I am quitting and I need help!!

[Law1358]

Holy Crap!!! I'm glad i was smart enough to but a can of fake today. I've been doing very solid in my quit here lately, but today was our first day of spring training!! Today was the first day I've ever coached a football practice without a dip in..the triggers hit me harder than that time Amanda Nunes knocked out Rhonda Rousey...just shows that even 168 days in, the struggle is still real!! The fake got me through it, and now that practice is over I feel back to normal. Just felt I needed to share this.

[Law1358]

Here I am awake at 4:30 in the morning on the weekend. I woke up and I was thinking about the purpose of quitting. We hear many quitters say that they "want to forget about dip, and only time they think of it is when they are on the site". It got me thinking..You know..I used to say all the time that if I could just forget about dipping then I could quit..If I could just not think about it I'd be fine...Every stoppage I had reached a point of forgetting about the dip, and always led me back to that " you can have just one mentality" and ultimately dipping more than ever

I think the Reason this whole system works for me is because every single day for the last 117 days..I WAKE UP and immediately post my roll..Then I get about 6-7 different text messages Every single morning with another promise from another quitter. So my day immediately starts with a band of Brothers saying we are gonna kick nicotines ass today. After the morning time, I don't really think about dip that much during the day ( unless I'm having a craving).. but I'm never give in because every day begins with facing my addiction head on and saying I WILL WIN today. I always get a couple more texts from other quitters which makes about 10 people that text me every day that give me just a little reminder throughout the day.

So, I get to live to my life today nic free and it does not control me anymore,my life does not revolve around it anymore...It revolves around my day starting everyday knowing my addiction and winning the battle EDD with a group of brothers (and sisters)

[Law1358]

My HOF Speech

Chapter 1 : (About Me)
My quit story is not so much different than others on this site.I am a God Loving Family Man who coaches High School Football as my Profession. I Started dipping when I was 19 Years old and got my First Coaching Job. I managed to make it all the through High School without ever giving into to peer pressure; to saying " I just want to see what the big deal is" This began a 14 year relationship where Dipping ruled my life. I dipped 1-2 cans a day during that time. I have tried to quit multiple times which were not quits, but stoppages. The Longest lasted 2 weeks. I have always wanted to quit, but at one point I told myself that I was too addicted to quit. There was always a reason not to quit. Football Season, Hunting Season, Film Watching, Fishing, oh my god..what am I going to do on long road trips, the list goes on and on. In January of 2015, My wife and I learned we would have our first child. I promised her that I would quit before he was born. My Son Caden was born in September of 2015. I promised him then that I would quit by his 1st birthday. His 1st birthday on September 27 2016, I was geared up to quit that day. Instead I said that I would quit Tomorrow. This addiction made me lie to the people that I loved most. I didn't kiss my wife goodnight for over 5 years so she wouldn't have to smell my dip breath. You cant get that time back. On November 15. 2016, I caught my son about to drink from my spit bottle. I immediately began to feel like the loser that I was. That night, I came across a Facebook post of someone having their jaw removed, and it finally hit me... God is telling you its time I took 1 dip from my fresh new can, dumped the rest and said this will be the last dip of my life. That was 100 days ago. Two days later I found KTC.
Chapter 2: Tommy and Jenny Kern Story
On my 2nd day quit, I started googling how to stay quit from tobacco? A link to KTC was the first thing that popped up. The first thing I read was the symptoms of quitting, and the next thing I read was the Tommy and Jenny Kern Story. I will not tell the story here, but if you haven't read it you need to. Im not known to cry, but reading kenzie's letters to her dad broke me down and I cried like a baby. I first, thought about the hurt their family was going through. Then, I thought about my son writing those letters to me. Jenny, Kenzie, Alexa, Connor, and Tori...If you are reading this; I want you to know that I pray for your family, and the memories you share of your husband and your dad no doubt have had a big impact on me. I hurt and pray for you all, but Im thankful that you are strong enough to share your memories so that people like me will stay quit from this horrible addiction.
Chapter 3: My 100 Days of Quit
In the Beginning of my Quit, I practically lived on the site and read as much as I possibly could. Reading HoF Speeches and Introductions literately became my new addiction and kept dip out of my mouth. I have had many ups and down during my quit. I can honestly say that I bought into KTC immediately. There are some things that I dont like about the site, but I made the decision to listen to people that have been quit for a very long time and I have had no issues with anyone since being on this site. I thought it was wierd to reach out to internet strangers for phone numbers, but I got out of my comfort zone and Im sure glad that I did. I can say that during my 100 days, there were about 15-20 something occurrences that I know I would have caved without posting my roll on this site. there was a specific 4-5 occasions that I probaly would have caved without texting someone from the site. There was one specific time on day 37 of my quit, where i became so enraged that I panicked and all I could think about was getting a dip. Reaching out and immediately hearing back from a few of my now very good friends, they saved my quit. I dont say these things to scare people off from quitting. There have been more better days than bad during my 100 days of quit. I do want you to be ready for when the bad day does come, and do not give in. It will not be worth it. Quitting is Hard, but It is definetly worth it. Ive read some people say that this site is for the mentally weak who cant quit on their own. This usually comes from a new quitter or someone who has quit on their own, but I say to them Im strong minded enough to not even let there be a chance to cave. One of my favorite quotes I have come across on this site is " Im pretty sure I'll stay quit if i dont post roll tomorrow, but I know that I will stay quit if I do" Those are powerful words to me, and the reason that you will see me post my roll Every Damn Day with my Febuary "17 Group the Cult of Quit
Chapter 4: Giving Thanks
I want everyone to know that I am not cured. This is only the beginning, but I could not have made this far without my group and reaching out to others. I will continue to lean on them during my quit
C-Mark: 1st KTCer I spoke with on the phone..gave me the confidence and comfort to reach out to others
Viking: one BAQ from my group who was the 1st person I reached out to, He has been a great friend since and will continue to be
JeffW: same thing..wish we could have gotten to meet when you were down here, but I thank you for being a friend and being BAQ with me
walterwhite: My mentor, has personally saved my quit and text me everyday. We think alot alike in attacking our quit. Im grateful for you taking your time and showing me the way. I would not be here without you.
Harvestgirl: You saved my quit on that panicked day 37 and other times as well.You dont even realise how close I was that day. Thank You for just always being there, and the mr.lentz and prohunter could not have picked a better person to end my celebration with on the roll sheet today.Thank you for being a good friend.
FishFlorida: The King of the Memes..I love exchanging memes as our quit promise everyday. You have helped me stay quit in many different ways and Im thankful for you.
Ralphie: Of all the new quitters that I have gotten numbers for, you are the only one that is still here. Many new quitters just arent ready i guess..but you have been a BAQ, and texting you everyday has helped my quit and i couldnt be here without you.
The League: January your group has been an inspiration Tonifer, Aaron, Nonsil, DieselChick, CanofBeans..thank you for being there
The Madhouse: your group especially got me through some cravings..justinrobbins, viking11, beth, vicedawg,
April and May: Your groups keep me going and keep interested in my quit so I do not get complacent..USAGeek and Leonidas..keep kicking ass in your quits, its an honor to quit with you.
The Party Bus- Febuary '09 thank you Drome and all the vets on the Bus for allowing me to post roll daily.
The STDs- PMILS Ive never spoke with you before, but You typing my name for support really helped me everyday as well as McCoy(even though your a bama fan)
Thank you to the many people who reached out to me through my intro, pms, or chat...there are so many of you that I know I just cant name everyone, but I do cherish and love you all because you have helped me stay quit.
A Big thank you to Mr.Lentz and ProHunter for being our Conductors and doing a great job for our group
Saving the Best for Last. but Thank You to my Group the Cult of Quit. I could not be here if it wasnt for you guys and I truly love each and every one of you as my own family. Lets stay in this quit business for the long haul as I look forawrd to quitting EDD with you all.

Chapter 5: Conclusion
In Conclusion, If you are reading this and thinking about quitting and joining the site? I ask you to be serious about your quit. Most (if not all) of the people on this site that fail or have a problem with way things are ran, they have not been serious about their quit. I quit for myself to not be a slave to nicotine anymore. I quit for my son and my family so they do not have to see me in an early grave for a stupid reason. I take my quit seriously and KTC is just the place to help me keep taking it seriously. I have met some of the greatest people this country has to offer right here on this site, and they help me stay quit everyday. There is so much more that I want to say on how much better my life is without dip. I know that I have said a mouthful on this speech and have probably left some things out that I wanted to state, but I dont plan on going anywhere and my digits are available to anyone that I can help. Stay Quit everybody.

[Law1358]

February 2017 Cult of Quit
Wednesday, February 22nd, 2017

'clap' 'hoftrain' 'clap'

[+] HOF Train Conductors1) October 2008-bubblehed668-The Conductor
2) October 2009-January 2012-Flashman
3) January 2012-Samcat
3) February 2012-Brotherofnomosko
4) March 2012-Mcarmo44
5) April 2012-TSmith17
6) May 2012-Coach Steve
7) June 2012-Zam
8) July 2012-Zam
9) August 2012-Wedge
10) September 2012-Woosel
11) October 2012-Swede and Morgan1
12) November 2012-SirDerek and Mich34
13) December 2012-ericfrompitt and tsnus
14) January 2013-lcwb96 and Boelker62
15) February 2013-Evil_Won and OneImpressiveBall
16) March 2013-wmcatty and cdaniels
17) April 2013-Mike_Land, Halldogau, and Tazbutane
18) May 2013-iizphilister and Spartanron
19)June 2013-JHawth25 and Blazer1975
20) July 2013-Runner and acevlx600
21) August 2013-Sand_Fleas_Gotta_Eat and Quit
22) September 2013-Eurssell and Jake Frawley
23) October 2013-DUATHMAN AND DOUGIE
24) November 2013-Pinched and jlud007
25) December 2013-dabean22 and midwest04z
26) January 2014-Ron_Cross and JayDubya and Doc2quit4good
27) February 2014-Punkin, GrizzFall and MN_Ben
28) March 2014-Dave1903, Mogul,  Grizzlyhasclaws
29) April 2014-GOLFPRO9696, STARR_78
30) May 2014-ExNuke, ZillahCowboy, Sam83, KCM,  JoseyWales
31) June 2014-Lipi, Doc, Paul, Krusty, and Sapper
32) July 2014-MCO and THansen
33) August 2014-Braves360, Smeds, Thumblewort, vbe931, Thewolfe and Zquitter
34) September 2014-Basshaug, natemcpherson, truetomyself, Stig, AR-Fishteen, the TJB, Done4Me, Medicff and Bombero. Chugachugachugachuga
35) October 2014-Medic, Landdon, CavMan, big_dipper, bigton16335, KDLforever, oconnordan, JoeC, dipdaps, Jubella, and paul1231
36) November 2014- Candoit, Southpaw32, Bam0821, Lours, Swetty, Danojeno, AClowroller, Jeeptruck, Lim25
37) December 2014-SoDaCattle, Bazooka Joe, Tuco Grill, Crazy Volts, Castlehusky
38) January 2015-Sir Nope, Sajax, Mitchy, pr0f, Dumpo, Jal0315, SoxFan, Jwright
39) February 2015-Txtaco1, Okie Hunter, Natro, Cpoz421, ink cog kneedough, Jake_M
40) March 2015 Candoit
41) April 2015 Mcarmo
42) May 2015 Candoit
43) June 2015 Pre and GrievousAngel
44) July 2015 Kramer and Tom92673
45) August 2015 Danojeno and Randall
46) September 2015 Devil6Dog and ChickDip
47) October 2015 Bucky and Candoit
48) November 2015 BrianL and Dweirick
49) December 2015 oakTree and KingNothing
50) January 2016 Houpilot2001 and stieramus
51) February 2016 Stranger999 and DjPorkchop
52) March 2016 FWLPLAY and 77Midget
53) April 2016 Nate2 and Remickulous
54) May 2016 Wepdoc and Gone Cruising
55) June 2016 Walterwhite and ReWire
56) July 2016 Njohns23 and texasyeti
57) August 2016 wildirish317 and Sacksyboy
58) September 2016 Richard K and mike1966
59) October 2016 FishFlorida and Pky1520
60) November 2016 PMILS and Sooverit
61) December 2016 Brown71 and Edward
62) January 2017 Miker0351and BillW21
63) February 2017 Prohunter and MrLentzWell I know two quitters who didn’t need yesterday’s lecture on complacency – Law1358 and Brasswhole. Between them, they have hit the boards over 1,300 times and the chat probably 10 times that. They even have pet names for each other, like Cutie (or QT/Quit Twin), and like to debate who’s going to be on bottom. I think we are going to need some help getting all that baggage on board, so Pro and I have invited a guest to steer midway through.

Before we get there, though, I will speak a bit about Lane. Our 32 year old high-school teacher, football, and softball coach hales from Northeast Lousiana. This Warhawk cheers for the Tigers, and hates all the fairweather tide fans. But what really makes Lane tick is family. Lane quit the day after he saw his son Caden almost drink his spit cup.

I was going to say Lane hasnÂ’t looked back, but thatÂ’s not true. Like all of us, LaneÂ’s quit has had its ups and downs. Lane has shared each with us, like the tears of pride his mom shed on learning of the quit, the grace of a dipping friend who smacked the tin out of his hand before realizing it was smokey mountain, and the strength of turning down an unexpected cigar temptation. But this post about the first hard crave early in his quit really speaks to LaneÂ’s character:

On Day 6, I just got back from hunting Camp ( which was a big milestone of not dipping there the whole weekend.) I was home alone watching football, and I found a can fall out of a jacket that I had put on the day. I had been kicking nicotines ass, and then all in one instance. this beautiful can of Timberwolf fell into my chair. I prayed it was empty, but it had one magical dip left in it. Everybody here that has been quit long enough or has tried it before knows nic trick of (1 dip wont hurt). I immediatly dropped it, immediatly text viking, and went straight to a gym to workout. i worked out for 3 hours trying to that dip out of mind. I called my wife while working out and told her to take that can and drive it to a dumpster that i didnt know about and throw it away.

Just having the number of a fellow KTC Brother saved my quit that night. My word and my honor of integrity are 2 of the most important things in my life behind my family. In that moment..I did not want to let viking down, I did not want to let all those people that I had already read their stroies down. I though to myself ( what a pussy and what kind of man I would be to go back on word to the people of KTC) if you dont think posting role means anything, you need to check your morals of your own integrity. If your word is important to you. posting that role will save your life. Week 2 of the Quit has been full of anxiety and the Fog. ever since I found that can I cannot quit thing of it. My word to my group and the people i have digits for saved me during this week.

This BAQ takes his quit seriously. One favorite that I had never heard of is that, when his phone was low on battery, Lane wrote down two digits so that he could text in an emergency. Talk about planning ahead, and drinking the koolaid. But Lane has paid back everything he has gotten from KTC with interest. He has made it part of his family too, looking after brothers in rough patches and taking care of the SSOA. Indeed, Lane has posted in ten different introductions to support new quits, including for Dwight. He also branched out on KTC, posting support in multiple boards including for ScottÂ’s second quit. Lane spoke on his reasons for this.

I agree that supporting other groups is a must. I believe it also helps keep you engaged the further along you get in your quit. For me personally, My quit has been saved twice specifically by 2 people in other groups...I try my best to make sure i never miss posting support in their group.there are vets that I get text from daily, so i post support their group, and then I just try to find a couple random groups that may not pertain to me at all and post support. like viking said, I need to post in more groups because there are several people that posted many things that have helped me, but i haven't necessarily made time to find their group post support. I do notice everyday the ones who come into our house and show support and I thank you guys for it. It may seem corny..but it feels good to know other people are supporting you and showing it

Lane, we figured that the best way to celebrate your 100 days is to show you the difference you have made for others, so we asked a special guest to close out your celebration.

I love law. Sometimes I think when we quit, we forget that the people who quit after us can help just as much as a vet can. Law has become a good friend that truly cares. He helped a lot the past few weeks. And his kid is pretty freaking cute. Now why are you here with the Police, Pro?

A lawyer from New York runs a stop sign and gets pulled over by a sheriff. The sheriff asks for license and registration. The lawyer asks, “What for?” The sheriff responds, “You didn’t come to a complete stop at the stop sign.” The lawyer says, “I slowed down and no one was coming.” “You still didn’t come to a complete stop. License and registration please,” say the sheriff impatiently. The lawyer says, “If you can show me the legal difference between slow down and stop, I’ll give you my license and registration and you can give me the ticket. If not, you let me go and don’t give me the ticket.” The sheriff says, “That sounds fair, please exit your vehicle.” The lawyer steps out and the sheriff takes out his nightstick and starts beating the lawyer with it. The sheriff says, “Do you want me to stop or just slow down?”. It don't take a law degree to figure out who our next Cult member is, Brasswhole is a lawyer from New York, but don't hold that against him because he has proven himself worthy of one of todays HOF celebrations. Brass came to KTC on November 14th looking for guidance and help to defeat his addiction to nicotine, an unfortunate accident however, stalled his quit by 1 day, let Brass himself explain.

Nov 15th-I've found myself in a bit of a dilemma. I come to you seeking forgiveness and guidance, as I'm not sure how this situation will effect my stay here.To the details:
Yesterday was my day 1. In my haste to post and with what I suppose you could call beginners adrenaline, I failed to think about the cans I had in my desk. Today, out of habit and completely without thought I found a can in my desk, grabbed for it, pinched it, got so near to placing it in that it did in fact touch my lips (however, not my gums) before an abrupt realization and halt. I lowered my hand but still held the pinch for what felt like eternity. Eventually, it found its way back to the can, back to the desk with the other can, then to the toilet, then to the sewer. In a way this story sounds triumphant, but it still touched my lip.I don't know the implication of this. Did I fail? Am I at day 1 again? I feel like I failed. I'm not happy with this. I don't want to instinctively grab for a can, nor do I want to touch it with my fingers, and especially not my lip. But I must ask ... What does this error cost me?

It was decided that his quit day would be delayed by one day and so here we are. To most this was unfortunate for Brass, but to a wise man it says that Brass is a honorable and honest man to confess to this accident and accept the judgment that was handed down by KTC without complaint or hesitancy. With that incident behind him, Brass blossomed into yet another fine example of what a BAQ is by leading by example and holding other cult members accountable.

Day 15-What's the point of being here if you're only posting half of the time? I'm not the smartest guy, but I understand the purpose of roll to be a promise to everyone else that you won't dip. It's a way to keep yourself accountable. If you don't take it seriously enough to post daily then why even bother being here? We should all either be in this or out of this, there is no half way. Either be here daily and on-time to post your promise, or go off and do it on your own. You're presence here is pointless if you're not serious about the KTC method.

Brass contributes much to KTC, spending a fair share of time in the 1,2 and 3 word posts and this or that, but where I see Brass mostly is in chat, supporting and recruiting new quit and preaching the KTC mantra of Brotherhood and Accountability=Success, Brass don't just preach it, he lives it daily as a 100% poster making his promise early each day.

Day 64-I think you ass hammers are stuck with me. Although none of you hang out in live chat (where I spent most of my time), I still love you all. I hope everyone sticks around.

So get on board Brasswhole, throw your necktie in the trash and make yourself comfortable, we have fine tea and Martini's waiting for you as you listen to the special record player we picked up for the theater room just for your enjoyment!
-Prohunter  Mrlentz

SSOA

February Cult of Quit
Name	Day's Quit  Promise
Drome	3024. grats there brass and law.
Pab1964	788 sorry been fishing
JetPack48	day 121 quit
Bokie	day 119 - Congrats to Law and Brass, 2 guys I'm proud to be quit with! See you both on the chat! I quit with Feb CoQ
Viking	115 incredibly honored to be on the train with Brass and Law on their HOF day. congrats!
Maverick705	114. Congrats law and brass! I quit with you guys today and the rest of the CoQ.
Zippahdeedodah	114. Congrats law and brass. You guys are awesome. Thanks for all the azz chewing
scottludwig	113 Law Brass wouldn't want to do it eac day without you. Congrats!
tljent79	112 and congrats to Brass  Law....you guys are rockstar quitters!!
Wildbirds	Yeehaw on day 113 as we bring in Brass and Law (sounds like a law firm or a bail bonds joint, HAHA). I quit with all of you today.
Jeff W	Day 112 - Congrats Law and Brass! (bump fix)
Offshore Man	111 posting for him d/t internet issues.
DJF5858	110 - Congrats Law and Brass proud to be quit with you both
Bill Dance	109....law and Brass are awesome quitters and welcome to the HOF!!
KillingCans	Day 106 with the Cult - congratulations Brass and Law!!
Zombie Jak	Day 105 - Congrats to Brass and Law!
Frobozz	- 103 - with our newest HoF members Law and Brasswhole! Bully for Law and Brasswhole! ;o)
StepUpToTheMatt	103 - Grats to 2 of my favorites xoxoxo
Garett	Day 102. good job law and brass
ChadPA	Day 101 ...congrats Brass and Law
Brasswhole	100
Law1358	100 with the cult..Thank you to all of my new family on here!! Couldn't of been done without you
Fowldawg	day 98. Congrats to my buddy above me ^
Chambro	Day 97 WTG Law and Brass (bump fix)
Dwight	97
ndrugby	95 Congrats Law and Brass

Support from other Bad Ass Quitters:
Prohunter 162-Quit with the CoQ's ODAAT!
MrLentz 163 Quit with the Cult
HG 150 with Brass  Law today. Congrats you two- I'm extremely proud of you guys and honored to quit with you. ODAAT! ODAAT! OODAT!
Mike 1657 - congrats Brass and Law!
Bicycleptic 405 with Frobozz, Viking and the cult
KennyZ 834
Tonifer 151 Quit with the Cult- congrats Law and Brass on HOF
Miker0351 - 196 with judge dredd (because he is the law) and brass. Congrats
WW 416
FLLIP 216 quit with Viking and the BA HOF'ers Law and Brass today. WTG guys!!!
J-Heff 294. I'm quit with Brasswhole (Congrats on HOF man!!) and JeffW
FISHFLORIDA 275 ^^quit with his Meme Sendin' Ass . I am proud to say that today I am quit with Law and Brass. Law, thanks for sending your number and memes every day. you have helped to keep me quit as well. Great Job conductors. Quit with Feb
LMM 160 with Febrero
wildirish317 364 Grats Brass and Law on HOF!!!
Patriot 147
pky1520 day 297 Congrats to two BAQs Brass and Law on hitting 100 days!
MN = 304 with Viking, Scott, OffshoreMan and the Cult
Chick 696 with Birdy, tljent, Matt, BrAss, dwight, bokie, Viking and the Cult  their conductors mrlentz and Pro. Congrats LAW  Brass !.
McCoy 265 with Law, Viking, Bokie, and the Cult. 'Grats Law and Brass on making HOF!
Palpatine - Day 414 of freedom
Batdad - Day 51 with Viking and Jeff
backwoods 413 with Viking
AC-55 with the HOFers
PMILS 254- I promise to not use today with Viking, Maverick, WildBirds, Law, Brass and the CULT. Congrats you TWINS on HOF!!

[pab1964]

Congrats on your 100 days!
And a great read in here too!
Keep it up!

Congrats on 100! You are kicking ass one day at a time.

Way to go Law! Proud to be quit with you!!

Doing great! Congratulations on a huge milestone! One of many to come!

[PMILS]

Congrats on your 100 days!
And a great read in here too!
Keep it up!

Congrats on 100! You are kicking ass one day at a time.

Way to go Law! Proud to be quit with you!!

[walterwhite]

Congrats on your 100 days!
And a great read in here too!
Keep it up!

Congrats on 100! You are kicking ass one day at a time.

[Law1358]

Thank You ChickDip..You are truly an inspiration to many of us. Thank You alot for your support

[ChickDip]

Congrats on your 100 days!
And a great read in here too!
Keep it up!

[Law1358]

Its been awhile since Ive updated my intro. I am on day 85.I have usually updated my intro with victories of beating strong craves, but as of late I have been having fairly easy victories. I am currently going through some very tough stress at work. Its the kind of stress that would make for an easy cave if i didnt have KTC. I can honestly say, that the craves have been easy to beat in my 70-80's funk. I think I am fortunate to be going through this time while watching my group board the HOF Train. I get excited to celebrate my groups achievements, and it continues to make me stay close to this site every day. I have also developed some new relationships with new quitters and it is amazing at how much it helps me with my quit as well.I have tried to help many new quitters, but thismay group have been the first ones that I have personally helped that have been serious about their quit.They are helping me way more than I could understand. I know that I will never be cured, but I wanted to document a series of good times in my quit, and not just the tough times that I have beat. I will continue to post EDD, and keep beating this disease one day at a time

[Law1358]

Another victory in my quit that I want to document in my intro..Posted to my group as well. This was on Day 54 of my quit


Wow!! I had a JeffW kinda night and stayed up til 4 am with whiskey and a bonfire at a buddies house..I'm paying for it today, but some great victories came from it. We were actually having our friend Christmas party where all of my old college buddies and family get together or come into town.i was surprised early in the evening when one of my buddies brought cigars for everyone!

Now, I absolutely despise smoking..I have never touched a cigarette in my life! But I love a good tasting cigar from time to time with friends on big occasions.i don't even inhale the cigar..Just like the taste. I was knocked back and kind of panicked last night when this happened.ive been so focused on quitting dip that this jumped out and just completely took me by surprise. I started telling myself" you never had an addiction problem to cigars,and plus..I don't even inhale the smoke" I can do this and still be fine from my quit( and to be honest..This is true!! I don't how to explain it, but it wasn't a craving for the taste, but just wanting to to be apart of the group)... My buddies have been supportive in me quitting dip, but they tried hard to get me to smoke that cigar with them saying the same things already going through my head. I told them " I can't do it, my quit is too important to even risk with a puff of cigar..And plus I don't think I could truly call myself quit from nicotine anymore..So I shut nicotine down last night with that statement
If that wasn't enough..One of my friends is a distributor for longhorn..My gift from him was 4 of the big tubs of longcut Wintergreen.( He didn't know I was quit). I opened up the gift..Laughed and I said quit brother..He laughed and said that's awesome..So I guess I got you the wrong gift this year..Lol. it wasn't even hard to turn those tubs down...I was very proud and loved that kicked nicotines ass last night while also being drunk around a big bonfire with my best friend's..It was a great victory

[Law1358]

Another victory in my quit that I want to document in my intro..Posted to my group as well. This was on Day 54 of my quit


Wow!! I had a JeffW kinda night and stayed up til 4 am with whiskey and a bonfire at a buddies house..I'm paying for it today, but some great victories came from it. We were actually having our friend Christmas party where all of my old college buddies and family get together or come into town.i was surprised early in the evening when one of my buddies brought cigars for everyone!

Now, I absolutely despise smoking..I have never touched a cigarette in my life! But I love a good tasting cigar from time to time with friends on big occasions.i don't even inhale the cigar..Just like the taste. I was knocked back and kind of panicked last night when this happened.ive been so focused on quitting dip that this jumped out and just completely took me by surprise. I started telling myself" you never had an addiction problem to cigars,and plus..I don't even inhale the smoke" I can do this and still be fine from my quit( and to be honest..This is true!! I don't how to explain it, but it wasn't a craving for the taste, but just wanting to to be apart of the group)... My buddies have been supportive in me quitting dip, but they tried hard to get me to smoke that cigar with them saying the same things already going through my head. I told them " I can't do it, my quit is too important to even risk with a puff of cigar..And plus I don't think I could truly call myself quit from nicotine anymore..So I shut nicotine down last night with that statement
If that wasn't enough..One of my friends is a distributor for longhorn..My gift from him was 4 of the big tubs of longcut Wintergreen.( He didn't know I was quit). I opened up the gift..Laughed and I said quit brother..He laughed and said that's awesome..So I guess I got you the wrong gift this year..Lol. it wasn't even hard to turn those tubs down...I was very proud and loved that kicked nicotines ass last night while also being drunk around a big bonfire with my best friend's..It was a great victory

[Law1358]

An update on my quit as today was a pretty big day in my quit.

I tried quitting on my own before I found KTC, and just like everyone none of those attempts panned out. I am on my 37th day of being quit right now. I try to count each moment where I know I would have caved without KTC to keep me humble and to keep drinking the kool-aid this place has to offer. Today was my 6th day that I knew I would have caved, and my 3rd time since my quit where i went into a panic. I have been kicking this quits ass so far, and this is the 3rd time after Ive gotten comfortable..the craving came back at me HARD!!!!

To make a long story short..my wife seriously pissed me off this morning while she was out shopping and I was home getting ready to meet her, After a phone Conversation that had me so pissed off and about to go out of control. I was so mad..my mind immediatly went to lets get a dip mode (After 37 days of no nicotine..thats the first place my mind went to)..im talking about it was the panic mode of needing a dip late in the night and your can is empty and you need to drive an hour to the store to get your dip kind of craving. I knew this was not an option.. I typed out a rant in my phone..and was going to send it to every person I have digits for.. (I didnt send out the text in particular order, just stratight down my contact list) I got to about the 5th person, and I already had 2 people from KTC replying to me. I started texting with them, and then had another 2 replying. I instantly started to calm down. Ive never calmed down that quick in my life when i'm that pissed off at something. It is amazing what that simple rant text did to 5 people ive never met in my life before, but feel just as close to them as I do my Closest friends. I went and met my wife and she couldnt believe that I was now in a good mood when I got to her. Weve had a great day, and I havent thought about a dip since.

I tell this story, to say this: Ive been reading alot, and several people dont like to conform to the rules that are layed out for us at KTC. There are alot of times that I read what people say, and ask myself if I believe in everything the way KTC wants you to do it. I do know this though:
I post roll early every day
I have been active with members in my group
I have reached out to veterans and members of our group through the phone
And I have not even come close to caving through the hardest of craves that I have had in these first 37 days of being quit. I will continue to follow this model, because I will not become a statistic of someone who hits a 100 days and thinks they are cured. I will not become someone who thinks just because it has been easy here lately that I do not need this place. I love being quit and I am going to do anything to stay that way.. I see why the vets get so angry when they dont see someone taking their quit serious...its as serious as life and death and Im glad i found this place.

A special Thank You to you guys that helped me out today..You know who you are, and the People that I didnt get my text out too..i thank you for being their in spirit..I was trying to contact you all, but got someserious response before i could get it sent to everybody...especially you fishflorida, I didnt get to reach out to you but know you would have been there easily

[Law1358]

Ok, Today is my 33rd Day Quit. The number 33 has a very special meaning to me. About 3 and 1/2 years ago, Our football Team lost one of our own in a freak accident.He wore the #33. It was going to be his senior year. He loved playing football more than anything, and He was one of my runningbacks. To say he was a great kid would be an understatement. I personally thought of him as my own as I do with all the kids that I become close with. As a coaching staff, we made a promise on his death bed in the hospital to win a state championship for him. I know football is a not that a big of a deal in the grand sceme of things, but it just felt right to make him that promise.
We are always competitive, but had never won the whole thing before. That year was a special year..and the #33 led us to a State Championship. Our Team Hotel was on 33rd St. in New Orleans, We averaged 33 Points a game in the playoffs, we scored exactly 33 points in the state championship game. Not to get religious with everyone, but God showed up and revealed himself to us that night. I sent a picture of me with my running backs and his jersey to some of my quit brothers this morning. His name was Jaleel and he Was the posterboard for will power and what it meant to work hard for what you want. I think about him everyday, and the number 33 is a big part of my life. If I continue to attack my quit the same way he attacked life, I will be successful. I would trade that championship in a heartbeat to have him back with us. I am going to win another Championship today in your honor of staying quit from a horrible addiction today.

I know this site is about quitting for yourself first, Today there is no way that I will cave. I am quitting for Jaleel on this 33rd day of my quit, along with the rest of my brothers and sisters on this site. I know this post isnt really dip related, but This day will hold a very special meaning for me on my quit. Stay strong in your quit everyone!!!

That's powerful, Law.

I quit with you on your 33rd day, and all days.

Thank you harvest!!

[harvestgirl]

Ok, Today is my 33rd Day Quit. The number 33 has a very special meaning to me. About 3 and 1/2 years ago, Our football Team lost one of our own in a freak accident.He wore the #33. It was going to be his senior year. He loved playing football more than anything, and He was one of my runningbacks. To say he was a great kid would be an understatement. I personally thought of him as my own as I do with all the kids that I become close with. As a coaching staff, we made a promise on his death bed in the hospital to win a state championship for him. I know football is a not that a big of a deal in the grand sceme of things, but it just felt right to make him that promise.
We are always competitive, but had never won the whole thing before. That year was a special year..and the #33 led us to a State Championship. Our Team Hotel was on 33rd St. in New Orleans, We averaged 33 Points a game in the playoffs, we scored exactly 33 points in the state championship game. Not to get religious with everyone, but God showed up and revealed himself to us that night. I sent a picture of me with my running backs and his jersey to some of my quit brothers this morning. His name was Jaleel and he Was the posterboard for will power and what it meant to work hard for what you want. I think about him everyday, and the number 33 is a big part of my life. If I continue to attack my quit the same way he attacked life, I will be successful. I would trade that championship in a heartbeat to have him back with us. I am going to win another Championship today in your honor of staying quit from a horrible addiction today.

I know this site is about quitting for yourself first, Today there is no way that I will cave. I am quitting for Jaleel on this 33rd day of my quit, along with the rest of my brothers and sisters on this site. I know this post isnt really dip related, but This day will hold a very special meaning for me on my quit. Stay strong in your quit everyone!!!

That's powerful, Law.

I quit with you on your 33rd day, and all days.