Along with the others --- Tomorrow is day 1

[Smeds]

What happened - I used the tools for 270 days. Legitimately. That is not an exaggeration and people can challenge that or whatever - but I 100% used the tools. I posted 99.9% role and texted a group of guys every single day. Every day. I reached out and was honest when I felt weak. I helped out the newcomers. It worked.

I think as time went on, I found myself spending less time on the site, not posting roll until later in the day and got a bit lax. Ultimately, in the middle of February, I went on a deep emotional tailspin for a few days (unrelated to dip), didn't reach out to fellow quiters (to be honest, didn't think about dipping), but got very fatalistic in my world view. I wasn't suicidal, but for a few day span I gave up on life. I won't get into the specifics unless someone wants to really know and I can PM them. In that time period, I caved. The day before I caved, I went to bed I was shaking over this emotional tailspin (again, no thought of nicotine in my mind). The next day, I said fuck it. I had posted roll in the morning, texted guys as well. At around 1pm, the thought crossed my mind, and that was it. For the last four weeks, I've been dipping.

That's fine if you want to label me as a serial quitter. I'm on day one and not making excuses. What am I going to do differently? In terms of actions, I'm going to do what I did before. In terms of my mind - I must completely destroy the idea that I can get back again if I ever caved. I need to fully get into my bones NAFAR. That is the thing that got me fucked.

To the men of August 2014 and June 2014 - I am sorry.

I'm ready for the abuse. If it strengthens your quit - awesome.

What a load of fucking bullshit. You didn't even have the balls to respond to any of my fucking texts after you fucking caved. What kind of brother hood is that. I had your back since June of last year, texted with you after you shit all over our group and talked you through some dark times. Your inability to use the tools hurt my quit and for that fuck you!!!

You know why you will fail....you never have been able to hate the bitch, you worship her and put her on a pedestal which dooms your ass to failure. I asked you to text me each day why you hated her and you did for a while but even after I COULD TELL YOU STILL WANTED HER TO GIVE IT TO YOU UP YOUR ASS.

I am a serial quitter you fuck wad you are a serial caver and a waste of fucking bandwidth.

June 15 I'd suggest you don't waste your time here.

For you coddlers out there it doesn't work for a dude like this go rub someone else's balls.

My 270's totally sucked ass too BUT you gotta Fucking expect it to happen. As a matter of fact, I had damn near 3 fucking months of suck. I chose to not dip because my word is just that. My word. Without that I have nothing.

Enough of the ball coddling bullshit around here. You said it's ok if you are labeled a serial caver, well that's exactly what you are. You shit on June and Aug 14 already. Is it time to shit on another month?

You had the tools and you chose to shit all over them. I'm not buying what you are selling.

So you posted roll and THEN caved in the afternoon?

I could've been able to muster a little bit of respect for you if you hadn't promised not to use that day. Fucking ridiculous. A serial caver is exactly what you are and it's what you'll remain since you've proven that your word isn't worth a damn.

this pisses me off

"I'm ready for the abuse. If it strengthens your quit - awesome."

You should be banned. If you can cave and just come back multiple times what is to stop the next pussy who decides to throw cancer in their lip. Fuck this I vote for a BAN and you are really fucking lucky my vote doesn't count!

I know there's nothing I could say that you won't give me shit about - and you're right Jad.

I'm NOT trying to justify. I know I fucked up.

Again. You fucked up, again.

Really?

You used the tools on this site?

The ones that say "Never again (for any reason)?"

You used that one too?

Liar.

Stop regaling in your accomplishments and see the sauce you are spewing is weak. You 100% failed my friend. Stop thinking your were "using the tools here".

Using the tools means that you use the tools when the chips are down....not when it's convenient to you.

You said that you would stand tall when the nic bitch called. I had you hunt you down in Oct/Nov. This is bullshit, the fact a promise means nothing to you? Your word? The brotherhood?

That's all we have here, very few people know anyone walking in the door, yet we all are willing to help you, give up our emails, cell phone numbers, with out question. And you throw all that away twice?

Keep your worthless words, you threw all that away for a god damn dead plant in a plastic can? All of this is worth less than a cost of a can? You threw this away for $5.00 dollar fix like a FN meth head.

Bullshit. This whole thing smells of fucking bullshit.

You had the site working with you. You used it on your terms only. You had brothers texting you. You ignored them because it didn't fit with where you were.

Cannot count yesterday as a success if you fail today. That is how it works with addiction. I don't care whether it is nicotine, booze or drugs, or whatever...if you fail today, any past successes you have had a washed out. They count for zero.

It is clear that you have not taken this seriously enough to stay clean. You need to firmly unplant your head from your ass and accept something:

You are an addict.

You will lie, cheat and steal. You will lie to your brothers and yourself. You will cheat yourself out of life. You will steal from others' quit by coming back again and again and damaging their with what you call "using the tools".

So, I suggest you ask yourself some very serious questions about "this" quit. Is it going to be "the Quit"? Or are you just going to limp-dick along and fuck with everyone's else's mojo?

Be clear on what you are doing. Don't be a fuck up. Right now, you are a fuck up.

EDIT: included candoit's response because it is spot on and I don't want to bump him.

Nate ... why the 4 week delay in getting back to people hounding you (Done4, basshaug)? Was it that important to basically say, "Fuck you ... stop bothering me"? You do realize that's what you were doing, right? You lack a key component of quitting ... INTEGRITY! Until you find that, there is no hope for you.

[Frazzled]

What happened - I used the tools for 270 days. Legitimately. That is not an exaggeration and people can challenge that or whatever - but I 100% used the tools. I posted 99.9% role and texted a group of guys every single day. Every day. I reached out and was honest when I felt weak. I helped out the newcomers. It worked.

I think as time went on, I found myself spending less time on the site, not posting roll until later in the day and got a bit lax. Ultimately, in the middle of February, I went on a deep emotional tailspin for a few days (unrelated to dip), didn't reach out to fellow quiters (to be honest, didn't think about dipping), but got very fatalistic in my world view. I wasn't suicidal, but for a few day span I gave up on life. I won't get into the specifics unless someone wants to really know and I can PM them. In that time period, I caved. The day before I caved, I went to bed I was shaking over this emotional tailspin (again, no thought of nicotine in my mind). The next day, I said fuck it. I had posted roll in the morning, texted guys as well. At around 1pm, the thought crossed my mind, and that was it. For the last four weeks, I've been dipping.

That's fine if you want to label me as a serial quitter. I'm on day one and not making excuses. What am I going to do differently? In terms of actions, I'm going to do what I did before. In terms of my mind - I must completely destroy the idea that I can get back again if I ever caved. I need to fully get into my bones NAFAR. That is the thing that got me fucked.

To the men of August 2014 and June 2014 - I am sorry.

I'm ready for the abuse. If it strengthens your quit - awesome.

What a load of fucking bullshit. You didn't even have the balls to respond to any of my fucking texts after you fucking caved. What kind of brother hood is that. I had your back since June of last year, texted with you after you shit all over our group and talked you through some dark times. Your inability to use the tools hurt my quit and for that fuck you!!!

You know why you will fail....you never have been able to hate the bitch, you worship her and put her on a pedestal which dooms your ass to failure. I asked you to text me each day why you hated her and you did for a while but even after I COULD TELL YOU STILL WANTED HER TO GIVE IT TO YOU UP YOUR ASS.

I am a serial quitter you fuck wad you are a serial caver and a waste of fucking bandwidth.

June 15 I'd suggest you don't waste your time here.

For you coddlers out there it doesn't work for a dude like this go rub someone else's balls.

My 270's totally sucked ass too BUT you gotta Fucking expect it to happen. As a matter of fact, I had damn near 3 fucking months of suck. I chose to not dip because my word is just that. My word. Without that I have nothing.

Enough of the ball coddling bullshit around here. You said it's ok if you are labeled a serial caver, well that's exactly what you are. You shit on June and Aug 14 already. Is it time to shit on another month?

You had the tools and you chose to shit all over them. I'm not buying what you are selling.

So you posted roll and THEN caved in the afternoon?

I could've been able to muster a little bit of respect for you if you hadn't promised not to use that day. Fucking ridiculous. A serial caver is exactly what you are and it's what you'll remain since you've proven that your word isn't worth a damn.

this pisses me off

"I'm ready for the abuse. If it strengthens your quit - awesome."

You should be banned. If you can cave and just come back multiple times what is to stop the next pussy who decides to throw cancer in their lip. Fuck this I vote for a BAN and you are really fucking lucky my vote doesn't count!

I know there's nothing I could say that you won't give me shit about - and you're right Jad.

I'm NOT trying to justify. I know I fucked up.

Again. You fucked up, again.

Really?

You used the tools on this site?

The ones that say "Never again (for any reason)?"

You used that one too?

Liar.

Stop regaling in your accomplishments and see the sauce you are spewing is weak. You 100% failed my friend. Stop thinking your were "using the tools here".

Using the tools means that you use the tools when the chips are down....not when it's convenient to you.

You said that you would stand tall when the nic bitch called. I had you hunt you down in Oct/Nov. This is bullshit, the fact a promise means nothing to you? Your word? The brotherhood?

That's all we have here, very few people know anyone walking in the door, yet we all are willing to help you, give up our emails, cell phone numbers, with out question. And you throw all that away twice?

Keep your worthless words, you threw all that away for a god damn dead plant in a plastic can? All of this is worth less than a cost of a can? You threw this away for $5.00 dollar fix like a FN meth head.

Bullshit. This whole thing smells of fucking bullshit.

You had the site working with you. You used it on your terms only. You had brothers texting you. You ignored them because it didn't fit with where you were.

Cannot count yesterday as a success if you fail today. That is how it works with addiction. I don't care whether it is nicotine, booze or drugs, or whatever...if you fail today, any past successes you have had a washed out. They count for zero.

It is clear that you have not taken this seriously enough to stay clean. You need to firmly unplant your head from your ass and accept something:

You are an addict.

You will lie, cheat and steal. You will lie to your brothers and yourself. You will cheat yourself out of life. You will steal from others' quit by coming back again and again and damaging their with what you call "using the tools".

So, I suggest you ask yourself some very serious questions about "this" quit. Is it going to be "the Quit"? Or are you just going to limp-dick along and fuck with everyone's else's mojo?

Be clear on what you are doing. Don't be a fuck up. Right now, you are a fuck up.

EDIT: included candoit's response because it is spot on and I don't want to bump him.

[Candoit]

What happened - I used the tools for 270 days. Legitimately. That is not an exaggeration and people can challenge that or whatever - but I 100% used the tools. I posted 99.9% role and texted a group of guys every single day. Every day. I reached out and was honest when I felt weak. I helped out the newcomers. It worked.

I think as time went on, I found myself spending less time on the site, not posting roll until later in the day and got a bit lax. Ultimately, in the middle of February, I went on a deep emotional tailspin for a few days (unrelated to dip), didn't reach out to fellow quiters (to be honest, didn't think about dipping), but got very fatalistic in my world view. I wasn't suicidal, but for a few day span I gave up on life. I won't get into the specifics unless someone wants to really know and I can PM them. In that time period, I caved. The day before I caved, I went to bed I was shaking over this emotional tailspin (again, no thought of nicotine in my mind). The next day, I said fuck it. I had posted roll in the morning, texted guys as well. At around 1pm, the thought crossed my mind, and that was it. For the last four weeks, I've been dipping.

That's fine if you want to label me as a serial quitter. I'm on day one and not making excuses. What am I going to do differently? In terms of actions, I'm going to do what I did before. In terms of my mind - I must completely destroy the idea that I can get back again if I ever caved. I need to fully get into my bones NAFAR. That is the thing that got me fucked.

To the men of August 2014 and June 2014 - I am sorry.

I'm ready for the abuse. If it strengthens your quit - awesome.

What a load of fucking bullshit. You didn't even have the balls to respond to any of my fucking texts after you fucking caved. What kind of brother hood is that. I had your back since June of last year, texted with you after you shit all over our group and talked you through some dark times. Your inability to use the tools hurt my quit and for that fuck you!!!

You know why you will fail....you never have been able to hate the bitch, you worship her and put her on a pedestal which dooms your ass to failure. I asked you to text me each day why you hated her and you did for a while but even after I COULD TELL YOU STILL WANTED HER TO GIVE IT TO YOU UP YOUR ASS.

I am a serial quitter you fuck wad you are a serial caver and a waste of fucking bandwidth.

June 15 I'd suggest you don't waste your time here.

For you coddlers out there it doesn't work for a dude like this go rub someone else's balls.

My 270's totally sucked ass too BUT you gotta Fucking expect it to happen. As a matter of fact, I had damn near 3 fucking months of suck. I chose to not dip because my word is just that. My word. Without that I have nothing.

Enough of the ball coddling bullshit around here. You said it's ok if you are labeled a serial caver, well that's exactly what you are. You shit on June and Aug 14 already. Is it time to shit on another month?

You had the tools and you chose to shit all over them. I'm not buying what you are selling.

So you posted roll and THEN caved in the afternoon?

I could've been able to muster a little bit of respect for you if you hadn't promised not to use that day. Fucking ridiculous. A serial caver is exactly what you are and it's what you'll remain since you've proven that your word isn't worth a damn.

this pisses me off

"I'm ready for the abuse. If it strengthens your quit - awesome."

You should be banned. If you can cave and just come back multiple times what is to stop the next pussy who decides to throw cancer in their lip. Fuck this I vote for a BAN and you are really fucking lucky my vote doesn't count!

I know there's nothing I could say that you won't give me shit about - and you're right Jad.

I'm NOT trying to justify. I know I fucked up.

Again. You fucked up, again.

Really?

You used the tools on this site?

The ones that say "Never again (for any reason)?"

You used that one too?

Liar.

Stop regaling in your accomplishments and see the sauce you are spewing is weak. You 100% failed my friend. Stop thinking your were "using the tools here".

Using the tools means that you use the tools when the chips are down....not when it's convenient to you.

You said that you would stand tall when the nic bitch called. I had you hunt you down in Oct/Nov. This is bullshit, the fact a promise means nothing to you? Your word? The brotherhood?

That's all we have here, very few people know anyone walking in the door, yet we all are willing to help you, give up our emails, cell phone numbers, with out question. And you throw all that away twice?

Keep your worthless words, you threw all that away for a god damn dead plant in a plastic can? All of this is worth less than a cost of a can? You threw this away for $5.00 dollar fix like a FN meth head.

[wastepanel]

What happened - I used the tools for 270 days. Legitimately. That is not an exaggeration and people can challenge that or whatever - but I 100% used the tools. I posted 99.9% role and texted a group of guys every single day. Every day. I reached out and was honest when I felt weak. I helped out the newcomers. It worked.

I think as time went on, I found myself spending less time on the site, not posting roll until later in the day and got a bit lax. Ultimately, in the middle of February, I went on a deep emotional tailspin for a few days (unrelated to dip), didn't reach out to fellow quiters (to be honest, didn't think about dipping), but got very fatalistic in my world view. I wasn't suicidal, but for a few day span I gave up on life. I won't get into the specifics unless someone wants to really know and I can PM them. In that time period, I caved. The day before I caved, I went to bed I was shaking over this emotional tailspin (again, no thought of nicotine in my mind). The next day, I said fuck it. I had posted roll in the morning, texted guys as well. At around 1pm, the thought crossed my mind, and that was it. For the last four weeks, I've been dipping.

That's fine if you want to label me as a serial quitter. I'm on day one and not making excuses. What am I going to do differently? In terms of actions, I'm going to do what I did before. In terms of my mind - I must completely destroy the idea that I can get back again if I ever caved. I need to fully get into my bones NAFAR. That is the thing that got me fucked.

To the men of August 2014 and June 2014 - I am sorry.

I'm ready for the abuse. If it strengthens your quit - awesome.

What a load of fucking bullshit. You didn't even have the balls to respond to any of my fucking texts after you fucking caved. What kind of brother hood is that. I had your back since June of last year, texted with you after you shit all over our group and talked you through some dark times. Your inability to use the tools hurt my quit and for that fuck you!!!

You know why you will fail....you never have been able to hate the bitch, you worship her and put her on a pedestal which dooms your ass to failure. I asked you to text me each day why you hated her and you did for a while but even after I COULD TELL YOU STILL WANTED HER TO GIVE IT TO YOU UP YOUR ASS.

I am a serial quitter you fuck wad you are a serial caver and a waste of fucking bandwidth.

June 15 I'd suggest you don't waste your time here.

For you coddlers out there it doesn't work for a dude like this go rub someone else's balls.

My 270's totally sucked ass too BUT you gotta Fucking expect it to happen. As a matter of fact, I had damn near 3 fucking months of suck. I chose to not dip because my word is just that. My word. Without that I have nothing.

Enough of the ball coddling bullshit around here. You said it's ok if you are labeled a serial caver, well that's exactly what you are. You shit on June and Aug 14 already. Is it time to shit on another month?

You had the tools and you chose to shit all over them. I'm not buying what you are selling.

So you posted roll and THEN caved in the afternoon?

I could've been able to muster a little bit of respect for you if you hadn't promised not to use that day. Fucking ridiculous. A serial caver is exactly what you are and it's what you'll remain since you've proven that your word isn't worth a damn.

this pisses me off

"I'm ready for the abuse. If it strengthens your quit - awesome."

You should be banned. If you can cave and just come back multiple times what is to stop the next pussy who decides to throw cancer in their lip. Fuck this I vote for a BAN and you are really fucking lucky my vote doesn't count!

I know there's nothing I could say that you won't give me shit about - and you're right Jad.

I'm NOT trying to justify. I know I fucked up.

Again. You fucked up, again.

Really?

You used the tools on this site?

The ones that say "Never again (for any reason)?"

You used that one too?

Liar.

Stop regaling in your accomplishments and see the sauce you are spewing is weak. You 100% failed my friend. Stop thinking your were "using the tools here".

Using the tools means that you use the tools when the chips are down....not when it's convenient to you.

[MonsterMedic]

You're right. I fucked up twice.

How many times until you stop shitting on people who have supported you? How many times until your word is actually worth a shit? How many times do you need to keep shoving cancer into your lip for you to finally realize you're going to kill yourself?

[natemcpherson]

You're right. I fucked up twice.

[MonsterMedic]

What happened - I used the tools for 270 days. Legitimately. That is not an exaggeration and people can challenge that or whatever - but I 100% used the tools. I posted 99.9% role and texted a group of guys every single day. Every day. I reached out and was honest when I felt weak. I helped out the newcomers. It worked.

I think as time went on, I found myself spending less time on the site, not posting roll until later in the day and got a bit lax. Ultimately, in the middle of February, I went on a deep emotional tailspin for a few days (unrelated to dip), didn't reach out to fellow quiters (to be honest, didn't think about dipping), but got very fatalistic in my world view. I wasn't suicidal, but for a few day span I gave up on life. I won't get into the specifics unless someone wants to really know and I can PM them. In that time period, I caved. The day before I caved, I went to bed I was shaking over this emotional tailspin (again, no thought of nicotine in my mind). The next day, I said fuck it. I had posted roll in the morning, texted guys as well. At around 1pm, the thought crossed my mind, and that was it. For the last four weeks, I've been dipping.

That's fine if you want to label me as a serial quitter. I'm on day one and not making excuses. What am I going to do differently? In terms of actions, I'm going to do what I did before. In terms of my mind - I must completely destroy the idea that I can get back again if I ever caved. I need to fully get into my bones NAFAR. That is the thing that got me fucked.

To the men of August 2014 and June 2014 - I am sorry.

I'm ready for the abuse. If it strengthens your quit - awesome.

What a load of fucking bullshit. You didn't even have the balls to respond to any of my fucking texts after you fucking caved. What kind of brother hood is that. I had your back since June of last year, texted with you after you shit all over our group and talked you through some dark times. Your inability to use the tools hurt my quit and for that fuck you!!!

You know why you will fail....you never have been able to hate the bitch, you worship her and put her on a pedestal which dooms your ass to failure. I asked you to text me each day why you hated her and you did for a while but even after I COULD TELL YOU STILL WANTED HER TO GIVE IT TO YOU UP YOUR ASS.

I am a serial quitter you fuck wad you are a serial caver and a waste of fucking bandwidth.

June 15 I'd suggest you don't waste your time here.

For you coddlers out there it doesn't work for a dude like this go rub someone else's balls.

My 270's totally sucked ass too BUT you gotta Fucking expect it to happen. As a matter of fact, I had damn near 3 fucking months of suck. I chose to not dip because my word is just that. My word. Without that I have nothing.

Enough of the ball coddling bullshit around here. You said it's ok if you are labeled a serial caver, well that's exactly what you are. You shit on June and Aug 14 already. Is it time to shit on another month?

You had the tools and you chose to shit all over them. I'm not buying what you are selling.

So you posted roll and THEN caved in the afternoon?

I could've been able to muster a little bit of respect for you if you hadn't promised not to use that day. Fucking ridiculous. A serial caver is exactly what you are and it's what you'll remain since you've proven that your word isn't worth a damn.

this pisses me off

"I'm ready for the abuse. If it strengthens your quit - awesome."

You should be banned. If you can cave and just come back multiple times what is to stop the next pussy who decides to throw cancer in their lip. Fuck this I vote for a BAN and you are really fucking lucky my vote doesn't count!

I know there's nothing I could say that you won't give me shit about - and you're right Jad.

I'm NOT trying to justify. I know I fucked up.

Again. You fucked up, again.

[natemcpherson]

What happened - I used the tools for 270 days. Legitimately. That is not an exaggeration and people can challenge that or whatever - but I 100% used the tools. I posted 99.9% role and texted a group of guys every single day. Every day. I reached out and was honest when I felt weak. I helped out the newcomers. It worked.

I think as time went on, I found myself spending less time on the site, not posting roll until later in the day and got a bit lax. Ultimately, in the middle of February, I went on a deep emotional tailspin for a few days (unrelated to dip), didn't reach out to fellow quiters (to be honest, didn't think about dipping), but got very fatalistic in my world view. I wasn't suicidal, but for a few day span I gave up on life. I won't get into the specifics unless someone wants to really know and I can PM them. In that time period, I caved. The day before I caved, I went to bed I was shaking over this emotional tailspin (again, no thought of nicotine in my mind). The next day, I said fuck it. I had posted roll in the morning, texted guys as well. At around 1pm, the thought crossed my mind, and that was it. For the last four weeks, I've been dipping.

That's fine if you want to label me as a serial quitter. I'm on day one and not making excuses. What am I going to do differently? In terms of actions, I'm going to do what I did before. In terms of my mind - I must completely destroy the idea that I can get back again if I ever caved. I need to fully get into my bones NAFAR. That is the thing that got me fucked.

To the men of August 2014 and June 2014 - I am sorry.

I'm ready for the abuse. If it strengthens your quit - awesome.

What a load of fucking bullshit. You didn't even have the balls to respond to any of my fucking texts after you fucking caved. What kind of brother hood is that. I had your back since June of last year, texted with you after you shit all over our group and talked you through some dark times. Your inability to use the tools hurt my quit and for that fuck you!!!

You know why you will fail....you never have been able to hate the bitch, you worship her and put her on a pedestal which dooms your ass to failure. I asked you to text me each day why you hated her and you did for a while but even after I COULD TELL YOU STILL WANTED HER TO GIVE IT TO YOU UP YOUR ASS.

I am a serial quitter you fuck wad you are a serial caver and a waste of fucking bandwidth.

June 15 I'd suggest you don't waste your time here.

For you coddlers out there it doesn't work for a dude like this go rub someone else's balls.

My 270's totally sucked ass too BUT you gotta Fucking expect it to happen. As a matter of fact, I had damn near 3 fucking months of suck. I chose to not dip because my word is just that. My word. Without that I have nothing.

Enough of the ball coddling bullshit around here. You said it's ok if you are labeled a serial caver, well that's exactly what you are. You shit on June and Aug 14 already. Is it time to shit on another month?

You had the tools and you chose to shit all over them. I'm not buying what you are selling.

So you posted roll and THEN caved in the afternoon?

I could've been able to muster a little bit of respect for you if you hadn't promised not to use that day. Fucking ridiculous. A serial caver is exactly what you are and it's what you'll remain since you've proven that your word isn't worth a damn.

this pisses me off

"I'm ready for the abuse. If it strengthens your quit - awesome."

You should be banned. If you can cave and just come back multiple times what is to stop the next pussy who decides to throw cancer in their lip. Fuck this I vote for a BAN and you are really fucking lucky my vote doesn't count!

I know there's nothing I could say that you won't give me shit about - and you're right Jad.

I'm NOT trying to justify. I know I fucked up.

[E&C's Dad]

What happened - I used the tools for 270 days. Legitimately. That is not an exaggeration and people can challenge that or whatever - but I 100% used the tools. I posted 99.9% role and texted a group of guys every single day. Every day. I reached out and was honest when I felt weak. I helped out the newcomers. It worked.

I think as time went on, I found myself spending less time on the site, not posting roll until later in the day and got a bit lax. Ultimately, in the middle of February, I went on a deep emotional tailspin for a few days (unrelated to dip), didn't reach out to fellow quiters (to be honest, didn't think about dipping), but got very fatalistic in my world view. I wasn't suicidal, but for a few day span I gave up on life. I won't get into the specifics unless someone wants to really know and I can PM them. In that time period, I caved. The day before I caved, I went to bed I was shaking over this emotional tailspin (again, no thought of nicotine in my mind). The next day, I said fuck it. I had posted roll in the morning, texted guys as well. At around 1pm, the thought crossed my mind, and that was it. For the last four weeks, I've been dipping.

That's fine if you want to label me as a serial quitter. I'm on day one and not making excuses. What am I going to do differently? In terms of actions, I'm going to do what I did before. In terms of my mind - I must completely destroy the idea that I can get back again if I ever caved. I need to fully get into my bones NAFAR. That is the thing that got me fucked.

To the men of August 2014 and June 2014 - I am sorry.

I'm ready for the abuse. If it strengthens your quit - awesome.

What a load of fucking bullshit. You didn't even have the balls to respond to any of my fucking texts after you fucking caved. What kind of brother hood is that. I had your back since June of last year, texted with you after you shit all over our group and talked you through some dark times. Your inability to use the tools hurt my quit and for that fuck you!!!

You know why you will fail....you never have been able to hate the bitch, you worship her and put her on a pedestal which dooms your ass to failure. I asked you to text me each day why you hated her and you did for a while but even after I COULD TELL YOU STILL WANTED HER TO GIVE IT TO YOU UP YOUR ASS.

I am a serial quitter you fuck wad you are a serial caver and a waste of fucking bandwidth.

June 15 I'd suggest you don't waste your time here.

For you coddlers out there it doesn't work for a dude like this go rub someone else's balls.

My 270's totally sucked ass too BUT you gotta Fucking expect it to happen. As a matter of fact, I had damn near 3 fucking months of suck. I chose to not dip because my word is just that. My word. Without that I have nothing.

Enough of the ball coddling bullshit around here. You said it's ok if you are labeled a serial caver, well that's exactly what you are. You shit on June and Aug 14 already. Is it time to shit on another month?

You had the tools and you chose to shit all over them. I'm not buying what you are selling.

So you posted roll and THEN caved in the afternoon?

I could've been able to muster a little bit of respect for you if you hadn't promised not to use that day. Fucking ridiculous. A serial caver is exactly what you are and it's what you'll remain since you've proven that your word isn't worth a damn.

this pisses me off

"I'm ready for the abuse. If it strengthens your quit - awesome."

You should be banned. If you can cave and just come back multiple times what is to stop the next pussy who decides to throw cancer in their lip. Fuck this I vote for a BAN and you are really fucking lucky my vote doesn't count!

[MonsterMedic]

What happened - I used the tools for 270 days. Legitimately. That is not an exaggeration and people can challenge that or whatever - but I 100% used the tools. I posted 99.9% role and texted a group of guys every single day. Every day. I reached out and was honest when I felt weak. I helped out the newcomers. It worked.

I think as time went on, I found myself spending less time on the site, not posting roll until later in the day and got a bit lax. Ultimately, in the middle of February, I went on a deep emotional tailspin for a few days (unrelated to dip), didn't reach out to fellow quiters (to be honest, didn't think about dipping), but got very fatalistic in my world view. I wasn't suicidal, but for a few day span I gave up on life. I won't get into the specifics unless someone wants to really know and I can PM them. In that time period, I caved. The day before I caved, I went to bed I was shaking over this emotional tailspin (again, no thought of nicotine in my mind). The next day, I said fuck it. I had posted roll in the morning, texted guys as well. At around 1pm, the thought crossed my mind, and that was it. For the last four weeks, I've been dipping.

That's fine if you want to label me as a serial quitter. I'm on day one and not making excuses. What am I going to do differently? In terms of actions, I'm going to do what I did before. In terms of my mind - I must completely destroy the idea that I can get back again if I ever caved. I need to fully get into my bones NAFAR. That is the thing that got me fucked.

To the men of August 2014 and June 2014 - I am sorry.

I'm ready for the abuse. If it strengthens your quit - awesome.

What a load of fucking bullshit. You didn't even have the balls to respond to any of my fucking texts after you fucking caved. What kind of brother hood is that. I had your back since June of last year, texted with you after you shit all over our group and talked you through some dark times. Your inability to use the tools hurt my quit and for that fuck you!!!

You know why you will fail....you never have been able to hate the bitch, you worship her and put her on a pedestal which dooms your ass to failure. I asked you to text me each day why you hated her and you did for a while but even after I COULD TELL YOU STILL WANTED HER TO GIVE IT TO YOU UP YOUR ASS.

I am a serial quitter you fuck wad you are a serial caver and a waste of fucking bandwidth.

June 15 I'd suggest you don't waste your time here.

For you coddlers out there it doesn't work for a dude like this go rub someone else's balls.

My 270's totally sucked ass too BUT you gotta Fucking expect it to happen. As a matter of fact, I had damn near 3 fucking months of suck. I chose to not dip because my word is just that. My word. Without that I have nothing.

Enough of the ball coddling bullshit around here. You said it's ok if you are labeled a serial caver, well that's exactly what you are. You shit on June and Aug 14 already. Is it time to shit on another month?

You had the tools and you chose to shit all over them. I'm not buying what you are selling.

So you posted roll and THEN caved in the afternoon?

I could've been able to muster a little bit of respect for you if you hadn't promised not to use that day. Fucking ridiculous. A serial caver is exactly what you are and it's what you'll remain since you've proven that your word isn't worth a damn.

[Raider]

What happened - I used the tools for 270 days. Legitimately. That is not an exaggeration and people can challenge that or whatever - but I 100% used the tools. I posted 99.9% role and texted a group of guys every single day. Every day. I reached out and was honest when I felt weak. I helped out the newcomers. It worked.

I think as time went on, I found myself spending less time on the site, not posting roll until later in the day and got a bit lax. Ultimately, in the middle of February, I went on a deep emotional tailspin for a few days (unrelated to dip), didn't reach out to fellow quiters (to be honest, didn't think about dipping), but got very fatalistic in my world view. I wasn't suicidal, but for a few day span I gave up on life. I won't get into the specifics unless someone wants to really know and I can PM them. In that time period, I caved. The day before I caved, I went to bed I was shaking over this emotional tailspin (again, no thought of nicotine in my mind). The next day, I said fuck it. I had posted roll in the morning, texted guys as well. At around 1pm, the thought crossed my mind, and that was it. For the last four weeks, I've been dipping.

That's fine if you want to label me as a serial quitter. I'm on day one and not making excuses. What am I going to do differently? In terms of actions, I'm going to do what I did before. In terms of my mind - I must completely destroy the idea that I can get back again if I ever caved. I need to fully get into my bones NAFAR. That is the thing that got me fucked.

To the men of August 2014 and June 2014 - I am sorry.

I'm ready for the abuse. If it strengthens your quit - awesome.

What a load of fucking bullshit. You didn't even have the balls to respond to any of my fucking texts after you fucking caved. What kind of brother hood is that. I had your back since June of last year, texted with you after you shit all over our group and talked you through some dark times. Your inability to use the tools hurt my quit and for that fuck you!!!

You know why you will fail....you never have been able to hate the bitch, you worship her and put her on a pedestal which dooms your ass to failure. I asked you to text me each day why you hated her and you did for a while but even after I COULD TELL YOU STILL WANTED HER TO GIVE IT TO YOU UP YOUR ASS.

I am a serial quitter you fuck wad you are a serial caver and a waste of fucking bandwidth.

June 15 I'd suggest you don't waste your time here.

For you coddlers out there it doesn't work for a dude like this go rub someone else's balls.

My 270's totally sucked ass too BUT you gotta Fucking expect it to happen. As a matter of fact, I had damn near 3 fucking months of suck. I chose to not dip because my word is just that. My word. Without that I have nothing.

Enough of the ball coddling bullshit around here. You said it's ok if you are labeled a serial caver, well that's exactly what you are. You shit on June and Aug 14 already. Is it time to shit on another month?

You had the tools and you chose to shit all over them. I'm not buying what you are selling.

[E&C's Dad]

What happened - I used the tools for 270 days. Legitimately. That is not an exaggeration and people can challenge that or whatever - but I 100% used the tools. I posted 99.9% role and texted a group of guys every single day. Every day. I reached out and was honest when I felt weak. I helped out the newcomers. It worked.

I think as time went on, I found myself spending less time on the site, not posting roll until later in the day and got a bit lax. Ultimately, in the middle of February, I went on a deep emotional tailspin for a few days (unrelated to dip), didn't reach out to fellow quiters (to be honest, didn't think about dipping), but got very fatalistic in my world view. I wasn't suicidal, but for a few day span I gave up on life. I won't get into the specifics unless someone wants to really know and I can PM them. In that time period, I caved. The day before I caved, I went to bed I was shaking over this emotional tailspin (again, no thought of nicotine in my mind). The next day, I said fuck it. I had posted roll in the morning, texted guys as well. At around 1pm, the thought crossed my mind, and that was it. For the last four weeks, I've been dipping.

That's fine if you want to label me as a serial quitter. I'm on day one and not making excuses. What am I going to do differently? In terms of actions, I'm going to do what I did before. In terms of my mind - I must completely destroy the idea that I can get back again if I ever caved. I need to fully get into my bones NAFAR. That is the thing that got me fucked.

To the men of August 2014 and June 2014 - I am sorry.

I'm ready for the abuse. If it strengthens your quit - awesome.

What a load of fucking bullshit. You didn't even have the balls to respond to any of my fucking texts after you fucking caved. What kind of brother hood is that. I had your back since June of last year, texted with you after you shit all over our group and talked you through some dark times. Your inability to use the tools hurt my quit and for that fuck you!!!

You know why you will fail....you never have been able to hate the bitch, you worship her and put her on a pedestal which dooms your ass to failure. I asked you to text me each day why you hated her and you did for a while but even after I COULD TELL YOU STILL WANTED HER TO GIVE IT TO YOU UP YOUR ASS.

I am a serial quitter you fuck wad you are a serial caver and a waste of fucking bandwidth.

June 15 I'd suggest you don't waste your time here.

For you coddlers out there it doesn't work for a dude like this go rub someone else's balls.

[natemcpherson]

What happened - I used the tools for 270 days. Legitimately. That is not an exaggeration and people can challenge that or whatever - but I 100% used the tools. I posted 99.9% role and texted a group of guys every single day. Every day. I reached out and was honest when I felt weak. I helped out the newcomers. It worked.

I think as time went on, I found myself spending less time on the site, not posting roll until later in the day and got a bit lax. Ultimately, in the middle of February, I went on a deep emotional tailspin for a few days (unrelated to dip), didn't reach out to fellow quiters (to be honest, didn't think about dipping), but got very fatalistic in my world view. I wasn't suicidal, but for a few day span I gave up on life. I won't get into the specifics unless someone wants to really know and I can PM them. In that time period, I caved. The day before I caved, I went to bed I was shaking over this emotional tailspin (again, no thought of nicotine in my mind). The next day, I said fuck it. I had posted roll in the morning, texted guys as well. At around 1pm, the thought crossed my mind, and that was it. For the last four weeks, I've been dipping.

That's fine if you want to label me as a serial quitter. I'm on day one and not making excuses. What am I going to do differently? In terms of actions, I'm going to do what I did before. In terms of my mind - I must completely destroy the idea that I can get back again if I ever caved. I need to fully get into my bones NAFAR. That is the thing that got me fucked.

To the men of August 2014 and June 2014 - I am sorry.

I'm ready for the abuse. If it strengthens your quit - awesome.

[worktowin]

What... the... FUCK!?!?!?

I'll admit... you're going to get the brunt of something that's been bubbling up inside of me for a while. Not 100% of it is your fault per se, but you need to hear it cause you're part of it.

There are FAR too many people around these hallowed halls lately with this "better luck next time" attitude. Plain and simple, that doesn't cut it at KillTheCan.org. Its that bad ass attitude that has made us the best quit site on the web and the reason we're getting ready to crack 20,000 members.

I'm glad your wife was crying. I'm glad she doesn't think you can do it. I'm glad you've broken that trust with her and with us.

I'm glad because it's going to make it that much harder for you to succeed here.

However, what's I'm MOST glad about is that you seem to recognize how colossal of a fuck up you just completed. You also seem to realize what led you down a path back toward your addiction and you SEEM to be doing things to remedy that. Good on you. In your cave admission speech, you talk about how you stopped reaching out to your quit brothers and stopped texting. Send me a PM and you'll have my number as another number in your quit arsenal.

You made me go back and re-read this today - thank you for that. You just lit a fire under ol Chewie's ass.

http://blog.killthecan.org/2013/04/chew ... ame-creed/

ChewieÂ’s Hall Of Fame Creed
I promise to remember the first 2 weeks of my quitÂ…
I promise to remember WHY I quit in the first placeÂ…
I promise to take things a day at a timeÂ…
I promise to recognize little successesÂ…
I promise to post roll on a regular basisÂ…
I promise to recognize those before meÂ…
I promise to recognize that I have great friends on KillTheCan.orgÂ…
I promise to REMEMBER why those people are my friend and what brought us togetherÂ…
I promise to have a way to get a hold of a brother and a way for others to get ahold of me (email, cell phone, etc.)
I promise that I wonÂ’t cave without getting permission from a quit brotherÂ…
I promise to recognize that there will always be a reason NOT to dipÂ…
I promise to be there for a brother in needÂ…
I promise that I wonÂ’t forget all IÂ’ve gone through to get to where I am today.

The POWER of KillTheCan.org is that we stand together. Don't be the guy that weakens the system by bringing weakness into the fold. Don't be the guy that does great time and time again through 70 days of quit only to come back and post another day 1.

Don't be that guy. I'll be waiting for your PM.

chewie

Bump from the Jedi quitter.

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Wow. What crappy reading this thread is. Tons of guys reachin out and offering help just to have their heads pooped on by a serial caver. Does it ever stop with these serial cavers?