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Quote from: SmokeygToday is my 600th day of quit. That's pretty fancy.

I woke up in the middle of the night and had the thought that reaching day 3,650 is just as much of an expectation as hitting day 730 which is just as much of an expectation as hitting day 601. One day at a time with a vow to not use nicotine. When we take it one day at a time and caving is truly no longer an option, the only possible outcome is to remain quit.

There are a lot of people who have joined since I hit the HOF 500 days ago. I tried to thank all those who played a positive roll in my quit during those first 100 days. Many of you relative new quitters and now veterans have been a tremendous help in my ongoing daily battle against my addiction. And yes, while those battles used to be all out morning to night barrages, it's now just an occasional limp-wristed slap to the junk. Easy to shake off but not so easy that I don't notice it anymore.

I'm a little hungover and a lot tired right now, so I won't name names here. But know that there are a tremendous amount of people here to whom I am indebted. Every person whose quit I have helped in whatever perverse way has likewise strengthened my own resolve and accountability. The amount of support and personal growth on this forum has kept me aware of my addiction and proud of the strength that we all show every day.

Take a moment to reflect on how this process has improved your life. Since the beginning of my quit (May 19th 2008 - 8pm) there have been so many discoveries and positive changes in my life not related directly to chewing tobacco. While I personally have put a lot of time into this process, I wouldn't have nearly the control in my life without the wisdom, advice and examples provided by this community. Thank you all for keeping the quit and being so generous with your support!

600 - I will not chew tobacco today.

Bitches.
Congrats on 600 smokey!
You ARE awesome
QD - 1/6/09
HOF - 4/15/09
2nd Floor - 7/24/09
3rd Floor - 11/01/09
1 Year - 1/6/10
2 Yrs - 1/6/11
Comma - 10/2/11
3 Yrs - 1/6/12
4 years - 1/6/13
5 years - 1/6/14
6 years - 1/6/15



Some people say cucumbers taste better pickled.

Smokeyg

Today is my 600th day of quit. That's pretty fancy.

I woke up in the middle of the night and had the thought that reaching day 3,650 is just as much of an expectation as hitting day 730 which is just as much of an expectation as hitting day 601. One day at a time with a vow to not use nicotine. When we take it one day at a time and caving is truly no longer an option, the only possible outcome is to remain quit.

There are a lot of people who have joined since I hit the HOF 500 days ago. I tried to thank all those who played a positive roll in my quit during those first 100 days. Many of you relative new quitters and now veterans have been a tremendous help in my ongoing daily battle against my addiction. And yes, while those battles used to be all out morning to night barrages, it's now just an occasional limp-wristed slap to the junk. Easy to shake off but not so easy that I don't notice it anymore.

I'm a little hungover and a lot tired right now, so I won't name names here. But know that there are a tremendous amount of people here to whom I am indebted. Every person whose quit I have helped in whatever perverse way has likewise strengthened my own resolve and accountability. The amount of support and personal growth on this forum has kept me aware of my addiction and proud of the strength that we all show every day.

Take a moment to reflect on how this process has improved your life. Since the beginning of my quit (May 19th 2008 - 8pm) there have been so many discoveries and positive changes in my life not related directly to chewing tobacco. While I personally have put a lot of time into this process, I wouldn't have nearly the control in my life without the wisdom, advice and examples provided by this community. Thank you all for keeping the quit and being so generous with your support!

600 - I will not chew tobacco today.

Bitches.

Smokeyg

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It smells like gay sex in here.....
It's probably your hands, not the forum page.
fag
fag(s)
Don't look at me. He's the one who sucked my cock.
But that doesn't make me a fag, does it?
Maybe, maybe not....but it does make you a cocksucker.
You put a bandaid on somebody's wound, it doesn't make you a doctor. Use a fire extinguisher on a stove-top flare-up and nobody calls you a firefighter. But just suck one little cock...
Hey Chewie - can we get this moved to the "words of wisdom" section?

theo3wood

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Quote from: DeanTheCootLove ya, buddy. Happy New Year.
It smells like gay sex in here.....
It's probably your hands, not the forum page.
fag
fag(s)
Don't look at me. He's the one who sucked my cock.
But that doesn't make me a fag, does it?
Maybe, maybe not....but it does make you a cocksucker.
You put a bandaid on somebody's wound, it doesn't make you a doctor. Use a fire extinguisher on a stove-top flare-up and nobody calls you a firefighter. But just suck one little cock...
"the cycle is over. we are clean. we are shining beacons to the masses that think it can't be done." ...LooT

"We have the right to watch our children grow and have earned the right to participate in their lives. We will not be denied. Success can be our only option now. We can never tire, give up, fail, or falter. We are worth more than this addiction and will stop at nothing to beat it." ...Sweenz

redtrain14

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Quote from: Smokeyg
Quote from: FtheKodiak
Quote from: greg40
Quote from: Smokeyg
Quote from: greg40
Quote from: DeanTheCootLove ya, buddy. Happy New Year.
It smells like gay sex in here.....
It's probably your hands, not the forum page.
fag
fag(s)
Don't look at me. He's the one who sucked my cock.
But that doesn't make me a fag, does it?
Maybe, maybe not....but it does make you a cocksucker.

greg40

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Quote from: FtheKodiak
Quote from: greg40
Quote from: Smokeyg
Quote from: greg40
Quote from: DeanTheCootLove ya, buddy. Happy New Year.
It smells like gay sex in here.....
It's probably your hands, not the forum page.
fag
fag(s)
Don't look at me. He's the one who sucked my cock.
But that doesn't make me a fag, does it?

Smokeyg

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Quote from: DeanTheCootLove ya, buddy. Happy New Year.
It smells like gay sex in here.....
It's probably your hands, not the forum page.
fag
fag(s)
Don't look at me. He's the one who sucked my cock.

GlennFtheKodiak

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Quote from: DeanTheCootLove ya, buddy. Happy New Year.
It smells like gay sex in here.....
It's probably your hands, not the forum page.
fag
fag(s)
football rules, soccer drools

HOF: July 7th, 2009

greg40

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Quote from: DeanTheCootLove ya, buddy. Happy New Year.
It smells like gay sex in here.....
It's probably your hands, not the forum page.
fag

Smokeyg

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Quote from: DeanTheCootLove ya, buddy. Happy New Year.
It smells like gay sex in here.....
It's probably your hands, not the forum page.

greg40

Quote from: DeanTheCootLove ya, buddy. Happy New Year.
It smells like gay sex in here.....


Smokeyg

I had a very vivid dip dream last night. It was a combination "Dragon's Lair" / Bike Helmet Safety"The More You Know" PSA / Dip Dream.

I can account for both the Dragon's Lair and the Bike Helmet aspects, but I'm not sure where the massive chew in my dream accompanied by the feeling that I had been secretly chewing for the last couple of months came from. Actually, I was hit with a pretty severe urge a couple days ago while driving. Two times in the same day while returning Christmas presents. I actually think my mouth was watering a little bit. I thought about all the steps I would have to go through to actually get from driving in my car with nearly 600 days quit to having a chew in my mouth.

1) Exit the freeway and find a convenience store.
2) Park at the convenience store.
3) Go inside the convenience store.
4) Get in line at the convenience store.
5) Ask the cashier for a can of whatever is on sale.
6) Give the cashier my money.
7) Take the can in exchange for said money.
8) Cut the seal around the edge of the can (without my special long thumb nail).
9) Pack the can.
10) Twist off the lid.
11) Transfer lid back under the can to free up a hand.
12) Take a pinch of whatever was on sale.
13) Pull my lower left lip open a bit to insert poison.

There are probably more steps involved that I did not write down, but each of those 13 steps provides an opportunity for me to catch myself. I rarely carry a cell phone with me, so at any of those 13 steps I could say to myself, "I will not chew tobacco today" "I am in control of my actions" "I deserve the freedom that I have earned". You know, shit like that....

I think I'll print out the Contract To Quit and stick it in my wallet just in case talking to myself would be a little strange at that particular moment.

For now:

I will remain quit. Quitting is possible and I can do it. I love myself more than I love dipping. I care about my personal health more than I care about dipping. I love family more than I love dipping. I know this addiction could still kill me, and I ACCEPT that fact. I enjoy spending time with my friends and family more than I ever enjoyed spending time alone with my can. I look forward to my life - the daily struggle is worth it. When I am lying next to my wife in a hospital bed holding our newborn child, I will feel a sense of satisfaction knowing that this is the path I CHOSE. I will have no regrets and will work to make positive choices in the future. I will feel joy for my familyÃ,’s support and unconditional love, and I know I will remain free for myself and the people I truly love.
I know ALL the consequences of my actions and I accept them fully and without regret. I hereby choose to control my life and this addiction - I do so with a smile on my face.

Happy New Year Bitches!

LaQuitter

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Quote from: SmokeygI had my observation with my principal today and the 20 year old man-boy in my class said, "Ms. Principal, Mr. Green touches me inappropriately sometimes."Ã,  And another girl said, "You too!?"

It was hot.
that is despicable, can't you teach those turds to keep their fucking mouths shut?!? Did they mention they enjoyed it?
They don't have to tell me. I can feel it.
I got busted listening to limp bizkit pulling into the parking lot today. It keeps me from ripping off stupid people's faces mother fuckers.
For Ricko ...maniac Mutha Fucker ~
How interesting.....in a fit of rage this past Friday, I posted the very same video in my August group.

Jack, Ricko, you guys are alright!

Now let's break shit! :D
Quit: Saturday, May 2, 2009
HOF: Monday, August 10, 2009

La's HOF Speech

"Post roll like 8 pounds 6 ounces... new born infant jesus himself was telling you to do it" - Jaydisco

Big Brother Jack

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Quote from: SmokeygI had my observation with my principal today and the 20 year old man-boy in my class said, "Ms. Principal, Mr. Green touches me inappropriately sometimes."Ã,  And another girl said, "You too!?"

It was hot.
that is despicable, can't you teach those turds to keep their fucking mouths shut?!? Did they mention they enjoyed it?
They don't have to tell me. I can feel it.
I got busted listening to limp bizkit pulling into the parking lot today. It keeps me from ripping off stupid people's faces mother fuckers.
For Ricko ...maniac Mutha Fucker ~
No Chew Crue - Cliff's Big Brother Jack

B.ig B.rother J.ack