day earlier than I did but I still had half a can in my house...had to clean it out before I could quit.  I do not understand the thinking of a trophy can - seems really fucking stupid.  Someone please explain to me the thinking behind this one  'help'

I didn't really have a trophy can, but I did not plan my quit, I just woke up the morning of 3/24 and decided not to dip anymore. I still had 3/4 of a can that I kept around that day "just in case". After several hours of not dipping, I remembered this site that I had actually created an account on back in January. So I logged on and posted roll, made an intro post. I flushed that can later on, it might have been the next day, I can't actually remember.

Pretty much the same for me. Wasn't planning on quitting, but woke up on 3/23 and quit. Still had 1.5 tins in the kitchen so I threw them out.

Ok everyone calm down. Ill flush it. no big deal. I understand

Way to go Steve!

We all get a little excitable around here sometimes. But only because we love you. In a strictly non-gay way.

[steve8691]

The whole notion of a trophy can has me really fucked up.  I would have quit a day earlier than I did but I still had half a can in my house...had to clean it out before I could quit.  I do not understand the thinking of a trophy can - seems really fucking stupid.  Someone please explain to me the thinking behind this one  'help'

I didn't really have a trophy can, but I did not plan my quit, I just woke up the morning of 3/24 and decided not to dip anymore. I still had 3/4 of a can that I kept around that day "just in case". After several hours of not dipping, I remembered this site that I had actually created an account on back in January. So I logged on and posted roll, made an intro post. I flushed that can later on, it might have been the next day, I can't actually remember.

Pretty much the same for me. Wasn't planning on quitting, but woke up on 3/23 and quit. Still had 1.5 tins in the kitchen so I threw them out.

Ok everyone calm down. Ill flush it. no big deal. I understand

[carumba10]

The whole notion of a trophy can has me really fucked up.  I would have quit a day earlier than I did but I still had half a can in my house...had to clean it out before I could quit.  I do not understand the thinking of a trophy can - seems really fucking stupid.  Someone please explain to me the thinking behind this one  'help'

I didn't really have a trophy can, but I did not plan my quit, I just woke up the morning of 3/24 and decided not to dip anymore. I still had 3/4 of a can that I kept around that day "just in case". After several hours of not dipping, I remembered this site that I had actually created an account on back in January. So I logged on and posted roll, made an intro post. I flushed that can later on, it might have been the next day, I can't actually remember.

Pretty much the same for me. Wasn't planning on quitting, but woke up on 3/23 and quit. Still had 1.5 tins in the kitchen so I threw them out.

[Kubrick]

The whole notion of a trophy can has me really fucked up. I would have quit a day earlier than I did but I still had half a can in my house...had to clean it out before I could quit. I do not understand the thinking of a trophy can - seems really fucking stupid. Someone please explain to me the thinking behind this one 'help'

I didn't really have a trophy can, but I did not plan my quit, I just woke up the morning of 3/24 and decided not to dip anymore. I still had 3/4 of a can that I kept around that day "just in case". After several hours of not dipping, I remembered this site that I had actually created an account on back in January. So I logged on and posted roll, made an intro post. I flushed that can later on, it might have been the next day, I can't actually remember.

[Suck-It]

The whole notion of a trophy can has me really fucked up. I would have quit a day earlier than I did but I still had half a can in my house...had to clean it out before I could quit. I do not understand the thinking of a trophy can - seems really fucking stupid. Someone please explain to me the thinking behind this one 'help'

[jonathanrivers]

quit 3-26 afte 38+ years of dipping. I hurt. Cravings are terrible.
dont know if the Wellbutrin is working or not. every thought is interupted with taking a dip..  I know I can beat this. I have a new , unopened can sitting on my dresser, but i'm not going to open it.  I am going to quit, but the effects are really hurting.

EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US has been exactly where you are Steve....yeh it sucks but you'll get through it....There's 350 pound muscle bound rednecks here and 110 pound soaking wet weaklings here that have ALL BEAT it...You are no different. It is tough as hell but YOU ARE TOUGH AS HELL....Get through the 3 days at all costs.

One thing is certain, as soon as you read this, FLUSH THAT SHIT....DO IT NOW!! It is a bitch assed pussy move keeping that unopened can around.

The very next dip you take is the one that will stimulate a cell in your mouth that turns cancerous. It IS the next one, no doubt about it. ANd here is the result

http://www.outdoortexan.com/images/2004 ... slice1.jpg
http://www.outdoortexan.com/images/2004-11-21/flap2.jpg
http://www.outdoortexan.com/images/2004-11-21/scar.jpg

Sorry guys, never went back to the introductions until now. Didnt throw the can away yet. Havent touched it either. Im doing fine, thanks for caring about me. One day ill take the can outside and put a bullet through it. For me, its a "thing" that I am gonna beat. 24 days so far and getting better everyday. dont think of snuff as often as i used too. I chew lots of seeds and some gum every now and then. being around other dippers last weekend was not as tempting as i thought it was going to be. I feael like i have it licked but ill stick with the program and keep posting roll. Thanks for your support!!!

Steve,

First of all, I love the name. More importantly though, you need to get it in your head that you do not have this "licked". At 269 days I do not have this addiction "licked" and the guys with over 1,000 days are not cured.

You are an addict. You were an addict when you chewed and you are an addict now that you are quit. The day you are not an addict is the day you are being buried in the ground. None of us can be cured from our addiction. I do not say this to scare you. This addiction is much easier to deal with now compared to my first month quit. But I know that I can not forget that I am an addict and I know that I will always be one. That is why I can never have "just one".

And lastly, you need to get rid of the can immeaditly. If putting a bullet through the can will give you satisfaction, then do it!. But every moment you have that can by your side, will make it that much easier to cave. Quitting is hard. Dont make it any harder then it has to be.

As your quit brother I have to give you the tough love here.

YOU DUMB SON OF A BITCH! 'bang head'

IF YOU CHEATED ON YOUR WIFE, WOULD YOU BRING YOUR MISTRESS HOME AND HAVE HER COOKING IN THE KITCHEN? WOULD YOU TELL YOUR WIFE THAT HAVING HER HERE SHOWS HER HOW STRONG AND COMMITTED YOU ARE?

Wisdom is using your head and avoiding the shit. I promise you, the nic bitch will find you on her own to put you to the test. It isn't brave or tough to put her on your dresser for you to look at.

I don't glamorize tobacco, I won't entertain tobacco and I sure as hell wouldn't willingly invite the very thing that caused so many lies and deception into my house.

That fucking can is my enemy. As my quit brother and for you to keep your promise, why would you dance with the devil? The devil will come knocking. When evil asks you to dance, a tough quitter knocks the nic bitch out! End of story. A tough quitter never, ever, would entertain their addiction with an unopened can on their dresser.

Please, I beg you. Get your head in the game and be quit. You already have a plan to cave if you have an unopened can on your dresser. Do not glamorize the enemy. It is poison and shouldn't be around you.

When you post tomorrow, let me know you got rid of that fucking can by adding, "I don't dance with the devil. I am quit"

If you insist on having that unopened can. You might as well stuff that wellbutrin up your ass because you aren't going to be quit for long.

I'm really a nice guy, but anyone who glamorizes or entertains tobacco like this....well, I lose my cool and I will close by saying...Wise up or lick my nuts because I am quit today and I fucking will post roll tomorrow!!!!

Steve we need you and get your head in the game. You are making this more difficult. Be a man and get rid of that can!!!!!!

Well said, brother.

Steve, you're not the first guy who's waltzed in here with the trophy can. And you certainly won't be the last. But the whole logic behind having it is counterintuitive, and honestly fucked up.

My bet is that most of the folks who want to cling to that can cave quicker than others, on average.

There is absolutely no reason to have that can. None at all. Zilch. Get rid of it.

[Mthomas3824]

quit 3-26 afte 38+ years of dipping. I hurt. Cravings are terrible.
dont know if the Wellbutrin is working or not. every thought is interupted with taking a dip..  I know I can beat this. I have a new , unopened can sitting on my dresser, but i'm not going to open it.  I am going to quit, but the effects are really hurting.

EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US has been exactly where you are Steve....yeh it sucks but you'll get through it....There's 350 pound muscle bound rednecks here and 110 pound soaking wet weaklings here that have ALL BEAT it...You are no different. It is tough as hell but YOU ARE TOUGH AS HELL....Get through the 3 days at all costs.

One thing is certain, as soon as you read this, FLUSH THAT SHIT....DO IT NOW!! It is a bitch assed pussy move keeping that unopened can around.

The very next dip you take is the one that will stimulate a cell in your mouth that turns cancerous. It IS the next one, no doubt about it. ANd here is the result

http://www.outdoortexan.com/images/2004 ... slice1.jpg
http://www.outdoortexan.com/images/2004-11-21/flap2.jpg
http://www.outdoortexan.com/images/2004-11-21/scar.jpg

Sorry guys, never went back to the introductions until now. Didnt throw the can away yet. Havent touched it either. Im doing fine, thanks for caring about me. One day ill take the can outside and put a bullet through it. For me, its a "thing" that I am gonna beat. 24 days so far and getting better everyday. dont think of snuff as often as i used too. I chew lots of seeds and some gum every now and then. being around other dippers last weekend was not as tempting as i thought it was going to be. I feael like i have it licked but ill stick with the program and keep posting roll. Thanks for your support!!!

Steve,

First of all, I love the name. More importantly though, you need to get it in your head that you do not have this "licked". At 269 days I do not have this addiction "licked" and the guys with over 1,000 days are not cured.

You are an addict. You were an addict when you chewed and you are an addict now that you are quit. The day you are not an addict is the day you are being buried in the ground. None of us can be cured from our addiction. I do not say this to scare you. This addiction is much easier to deal with now compared to my first month quit. But I know that I can not forget that I am an addict and I know that I will always be one. That is why I can never have "just one".

And lastly, you need to get rid of the can immeaditly. If putting a bullet through the can will give you satisfaction, then do it!. But every moment you have that can by your side, will make it that much easier to cave. Quitting is hard. Dont make it any harder then it has to be.

As your quit brother I have to give you the tough love here.

YOU DUMB SON OF A BITCH! 'bang head'

IF YOU CHEATED ON YOUR WIFE, WOULD YOU BRING YOUR MISTRESS HOME AND HAVE HER COOKING IN THE KITCHEN? WOULD YOU TELL YOUR WIFE THAT HAVING HER HERE SHOWS HER HOW STRONG AND COMMITTED YOU ARE?

Wisdom is using your head and avoiding the shit. I promise you, the nic bitch will find you on her own to put you to the test. It isn't brave or tough to put her on your dresser for you to look at.

I don't glamorize tobacco, I won't entertain tobacco and I sure as hell wouldn't willingly invite the very thing that caused so many lies and deception into my house.

That fucking can is my enemy. As my quit brother and for you to keep your promise, why would you dance with the devil? The devil will come knocking. When evil asks you to dance, a tough quitter knocks the nic bitch out! End of story. A tough quitter never, ever, would entertain their addiction with an unopened can on their dresser.

Please, I beg you. Get your head in the game and be quit. You already have a plan to cave if you have an unopened can on your dresser. Do not glamorize the enemy. It is poison and shouldn't be around you.

When you post tomorrow, let me know you got rid of that fucking can by adding, "I don't dance with the devil. I am quit"

If you insist on having that unopened can. You might as well stuff that wellbutrin up your ass because you aren't going to be quit for long.

I'm really a nice guy, but anyone who glamorizes or entertains tobacco like this....well, I lose my cool and I will close by saying...Wise up or lick my nuts because I am quit today and I fucking will post roll tomorrow!!!!

Steve we need you and get your head in the game. You are making this more difficult. Be a man and get rid of that can!!!!!!