60 Hours In............

[Ginet]

Been craving pretty hard the past couple days so I wanted to log it in here on my intro thread. Can't even believe I am at 280 days and the past 2 days have felt like the first damn week again. I have been sucking on Jolly Ranchers, chewing Juicy Fruit and spitting Pickle Seeds like a mad man the last 2 days at work. Had a hellacious dream last night that I caved and was rolling with a big old cat turd in and smoking cigarettes of all things. Then I had all kinds of feelings of regret and sadness at my weakness. The I was trying to figure out how to crawl back here to KTC and admit the cave but I didn't feel like I was strong enough to do that. It was a crazy dream, vivid! Woke up in a cold sweat, thinking what the hell had I done, throwing away 280 days. Then I realized it was just a damn dream. Anyway I wanted to log this for reference in the future and for all those out there that might be battling the wicked Nicotine Whore. Bottom line is I am still Quit and even though its been a bear lately I have the tools to keep beating her down thanks to KTC.

Hey Menace I'm just a bit ahead of you at 300 and change and I had a really rough patch around 250 to 275 or so. You have the right approach- we have the tools and can slap the bitch back when she shows back up. I thin it's sort of good to get tested now and then - keeps you a little less complacent at least. I don't want to be that guy caving at 800+, and I know you dont either. Let's just keep kicking this thing daily! Sugar free cinnamon candies get me through the tough spots.

Sugar free cinnamon Candies got him thru it...Sugar free cinnamon candies and a lot of cawk

Word is Bruce knows first hand 'winker'

Hang tough Menace. We need ya brother. Shout if you need help.

Thanks Fellas, today was a good day in comparison to the past few so hoping I got past this little funk.

You also came here for help......that is quitting and winning. Tons of hands out there ready to help....grab one....just one....and you be fine man! Fuck you funk. Quit on.

[Menace]

Been craving pretty hard the past couple days so I wanted to log it in here on my intro thread. Can't even believe I am at 280 days and the past 2 days have felt like the first damn week again. I have been sucking on Jolly Ranchers, chewing Juicy Fruit and spitting Pickle Seeds like a mad man the last 2 days at work. Had a hellacious dream last night that I caved and was rolling with a big old cat turd in and smoking cigarettes of all things. Then I had all kinds of feelings of regret and sadness at my weakness. The I was trying to figure out how to crawl back here to KTC and admit the cave but I didn't feel like I was strong enough to do that. It was a crazy dream, vivid! Woke up in a cold sweat, thinking what the hell had I done, throwing away 280 days. Then I realized it was just a damn dream. Anyway I wanted to log this for reference in the future and for all those out there that might be battling the wicked Nicotine Whore. Bottom line is I am still Quit and even though its been a bear lately I have the tools to keep beating her down thanks to KTC.

Hey Menace I'm just a bit ahead of you at 300 and change and I had a really rough patch around 250 to 275 or so. You have the right approach- we have the tools and can slap the bitch back when she shows back up. I thin it's sort of good to get tested now and then - keeps you a little less complacent at least. I don't want to be that guy caving at 800+, and I know you dont either. Let's just keep kicking this thing daily! Sugar free cinnamon candies get me through the tough spots.

Sugar free cinnamon Candies got him thru it...Sugar free cinnamon candies and a lot of cawk

Word is Bruce knows first hand 'winker'

Hang tough Menace. We need ya brother. Shout if you need help.

Thanks Fellas, today was a good day in comparison to the past few so hoping I got past this little funk.

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Been craving pretty hard the past couple days so I wanted to log it in here on my intro thread. Can't even believe I am at 280 days and the past 2 days have felt like the first damn week again. I have been sucking on Jolly Ranchers, chewing Juicy Fruit and spitting Pickle Seeds like a mad man the last 2 days at work. Had a hellacious dream last night that I caved and was rolling with a big old cat turd in and smoking cigarettes of all things. Then I had all kinds of feelings of regret and sadness at my weakness. The I was trying to figure out how to crawl back here to KTC and admit the cave but I didn't feel like I was strong enough to do that. It was a crazy dream, vivid! Woke up in a cold sweat, thinking what the hell had I done, throwing away 280 days. Then I realized it was just a damn dream. Anyway I wanted to log this for reference in the future and for all those out there that might be battling the wicked Nicotine Whore. Bottom line is I am still Quit and even though its been a bear lately I have the tools to keep beating her down thanks to KTC.

Hey Menace I'm just a bit ahead of you at 300 and change and I had a really rough patch around 250 to 275 or so. You have the right approach- we have the tools and can slap the bitch back when she shows back up. I thin it's sort of good to get tested now and then - keeps you a little less complacent at least. I don't want to be that guy caving at 800+, and I know you dont either. Let's just keep kicking this thing daily! Sugar free cinnamon candies get me through the tough spots.

Sugar free cinnamon Candies got him thru it...Sugar free cinnamon candies and a lot of cawk

Word is Bruce knows first hand 'winker'

Hang tough Menace. We need ya brother. Shout if you need help.

[bigwhitebeast]

Been craving pretty hard the past couple days so I wanted to log it in here on my intro thread. Can't even believe I am at 280 days and the past 2 days have felt like the first damn week again. I have been sucking on Jolly Ranchers, chewing Juicy Fruit and spitting Pickle Seeds like a mad man the last 2 days at work. Had a hellacious dream last night that I caved and was rolling with a big old cat turd in and smoking cigarettes of all things. Then I had all kinds of feelings of regret and sadness at my weakness. The I was trying to figure out how to crawl back here to KTC and admit the cave but I didn't feel like I was strong enough to do that. It was a crazy dream, vivid! Woke up in a cold sweat, thinking what the hell had I done, throwing away 280 days. Then I realized it was just a damn dream. Anyway I wanted to log this for reference in the future and for all those out there that might be battling the wicked Nicotine Whore. Bottom line is I am still Quit and even though its been a bear lately I have the tools to keep beating her down thanks to KTC.

Hey Menace I'm just a bit ahead of you at 300 and change and I had a really rough patch around 250 to 275 or so. You have the right approach- we have the tools and can slap the bitch back when she shows back up. I thin it's sort of good to get tested now and then - keeps you a little less complacent at least. I don't want to be that guy caving at 800+, and I know you dont either. Let's just keep kicking this thing daily! Sugar free cinnamon candies get me through the tough spots.

Sugar free cinnamon Candies got him thru it...Sugar free cinnamon candies and a lot of cawk

Word is Bruce knows first hand 'winker'

[Bruce]

Been craving pretty hard the past couple days so I wanted to log it in here on my intro thread. Can't even believe I am at 280 days and the past 2 days have felt like the first damn week again. I have been sucking on Jolly Ranchers, chewing Juicy Fruit and spitting Pickle Seeds like a mad man the last 2 days at work. Had a hellacious dream last night that I caved and was rolling with a big old cat turd in and smoking cigarettes of all things. Then I had all kinds of feelings of regret and sadness at my weakness. The I was trying to figure out how to crawl back here to KTC and admit the cave but I didn't feel like I was strong enough to do that. It was a crazy dream, vivid! Woke up in a cold sweat, thinking what the hell had I done, throwing away 280 days. Then I realized it was just a damn dream. Anyway I wanted to log this for reference in the future and for all those out there that might be battling the wicked Nicotine Whore. Bottom line is I am still Quit and even though its been a bear lately I have the tools to keep beating her down thanks to KTC.

Hey Menace I'm just a bit ahead of you at 300 and change and I had a really rough patch around 250 to 275 or so. You have the right approach- we have the tools and can slap the bitch back when she shows back up. I thin it's sort of good to get tested now and then - keeps you a little less complacent at least. I don't want to be that guy caving at 800+, and I know you dont either. Let's just keep kicking this thing daily! Sugar free cinnamon candies get me through the tough spots.

Sugar free cinnamon Candies got him thru it...Sugar free cinnamon candies and a lot of cawk

[brettlees]

Been craving pretty hard the past couple days so I wanted to log it in here on my intro thread. Can't even believe I am at 280 days and the past 2 days have felt like the first damn week again. I have been sucking on Jolly Ranchers, chewing Juicy Fruit and spitting Pickle Seeds like a mad man the last 2 days at work. Had a hellacious dream last night that I caved and was rolling with a big old cat turd in and smoking cigarettes of all things. Then I had all kinds of feelings of regret and sadness at my weakness. The I was trying to figure out how to crawl back here to KTC and admit the cave but I didn't feel like I was strong enough to do that. It was a crazy dream, vivid! Woke up in a cold sweat, thinking what the hell had I done, throwing away 280 days. Then I realized it was just a damn dream. Anyway I wanted to log this for reference in the future and for all those out there that might be battling the wicked Nicotine Whore. Bottom line is I am still Quit and even though its been a bear lately I have the tools to keep beating her down thanks to KTC.

Hey Menace I'm just a bit ahead of you at 300 and change and I had a really rough patch around 250 to 275 or so. You have the right approach- we have the tools and can slap the bitch back when she shows back up. I thin it's sort of good to get tested now and then - keeps you a little less complacent at least. I don't want to be that guy caving at 800+, and I know you dont either. Let's just keep kicking this thing daily! Sugar free cinnamon candies get me through the tough spots.

[Menace]

Been craving pretty hard the past couple days so I wanted to log it in here on my intro thread. Can't even believe I am at 280 days and the past 2 days have felt like the first damn week again. I have been sucking on Jolly Ranchers, chewing Juicy Fruit and spitting Pickle Seeds like a mad man the last 2 days at work. Had a hellacious dream last night that I caved and was rolling with a big old cat turd in and smoking cigarettes of all things. Then I had all kinds of feelings of regret and sadness at my weakness. The I was trying to figure out how to crawl back here to KTC and admit the cave but I didn't feel like I was strong enough to do that. It was a crazy dream, vivid! Woke up in a cold sweat, thinking what the hell had I done, throwing away 280 days. Then I realized it was just a damn dream. Anyway I wanted to log this for reference in the future and for all those out there that might be battling the wicked Nicotine Whore. Bottom line is I am still Quit and even though its been a bear lately I have the tools to keep beating her down thanks to KTC.

[Menace]

Rolling Log entry here on day 245. I have been a bit more active on the site lately and this is likely due to a couple things. One paying it forward is an excellent reward in itself and second the act of helping others in their quit is helping me even more I think. I am not sure what it is, but the last couple weeks have been a bitch. My craves have been really strong and take some work to kick the shit out of. Reading my last post, I went through a small stretch back almost 100 days ago but these past couple weeks the craves have been maybe the strongest I have had since the first 100 days. You would think that at day 245 it would be much easier, but it has not been. Have no fear, my quit is solid but it is not without work. We have been dealing with a lot of caver's and some turmoil around here lately but for any newbies reading this, KTC works. Follow the rules, listen to the solid quitters on the board and POST ROLL. Realize that this is a life long battle you fight anew every day!

I am an addict, I am an addict, I am an addict, I am an addict, I am an addict of the Nicotine Whore...........To stay free I will fight the war one battle at a time, one day at a time. Thanks to KTC and all my fellow quitters!

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

I wanted to add to this yesterday but stuff just got in the way and the day was over. Anyway just a quick journal entry for myself and anyone else who might be interested. I guess this entry is an acknowledgement as to the power of the Nic Whore. I was at work on Thursday 5/1 and at around 9pm I stepped out of my car and began to reach for "my can" in the cargo packet that I carried it in for 14 years at work. As I was just about to slip my hand into my pocket with the full intention of grabbing the can, my brain snapped to attention and I thought WTF dude, there is no can in there. I thought about it for a little while afterward and couldn't hardly wrap my mind around the addictiveness of nicotine. Here I am 163 days free of the slave driver and she still has the ability to completely fool my brain into thinking I want her yet. It was one of the stronger craves I have had in the past month or two for sure. I popped a fireball and all was right with the world and I have not given the girl a second thought until writing this today. So does she ever completely disappear from your life? No! Does the war truly end? Nope! The goal is to win each little battle everyday and enjoy the days that the dogs of war take a break. The days you don't have to fight much to stay free of the whore. Those are the days we battle for. Stay vigilant!!!!!!

Way to hang Menace. I know exactly what you're talking about. The nic bitch whispers and you have to smack her away. Proud to quit with you brother.

[Menace]

I wanted to add to this yesterday but stuff just got in the way and the day was over. Anyway just a quick journal entry for myself and anyone else who might be interested. I guess this entry is an acknowledgement as to the power of the Nic Whore. I was at work on Thursday 5/1 and at around 9pm I stepped out of my car and began to reach for "my can" in the cargo packet that I carried it in for 14 years at work. As I was just about to slip my hand into my pocket with the full intention of grabbing the can, my brain snapped to attention and I thought WTF dude, there is no can in there. I thought about it for a little while afterward and couldn't hardly wrap my mind around the addictiveness of nicotine. Here I am 163 days free of the slave driver and she still has the ability to completely fool my brain into thinking I want her yet. It was one of the stronger craves I have had in the past month or two for sure. I popped a fireball and all was right with the world and I have not given the girl a second thought until writing this today. So does she ever completely disappear from your life? No! Does the war truly end? Nope! The goal is to win each little battle everyday and enjoy the days that the dogs of war take a break. The days you don't have to fight much to stay free of the whore. Those are the days we battle for. Stay vigilant!!!!!!

[srans]

Another entry for my personal use I guess. I was just perusing photos with my family on the computer and saw numerous pics with the tell tale fat lip. What a fuck wad I was, looking like a dumb shit with the turd in my lip. Reminded me of just one of the reasons I quit!

Loved hearing the story about you kicking the nic bitch at day 110 as she raised her ugly head once more. Reinforces the fact that she is never really gone, huh?
You are an inspiration!
I too saw some old photos of myself the other day and it was down right embarrassing to see my dumb ass floating around in the lake with family and friends with a big old turd in my mouth.
Proud to be quit with you. Thanks for blazing the trail!

Like you I have the same problem. When I quit I had many photos with the poison in them. The poison was more important than anything to me. Why not have a photo with it and my family. 'bang head'

I was so proud of my addiction I would stop at red lights, open the door and let it fly with family in the vehicle. 'bang head'

I was so proud of my poison that it shared all my dinners, family events, boat rides, car rides, roller coaster rides. I didn't do anything without the poison. 'bang head'

A lot of quitters have problems with this trigger or that trigger. Well, my biggest trigger was my eyes being opened. If I wasn't sleeping I was chewing. 'bang head'

For 395 I haven't been doing any of the above and it feels so good. We are free my friend. Taking new pictures and enjoying family events more than ever. Actually listening to the family talk without wondering when i'm going to be able to sneak a chew. Now I look back and i'm disgusted also. There is not enough time left in our lives to make up for the dumb sh@@ we've done. Lets make the best of the rest! Quit with you today.

[Doc Chewfree]

Another entry for my personal use I guess. I was just perusing photos with my family on the computer and saw numerous pics with the tell tale fat lip. What a fuck wad I was, looking like a dumb shit with the turd in my lip. Reminded me of just one of the reasons I quit!

Loved hearing the story about you kicking the nic bitch at day 110 as she raised her ugly head once more. Reinforces the fact that she is never really gone, huh?
You are an inspiration!
I too saw some old photos of myself the other day and it was down right embarrassing to see my dumb ass floating around in the lake with family and friends with a big old turd in my mouth.
Proud to be quit with you. Thanks for blazing the trail!

[Menace]

Another entry for my personal use I guess. I was just perusing photos with my family on the computer and saw numerous pics with the tell tale fat lip. What a fuck wad I was, looking like a dumb shit with the turd in my lip. Reminded me of just one of the reasons I quit!

[Menace]

I was reading a couple other intro threads and it reminded me that I needed to add to mine for posterity. I had intentions on doing this at Day 110 into my quit because it was crazy day. I had a couple of the strongest craves since the suck. I actually reached for my pocket to grab my can.... 'Crazy' I thought WTF, I'm a HOF'er.... I stomped her down fairly easy but she tried again an hour later hitting me with another hard crave. I actually had to fireball it, which I have not done for a very very long time. Well that was the end of it that day and the battle was won, but it reinforced to me how important KTC is in my quit and was a inspiration for my HOF Speech of the significance  insignificance of 100 days Quit. Bottom line is I am an addict and always will be an addict. Any newbie's reading this you would do well to remember that and keep KTC close even when you become a HOF'er......

QLF with you all today!

[rdad]

It has been quite a while since I added anything to this thread. I just wanted to jot down a few thoughts for future reference I guess for myself or others and also to be truthfully honest with myself I have had a shit load of craves today and this is therapeutic for me.

I am on Day 84 today as I type this and I think I have entered into what I have seen referred to on KTC as the 80's funk. My craves today have been fairly frequent if not strong anyway. I have kicked the bitch in the teeth each time but she has been consistent. Damn whore........I've been waiting for her to whisper in my ear though so I have been getting ready for this funk. I think, I am good, no scratch that I am good. Sorry Nic, you will not win here today or any day so GTFO........I can smell the HOF now and will then look to hit the 2nd floor......You only quit once!

Anyway for any new quitters out there that might read this and think oh shit he is still getting craves at 80+ days, don't fret it is not as bad as the SUCK. Also,  KTC just fricken works people, follow the protocol, post roll and be serious about your quit. You do that and you will be a quitter. Its not easy but has anything worthwhile in your life been easy?

Well thats all for this rant...........ODAAT  QLF to everyone!

Way to fight brother!!

This is how you win right here.

Hey Menace--Perfect.

Nice Menace!
I am 4 days behind you and I have been having to grind hard too lately. Harder than anything since the first two weeks. We have come this far, I say we might as well keep going and see what's up ahead. We sure as hell know what is behind us. (I want no more of that life!) Quit on brother! ;Ironman: