Woooow
1,406 today.
I relish typing that comma every day. And, unlike some, I will ALWAYS type that comma because I fecking earned that shit!
Something funny... even +1000 your Quit and your mind keeps evolving into this new you. It's amazing and it further shows me just how much I was owned by nicotine.
So, right around 1,000, I thought I'd revisit the whole idea of being involved here. Not log on daily... post roll occasionally... fade out a bit and... enjoy being Quit. I earned it right? 1,000 days and 100% roll gave me the right to decide I could relax a bit, right? Well... sure. I'm a big boy. I can do what I want.
But...
Left to my own devices, for 25 years I stuffed my face full of tobacco all day long, every day. To the tune of 2 cans a day the last 10 years or so.
My track record is shit.
So... who the hell cares if I end up posting roll the rest of my life? Do I need it?... No. Not really, but that 15-20 seconds it takes to do it, is an easy, and stark, reminder of how deep I was trapped. Never again, man. I thought it was a burden for awhile but now... I see it for what it is... freedom. Every day I post roll is another day I crush my addiction. This place doesn't make me "still think about chew". No. Hell no. I owned that I was Quit from day 1. At this point... I almost never think about a dip. Days/weeks go by. No joke. This place is such a part of life now and that's ok. It helped me to find freedom. It works. Why the hell would I fuck that up by fading off?
Again... my track record is shit.
1,400 days vs 25 years... my Quit isn't close to even. So... I'll stay.
And post roll.
