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Offline haas311

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Re: I have had enough
« Reply #16 on: July 14, 2011, 07:51:00 PM »
Correction, I meant after 10 days.
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Re: I have had enough
« Reply #15 on: July 14, 2011, 07:31:00 PM »
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It is amazing how much just writing on here calms me down. I have had a very rough day and can't wait to lay my head down and sleep. I am having very bad cravings right now but I am hanging in. The amazing thing to me is that I only used after work, when I got home and sometimes before I went to sleep. I never thought it would be this bad after 20 days, but that's probably because I always used after a few days.
Here something to read. Keep going. You are doing it. The nic bitch knows you mean business and boy is she pissed because you are winning.

http://www.killthecan.org/robs/effects2.asp
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Re: I have had enough
« Reply #14 on: July 14, 2011, 07:11:00 PM »
It is amazing how much just writing on here calms me down. I have had a very rough day and can't wait to lay my head down and sleep. I am having very bad cravings right now but I am hanging in. The amazing thing to me is that I only used after work, when I got home and sometimes before I went to sleep. I never thought it would be this bad after 20 days, but that's probably because I always used after a few days.
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Re: I have had enough
« Reply #13 on: July 14, 2011, 06:18:00 PM »
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I guess I am an addict but I am quit. After my last post, I started getting bad symptoms after fighting to put my son to sleep. My wife got up and took over and i went outside thinking that I can't even think straight and I have very bad temper. I started driving and past my usual store. I didn't stop and just came back home and got back on here.
Well done, you heard the Sirens but you chose not to listen. Glad to be quit with you
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Re: I have had enough
« Reply #12 on: July 14, 2011, 05:41:00 PM »
Haas: Welcome aboard, glad to see you made the right decision to kick the nic bitch addiction! proud to be quit with you today. nico
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Re: I have had enough
« Reply #11 on: July 14, 2011, 12:59:00 PM »
I am glad you are here. Lets break this addiction 1 day at a time. You can count on me if you need help. Just PM me.
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Re: I have had enough
« Reply #10 on: July 14, 2011, 10:18:00 AM »
Haas - good to see you post day 10, your second roll post. Stay close here and stay quit for today only. Live chat can save you, no more late night drives. Chat instead.
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Offline dchogs

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Re: I have had enough
« Reply #9 on: July 14, 2011, 10:01:00 AM »
i actually kept a tin in my medicine cabinet for the first 2 weeks of my quit.

an empty, washed out tin of blue grizz.

i wanted that tangible reminder of my old slave-driver. i needed to say "fuck you" to something real. it was an important part of my early quit... it helped channel my rage.

when i threw it out, it was less important to me than the toenail clippings i threw on top of it.

welcome to the quit, big haas. stay close to this site. it's saved many a man from the darkness of temptation. i know it has saved me. read everything you find here. personally, i read one HOF speech (minimum, sometimes i can't help but read 2-3) a day during lunch.

make sure you're posting roll every day. EVERY DAY. don't take a day off, don't forget, don't skip it cuz it's inconvenient. you would have run through walls if you ran out of dip, so you need to run through walls to post roll. no matter what. posting roll is your promise not to use nic in any form for that day. as such, you need to make that promise as early as you fucking can. it's not a status report that you post after you successfully made it... is your WORD that you'll sack up and show the nic bitch who's boss for the day.

get phone numbers from fellow october quitters and from vets. if you can't get online, text your roll to someone else to post for you. if you're getting a bad crave, call someone. this place is an awesome quit tool, but you've got to have the balls to use it. give your number away too. it makes you accountable, so if you miss roll, people will be able to find you.

post on the site. it's not 100%, but generally the more posts you see someone have, the stronger the quit. the more you post, the more you put yourself out there, the more accountable you are. you will not want to let people down. as stupid as that sounds (to others, not to me), my august quitheads have kept me honest and true without knowing it. the thought of letting them down kills me. i know because i almost cried a week ago when i had my first dip/cave dream. even when i figured it out, i felt like shit for the rest of the day.... a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach that i'd fucked up.

so there you go. it's on you now. grab those peas you call balls, post roll every day, and what those gonads grow into bad ass motherfucking two ton testes.

i'm here if you need me. your phone number gets mine. how accountable do you want to make yourself?
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Re: I have had enough
« Reply #8 on: July 14, 2011, 12:41:00 AM »
Haas

Ever wonder how something so seemingly harmless as that little copper headed fuck bucket of cancer weed could make you feel so bad when you try to stop using it? Nicotine is not only more addictive than heroin. It is ounce for ounce more toxic than Cobra venom. I shit you not. You have been happily sucking down one of the most lethal substances in the world, and paying for it with your cash and your health. Get angry Haas- I mean junk yard dog angry, your fighting for your life. Your fighting for the right to be a parent to your boy. Your earning back your life one minute at a time. My guess is your hitting a lil bitty rough patch that occurs sometime between day 10 and day 14. Go read the 2 week weakness by Fran Pro in the cancer and quitters section. It'll pass Haas. If I can do it so can you

Start reading, the more you know, the easier this gets. Start with this

http://www.killthecan.org/facts/jennykern.asp

http://www.caringbridge.org/mn/tomkern/
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Re: I have had enough
« Reply #7 on: July 13, 2011, 11:23:00 PM »
The fog will pass, but it sucks right now. Relish the fact that you will never have to feel this again, unless you cave. Then you can try again...in 3 years.

Head over to live chat and announce that you are new and struggling. Then watch...
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Offline haas311

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Re: I have had enough
« Reply #6 on: July 13, 2011, 11:17:00 PM »
I guess I am an addict but I am quit. After my last post, I started getting bad symptoms after fighting to put my son to sleep. My wife got up and took over and i went outside thinking that I can't even think straight and I have very bad temper. I started driving and past my usual store. I didn't stop and just came back home and got back on here.
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Re: I have had enough
« Reply #5 on: July 13, 2011, 10:20:00 PM »
Congrats on making it thus far haas. The first few days are the worst, and now that you're past them you won't ever have to go through that again. Just take things one day at a time. Post your promise to be nicotine free first thing in the morning, keep that promise the rest of the day, and repeat tomorrow.

Like others have hinted, you're not trying to break a habit, you're breaking an addiction. Big difference! Also, you're not TRYING to quit, you ARE quit. When you try to do something, it means you're already resigned to the fact that you might fail. That's a tell tale sign that you're an addict! Next thing you know, you'll be quit for a few weeks, then think some happy thoughts about a time you had a big chaw stuffed in your face and think that just one won't hurt. Bing bang boom, you're right back at it.

Read as much as you can here. In particular, pay attention to the stories of people that have caved. There are guys that have been quit for years, and then went right back to full on addict after "just one." These stories are written to help people like you and me to learn from their mistakes!
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Re: I have had enough
« Reply #4 on: July 13, 2011, 10:08:00 PM »
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Hi there Haas,

I got a few questions while I'm here:

1. Do you feel you have a habit or that possibly you may be an addict?

2. Why did you hold on to that tin for so long after you had decided to quit?

3. Are you a man of your word?

4. Will you embrace our program during the "suck" of nicotine cessation?

I look forward to your timely response.

Sincerely,

Souliman
1. Do you feel you have a habit or that possibly you may be an addict? I am an addict

2. Why did you hold on to that tin for so long after you had decided to quit? I did not hold on to it, I tossed it right away.

3. Are you a man of your word? Yes

4. Will you embrace our program during the "suck" of nicotine cessation? Yes
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Re: I have had enough
« Reply #3 on: July 13, 2011, 09:27:00 PM »
Congratulations on your 9 days of freedom, haas. I’m glad you found the site because guess what, you’re not alone anymore. Go over and post roll in the October group with all the other guys that are right where you’re at. Promise them that you won’t dip for the rest of the day and then don’t dip. Wake up tomorrow and do the same thing again. You are already on day 9 of your quit, and soon you are going to be turing a corner and realizing how doable this whole process is. And one more thing, haas, you aren’t “in the middle of trying to quit.” You are quit. Good to be quit with you.

Correction: You already did post roll. NICE.
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Re: I have had enough
« Reply #2 on: July 13, 2011, 09:08:00 PM »
Hi there Haas,

I got a few questions while I'm here:

1. Do you feel you have a habit or that possibly you may be an addict?

2. Why did you hold on to that tin for so long after you had decided to quit?

3. Are you a man of your word?

4. Will you embrace our program during the "suck" of nicotine cessation?

I look forward to your timely response.

Sincerely,

Souliman
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