Update on my Quit:
The past week has been brutal, and today has been a great day for some reason. I found myself reading through alot of introductions yesterday and today and realised I need to update mine, and realised how some of the people i have met story's are almost identically the same as mine.. i post an intro but im post a timeline from the week before I quit to now:
A week before my Quit(Nov.6 through-Nov.13)
As some may know I am High School Football Coach. I am an offensive coordinator for a prestigeous program here in Louisiana. we won the State Championship 2 years ago, and we are always right there in the mix every season. High School Football is like college ball down here, you get fired if you dont win. We have a young team and have struggled this year and we blew a 2 TD Lead late in 4th qtr of opening round in the playoffs during this week. Career wise, this is one of the lowest moments ive ever been and the this years season went a lot like that. I probaly had a dip in my mouth all hours of the day except for when i ate from August until Now. I would spit one out, put another in.. and I was not far from dipping that much everyday for past 12 years. that Monday after the loss, My 1 year old son almost spilt my spit over him about to try to drink it(I know, how freaking disgusting). Life at that point kicked me in the balls was preparing to keep doing it if i didnt take action. Nicotine was the driving force behind Life kicking down..I have to fix it.
First week of Quit:
I really kicked ass first week of quit.I quit that Tuesday, and I was very motivated by this quit. I was motivated so much by quit, it took the sting of going back to work after that loss away.Those first 1-5 Days I was killing it. I found KTC on the 2nd day of my quit. I thought, Ive quit before and ended up going back, I need all the help I can get. Best decision of my life. I post role everyday, i got digits from one person who I thought was pretty cool listening to his stories, but I thought to myself. Im gonna keep doing this site, but I dont really need it. Im plenty motivated to stay quit. On Day 6, I just got back from hunting Camp ( which was a big milestone of not dipping there the whole weekend.) I was home alone watching football, and I found a can fall out of a jacket that I had put on the day. I had been kicking nicotines ass, and then all in one instance. this beautiful can of Timberwolf fell into my chair. I prayed it was empty, but it had one magical dip left in it. Everybody here that has been quit long enough or has tried it before knows nic trick of (1 dip wont hurt). I immediatly dropped it, immediatly text viking, and went straight to a gym to workout. i worked out for 3 hours trying to that dip out of mind. I called my wife while working out and told her to take that can and drive it to a dumpster that i didnt know about and throw it away.
2nd week of Quit:
Just having the number of a fellow KTC Brother saved my quit that night. My word and my honor of integrity are 2 of the most important things in my life behind my family. In that moment..I did not want to let viking down, I did not want to let all those people that I had already read their stroies down. I though to myself ( what a pussy and what kind of man I would be to go back on word to the people of KTC) if you dont think posting role means anything, you need to check your morals of your own integrity. If your word is important to you. posting that role will save your life. Week 2 of the Quit has been full of anxiety and the Fog. ever since I found that can I cannot quit thing of it. My word to my group and the people i have digits for saved me during this week.
3rd week of Quit:
I am only half way through it, but the last 2 days have been like most of week 2. Until Yesterday, There was quite a bit of talk on holding someone accountable in my quit group for posting role and exchanging digits. I thought to myself, man where would i be if i didnt excange that number. I dont even really talk to them that much, but just having the number gave me backup that day i wouldnt of have had. I began reading the entire site again just like i did in my first 5 days of my quit when I was killing it. Today, For the first time since I found that can, I feel like im kicking ass again. I woke up feeling great this morning, and ready to keep attacking this world without a dip in my mouth. I know the ups and downs are gonna come. the common denominator of the ups so far has been KTC along with the few relationships I have built thus far.
I apologize if this is hard to read from a grammatical standpoint. I had type really fast, and throw thoughts in there as I was coming up with them. I just felt I really needed to post right now, but I had to get this post in before my next class starts..lol....stay quit everybody..I Love Ya'll and proud to be quit with you
