1st Minute of the first day of my journey

[CaliforniaSlim]

You have some great advice so far. Not much that I can add, so I will just say Congratulations on a great decision. Now buckle up. You posted roll, so caving is not an option. Each time you beat one of the cravings, you will gain strength. That strength will help you through the next. Lean on any and all of us here. Text or call someone, or post to your intro, or go into chat if you start to feel wobbly.
The tools are here, make use of them.
PM me if you need another number.

[Pinched]

Brian,
You have received advice from some of the best badass quitters that are part of KTC. Look at all of it carefully, read the stories and totally immerse yourself here.

I do want to point out a couple of things that I think you should consider while you are beginning your quit journey because this shit is about as far from easy as you can get. Please understand that I have faith in you and believe that you can do this, because I did damnit.

1 - understand the ABC of quitting with KTC. Accountability, Brotherhood  Commitment; these three pillars are what we are founded by. If you cannot trust yourself then I cannot trust you either.

2 - find yourself an alternative to dip. When you get a craving or an urge you will need something to stick in your mouth to eliminate one of the needs from dipping. That need over years has become the dosage of nicotine, the oral fixation and the increased production of saliva (i.e. spitting). There are several schools of thought that are used here you can go anti fake dip and only choose candy, gums, drinking water, etc. or you can use the fake dips. Hell I did use both and am still armed with both just in case.

3 - realize and understand that you are an addict. Therefore plan ahead of any addict behavior. Drinking can cause dipping, certain friends can cause dipping, certain activities or sports can cause dipping. Be mindful of these things and prepare for them otherwise you will be experiencing the Suck again.

4 - document the suck and all the aches, and pains that go along with it. This will serves as a reminder for you.

Finally, I wish you a very painful and hard suck because that is in my mind what propelled my quit to where it is now. The suck just plain sucked and I do not wish to live that again.

Others have offered and I will as well, if you would like to shoot me a PM we can exchange numbers so you have one more person in your corner and at your immediate disposal.

Pinched

[Bean]

Swimmer - Congrats on a great choice. Learn how and why we post roll. Then do it...everyday.

Keep focused on ONE DAY AT A TIME. Quitting forever is hard...so hard, in fact, that we don't even try to do it. All we do is give our word that come hell or high water we will not put any fucking nicotine in our boddies today. Then...we don't.

Don't think about tomorrow, next week or next year...we'll deal with them when they get here. All you need to focus on is today...this 5 minutes.

Come up with a plan for when urges strike...candy, gum, mints, take a walk, push-ups, drink water...whatever. Find the "Tom and Jenny Kern Story" - KillTheCan.org link at top. Read how his daughter was at his feet in the hospital pleading "daddy, don't go" as he took his last breath. That still chokes me up just typing it here. I burned that scene into my mind. No urge could compare to that scene.

Lastly, get the right attitude. You GET to go through the fog because you CHOSE to quit. Feeling like shit is a privilege reserved to those who have the guts to do quit. Embrace it. You are earning your freedom one day at a time. Congrats!!!

[Jayhawk]

Ok then bro - as you say, you have the motivation  desire. You have also found the right place for accountability, leadership and support.

Here is the deal - if you post roll every damn day and promise us that you wont dip, you wont dip. You have a tough battle on your hands but I know you can win it - I have seen way too many brothers on here do it.

So, Yes you can quit. Post your promise to us and be a man of your word, every damn day. Everybody here who has reached out to you has fought the same battle that you are facing.

You can do it. You know you can do it. We know you can do it. So, let's get to it!

Follow us - we quit one day at a time.

I quit with you today.

Jayhawk

[xuswimmer13]

I don't know...quitting is hard....what makes you think you can do it?

I could sit here and blow smoke up your ass about why this will be different and why I know i will be macho and do it, but that would be a lie...

I am scared to death that I will not be able to do this. I have been doing it for 10 years and I know it will not be easy to give up. I know its going to be a day by day struggle for now until my last day on this earth because there is no cure for my addiction only recovery.

I came here and joined this forum because I know it will be hard and because I wasn't sure I could do it myself. If I could have done it alone I would have done it alone.

SO back to the original question what makes me think I can do it is that I desperately want to, that i have a community to help me, and that I have the motivation of being dip free before my kids ever really remember seeing their Dad dip in front of them.

[ParadigmDawg]

I don't know...quitting is hard....what makes you think you can do it?

[waketech]

If your kids are like mine they deserve a dip free father. You need to quit for yourself...use the tools on this site to get it done. We have all been where you are and know how you are feeling right now. Clean out all that has to do with nicotine from you car and home. Eat seeds, drink a a lot of water, work out, use fake dip, hard candy, toothpicks.... what ever you need to keep that shit out of your mouth. Post roll daily and get involved in the site including chat. This will be the best decision of you life.....I will quit with you but I have no room in my quit for weakness...I will PM you my number and look for your daily roll posting.

Waketech -441

[Gdubya]

Sorry in advance for the stream of conscious..

My name is Brian. I have been dipping for 10 years.. I have tried to quit many many many many times.Never really made it longer than a week.

Was sitting at work with a dip in and finally decide I was done with it. I came to the is site and instantly realized this was the type of community I needed. I was going to post earlier till i read No posting while still dipping. For some reason that really struck me as the call to stop being such a puss about this and half assing it and save myself.

At my current pace i was using 3 pouches at a time 3-4 times a day. My wife hates it so I hide it from her waiting to dip after she has gone to bed or making up errands that needed to be done so i could find an excuse to get 20 minutes of dipping in.

My real breaking point was today i had gone 48 hours without dipping and on my way to get some work done late tonight stopped and bought another tin. The defeat crushed me and despite the relaxation that dip gave me the failure was even worse.

I just took out the dip i had and just threw out my full tin in the garbage. So I am all in. I have set all the bull shit dates for quitting and said this is my last one atleast 10000 times. Its time for me to get real about this.

I have a 4 year old daughter and a son on the way in December and all I want is to know that when he comes I will be on the road to living right.

Hoping with all the amazing support i read in these forums that I will be able to get there.

Good job bud. PM me if you need someone to chat with.

Hey bro, your in the right place. I've been a nic addict for over 30 years. Was never able to quit. Did once for a week, but I had the measles and lived out in the middle of nowhere and was too sick to drive to town. That's the closest I ever got. But here I've found the tools ad support to be successful.

First things first. Get that shift out of the trash can and flush it. You'll be licking that shit out out of whatever trash it's in after while if you don't. Won't tell you how I know that. But know this. We are addicts. And our addiction has a voice. And it will soon be speaking to you. But listen and you will hear the real voice of yourself. The voice of the real you that wants to live in freedom and that's wants to be around or a long time for his family. THAT voice is you. Follow that voice.

Now. Read all that you can n this site. Let this site be your TV at night. Consume all you can. That's where you'll find many of the tools you need. Also, get all the phone numbers that you can. This will be your support team. Numbers from your quit group. Numbers of veterans. It takes both. Here we quit together. Proud to be quit with you. PM me if you'd like another number.

Gdubya

[BrandtL]

Sorry in advance for the stream of conscious..

My name is Brian. I have been dipping for 10 years.. I have tried to quit many many many many times.Never really made it longer than a week.

Was sitting at work with a dip in and finally decide I was done with it. I came to the is site and instantly realized this was the type of community I needed. I was going to post earlier till i read No posting while still dipping. For some reason that really struck me as the call to stop being such a puss about this and half assing it and save myself.

At my current pace i was using 3 pouches at a time 3-4 times a day. My wife hates it so I hide it from her waiting to dip after she has gone to bed or making up errands that needed to be done so i could find an excuse to get 20 minutes of dipping in.

My real breaking point was today i had gone 48 hours without dipping and on my way to get some work done late tonight stopped and bought another tin. The defeat crushed me and despite the relaxation that dip gave me the failure was even worse.

I just took out the dip i had and just threw out my full tin in the garbage. So I am all in. I have set all the bull shit dates for quitting and said this is my last one atleast 10000 times. Its time for me to get real about this.

I have a 4 year old daughter and a son on the way in December and all I want is to know that when he comes I will be on the road to living right.

Hoping with all the amazing support i read in these forums that I will be able to get there.

Good job bud. PM me if you need someone to chat with.

[KC_Guy]

Sorry in advance for the stream of conscious..

My name is Brian. I have been dipping for 10 years.. I have tried to quit many many many many times.Never really made it longer than a week.

Was sitting at work with a dip in and finally decide I was done with it. I came to the is site and instantly realized this was the type of community I needed. I was going to post earlier till i read No posting while still dipping. For some reason that really struck me as the call to stop being such a puss about this and half assing it and save myself.

At my current pace i was using 3 pouches at a time 3-4 times a day. My wife hates it so I hide it from her waiting to dip after she has gone to bed or making up errands that needed to be done so i could find an excuse to get 20 minutes of dipping in.

My real breaking point was today i had gone 48 hours without dipping and on my way to get some work done late tonight stopped and bought another tin. The defeat crushed me and despite the relaxation that dip gave me the failure was even worse.

I just took out the dip i had and just threw out my full tin in the garbage. So I am all in. I have set all the bull shit dates for quitting and said this is my last one atleast 10000 times. Its time for me to get real about this.

I have a 4 year old daughter and a son on the way in December and all I want is to know that when he comes I will be on the road to living right.

Hoping with all the amazing support i read in these forums that I will be able to get there.

Welcome Brian. Please know we don't "hope" for anything here. We mother f'n quit. Head up to the top of the page. Click the welcome link. Read it. Post roll. Let's do this man. One day at a time.

[OneImpressiveBall]

Sorry in advance for the stream of conscious..

My name is Brian. I have been dipping for 10 years.. I have tried to quit many many many many times.Never really made it longer than a week.

Was sitting at work with a dip in and finally decide I was done with it. I came to the is site and instantly realized this was the type of community I needed. I was going to post earlier till i read No posting while still dipping. For some reason that really struck me as the call to stop being such a puss about this and half assing it and save myself.

At my current pace i was using 3 pouches at a time 3-4 times a day. My wife hates it so I hide it from her waiting to dip after she has gone to bed or making up errands that needed to be done so i could find an excuse to get 20 minutes of dipping in.

My real breaking point was today i had gone 48 hours without dipping and on my way to get some work done late tonight stopped and bought another tin. The defeat crushed me and despite the relaxation that dip gave me the failure was even worse.

I just took out the dip i had and just threw out my full tin in the garbage. So I am all in. I have set all the bull shit dates for quitting and said this is my last one atleast 10000 times. Its time for me to get real about this.

I have a 4 year old daughter and a son on the way in December and all I want is to know that when he comes I will be on the road to living right.

Hoping with all the amazing support i read in these forums that I will be able to get there.

Brian,

1) Go get that dip that's in the trash and FLUSH IT - 'flush' - right this second. NOW. Eliminate all tobacco from your life definitively and immediately. Don't give the f'ed up part of your brain any opportunity for now. Period.

2) Go post roll with March '14March '14 right this second. Your roll post is your promise not to use nicotine in any form for this one single day. If your word is worth a damn, you'll quickly figure out that this one tool alone can save your life, provided that you also figure out that you need to make your promise every single day.

3) But why use only one tool from the box? This place is full of tools (I won't name names here). Seriously, connect with some other quitters and buckle down. PM me if you want another connection.

[xuswimmer13]

Sorry in advance for the stream of conscious..

My name is Brian. I have been dipping for 10 years.. I have tried to quit many many many many times.Never really made it longer than a week.

Was sitting at work with a dip in and finally decide I was done with it. I came to the is site and instantly realized this was the type of community I needed. I was going to post earlier till i read No posting while still dipping. For some reason that really struck me as the call to stop being such a puss about this and half assing it and save myself.

At my current pace i was using 3 pouches at a time 3-4 times a day. My wife hates it so I hide it from her waiting to dip after she has gone to bed or making up errands that needed to be done so i could find an excuse to get 20 minutes of dipping in.

My real breaking point was today i had gone 48 hours without dipping and on my way to get some work done late tonight stopped and bought another tin. The defeat crushed me and despite the relaxation that dip gave me the failure was even worse.

I just took out the dip i had and just threw out my full tin in the garbage. So I am all in. I have set all the bull shit dates for quitting and said this is my last one atleast 10000 times. Its time for me to get real about this.

I have a 4 year old daughter and a son on the way in December and all I want is to know that when he comes I will be on the road to living right.

Hoping with all the amazing support i read in these forums that I will be able to get there.