So -
My wife is having a bit of a scare - likely nothing. She probably has a cyst on her ovary, and it is probably nothing, but she is freaking out, I'm worried, she's getting a CT Scan tomorrow, had an ultrasound today, and we're about to spend $2500 or whatever's left on our deductible to find out that she's got a little, common cyst on her ovary that will go away or rupture or need to be removed but is not life threatening.
She has never smoked, and she has definitely never dipped. And she is being threatened by cancer (maybe). You don't even have to do anything stupid to get this shit.
Cancer is a terrifying disease. And, because we are all retarded we have put ourselves in a position to have to think about dying from it EVERY DAY. We have caused damage already. Every bump on the tounge, every sore throat, every herpi..., every cold sore, every toothache, every headache, every lump, every pain, everything that goes wrong with our bodies now could be self-inflicted cancer. Because we couldn't resist putting sweetened, flavored dirt in our mouths every second of every day. Sure, in 15 years of quitting, your chances of getting cancer are about the same as a regular person. Until then, you will always have that worry with you that you've done something irreparable to your body; but with each day that passes without tobacco, we're getting one day closer to correcting our mistakes. I hope I can correct all of my mistakes before its too late. Quitting dipping has given me the opportunity to correct so many of them, and I'm a better person for it.
Cancer is terrifying, and we've placed ourselves right into a 15 year long perpetual horror movie.
And people we love could get it without doing anything wrong. Lets do the best we can by the people we love. And lets do the best we can by ourselves. Keep quitting.
