Here Again

[Dieselchick87]

**** Boys Beware Menstrual Post***

last night was hell on wheels between the Nic bitch hormone fluctuation and my body trying to rip me apart from the inside out I was an emotional wreck last night and I literally could have been to a can of chew in about 5 minutes but instead I sat on my back porch and for the
first time in lord knows how long I sat there and processed my emotions I was a major bitch to my husband (for which I need to apologize today) I was a bitch to myself and then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I have to create a new normal for dealing with this menstrual craziness this is literally the first menstrual cycle that I have had without nicotine and this shit SUCKS ( I will not cave over it do not worry) when your body is conspiring against you it makes your head play tricks on you. it compounds emotions on top of emotions inside of emotions wrapped around emotions fried in emotions topped with emotional sauce. I wonder if that is why I got hooked on the Nic Bitch to mellow out my emotions?? don't get me wrong my cycles have been bad in the past this though was way woooorrrssseee then anything I have experienced up to this point I hope to Hope that this is not a new normal.

[FLLipOut]

I don't know about everyone or anyone else but this quit for me is tied to more than my additcion to nicotine it is tied to my self image self esteem and self worth.

I don't want to be just another pretty face driving down the road
or the dumb girl that is just repeating what her man has said before

You know you don't need dip to be a strong woman. You don't need to prove anything to anyone that you are a strong woman. And no one (unless they are an idiot themselves) will ever confuse you with someone who is dumb - certainly not from what I've read on these boards!

You just keep being dieselchick. The best damn dieselchick you can be. And no one - absolutely no one but you - gets a say in who that is.

Proud to be quit with you, girl!

[Steakbomb18]

This post is so badass, there's not much more than I can say. I wear my quit on my sleeve for the world to see because I'm just so damn proud of it. I was ashamed of my dipping; ashamed of my addiction. But I'm more proud of my quit - and it's just another reason why I win every day. DC - you get it and I'll quit next to you any day.

[FISHFLORIDA]

Day 22

last night and this morning I had to do some deep introspection on my quit and why I started in the first place it all started last night when I was at the gas station and a guy pulled up next to me and gave me this look like "just another dumb girl driving her mans truck" and I SOOO wanted to get out of the truck and kick his ass
I don't know why it irritates me so but it does. the dip used to be what I used to prove I wasn't just another pretty face and don't fuck with me. sounds weird but it worked. if I wasn't quit yesterday I would have taken a dip and tossed my can on the dash and that would have it. but instead I felt insecure, which pissed me off more.

I don't know about everyone or anyone else but this quit for me is tied to more than my additcion to nicotine it is tied to my self image self esteem and self worth.

I don't want to be just another pretty face driving down the road
or the dumb girl that is just repeating what her man has said before

I know that this road along with my quit are going to be long roads that will weave in and around each other and at times travel one on top of the other

but for today

I am Proud to be Quit and I am Proud of the woman I am

what others think is their business I know me and my journey

DC,
I actually get that. Almost all my friends that fish, dip. It's like a rite of passage. Hell, every fly fishing mag shows the guys with either a cig or a dip in their mouth and a PBR or Hamm's in their hand. To not do it seems weird. It has to become the norm NOT TO use.

[Nolaq]

Day 22

last night and this morning I had to do some deep introspection on my quit and why I started in the first place it all started last night when I was at the gas station and a guy pulled up next to me and gave me this look like "just another dumb girl driving her mans truck" and I SOOO wanted to get out of the truck and kick his ass
I don't know why it irritates me so but it does. the dip used to be what I used to prove I wasn't just another pretty face and don't fuck with me. sounds weird but it worked. if I wasn't quit yesterday I would have taken a dip and tossed my can on the dash and that would have it. but instead I felt insecure, which pissed me off more.

I don't know about everyone or anyone else but this quit for me is tied to more than my additcion to nicotine it is tied to my self image self esteem and self worth.

I don't want to be just another pretty face driving down the road
or the dumb girl that is just repeating what her man has said before

I know that this road along with my quit are going to be long roads that will weave in and around each other and at times travel one on top of the other

but for today

I am Proud to be Quit and I am Proud of the woman I am

what others think is their business I know me and my journey

Boom.

Keep up the great work, Diesel!

[Dieselchick87]

Day 22

last night and this morning I had to do some deep introspection on my quit and why I started in the first place it all started last night when I was at the gas station and a guy pulled up next to me and gave me this look like "just another dumb girl driving her mans truck" and I SOOO wanted to get out of the truck and kick his ass
I don't know why it irritates me so but it does. the dip used to be what I used to prove I wasn't just another pretty face and don't fuck with me. sounds weird but it worked. if I wasn't quit yesterday I would have taken a dip and tossed my can on the dash and that would have it. but instead I felt insecure, which pissed me off more.

I don't know about everyone or anyone else but this quit for me is tied to more than my additcion to nicotine it is tied to my self image self esteem and self worth.

I don't want to be just another pretty face driving down the road
or the dumb girl that is just repeating what her man has said before

I know that this road along with my quit are going to be long roads that will weave in and around each other and at times travel one on top of the other

but for today

I am Proud to be Quit and I am Proud of the woman I am

what others think is their business I know me and my journey

[Steakbomb18]

Win for the weekend!!!!

started my weekend off with 13 people 10 dogs in my home (random friends dropping by) then.....
Had to completely empty my spare/storage room so...
My household size could go from 3 people to 7 people 2 of whom are under 2 years old
I have been woken up 6 times in 2 nights to a screaming baby

but its Monday now and everything is alright!!!!


I realized during all of this that I don't have to hide behind the dip to stay calm I can take a deep breath and reach way down inside and pull some weird string that brings a balance to my thoughts even though I was in a hell of a fog I didn't cave it didn't even cross my mind until I sat down and the magnitude of what was changing in my life hit me square on top of my head. but as I sat there I realized that I couldn't back down from my quit even if I wanted to because I had given my word to not cave.
its amazing how in only 2 short weeks how everyone here that I talk to and have reached out to means to me I am glad that I found this place and while some may bitch about the fact that we hold eachother accountable to our words and that posting roll is a must I for one know without posting roll I would not be 18 days Quit..... So today I quit again and I will keep on quitting for the rest of my life one day at a time!

YES!!! way to knock it out of the park! the harder the temptations, the bigger the victory-- you are reprogramming your brain and the big ones are like a great knockdown victory. Way to go- and thanks for sharing, so others can grow from your experiences too! Nice, Nice work- keep it going!

I love this...

Once you own this...

YOU own this.

We preach one day at a time but there comes a point for some where you KNOW... you're done. You're quit. The KTC way let you break the barrier and now... you're free.

For life.

You get it.

Wow chick! It's amazing how I come on to encourage you and find encouragement for myself! Thank you young lady and remember it may get tough but you have us all behind you and available whenever you need us!

Diesel, that is awesome. I'm proud of you, using your tools, using your contacts, using the forum, reaching out.
Keep doing what you're doing DC.

I'm lovin' this intro page. Awesome to watch a new quitter kick nicotine's ass every day. Using your tools, posting, having integrity, supporting others. Just pure awesomeness right here. Actually its inspiring. Congrats DC!

[ChickDip]

Win for the weekend!!!!

started my weekend off with 13 people 10 dogs in my home (random friends dropping by) then.....
Had to completely empty my spare/storage room so...
My household size could go from 3 people to 7 people 2 of whom are under 2 years old
I have been woken up 6 times in 2 nights to a screaming baby

but its Monday now and everything is alright!!!!


I realized during all of this that I don't have to hide behind the dip to stay calm I can take a deep breath and reach way down inside and pull some weird string that brings a balance to my thoughts even though I was in a hell of a fog I didn't cave it didn't even cross my mind until I sat down and the magnitude of what was changing in my life hit me square on top of my head. but as I sat there I realized that I couldn't back down from my quit even if I wanted to because I had given my word to not cave.
its amazing how in only 2 short weeks how everyone here that I talk to and have reached out to means to me I am glad that I found this place and while some may bitch about the fact that we hold eachother accountable to our words and that posting roll is a must I for one know without posting roll I would not be 18 days Quit..... So today I quit again and I will keep on quitting for the rest of my life one day at a time!

YES!!! way to knock it out of the park! the harder the temptations, the bigger the victory-- you are reprogramming your brain and the big ones are like a great knockdown victory. Way to go- and thanks for sharing, so others can grow from your experiences too! Nice, Nice work- keep it going!

I love this...

Once you own this...

YOU own this.

We preach one day at a time but there comes a point for some where you KNOW... you're done. You're quit. The KTC way let you break the barrier and now... you're free.

For life.

You get it.

Wow chick! It's amazing how I come on to encourage you and find encouragement for myself! Thank you young lady and remember it may get tough but you have us all behind you and available whenever you need us!

Diesel, that is awesome. I'm proud of you, using your tools, using your contacts, using the forum, reaching out.
Keep doing what you're doing DC.

[pab1964]

Win for the weekend!!!!

started my weekend off with 13 people 10 dogs in my home (random friends dropping by) then.....
Had to completely empty my spare/storage room so...
My household size could go from 3 people to 7 people 2 of whom are under 2 years old
I have been woken up 6 times in 2 nights to a screaming baby

but its Monday now and everything is alright!!!!


I realized during all of this that I don't have to hide behind the dip to stay calm I can take a deep breath and reach way down inside and pull some weird string that brings a balance to my thoughts even though I was in a hell of a fog I didn't cave it didn't even cross my mind until I sat down and the magnitude of what was changing in my life hit me square on top of my head. but as I sat there I realized that I couldn't back down from my quit even if I wanted to because I had given my word to not cave.
its amazing how in only 2 short weeks how everyone here that I talk to and have reached out to means to me I am glad that I found this place and while some may bitch about the fact that we hold eachother accountable to our words and that posting roll is a must I for one know without posting roll I would not be 18 days Quit..... So today I quit again and I will keep on quitting for the rest of my life one day at a time!

YES!!! way to knock it out of the park! the harder the temptations, the bigger the victory-- you are reprogramming your brain and the big ones are like a great knockdown victory. Way to go- and thanks for sharing, so others can grow from your experiences too! Nice, Nice work- keep it going!

I love this...

Once you own this...

YOU own this.

We preach one day at a time but there comes a point for some where you KNOW... you're done. You're quit. The KTC way let you break the barrier and now... you're free.

For life.

You get it.

Wow chick! It's amazing how I come on to encourage you and find encouragement for myself! Thank you young lady and remember it may get tough but you have us all behind you and available whenever you need us!

[AppleJack]

Win for the weekend!!!!

started my weekend off with 13 people 10 dogs in my home (random friends dropping by) then.....
Had to completely empty my spare/storage room so...
My household size could go from 3 people to 7 people 2 of whom are under 2 years old
I have been woken up 6 times in 2 nights to a screaming baby

but its Monday now and everything is alright!!!!


I realized during all of this that I don't have to hide behind the dip to stay calm I can take a deep breath and reach way down inside and pull some weird string that brings a balance to my thoughts even though I was in a hell of a fog I didn't cave it didn't even cross my mind until I sat down and the magnitude of what was changing in my life hit me square on top of my head. but as I sat there I realized that I couldn't back down from my quit even if I wanted to because I had given my word to not cave.
its amazing how in only 2 short weeks how everyone here that I talk to and have reached out to means to me I am glad that I found this place and while some may bitch about the fact that we hold eachother accountable to our words and that posting roll is a must I for one know without posting roll I would not be 18 days Quit..... So today I quit again and I will keep on quitting for the rest of my life one day at a time!

YES!!! way to knock it out of the park! the harder the temptations, the bigger the victory-- you are reprogramming your brain and the big ones are like a great knockdown victory. Way to go- and thanks for sharing, so others can grow from your experiences too! Nice, Nice work- keep it going!

I love this...

Once you own this...

YOU own this.

We preach one day at a time but there comes a point for some where you KNOW... you're done. You're quit. The KTC way let you break the barrier and now... you're free.

For life.

You get it.

[brettlees]

Win for the weekend!!!!

started my weekend off with 13 people 10 dogs in my home (random friends dropping by) then.....
Had to completely empty my spare/storage room so...
My household size could go from 3 people to 7 people 2 of whom are under 2 years old
I have been woken up 6 times in 2 nights to a screaming baby

but its Monday now and everything is alright!!!!


I realized during all of this that I don't have to hide behind the dip to stay calm I can take a deep breath and reach way down inside and pull some weird string that brings a balance to my thoughts even though I was in a hell of a fog I didn't cave it didn't even cross my mind until I sat down and the magnitude of what was changing in my life hit me square on top of my head. but as I sat there I realized that I couldn't back down from my quit even if I wanted to because I had given my word to not cave.
its amazing how in only 2 short weeks how everyone here that I talk to and have reached out to means to me I am glad that I found this place and while some may bitch about the fact that we hold eachother accountable to our words and that posting roll is a must I for one know without posting roll I would not be 18 days Quit..... So today I quit again and I will keep on quitting for the rest of my life one day at a time!

YES!!! way to knock it out of the park! the harder the temptations, the bigger the victory-- you are reprogramming your brain and the big ones are like a great knockdown victory. Way to go- and thanks for sharing, so others can grow from your experiences too! Nice, Nice work- keep it going!

[Dieselchick87]

Win for the weekend!!!!

started my weekend off with 13 people 10 dogs in my home (random friends dropping by) then.....
Had to completely empty my spare/storage room so...
My household size could go from 3 people to 7 people 2 of whom are under 2 years old
I have been woken up 6 times in 2 nights to a screaming baby

but its Monday now and everything is alright!!!!


I realized during all of this that I don't have to hide behind the dip to stay calm I can take a deep breath and reach way down inside and pull some weird string that brings a balance to my thoughts even though I was in a hell of a fog I didn't cave it didn't even cross my mind until I sat down and the magnitude of what was changing in my life hit me square on top of my head. but as I sat there I realized that I couldn't back down from my quit even if I wanted to because I had given my word to not cave.
its amazing how in only 2 short weeks how everyone here that I talk to and have reached out to means to me I am glad that I found this place and while some may bitch about the fact that we hold eachother accountable to our words and that posting roll is a must I for one know without posting roll I would not be 18 days Quit..... So today I quit again and I will keep on quitting for the rest of my life one day at a time!

[Dieselchick87]

!!!!!Day 14!!!!!!!

Wow I have made it a whole solid 2 weeks without caving to that nic bitch demon whore.

in the past when I "tried" to quit if I made it this far Oh wait I never could on my own.
I actually feel proud today to say
'Finger' I Am A Quitter 'Finger'

in my head there is a running script of something I wanted to say here but the fog as faded the words into the
background maybe later today my brain will break through the fog and I will remember what I had to say.

Nicotine can go fucker herself all the way to hell I am on the road to freedom forever!!!!!

[Dundippin]

Congrats on being smart enough to come back here after 2.5 years. My last big quit was 10 years ago. Finally, took up the cause again last year and at day 399.

I recommend drinking plenty of OJ or fruit juice.

Your brain emits sugars when you dip. The sugars in the OJ or fruit juice makes up for the lack of sugar generated from the dip.

Get plenty of exercise and eat 3 square meals. These are keys to keeping the craves away.

Remember you do not wish to quit, you are quit. That attitude makes all the difference in the world.

That attitude ends any discussion about just once more.

I quit with you today.

[Dieselchick87]

this morning as I sit here enjoying a cup of coffee I sit here and reflect on how different my life is now
its a new enough change that the glow of being Nic free is blazing around me but now there is another
feeling settling..... its hard to explain it is familiar but foreign comfortable yet awkward
as I sit here I almost feel "adultish" some will understand that comment some will not .
I have 11 days under my belt today and that makes me feel strong I didn't get up this morning and
stumble around the house trying to remember where I left my can the night before only to remember that
it was on the nightstand by my bed, then crash on the couch waiting for the dip to "hit" and wake me up
only to run around the house trying to get out the door on time. This morning was different this morning was
Adultish!!!
Today I woke up and made my breakfast (something I never had "time" for while on the dip)
I got dressed for the day I was ready to head out the door early and to work early so much so
that I had time to make a cup of coffee sit down and relax and find inspiration here to keep my day
going strong!!!
I am Smiling big today because one I can there is NO dip to hide and two I started out my day Adulting for the
first time that I can remember in a long time.

Stay Strong Stay Quit