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[pab1964]

Day 143 *possible trigger for women trying to get pregnant *

I am not sure at what point this quit became entirely personal but at some point my shred of "I am only quitting cause the doctors said to get fertility testing I had to go off nicotine" well 2 days ago I miscarried at 14weeks (I never once got a positive test ) part of my brain said fuck it quitting didnt keep your child but a bigger side said being quit isnt about a kid(s) its about you......
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As I laid on my couch crying I felt cheated that I had already made my promise not to use nicotine......it was the 1st out of 12 that I had to deal with the emotions of loss head on.... I ranted and raved to my husband and he told he wouldnt stop me (he had gone through a pack at that time) I got on the site and went to my inbox and looked at all the people I have been talking too and I knew I couldn't throw my quit away without hurting theirs at the same time .......the positive that came out of this was we found out that its nicotine that is causing my issues for some reason my body is rejecting implantation therefore I am getting prego but my body isn't accepting the child that my husband and I create more testing must be done and while it may never happen but I know that through all of this I will remain quit because I made it nicotine is not needed to survive the emotional death its just another damn thing that I am conquering while nicotine free

So sorry for your loss and anguish. I cannot even begin to understand your pain, but I hope you know there is comfort, concern, support and prayers here from this community.

God Bless you DC. You have support here 29,000 +

You, quitter woman, have a great attitude and resolve.
Stay strong in faith and know you have support here always.
So sorry and I pray for healing and successes. ❤

Never give up.

So sorry. Prayers to you

[wildirish317]

Day 143 *possible trigger for women trying to get pregnant *

I am not sure at what point this quit became entirely personal but at some point my shred of "I am only quitting cause the doctors said to get fertility testing I had to go off nicotine" well 2 days ago I miscarried at 14weeks (I never once got a positive test ) part of my brain said fuck it quitting didnt keep your child but a bigger side said being quit isnt about a kid(s) its about you......
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.I dont have anyone else to share with sorry in advance
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As I laid on my couch crying I felt cheated that I had already made my promise not to use nicotine......it was the 1st out of 12 that I had to deal with the emotions of loss head on.... I ranted and raved to my husband and he told he wouldnt stop me (he had gone through a pack at that time) I got on the site and went to my inbox and looked at all the people I have been talking too and I knew I couldn't throw my quit away without hurting theirs at the same time .......the positive that came out of this was we found out that its nicotine that is causing my issues for some reason my body is rejecting implantation therefore I am getting prego but my body isn't accepting the child that my husband and I create more testing must be done and while it may never happen but I know that through all of this I will remain quit because I made it nicotine is not needed to survive the emotional death its just another damn thing that I am conquering while nicotine free

So sorry for your loss and anguish. I cannot even begin to understand your pain, but I hope you know there is comfort, concern, support and prayers here from this community.

God Bless you DC. You have support here 29,000 +

You, quitter woman, have a great attitude and resolve.
Stay strong in faith and know you have support here always.
So sorry and I pray for healing and successes. ❤

Never give up.

[ChickDip]

Day 143 *possible trigger for women trying to get pregnant *

I am not sure at what point this quit became entirely personal but at some point my shred of "I am only quitting cause the doctors said to get fertility testing I had to go off nicotine" well 2 days ago I miscarried at 14weeks (I never once got a positive test ) part of my brain said fuck it quitting didnt keep your child but a bigger side said being quit isnt about a kid(s) its about you......
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.I dont have anyone else to share with sorry in advance
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As I laid on my couch crying I felt cheated that I had already made my promise not to use nicotine......it was the 1st out of 12 that I had to deal with the emotions of loss head on.... I ranted and raved to my husband and he told he wouldnt stop me (he had gone through a pack at that time) I got on the site and went to my inbox and looked at all the people I have been talking too and I knew I couldn't throw my quit away without hurting theirs at the same time .......the positive that came out of this was we found out that its nicotine that is causing my issues for some reason my body is rejecting implantation therefore I am getting prego but my body isn't accepting the child that my husband and I create more testing must be done and while it may never happen but I know that through all of this I will remain quit because I made it nicotine is not needed to survive the emotional death its just another damn thing that I am conquering while nicotine free

So sorry for your loss and anguish. I cannot even begin to understand your pain, but I hope you know there is comfort, concern, support and prayers here from this community.

God Bless you DC. You have support here 29,000 +

You, quitter woman, have a great attitude and resolve.
Stay strong in faith and know you have support here always.
So sorry and I pray for healing and successes. ❤

[JB65]

Day 143 *possible trigger for women trying to get pregnant *

I am not sure at what point this quit became entirely personal but at some point my shred of "I am only quitting cause the doctors said to get fertility testing I had to go off nicotine" well 2 days ago I miscarried at 14weeks (I never once got a positive test ) part of my brain said fuck it quitting didnt keep your child but a bigger side said being quit isnt about a kid(s) its about you......
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.I dont have anyone else to share with sorry in advance
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.
.
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As I laid on my couch crying I felt cheated that I had already made my promise not to use nicotine......it was the 1st out of 12 that I had to deal with the emotions of loss head on.... I ranted and raved to my husband and he told he wouldnt stop me (he had gone through a pack at that time) I got on the site and went to my inbox and looked at all the people I have been talking too and I knew I couldn't throw my quit away without hurting theirs at the same time .......the positive that came out of this was we found out that its nicotine that is causing my issues for some reason my body is rejecting implantation therefore I am getting prego but my body isn't accepting the child that my husband and I create more testing must be done and while it may never happen but I know that through all of this I will remain quit because I made it nicotine is not needed to survive the emotional death its just another damn thing that I am conquering while nicotine free

So sorry for your loss and anguish. I cannot even begin to understand your pain, but I hope you know there is comfort, concern, support and prayers here from this community.

God Bless you DC. You have support here 29,000 +

[JGlav]

Day 143 *possible trigger for women trying to get pregnant *

I am not sure at what point this quit became entirely personal but at some point my shred of "I am only quitting cause the doctors said to get fertility testing I had to go off nicotine" well 2 days ago I miscarried at 14weeks (I never once got a positive test ) part of my brain said fuck it quitting didnt keep your child but a bigger side said being quit isnt about a kid(s) its about you......
.
.I dont have anyone else to share with sorry in advance
.
.
.
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As I laid on my couch crying I felt cheated that I had already made my promise not to use nicotine......it was the 1st out of 12 that I had to deal with the emotions of loss head on.... I ranted and raved to my husband and he told he wouldnt stop me (he had gone through a pack at that time) I got on the site and went to my inbox and looked at all the people I have been talking too and I knew I couldn't throw my quit away without hurting theirs at the same time .......the positive that came out of this was we found out that its nicotine that is causing my issues for some reason my body is rejecting implantation therefore I am getting prego but my body isn't accepting the child that my husband and I create more testing must be done and while it may never happen but I know that through all of this I will remain quit because I made it nicotine is not needed to survive the emotional death its just another damn thing that I am conquering while nicotine free

So sorry for your loss and anguish. I cannot even begin to understand your pain, but I hope you know there is comfort, concern, support and prayers here from this community.

[Dieselchick87]

Day 143 *possible trigger for women trying to get pregnant *

I am not sure at what point this quit became entirely personal but at some point my shred of "I am only quitting cause the doctors said to get fertility testing I had to go off nicotine" well 2 days ago I miscarried at 14weeks (I never once got a positive test ) part of my brain said fuck it quitting didnt keep your child but a bigger side said being quit isnt about a kid(s) its about you......
.
.I dont have anyone else to share with sorry in advance
.
.
.
.
As I laid on my couch crying I felt cheated that I had already made my promise not to use nicotine......it was the 1st out of 12 that I had to deal with the emotions of loss head on.... I ranted and raved to my husband and he told he wouldnt stop me (he had gone through a pack at that time) I got on the site and went to my inbox and looked at all the people I have been talking too and I knew I couldn't throw my quit away without hurting theirs at the same time .......the positive that came out of this was we found out that its nicotine that is causing my issues for some reason my body is rejecting implantation therefore I am getting prego but my body isn't accepting the child that my husband and I create more testing must be done and while it may never happen but I know that through all of this I will remain quit because I made it nicotine is not needed to survive the emotional death its just another damn thing that I am conquering while nicotine free

[wildirish317]

Day 136

4 days ago I lost my job Friday night was a shit show yesterday my husband and I ran away to the coast and had a perfect day this morning I woke up at 4am and the first thing I grabbed was my can of fake.

I have chewed more fake these last few days and without this KTC family and posting roll I would be back in the nic bitches arms but I am here and Quit Proudly I am on to bigger and better things and I am doing it all Nic free!

Reaching HOF doesn't give anyone a free pass to let your guard down keep whether you are 10 days or 136 days guard your quit with everything you have.

Quit on and Quit Proud!

Nothing wrong with using that at all....it comes and goes...till your done with it. It will happen. Don't push it or feel its weak...its not.
The only reason i haven't relapsed is because i found this place and made connections. too.

Cheers to you finding something better!
Proud to quit with you today.

This site is full of strong women, and you are one of them! There is strength here, for your quit, and for your life. One day at a time, for your quit, and for your life. Some times it comes down to this. Later, you will look back at this time, and realize you were passing through to a better place.

[ChickDip]

Day 136

4 days ago I lost my job Friday night was a shit show yesterday my husband and I ran away to the coast and had a perfect day this morning I woke up at 4am and the first thing I grabbed was my can of fake.

I have chewed more fake these last few days and without this KTC family and posting roll I would be back in the nic bitches arms but I am here and Quit Proudly I am on to bigger and better things and I am doing it all Nic free!

Reaching HOF doesn't give anyone a free pass to let your guard down keep whether you are 10 days or 136 days guard your quit with everything you have.

Quit on and Quit Proud!

Nothing wrong with using that at all....it comes and goes...till your done with it. It will happen. Don't push it or feel its weak...its not.
The only reason i haven't relapsed is because i found this place and made connections. too.

Cheers to you finding something better!
Proud to quit with you today.

[Dieselchick87]

Day 136

4 days ago I lost my job Friday night was a shit show yesterday my husband and I ran away to the coast and had a perfect day this morning I woke up at 4am and the first thing I grabbed was my can of fake.

I have chewed more fake these last few days and without this KTC family and posting roll I would be back in the nic bitches arms but I am here and Quit Proudly I am on to bigger and better things and I am doing it all Nic free!

Reaching HOF doesn't give anyone a free pass to let your guard down keep whether you are 10 days or 136 days guard your quit with everything you have.

Quit on and Quit Proud!

[Dieselchick87]

Day 113


Today is going to have lots of updates I am gearing up for a potentially fucked weekend
it can go one of three ways
*nothing happens
*my husband goes to the emergency room and they give him 5 days interveineous Steroids at the infusion center
*go to the emergency room and get admitted for a week
my husband has MS and is having a flare up in the past this knowledge would have triggered me to go buy 4 cans minimum
just so I didn't have to leave the hospital till I could find someone to bring me more (I don't leave his side)
so I am taking the bull by the horns

I have a couple other topics to post about today so................ 'evil' I will be back 'evil'

you have my digits..
use them if you need.
stay strong, stay connected.
prayers up for you and yours .

Thank you much I defiantly will hit you up if we end up in the hospital
or if I just feel like strangling my husband

[ChickDip]

Day 113


Today is going to have lots of updates I am gearing up for a potentially fucked weekend
it can go one of three ways
*nothing happens
*my husband goes to the emergency room and they give him 5 days interveineous Steroids at the infusion center
*go to the emergency room and get admitted for a week
my husband has MS and is having a flare up in the past this knowledge would have triggered me to go buy 4 cans minimum
just so I didn't have to leave the hospital till I could find someone to bring me more (I don't leave his side)
so I am taking the bull by the horns

I have a couple other topics to post about today so................ 'evil' I will be back 'evil'

you have my digits..
use them if you need.
stay strong, stay connected.
prayers up for you and yours .

[Dieselchick87]

Day 113


Today is going to have lots of updates I am gearing up for a potentially fucked weekend
it can go one of three ways
*nothing happens
*my husband goes to the emergency room and they give him 5 days interveineous Steroids at the infusion center
*go to the emergency room and get admitted for a week
my husband has MS and is having a flare up in the past this knowledge would have triggered me to go buy 4 cans minimum
just so I didn't have to leave the hospital till I could find someone to bring me more (I don't leave his side)
so I am taking the bull by the horns

I have a couple other topics to post about today so................ 'evil' I will be back 'evil'

[Ginet]

Day 112

I just had to post this cause I am damn proud to be part of the League


'January-2017

Is it like fantasy football, because that would be cool.

its even better than fantasy football

its The first Bad Ass Group of 2017 Quitters!!

That would make great beer label, may have to steal it

oooooooh. I like it. I like it a lot.
I wanna have one too.

[JGlav]

Day 112

I just had to post this cause I am damn proud to be part of the League


'January-2017

Is it like fantasy football, because that would be cool.

its even better than fantasy football

its The first Bad Ass Group of 2017 Quitters!!

That would make great beer label, may have to steal it

[Dieselchick87]

Day 112

I just had to post this cause I am damn proud to be part of the League


'January-2017

Is it like fantasy football, because that would be cool.

its even better than fantasy football

its The first Bad Ass Group of 2017 Quitters!!