4weeks in need help

[Thumblewort]

I wish you luck for the baby, but not on the quit. Luck has nothing to do with quitting like fuck, and you and I can do that ODAAT. I quit with you today, and blessings to your soon to be new family member!

[Bigbob]

Thanks. So is there a strategy behind it or do u just send random members of your group a pm and start to get to know them? Thanks everyone. The anxiety has me right on the edge today. Not over it but right on it. Going to my last scheduled checkup for the baby before the due date this afternoon. Wish me luck

[brettlees]

At the upper right of the screen you will see a link to your inbox. That's how to get to pm. You can also search for other quitters there. Or click on their name then select an option to pm them. It wi come together. Glad you are learning and feeling good about this decision to live free from the evil poison.

[Diesel2112]

Guys I can't thank you all enough for posting I her and giving me advice. Today was a real roller coaster. Felt decent and felt horrible coming in waves all day. I have found that the busier I am the better it is in general. I came home form a long day at work and tried to clean up the house and brought wifeys car to the corner to vacuum and clean it all out. Gotta figure out how this baby seat thing works. I thought that this would be done with well before the baby came but it looks like I'm gunna have to sac up and use the tools your guys are giving me to tackle this.

I want to let you all know that you helped me out a lot today. Diesel I started reading ur intro and I get another page or two when I need to get away for a minute and have a brake at work. Real goofy reading that coming from another person. It is almost exactly what I am going threw. Down to the fact that I lurked and left because I was scared by others posting well into a quit about their troubles. Even weirder my real name is Craig, I live in michigan and I'm a diesel mechanic haha. I used everybody's words of wisdom when it got rough. I drank a shit load of water, I told myself out loud that feeling like this means that I am winning. When I get that feeling of anxiety about how long before I can say iv never felt so good, like I expected to after I quit, I put on the brakes and worry about today. I am one more day quit. Thank you all and please keep the words of wisdom coming.

I'm still not exactly sure how to get to know my quit group. Is that all through pm? Do I need to sign up for chat? I don't see anything but roll. (Which iv successfully muffed up both times , sry guys) in the quit group. Thanks again everyone

Hang in there Bob/Craig. You're going to learn a lot about yourself. You may not like some of the findings, but it's necessary to re-find the real you.

You got this. Just keep grinding away, one day at a time.

Quit on...

[Bigbob]

Guys I can't thank you all enough for posting I her and giving me advice. Today was a real roller coaster. Felt decent and felt horrible coming in waves all day. I have found that the busier I am the better it is in general. I came home form a long day at work and tried to clean up the house and brought wifeys car to the corner to vacuum and clean it all out. Gotta figure out how this baby seat thing works. I thought that this would be done with well before the baby came but it looks like I'm gunna have to sac up and use the tools your guys are giving me to tackle this.

I want to let you all know that you helped me out a lot today. Diesel I started reading ur intro and I get another page or two when I need to get away for a minute and have a brake at work. Real goofy reading that coming from another person. It is almost exactly what I am going threw. Down to the fact that I lurked and left because I was scared by others posting well into a quit about their troubles. Even weirder my real name is Craig, I live in michigan and I'm a diesel mechanic haha. I used everybody's words of wisdom when it got rough. I drank a shit load of water, I told myself out loud that feeling like this means that I am winning. When I get that feeling of anxiety about how long before I can say iv never felt so good, like I expected to after I quit, I put on the brakes and worry about today. I am one more day quit. Thank you all and please keep the words of wisdom coming.

I'm still not exactly sure how to get to know my quit group. Is that all through pm? Do I need to sign up for chat? I don't see anything but roll. (Which iv successfully muffed up both times , sry guys) in the quit group. Thanks again everyone

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Bob -

I had a very similar experience as you. I thought quitting was all going to be about to resist cravings and not dip, but it has also been a real mind fuck for me - anxiety, dizzyness, thinking I am going bonkers, throw me in the looney bin shit. I had to go to the doctor to get everything checked out to make sure I was not crazy. I went the first month or so without discovering this site and I wish I would have found it right away. Reading information here on KTC and posting roll was the only thing that really helped me.

Just remember it does get better, I am on day 79 now and my anxiety crazyness still comes and goes but it is much easier to handle. What helped me was to remember that we are not going to get better all at once, its not like a cold where we get better day by day, we have good days and then we have bad days. But the further you get the more good days you have and they get better and better - I promise.

I hope this helps. Read as much as you can, exercise helps, water helps, posting roll is a must.

I will quit with you today. Let me know if you need anything.

Good post.

[agh2o]

Bob -

I had a very similar experience as you. I thought quitting was all going to be about to resist cravings and not dip, but it has also been a real mind fuck for me - anxiety, dizzyness, thinking I am going bonkers, throw me in the looney bin shit. I had to go to the doctor to get everything checked out to make sure I was not crazy. I went the first month or so without discovering this site and I wish I would have found it right away. Reading information here on KTC and posting roll was the only thing that really helped me.

Just remember it does get better, I am on day 79 now and my anxiety crazyness still comes and goes but it is much easier to handle. What helped me was to remember that we are not going to get better all at once, its not like a cold where we get better day by day, we have good days and then we have bad days. But the further you get the more good days you have and they get better and better - I promise.

I hope this helps. Read as much as you can, exercise helps, water helps, posting roll is a must.

I will quit with you today. Let me know if you need anything.

[Diesel2112]

Bob. Bob. Bob.

As someone who battled anxiety to the nth degree (read my intro if you have 5 hours), let me attempt to set your mind at ease.

First off. You're not going bonkers. You're re-wiring your brain and learning to deal with "life" without your crutch. It sucks, and it looks like you're one of the "lucky ones" who gets the anxiety bonus. I got that too. It blows, no way around it.

Something I really want to stress to you, is that anxiety is bred and manifested by your own thoughts. I know at times it seems you have no control over your thoughts, but you do.

Constantly analyzing yourself, worrying if your crazy, wondering when you will feel "normal" again, comparing yourself to others, fearing panic attacks, and being anxious about...anxiety are all counterproductive thoughts that you control. They are also all things I had to deal with. So take some comfort in knowing your not alone with your situation. I've walked the same path and am 696 days quit, and digging life.

I too HATED meds but used them as an assist to get me through some very tough times. Quitting is hard enough, doing it with one arm tied behind your back is damn near impossible. Don't be ashamed or afraid. Meds while taken with the guidance of a professional can be very helpful. It's the people who abuse the meds who create the horror stories you read about, putting fear into guys like you and me. Think of a diabetic who has to rely on insulin to help him function. There is no shame in that.

I could go on for days with everything I've learned about the anxiety part of quitting. Meds, exercise, some trips to a counselor, this site, and TIME were some of my best allies. I was my worst enemy. Along with my out of control thoughts I glorified chew, gave it waaay too much credit, blamed it for EVERY THING, and believed all the lies it told me. This is the perfect breeding ground for anxiety.

Explore all options to remain quit and control anxiety. Leave no stone unturned. I know right now it may seem like you will feel this way forever, but you won't. Think of this as a small window of suck in your life, because that's really what it is. If I felt that way forever, no way in hell I would still be quit right now.

I know this is some long shit, but this is a subject I really struggled with and always try to help others going through the same. I honestly feel I should write more as I have tons more to share. Feel free to hit me up anytime, if you have any questions. I'm here for you 27/7/365.

Quit on...

[brettlees]

Hi Bob -
Hang in there you are close to things getting much better! You have some real strong people offering you support too- you are doing it! All I can say is to repeat that it helps to read all you can to learn about what you are fighting. Your situation will make more sense then. I know I had a pretty long fog like you are facing. The days of patches didn't help either. Now that's behind you and you are earning your freedom. You'll love it as it comes to you. And, reach out to others via "PM" or personal messages. Exchange phone numbers and basically network for accountability and support partners. Absolutely invaluable and very east to do here because we all face the same addiction. Glad you're here!

[worktowin]

thanks guys. I think I did the roll call correctly. I am a bit confused about how to navigate this site. Is the quite group just to do roll call? i don't see an area to just bullshit with the quite group. I really appreciate all the help guys. its crazy some days i really feel like i am starting to get on the other side of this and then yesterday and today have been pure hell on Earth. I am so emotionally exhausted with the way I feel i don't know what to do with myself sometimes. I have been chewing tooth picks and straws and gum like its going outta style. I think one thing that is hard to wrap my head aroundÂ… I have never herd of anyone going through this. granted I only know ex smokers and not many of them. And I have zero desire to have a chew. This manifest it self as anxiety and dizzines. there have been a few times were i said "Man id love to pack a lip" but it was very short and made me smile. i took it as a sign that i was getting closer to normal. This whole experience is northing like i expected it to be. I was ready for a will power battle just fighting a strong erge to chew. now I'm just trying to convince my self I am not going bonkers. Thanks again for all your help and advice already !

Hey there Bob! Glad you made a great choice. You aren't losing your mind. You are taking your life back. I won't add a lot of words of wisdom, as 1. I'm not a very wise man, and 2. You have some of the most powerhouse quitters on this site already serving as mentors to you. One of the great things about this really unique group you are part of is that you really develop a brotherhood with those that support you. Much like a group of soldiers in a war, you hold each other up and never, ever will let each other down.

But... I will say this... Your intro pisses me the fuck off at nicotine! Dude, here you are... A bright young guy that used nicotine for a fraction of the time I did (meaning you are a fraction of the dumb ass I am) and with all kinds of goodness ahead of you! A new addition to the family, a wife that I bet is on edge but still crazy excited, and nicotine is jacking with your head to the point of making you think you are bonkers. Fuck nicotine for robbing you of this really special time in your life!!!! Fuck it!

Rant over. You will never regret quitting. You will have pride and peace like you can't imagine. You won't be wasting $$ you could be saving for college for your kid. You won't be inviting cancer into your life. And your wife will be really proud of you. Plus you'll gain some friends on this board that will be lifelong. Some of the best men (and women) I've encountered in life are from this website. And some of them are supporting you. Remember... Our successes are all linked together, and there are no weak links.

[Bigbob]

thanks guys. I think I did the roll call correctly. I am a bit confused about how to navigate this site. Is the quite group just to do roll call? i don't see an area to just bullshit with the quite group. I really appreciate all the help guys. its crazy some days i really feel like i am starting to get on the other side of this and then yesterday and today have been pure hell on Earth. I am so emotionally exhausted with the way I feel i don't know what to do with myself sometimes. I have been chewing tooth picks and straws and gum like its going outta style. I think one thing that is hard to wrap my head aroundÂ… I have never herd of anyone going through this. granted I only know ex smokers and not many of them. And I have zero desire to have a chew. This manifest it self as anxiety and dizzines. there have been a few times were i said "Man id love to pack a lip" but it was very short and made me smile. i took it as a sign that i was getting closer to normal. This whole experience is northing like i expected it to be. I was ready for a will power battle just fighting a strong erge to chew. now I'm just trying to convince my self I am not going bonkers. Thanks again for all your help and advice already !

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

I have always been a big water drinker. Lately it has been hard because I get sick to my stomach and have a hard time eating and drinking when the anxiety and vertigo come on. I will try to keep ponding water. Thanks for the tip. Some days I do pound water and some days I just drink a fair amount. I guess the best way to qualify it is I have not seen yellow pee in years haha. Thanks a bunch for the support guys this site really is amazing. When I started googling these symptoms in the beginning, I turned a paper cut I to a tripe bypass. You start reading and by th time I was done I was convinced I was in heart failure, hypoglycemia, vertigo, and ear infection and a host of other things haha. So I stopped reading. The. I came here to lurk a bit and stopped because it was causing anxiety when I read a speech that said at 100 days you realize it isn't the finish line and I just about shit my pants. I have here. Telling myself one day at a time for about 2 weeks. This is absolutely brutal. Can't wait to be on the other side. Never wanted something so bad in my life. Thanks again!

Your brain is playing tricks on you.. Making you feel bad and subtly suggesting if only you took a dip you would feel much, much better. It's the nic bitch trying to get you to feed her.

Stop, relax take a deep breath. It will all pass and become less frequent. Not sure the craves ever go completely away from what I've read here, but they do become less frequent and intense.

When even I'm getting that crave feeling, I hop on the ktc web page and/or forum and read. One of the articles, peoples HOF or some vets intro post from their day 1 until current. You'll find everyone has gone thru this and knows what you are going thru.


peech that said at 100 days you realize it isn't the finish line and I just about shit my pants.

I don't think there is a finish line to cross (until you die.) You and I will have to quit each and every day until we die. We have to remain vigilant each and every day. You read stories of people with hundreds of days under their belt who cave.

I'll quit with you today BigBob

It will get better. I guarantee it. Stay the course.

[thewolfe]

I have always been a big water drinker. Lately it has been hard because I get sick to my stomach and have a hard time eating and drinking when the anxiety and vertigo come on. I will try to keep ponding water. Thanks for the tip. Some days I do pound water and some days I just drink a fair amount. I guess the best way to qualify it is I have not seen yellow pee in years haha. Thanks a bunch for the support guys this site really is amazing. When I started googling these symptoms in the beginning, I turned a paper cut I to a tripe bypass. You start reading and by th time I was done I was convinced I was in heart failure, hypoglycemia, vertigo, and ear infection and a host of other things haha. So I stopped reading. The. I came here to lurk a bit and stopped because it was causing anxiety when I read a speech that said at 100 days you realize it isn't the finish line and I just about shit my pants. I have here. Telling myself one day at a time for about 2 weeks. This is absolutely brutal. Can't wait to be on the other side. Never wanted something so bad in my life. Thanks again!

Your brain is playing tricks on you.. Making you feel bad and subtly suggesting if only you took a dip you would feel much, much better. It's the nic bitch trying to get you to feed her.

Stop, relax take a deep breath. It will all pass and become less frequent. Not sure the craves ever go completely away from what I've read here, but they do become less frequent and intense.

When even I'm getting that crave feeling, I hop on the ktc web page and/or forum and read. One of the articles, peoples HOF or some vets intro post from their day 1 until current. You'll find everyone has gone thru this and knows what you are going thru.


peech that said at 100 days you realize it isn't the finish line and I just about shit my pants.

I don't think there is a finish line to cross (until you die.) You and I will have to quit each and every day until we die. We have to remain vigilant each and every day. You read stories of people with hundreds of days under their belt who cave.

I'll quit with you today BigBob

[Bigbob]

It was march Thursday march 27. I can't math what group does that make me haha

Edit: if I clicked on the link i guess i don't. Need to math. July it is

[rdad]

I will do just that, thanks again

BB you have the right attitude. You can do this and it will get less brutal. Get in here and drink some KoolAid with your "pond" water:).
Just focus on the now. You can control what you do now. You are just like me, an addict fighting off an addiction. We will win one day at a time.

I think you will be in July 2014. It depends on the day you quit.