Welcome sir. Wise choice joining this site. Well done.
I too danced/dance with the ugly whore known as anxiety. It sucks. One of the things that perpetuates it is idle time or thoughts.
May I suggest you read every intro, hof speech, words of wisdom, quitter stories, etc on this site. It will not only keep your mind occupied but will help understand the quit process and maybe even inspire you and give you added hope.
Or hop in chat. Their are some crazy sob's in there that will not only keep you entertained and your mind busy, but will answer any questions you might have....about ANYTHING.
You have to keep moving with anxiety. Going for a walk was a good idea. Sitting around doing nothing, will drive you nuts.
I know you said you are between jobs and have no insurance but if things REALLY get bad you need to a doctor. They will work with you if you don't have insurance. Gotta love that about doctors...ass rape the insurance companies, but if you have no insurance, they will work with you.
Bottom line us your missing nothing by quitting this crap. Dip fills no voids in your life, it only creates them. You are giving up NOTHING by quitting. You are freeing yourself from one of the most disgusting addictions on the planet.
You are smart. You are going to quit this shit. Dumb people don't do that. They keep poisioning themselves and say shit like, "we all got to die of something" or "hey , I could get hit by a bus tomorrow". I used to say shit like that to justify my addiction. I could get hit by a bus tomorrow...how many people do you know that were killed by getting hit by a bus? Besides that, at an early age I learned to look both ways before I crossed the street.
Enough of the lies and addict rationalization. Its time to grow up. Time to take your freedom back, time to walk the earth the way God intended, and it wasnt dependent on a can of posion weeds jammed in your lip.
Its time to come home. The ride will be bumpy but we are here to help you navigate it. Come to us when times get tough, tell us when you've had a bad day, tell us when youve beaten a big crave, tell us when you've had a great day. Tell us anything.
We care and we want to see you succeed. Pm me anytime you need anything. I'm on call 24/7/365.
Peace