I'm a 24 year old white male from a remote village in Ghana...Just kidding, I'm from Virginia. I've been dipping/smoking for a long time, despite the young age. Some of my most cherished, early memories are of me and my cousins stealing cigs from our entire family. At 13 or 14, I was smoking around a half pack a day and occasionally dipping, when I could get it. At around 15 I started dipping quite a bit (got my supply line worked out by then, heh), and loved every minute of it. After I started it didn't take long before I was dipping pretty much consantly. For the last few years, I've had a dip in pretty much anytime I wasn't asleep or eating.
But anyway, I threw around the idea of quitting the last few days before I quit, due to my mom having her second round of chemo. I can't say that I really ever decided to quit, though. The idea interested me, but I never committed. However, on the 29th I found myself cutting back and buying seeds, etc in preparation to stop dipping, which caught me off guard haha. It's almost like someone decided to quit for me already. I guess you can say I technically stopped that night, because I refused to take that last dip of the night at 7pm, instead I just rode it out. I woke up the next morning on the 30th with no intention of getting another dip. And I haven't. I have tried to quit before and I never made it very long. This time, I feel like it's already beaten. I know I will not fail and let myself down this time.
So now I'm on the third day at ex dipper status. My cravings continue to decrease. My oral fixation, or whatever you want to call it, is still driving me a little crazy. I thought I was going to OD on sunflower seeds the other day. But, it's getting better. My number one issue is that I'm absolutely exhausted all the time now. I'm sleeping all the time. I don't know what the deal is with that. I'm hoping that it will ease up and I'll get over this fatigue. I have to pull 72hrs at work from Mon-Sun, so I don't have time for too much of it 'help'
But, it's the beginning of day 3 without dip and I'm starting to get pretty excited about being over this thing. I can see my life won't be completely ruined without a dip in my lip :o . Who would've thought..
By the way, this site has been a big help. I've been lurking on here for the past few days and I believe that's been a big factor in this transition. Also, thanks to CBird65 for taking the time to PM me some info and get me to start posting roll.