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Re: Awkwood quits, again, for the last time.
« Reply #33 on: January 25, 2015, 12:51:00 PM »
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Checking up on you my brother, how's going?
Doing great brother! Thanks for checking on me. Work has been kicking my ass and so has life but my quit is strong! The two week rewind was a little rough but I can honestly say now, that for the first time in my life, I actually laugh at my cravings and triggers. It amazes me how deep this nicbitch had her claws in me and how hard she fights to keep it that way. I'm pretty clear of the fog now and I think hitting the gym regularly has been a big help with that. I still have the dip dreams but am sleeping a lot better. The dreams aren't as profound as the other one I posted about. These seem to glorify the act of dipping but it's too late. Between my drive to quit, you guys, and the impact that other dream had on me... I'm unstoppable and it feels amazing! Am I invincible? No. Becoming complacent? No. There is a huge difference between where I was and where I am now but I still have a long way to go. The way I'm looking at it is I have roughly 5,475 days of avid use to make up for. Today is day 16. I'm proud of my two week accomplishment but as you can see I'm not finished yet, and I never will be!

I QUIT all day, EDD, with all of you! Now let's go smack that nicbitch around!! 'bangin'

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Re: Awkwood quits, again, for the last time.
« Reply #32 on: January 25, 2015, 12:29:00 PM »
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"I can smell the dip in your mouth" — just sat here for five minutes thinking about how I never want to hear that. Great intro thread Awkwood. Had a shitty day and came on here looking for wisdom — I remember now that KTC and quitters can't solve all my problems, but they can keep me quit, which at the core is the most important thing.

Quit with you today, and Every Damn Day!
That's funny! I always thought my wife was being dramatic when she would plug her nose in the car when we were driving together. Now I can smell that shit from a mile away. She was right as usual and I was a selfish ass. Glad that over for us!
No joke, I was in the grocery store a few months back and I started smelling that shit. tracked it down to a man in his 50s the next row over from me. I just stared at his ugly ass for a second and turned and walked away. The smell from that stuff is powerful and raunchy. Donkey cock drip comes to mind. Stay quit Awkwood and I quit with you.

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It's amazing how pungent that crap really is. To think of all the times I tried to secretly dip next to someone and thought I was getting away with it. It's equivalent to shitting your pants and thinking no one will notice.

At the risk of sounding like a madman, I think KTC should make awareness/business cards that we can order. That way we can hand them out to our fellow addicts. I've tried convincing guys at work to log on and check the site out but they're just not ready yet. I figure they could put the card in their wallet and someday down the road have an "aha!" moment when they rediscover it.

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Re: Awkwood quits, again, for the last time.
« Reply #31 on: January 23, 2015, 10:24:00 PM »
Checking up on you my brother, how's going?
Tobacco is so addictive it took me a year after a massive heart attack, in which doctor confirmed caused from dipping to finally put a lid on the bitch! ODAAT EDD

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Re: Awkwood quits, again, for the last time.
« Reply #30 on: January 23, 2015, 05:40:00 AM »
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"I can smell the dip in your mouth" — just sat here for five minutes thinking about how I never want to hear that. Great intro thread Awkwood. Had a shitty day and came on here looking for wisdom — I remember now that KTC and quitters can't solve all my problems, but they can keep me quit, which at the core is the most important thing.

Quit with you today, and Every Damn Day!
That's funny! I always thought my wife was being dramatic when she would plug her nose in the car when we were driving together. Now I can smell that shit from a mile away. She was right as usual and I was a selfish ass. Glad that over for us!
No joke, I was in the grocery store a few months back and I started smelling that shit. tracked it down to a man in his 50s the next row over from me. I just stared at his ugly ass for a second and turned and walked away. The smell from that stuff is powerful and raunchy. Donkey cock drip comes to mind. Stay quit Awkwood and I quit with you.

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Re: Awkwood quits, again, for the last time.
« Reply #29 on: January 22, 2015, 02:43:00 PM »
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"I can smell the dip in your mouth" — just sat here for five minutes thinking about how I never want to hear that. Great intro thread Awkwood. Had a shitty day and came on here looking for wisdom — I remember now that KTC and quitters can't solve all my problems, but they can keep me quit, which at the core is the most important thing.

Quit with you today, and Every Damn Day!
That's funny! I always thought my wife was being dramatic when she would plug her nose in the car when we were driving together. Now I can smell that shit from a mile away. She was right as usual and I was a selfish ass. Glad that over for us!

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Re: Awkwood quits, again, for the last time.
« Reply #28 on: January 21, 2015, 10:28:00 PM »
"I can smell the dip in your mouth" — just sat here for five minutes thinking about how I never want to hear that. Great intro thread Awkwood. Had a shitty day and came on here looking for wisdom — I remember now that KTC and quitters can't solve all my problems, but they can keep me quit, which at the core is the most important thing.

Quit with you today, and Every Damn Day!
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Re: Awkwood quits, again, for the last time.
« Reply #27 on: January 21, 2015, 07:31:00 PM »
Thank you for all the support my brothers! I'm glad I could help motivate your quits the way you have motivated mine!! I have been extremely busy these last few days and I haven't been able to get as much KTC time as I would like. Fret not however, I am still raging 'bang head' and quitting! Posting roll everyday too. Today has been one of the rougher days but that nicbitch still has nothing on me! 'finger point'

My busy days unfortunately will continue but know I'm here when I can be. Stay strong and stay quit brothers! Email or text me and I'll get back to you faster.

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Re: Awkwood quits, again, for the last time.
« Reply #26 on: January 19, 2015, 04:08:00 PM »
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Good morning fellow quitters! Now I'm not much of a "feelings" guy. Not saying that because I'm proud of it. It's just a fact due to my job. I internalize and that probably helped rage my tobacco addiction. However, I digress... Guys, last night that nicbitch snuck into my slumber and delivered a kick to the sack I will never forget. Here's my dream in a nut shell:

I just got home from work and dropped my bag at the front door. Let the dogs out back and then headed to the bedroom. There I found my wife sitting on the bed smiling at me. I walked over and embraced her. Started kissing her on the neck and that's when she said the words that ripped me right out of my sleep.... "I can smell the dip in your mouth." Bamn. Good morning day 9.

Now at face value it doesn't seem like much, so here's the backstory... Guys, I'm not married. Never have been. The girl in the dream was the "one that got away". I truly loved her but in the end she stood between me and the can. I was too fucking addicted and impatient to give quitting an honest shot and to work on the relationship and make something of it. She didn't understand the addiction like you guys do. To her it was just some junk I put in my mouth and something I could just stop without any issue. Isn't that kind of naïve thinking beautiful? Seriously, to not know what this is like is bliss.

That dream cut deep and really hurt brothers. After some thought though I've realized the dream was a mistake on the nicbitch's part. There's a fire in me now and I'm raging today fellas. Boy am I fucking raging. Not because I want a pinch but because I want to give back every pinch I've had with a fist to the nicbitch's face and a smile that says FUCK YOU BITCH! Today is day 9, and the day is mine! I quit today with all you assholes and there's nothing else I'd rather do!! Thanks for the support and stay strong. We will beat this bitch!!!
Awesome but sad! You kicked the bitches ass! Hey brother the one got away...married? If not never to late! Stay quit my brother! I'm here always, you need me pm. I quit with you my brother!
Honestly, I'm not really sure... I know she moved out of state and was "seriously involved". We're pretty much ghosts in each others past now and I thought I was ok with that. That dream caught me off guard and I know it flooded my mind with thoughts and emotion trying to get me to cave. Ain't happening! Why? Because I made a decision to quit and then I turned that decision into a promise that I make everyday to a bunch of other bad ass quitters! Best damn decision of my life.

Same goes for you Pab1964. I'm here for you.
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Re: Awkwood quits, again, for the last time.
« Reply #25 on: January 19, 2015, 02:34:00 PM »
We like nic rage here my man, it means we have another quitter in our ranks. Rage and quit on!
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Re: Awkwood quits, again, for the last time.
« Reply #24 on: January 19, 2015, 02:30:00 PM »
Like a fawkin boss! I quit with you today Awkwood.

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Re: Awkwood quits, again, for the last time.
« Reply #23 on: January 18, 2015, 10:39:00 PM »
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I feel a full on threat of the Nic Bitch losing a disciple here. Awkwood, brother, keep it up. Never let the whores of UST suck from your money tit ever again. they only do it to enrich themselves and suck the life from your very being. I quit with you all day long. You have strengthened my quit 10 times by your words to never again finger fuck a can of poison.

Not since the days of Sapper, Raider and Slug.go have I seen someone get this serious about quit. Well, there was that wort guy. anyway, your quit has given me wood.

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Mogul your a stud..
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Re: Awkwood quits, again, for the last time.
« Reply #22 on: January 18, 2015, 02:12:00 PM »
I feel a full on threat of the Nic Bitch losing a disciple here. Awkwood, brother, keep it up. Never let the whores of UST suck from your money tit ever again. they only do it to enrich themselves and suck the life from your very being. I quit with you all day long. You have strengthened my quit 10 times by your words to never again finger fuck a can of poison.

Not since the days of Sapper, Raider and Slug.go have I seen someone get this serious about quit. Well, there was that wort guy. anyway, your quit has given me wood.

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Re: Awkwood quits, again, for the last time.
« Reply #21 on: January 18, 2015, 02:00:00 PM »
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Good morning fellow quitters! Now I'm not much of a "feelings" guy. Not saying that because I'm proud of it. It's just a fact due to my job. I internalize and that probably helped rage my tobacco addiction. However, I digress... Guys, last night that nicbitch snuck into my slumber and delivered a kick to the sack I will never forget. Here's my dream in a nut shell:

I just got home from work and dropped my bag at the front door. Let the dogs out back and then headed to the bedroom. There I found my wife sitting on the bed smiling at me. I walked over and embraced her. Started kissing her on the neck and that's when she said the words that ripped me right out of my sleep.... "I can smell the dip in your mouth." Bamn. Good morning day 9.

Now at face value it doesn't seem like much, so here's the backstory... Guys, I'm not married. Never have been. The girl in the dream was the "one that got away". I truly loved her but in the end she stood between me and the can. I was too fucking addicted and impatient to give quitting an honest shot and to work on the relationship and make something of it. She didn't understand the addiction like you guys do. To her it was just some junk I put in my mouth and something I could just stop without any issue. Isn't that kind of naïve thinking beautiful? Seriously, to not know what this is like is bliss.

That dream cut deep and really hurt brothers. After some thought though I've realized the dream was a mistake on the nicbitch's part. There's a fire in me now and I'm raging today fellas. Boy am I fucking raging. Not because I want a pinch but because I want to give back every pinch I've had with a fist to the nicbitch's face and a smile that says FUCK YOU BITCH! Today is day 9, and the day is mine! I quit today with all you assholes and there's nothing else I'd rather do!! Thanks for the support and stay strong. We will beat this bitch!!!
Awesome but sad! You kicked the bitches ass! Hey brother the one got away...married? If not never to late! Stay quit my brother! I'm here always, you need me pm. I quit with you my brother!
Honestly, I'm not really sure... I know she moved out of state and was "seriously involved". We're pretty much ghosts in each others past now and I thought I was ok with that. That dream caught me off guard and I know it flooded my mind with thoughts and emotion trying to get me to cave. Ain't happening! Why? Because I made a decision to quit and then I turned that decision into a promise that I make everyday to a bunch of other bad ass quitters! Best damn decision of my life.

Same goes for you Pab1964. I'm here for you.

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Re: Awkwood quits, again, for the last time.
« Reply #20 on: January 18, 2015, 01:34:00 PM »
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Good morning fellow quitters! Now I'm not much of a "feelings" guy. Not saying that because I'm proud of it. It's just a fact due to my job. I internalize and that probably helped rage my tobacco addiction. However, I digress... Guys, last night that nicbitch snuck into my slumber and delivered a kick to the sack I will never forget. Here's my dream in a nut shell:

I just got home from work and dropped my bag at the front door. Let the dogs out back and then headed to the bedroom. There I found my wife sitting on the bed smiling at me. I walked over and embraced her. Started kissing her on the neck and that's when she said the words that ripped me right out of my sleep.... "I can smell the dip in your mouth." Bamn. Good morning day 9.

Now at face value it doesn't seem like much, so here's the backstory... Guys, I'm not married. Never have been. The girl in the dream was the "one that got away". I truly loved her but in the end she stood between me and the can. I was too fucking addicted and impatient to give quitting an honest shot and to work on the relationship and make something of it. She didn't understand the addiction like you guys do. To her it was just some junk I put in my mouth and something I could just stop without any issue. Isn't that kind of naïve thinking beautiful? Seriously, to not know what this is like is bliss.

That dream cut deep and really hurt brothers. After some thought though I've realized the dream was a mistake on the nicbitch's part. There's a fire in me now and I'm raging today fellas. Boy am I fucking raging. Not because I want a pinch but because I want to give back every pinch I've had with a fist to the nicbitch's face and a smile that says FUCK YOU BITCH! Today is day 9, and the day is mine! I quit today with all you assholes and there's nothing else I'd rather do!! Thanks for the support and stay strong. We will beat this bitch!!!
Awesome but sad! You kicked the bitches ass! Hey brother the one got away...married? If not never to late! Stay quit my brother! I'm here always, you need me pm. I quit with you my brother!
Tobacco is so addictive it took me a year after a massive heart attack, in which doctor confirmed caused from dipping to finally put a lid on the bitch! ODAAT EDD

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Re: Awkwood quits, again, for the last time.
« Reply #19 on: January 18, 2015, 01:17:00 PM »
Good morning fellow quitters! Now I'm not much of a "feelings" guy. Not saying that because I'm proud of it. It's just a fact due to my job. I internalize and that probably helped rage my tobacco addiction. However, I digress... Guys, last night that nicbitch snuck into my slumber and delivered a kick to the sack I will never forget. Here's my dream in a nut shell:

I just got home from work and dropped my bag at the front door. Let the dogs out back and then headed to the bedroom. There I found my wife sitting on the bed smiling at me. I walked over and embraced her. Started kissing her on the neck and that's when she said the words that ripped me right out of my sleep.... "I can smell the dip in your mouth." Bamn. Good morning day 9.

Now at face value it doesn't seem like much, so here's the backstory... Guys, I'm not married. Never have been. The girl in the dream was the "one that got away". I truly loved her but in the end she stood between me and the can. I was too fucking addicted and impatient to give quitting an honest shot and to work on the relationship and make something of it. She didn't understand the addiction like you guys do. To her it was just some junk I put in my mouth and something I could just stop without any issue. Isn't that kind of naïve thinking beautiful? Seriously, to not know what this is like is bliss.

That dream cut deep and really hurt brothers. After some thought though I've realized the dream was a mistake on the nicbitch's part. There's a fire in me now and I'm raging today fellas. Boy am I fucking raging. Not because I want a pinch but because I want to give back every pinch I've had with a fist to the nicbitch's face and a smile that says FUCK YOU BITCH! Today is day 9, and the day is mine! I quit today with all you assholes and there's nothing else I'd rather do!! Thanks for the support and stay strong. We will beat this bitch!!!