Hey everyone! Hope everyone had a good fathers day/weekend. I have not been as active here as i would like to be lately. Things are getting a lot better for me, but I have to keep my self busy all the time ( posting roll every damn day and keeping up on text messages to some of you tho). started to work on the old house, finish off my bare studs garage, bigger garden yada yada yada. It feels good to get so much more shit done then i ever have before. It is so liberating to tackle life without chew, one challenge at a time now that the challenges are manageable. I have read a few of the new guys intros and to see the advice you champion quitters are offering is awesome. I now understand what you mean when your give tough love, I can see the addict speak, I have no tolerance for half ass quitters, I finally see myself as quit.
I still have some really tough days but they continue to suck less as time goes by. Last week was really hard. the whole week. but i keep trucking. I carry my bag of quit proudly when it gets hard. I view the challenges as a time when me and nicotine get to roll up our sleeves and go toe to to toe. I smile when i tape up because I know now, no matter how long ( minutes to days) the hard times last, I am coming out the other side quitter (quitter? what the hell sure..) than I started.
a few weeks back i posted about a really tough time i had when family was in town and we all went to one properties and I was freaking out. the fan shutter, was making me dizzy, I couldn't eat, i couldn't look anyone in the eye etc. for fathers day we went to the same spot, had the same food, and i felt great. even if u take out being a new father, and a very proud one at that, i just felt really good to be alive, and there with my family. this week is shaping up to be a good one. one day at a time i am happy to quit with you guys. thanks for the on going support you guys are great!
