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Offline BubbaM

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Re: Day 16 of my 2nd quit.
« Reply #28 on: April 25, 2018, 10:52:00 PM »
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Tough mental day. We had a field trip for school. I just had to supervise so my mind was wandering pretty bad. It wasnÂ’t a bad day just a tough day. By 5:30pm my brain flipped and I had the best night I have had. I felt like my old self.

I am sharing this because mental health is not a joke and maybe this will help somebody that is fighting the same fight as me. The doctor gave me 20 mg of Prozac. I am supposed to take half tablets for 2 weeks. At 2 weeks I have a check up with her and I am going to talk about still taking the half tablets which would be 10mg and not bumping to 20mg. I am also going to talk to doc about not getting another refill. This is all I am going to take. So roughly 60 days. I should be able to handle all of my stress and anxiety by then with eating better. Working out, and just being mentally strong.
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Re: Day 16 of my 2nd quit.
« Reply #27 on: April 24, 2018, 11:29:00 AM »
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OCD thoughts had me today. Day started off great. Went to school. Then about 12:30pm the worry wart came knocking. Put me in a down and mad mood. Till about 8:30pm. It was tolerable. After school I went for a bike ride and it kinda kicked my ass. That probly doesnÂ’t help. On a positive not I prayed with my girls before bedtime tonight. And I love hearing my baby cueing for her mommy. Even if I had a so so not good day. I come home and have many things to be thankful for!
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Re: Day 16 of my 2nd quit.
« Reply #26 on: April 23, 2018, 10:33:00 PM »
Day 47

OCD thoughts had me today. Day started off great. Went to school. Then about 12:30pm the worry wart came knocking. Put me in a down and mad mood. Till about 8:30pm. It was tolerable. After school I went for a bike ride and it kinda kicked my ass. That probly doesnÂ’t help. On a positive not I prayed with my girls before bedtime tonight. And I love hearing my baby cueing for her mommy. Even if I had a so so not good day. I come home and have many things to be thankful for!
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Re: Day 16 of my 2nd quit.
« Reply #25 on: April 22, 2018, 11:14:00 PM »
Day 46

Awesome day! Probly helps that the weather was amazing. I woke up with a weird feeling but that went away right after I posted roll. Went to church. Sang with the family at church. Went for Sunday dinner. Then went to ball practice. I did go into a fog for a bit at practice. After that I went to school but had a Smokey Mountain on the way. After that I helped my wife with some stuff and was in a small fog for about 1hr. We got home and I played with my girls outside and never felt better the rest of the night. 3 days in a row baby! If I can tackle yesterday then I will be able to tackle today. ThatÂ’s how I have been taking every day when I wake up. One day at a time. Tomorrow is 47 and I want to take my wife out for drinks on 50. I am going exactly by the quit guidelines.

Anyhow, praise the lord! God is Good! I can conquer anything through him!
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Re: Day 16 of my 2nd quit.
« Reply #24 on: April 22, 2018, 08:52:00 AM »
Morning day 46

This is truely one of the weirdest emotional experiences I have went through.

One day, I will look at a ball diamond and not think of chew! I will think of baseball and how wonderful the game is. The life lessons it teaches us. And the relationships I have built from it.
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Re: Day 16 of my 2nd quit.
« Reply #23 on: April 22, 2018, 12:06:00 AM »
Day 45
Pretty good day today. Was in a slight fog from 4pm till 8pm. But my quit is strong. With it being nice outside I was able to put up the trampoline for my daughters. Can have some repetitive thoughts but then I just start moving around and doing something.
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Re: Day 16 of my 2nd quit.
« Reply #22 on: April 20, 2018, 09:29:00 PM »
Day 44...

Alright my intro title is terrible...my first quit was a joke...Did it by myself like 5 years ago...went for 3 weeks...then told myself if I keep a can in the garage, and just have a pinch when IÂ’m working outside, that will be ok...What do you know, I was thumb deep a day later after school.

Anyways, today has been the best day by far! Still a bit of anxiety but had a great day by the end. I keep telling myself that God is preparing me for something bigger! I played catch outside
With my daughter after school. Usually I would be nose deep in my phone. Spitting into a bottle. Little league practice pissed me off because this Dbag had a can in his back pocket. Come on bro. Dudes are 10, 11, 12 years old. What is it cool? By the way, chewing does not go a long with baseball. Baseball was created without any thought about chew.

My old high school football coach used to say “Tough Times Don’t Last, Tough People Do”......Oh by the way, I Love my wife Megan! After having a baby a month ago and then taking care of this crazy dude...She needs a vacation!
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Re: Day 16 of my 2nd quit.
« Reply #21 on: April 20, 2018, 10:42:00 AM »
Keep on quitting Bubba. Ya, the fake dip has helped many get by the initial phase of quitting. Whatever it takes to keep tobacco out of your mouth.
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Re: Day 16 of my 2nd quit.
« Reply #20 on: April 19, 2018, 10:56:00 PM »
Did you know building relationships helps you heal? I am building my relationship with God. I am also calling whoever leaves numbers in my inbox when I need HELP. I have no shame, so if I need help and have your number I will call! It has been up and down up and down. Today was a win!

I woke up and still was in a terrible depressed mood. This quickly turned into Anger. After that my wife called and started crying. She said she didn't think it was going to be this hard for me to quit with how depressed and emotional I have been. Very high anxiety and was having super, super emotional episodes. I told myself I need some help from the doc. In order for my wife and family to survive. I went to the doc and they gave me some meds. No shame in that. Just need to be on them for 6 months is all. Low dose.

Crazy thing is I was talking to BrianB and he was talking up this Smokey Mountain stuff. Said it gets his mouth watering. I went and picked up some Smokey and what do you know. Day was like $100! The brain is a crazy thing. I have not done any fake chew and maybe thats what I was missing to fake out my brain once in awhile. If I go depressed mode again. I am going to pray and hit the Smokey!
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Re: Day 16 of my 2nd quit.
« Reply #19 on: April 17, 2018, 07:55:00 PM »
Sorry guys I have got to stop posting on here. I sit here and obsess over it. ItÂ’s driving me crazy. I have to let go and let god work. This is whatÂ’s best for me.
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Re: Day 16 of my 2nd quit.
« Reply #18 on: April 17, 2018, 05:35:00 AM »
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......Tomorrow is my 40th day. And god will be by my side. How many people in the Bible wandered for 40 days and nights? He sent me a sign that he is here! He is with me!
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Re: Day 16 of my 2nd quit.
« Reply #17 on: April 16, 2018, 11:53:00 PM »
Tough day today but got through it. Very emotional and had high anxiety. After supper helped with my kids and then took a walk. All day praying to God for some mental relief and it showed up. I had an uplifting message from a Deacon I just met in my inbox. God was speaking through him. Answered a few prayers so now I can move on! Looking forward to tomorrow!
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Re: Day 16 of my 2nd quit.
« Reply #16 on: April 16, 2018, 09:35:00 PM »
I get what your saying. At some point during my quit I was losing my mind I prayed many time for Jesus to help. One day was super hard praying breaking down asked for help. After praying Turned my phone on and was somehow on my wife's Google account with my sons baptism from 11 years ago I was like how can this be. I couldn't get there if I tried. my faith that day raised 10 fold I go to church more often feel close to god now. Some days were still tough but doable. Quit on bubba
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Re: Day 16 of my 2nd quit.
« Reply #15 on: April 15, 2018, 11:20:00 PM »
Night 39

Sharing some praise! God is Good! God is Real!

Brothers in quit, I am not shitting you but God spoke to me tonight. At our college baseball spring fling. I am on the fundraising board. The guest speaker. Is a deacon in the Catholic Church. I have been praying all day for god to show me a sign that everything will be ok.

Sure enough, the deacon closed with “My cleanup hitter is and always will be Jesus Christ!”

That same saying is one that I have used my whole life and have not heard anyone else say it.

When I was 19 I had it tattooed on my back left shoulder around a baseball. And the 1969 padres logo. “God is my cleanup hitter”

Pray! God may not give us instant healing but he will show you he is there. Faith is built and I was not a great believer until the last 39 days. I am building my faith with god!

What do you know. Tomorrow is my 40th day. And god will be by my side. How many people in the Bible wandered for 40 days and nights? He sent me a sign that he is here! He is with me!
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Re: Day 16 of my 2nd quit.
« Reply #14 on: April 15, 2018, 06:17:00 PM »
Keep fighting the good fight brother! It gets better! Sounds like you have a very good thing going by reaching out to others. And you are right, God WILL pull you through!

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