The biggness of my fuck up is sinking in. I'm starting to see the truth of what smeds said. I'm not going back to that hell. Something interesting I read on the site a couple days ago was to treat any previous attempts as 'attempts' and this is my QUIT. for some reason that helps dramatically because it keeps my ego in check.
Part of the reason I'm posting this is I need personal accountability and want to help others with that too. I know I fucked over my two previous quit groups and I know I fucked over the men who I texted daily for many months. If anyone is willing to help, though, I could really use it. PM me your number, if you're up for a daily text of accountability.
You don't need accountability.... we gave you that... you need to get your head on straight or get some professional help. You need to get your crap straight. We more than met you half way and you pooped on it.
Nate...you can do this.
People are afraid of failures, but only you can make sure nothing like that happens again. You may never get forgiveness from some people, but be the leader and quitter you need to be to sTay quit. It seems crazy, but you need to know that failure is not an option.
Put one foot in front of the other. Keep moving forward. Quit will take care of itself one step at a time if you do that. Ultimately, you know that everybody here is and will be looking to keep you quit. We expect perfection because perfection is so easily attained. I had to learn that once too, and one of the greatest moments I had in my quit was realizing this moment is all I have. Don't ask for numbers. Give them. Be a friend. Make people want to be there for you. You can do this man, but you have to want it more than anything right now.
I got your back. Everybody deserves to be quit.